Hi I'm back, sorry it took me so long to update. I had a bit of writers block. Please review and let me know what you think.
While in the hospital, I had a lot of time to think. I thought about the day I went to her funeral. I blamed myself because I heard her call for help over the radio but I wasn't fast enough to save her. By the time I got there she was almost gone. She died in my arms.
Flashback
I was one of the last people to go up to the casket. It was a closed casket because of how disfigured she was. My Abba thought that it would be better not to show everyone my mistake. He didn't even care that she was dead, to him she was just another agent that he had lost, not his daughter.
Present Day
I was sitting there crying when Tony came in followed by Ducky. He was saying that Ducky finally had time to come see me, when he noticed that I was crying. Tony asked what was wrong. I knew that I couldn't tell him the truth. So I just told him that I was just wishing that my dad had come because it felt like he didn't care. When I saw the look of anger that flashed across Tony's face, I could tell that he still hadn't forgiven my father for not trying to rescue me when I had been captured. That's when I realized just how much he cared about me, and I felt sorry for lying to him but it was for his own good. I knew that if I told him who had shot me he would try to find them and end up getting killed in the process.
Then I took the time to look at Ducky and he had this look of confusion on his face and then when he saw me looking he smiled. We spent the next half hour or so discussing anything we could think of that didn't deal with work. Just as they were about to leave he asked Tony to let him talk to me alone. Tony said sure and walked out of the room. Then Ducky walked over to me and said he knew I wasn't crying over my dad and that something else was going on. He asked me what it was and I said that I couldn't tell him anything. Then I asked him to do me a favor. He said sure and asked what it was. I gave him an envelope and a letter to go with it. I told him not to open the letter or the envelope but to get both of them to Abbey and tell her to read the letter before she opens the envelope. I thanked him and then I was alone again.