Chapter 4
Sian Pov
I'm standing under the shower just enjoying the feeling of the water cascading down my body, I smile as my thoughts wander back to the alleyway in the market with Tong, I shiver under the warm water as I remember the way he kissed me and the feel of his touch as his hands wandered down my body, as I think of his kiss I also start to think of my dream and I can't help but wander if he's as good as that or better, I can say that both times he's kissed me have been so much better than the dream, as I'm thinking about the dream and his touch I start to feel my lady part coming to life, shit, I can't be aroused during this date it will drive me crazy, especially if he kisses me, I decide to let my hands wander down and start to slowly rub my clit, I've pleasured myself before and know how I like it, after a few seconds of teasing my clit I move my hand down to my entrance and start to rub myself, I gently insert a finger and massage myself, my moans are getting louder as I feel myself getting close, to help me along I think about his hands, his kiss, his touch and imagine that he's standing in front of doing this, I scream his name as I cum.
I suddenly hear a crash coming form the bedroom and grab a towel to cover myself, I step out of the bathroom and look around the bedroom, I gasp with anger and embarrassment as I meet a familiar pair of brown eyes, OH HELL NO, he looks ashamed and I instantly know he was listening to me.
"Tong, how did you get in here" I ask him making sure to let my anger show in my voice, I feel violated, I never thought he would do anything like this to me, especially when its only our first date.
"I arrived early, I had nothing else to do so I thought I could keep you company while you got ready, I stood outside knocking on the door for five minutes, I didn't realize you would still be in the shower, one of the hotel maids let me in when I explained I was a friend" he explains
"ok, that explains why you're in here, but not why you listened to a very intimate moment that I was having" I tell him and I can't hide the hurt in my voice.
"I'm sorry, I didn't realise you were in the shower so I came through here looking for you, and that's when I heard you, I was about to go back into the front area when I heard you moan my name I froze in shock because I didn't think I meant anything like that to you yet, when I heard the shower stop running I turned to walk out so you wouldn't catch me, and knocked over the table, then the rest you know" he explains
He keeps his eyes on the floor and refuses to look me in the eye.
"I understand that but if it had of been reversed I would've forced myself to walk into another room where I couldn't hear you, but you didn't you stood there and listened to me and you violated my privacy" I blush and also look at the floor embarrassed and ashamed a tear slips from my eye and slips down my cheek.
I don't hear him approach me until I feel his hand swiping the tear away, he tilts my head up so I have to look him in the eye, they are filled with fear and sadness, he caresses my cheek and I lean my head into his hand, my eyes flutter closed as I continue to enjoy his touch I feel his lips lightly brush mine but they disappear before they fully press into mine, I open my eyes to be met by his which seem to be asking permission, I wrap my free arm that isn't holding up my towel around his neck and pull him down so his lips meet mine, he deepens the kiss and out of reaction I put my other arm around his neck and my towel drops to the floor leaving me naked in front of him, I pull away and raise my arms to cover my chest and put my eyes to the floor, then I remember my lower body and cross my legs, I keep my eyes fixated on my towel, he bends down and picks it up then wraps it around my body.
"thank you" I say
"you're beautiful and you don't need to be ashamed in front of me" he tells me
"then why cover me back up" I ask him
"because you looked so vulnerable and scared which hurts me because I would never hurt you" he leans down and pecks my lips again, then turns to walk out the room.
"what are you doing" I ask him
"well I'm guessing you're not going to dinner in a bath towel so I was going into the front room to give you privacy to get dressed" he explains
"oh right, um thanks, I'll see you in a minute" I say
"hey, does this mean I'm forgiven for earlier" he asks
"yeah, just try not to let it happen again, at least not until we're serious and further along" I say
He nods and walks out I drop my towel and start to get dressed.
I curse as the exact same thing happens as earlier with my zipper of the dress caught in fabric, all the dresses I wear are the same just in different colours, I'm wearing a dark red dress, and planning on letting my hair fall freely and loose tonight, I have no choice since I was wearing the matching ribbon the night I met Tong in the changing room and I lost it, it must've came loose from my hair, I hear a knock on the door and know its Tong.
"need some help" I hear him ask
"yeah please" I reply
he comes in and I feel him place his hands on top of mine where the zipper is stuck, I let it go so he can tug it free from the fabric, I feel his hands travel up my spine as he slowly pulls the zipper up securing my dress, I shiver at his touch and I feel desire pool in my belly, clearly my earlier activities in the shower have done nothing to sate me, he lets his hands travel over my shoulders, and pulls me back against him, I move my head to the side exposing my neck to him and he takes full advantage, he lightly kisses up my neck, they are small and gentle at first but soon become more heated and he starts to gently suck on my neck, I can't help but groan and he starts to run his tongue along my neck.
"tong I think we need to stop, its getting to heated and its moving too fast, I'm not ready" I say
As soon as I say I'm not ready he stops and wraps his arms around me, just holding me
"ok baby, I'll never rush you into something you're not ready for" he reassures me.
"thank you, and we'll miss our dinner reservation" I tell him
"oh yeah I kind of forgot about that" he chuckles
"just let me brush my hair and I'll be ready ok" I tell him
"how are you doing your hair" he ask
I move to my bag and grab my hair brush, then start to undo my hair tie that's holding my hair in a bun, I wanted to keep it dry in the shower.
"well the matching ribbon for this dress, you've seen before if you think back" I reply.
"oh yeah I knew I recognised the dress, you had it on with the matching red ribbon when we first met at the match with Sloan" he remembers.
"well, you didn't by any chance notice if it was loose because when I got back here that night I went to take it out and it wasn't there so I've lost it, it was my favourite one, I'd be grateful if you knew where it was" I ask him
"no sorry strawberry I don't know where it is" he says apologetically
"was it still in my hair when I left your changing room" I ask him
"I think so, I'm sure I seen it shine when the corridor light hit it" he says
"ok, its only a ribbon I suppose, I can get a new one, I'll have to leave my hair down, I don't have another ribbon to match the dress" I explain to him
"I'm kind of glad your hairs nice, I would like to see it all down especially since its wavy" he says sweetly.
I pull my hair to the side, and start to drag the brush through my hair, I wince with every stroke as my hair is really knotted, I think its from the heat and sweat, he walks up to me and holds his hand out, I give him a puzzled look not knowing what he wants.
"I hate seeing you in pain, may I, I promise to be gentle" he asks
I smile at him and hand the brush, I turn around and sit on the edge of the bed, so my back is to him giving him full access to my hair, I feel the bed dip as he sits behind me, he's so close I can feel his breath on my neck and it gives me butterflies in a good way, he starts to section of my hair into tiny bits and brushes each one gently and slowly, he takes it one bit at a time making sure to get all the tugs out but also being careful not to hurt me, once all the tugs are all out he starts to glide the brush from the top of my scalp all the way down to the ends of my hair, he does this for an extra ten minutes and I tip my head back, it feels heavenly, I try to muffle my groan as it seems to turn him on when he hears me groan, but of course I fail miserably, he stops brushing my hair and starts nuzzling my neck.
"can I ask you something in trust that you'll answer me truthfully" I ask him.
"sure baby girl" he says
I can't help my smile, I love it when he calls me by a pet name because they are always so sweet.
"does it turn you on when I groan, because the last couple times I have when we've kissed its fuelled you, and earlier when you kissed my neck I groaned and it fuelled you again, its ok I don't mind I was just curious, I won't get angry at you if it does" I ask him
He takes a moment to answer, and it doesn't surprise me with what he say's
"yes, it just sounds so good and it also means that you're enjoying what I'm doing" he explains.
I blush scarlet as I think of another question
"does it give you an erection" I ask quietly trying to hide the embarrassment in my voice.
"you're not the best actor in the world baby girl, I can hear the embarrassment in your voice, don't be embarrassed to ask me those types of things or anything ok, and yes I get an erection at every thing you do to be honest, it's like he's been hibernating for the last five years and then suddenly woke up when you came into my dressing room" he say's
"wait, are you saying you haven't had sex in five years" I ask shocked
I feel him nod his head against my neck, I squirm when I feel his breath tickling me.
"we should probably get going, we don't want to miss dinner" I say
He stands up and hold out his hand, I take it and he leads me through the hotel room as we get to the front door I remember I'm bare foot, I burst into fits of laughter at what I nearly did, Tong turns to me giving me an amused look and also a puzzled one, I raise my leg so his attention goes to my feet, he chuckles realising what's making me laugh.
"I would wear flat shoes if you have them, we're going to the sticks, that's were my favourite place in all of Thailand is and I was hoping to share it with you" he explains
I know it's stupid to go to the sticks with a man you don't know, but I can't say no to his hopeful eyes.
"ok, give me a sec" I rush back into my bedroom and pull out a pair of red ballerina pumps to match my dress, I put them on then run back through to the front room, I see him still waiting for me and I can't resist he looks lonely so I launch myself into his arms and bury head in his neck, he stands there shocked for a second then wraps his arms around me and pulls me closer to him, after a second I pull away and place a kiss on his cheek.
"not that I didn't enjoy holding you, but what was that for" he asks
"you just looked lonely standing here all by yourself, so I wanted to cheer you up, did I succeed" I ask sweetly smiling at him.
"yeah baby, I feel a lot better just having you beside me, now let us go and eat I'm starving" he say's rubbing his stomach to empathise his point, I giggle at him then stop when my stomach grumbles, we laugh at each other and hold hands as we walk out the door and down the hallway to the elevator.
We're sitting at our table in the small restaurant that Tong drove us to, I learned something new about him, he drives, I had no idea, he doesn't look like the driving type, anyway we're looking at the menu's but unfortunately for me it's all in Thai and I can't read or understand a word of it, hell I can't even pronounce any of them, I look at Tong hoping he'll realise my confusion and help, he laughs lightly when he notices my scared look.
"you look like a damsel in distress" he chuckles
"a very confused damsel in distress, and I was hoping that my knight in shining army would save me from dying of hunger" I reply
He stands up and comes over to kneel beside me. He grabs one of my hands and laces our fingers together, with his other hand he starts to point at the different meals on the menu explaining what they are and what's in them, I quickly discover that most of them are curries, he points to another one and I hear my favourite curry that I didn't think they would sell.
"chicken korma, its got a little bit of coconut in it, obviously not surprising this is Thailand after all" he explains his thumb is rubbing my hand and it feels really good.
"I like korma, we have that in America, it doesn't have coconut in though" I say
"it'll taste a little sweeter but should basically taste the same, you want the korma then" he asks, I nod my head and he goes to stand up, I pull him back down and he gives me a puzzled look, I place a kiss on his lips, he pulls me closer wrapping his hand around my neck holding me in place and he deepens the kiss, our tongues meet and start to dance together, we hear a throat clear behind us, and we break apart to see the waiter with our wine.
Tong stands up and starts to speak to the waiter in Thai, after a few seconds of speaking to each other the waiter walks away still holding our wine and tong grabs my hand again saying we have to follow him, he takes us to the back, where there are private booths with curtains to add to the privacy, we follow the waiter to a free one for us, we sit down and tong tells the waiter what we want to eat, he pours our wine into glasses then walks away, he leaves the bottle so we can top up our glasses when we want, I pull the curtains closed and take him by surprise by straddling his lap instead of sitting on the leather seats, I press my lips to his and we make out until dinner arrives.
After dinner, we made out again until pudding arrived, which was a delicious slice of coconut cake, and we are currently driving in to the sticks, he's starting to get nervous and fidget while he's driving, this starts making me nervous as I know it means he's going to reveal why he crippled Eric Sloan and I'm worried it's going to bad, he suddenly stops driving and I look around to see where we are, we're parked in front of some stone steps, I can't see up to were they lead as its too high.
"now I understand why I had to wear flat shoes" I say in a joking voice, he smiles but its forced.
"hey what ever you need to tell me it can't be that bad, can it" I ask him
"I guess only you can decide that" he mumbles
I undo my seat belt and reach over to cup his face in my hands, I press my lips to his, he immediately deepens it and I can feel he's pouring everything into, his heart, his love and his passion, I feel he's savouring it like it might be our last, I feel something wet on my hand and I know its tears as my hands are still on his face, I move to straddle him again, and break away from his lips to start kissing below each of his eyes, soon the tears are replaced by moans and I now understand why my moaning turns him on, it feels good to know he's enjoying me touching him and showing him affection, I pull away and lock our eyes
"no matter how bad it is I promise I will never leave you, I think I'm falling for you Tong" I say.
He pulls me back down and kisses me again, we kiss for a few seconds but then I pull away.
"come on, I'm dying to see your favourite place in Thailand" I say as I get of his lap and hop out of the car, he doesn't move so I walk round to the drivers side and open the door holding my hand out him.
"I trust you, I want to know, please come and tell me" I ask him, he takes my hand and gets out the car, he shuts the door and locks the car, I follow him up the steps and gasp when we reach the top, we're standing in the midst of beautiful statues that are all lined up on either side of a long pathway.
"tong were are we" I ask amazed
"its an old Buddhist training ground, I found it when I was out here running, its my favourite place because its peaceful and happy, and for a while I can forget about my horrible life" he say's as he starts to lead me down the path towards a bench, we sit down and he pauses for a second and I wait patiently for him to start in his own time.
"five years ago, I was living a happy life with my family, then my dad got a job, I can't remember where or what he had to do, but I do remember that first night he came home afterwards and my mother asked him how it went, I remember he said that he'd met his new boss and found out his name, Freddie Li, he said he did a lot of different work, I had always loved sports, I made sure I was fit, I worked out everyday ate healthy food, my dream was to be a kick boxer, and that just happened to be one of Li's jobs, he managed kick boxers, so when my dad told him about me, he offered to meet with me and maybe manage me, so I agreed, for the first few weeks everything was fine, I was getting small fights, but it was enough I was still doing my dream job, then one night I got a title match, I was in my changing room warming up when Li walked in, he told me to cripple the champion and make sure he never walked again, I refused, so he said it was fine I didn't have to if I didn't want to, and I stupidly believed him, I won the match without crippling my opponent and I was the new champion of Thailand, I went home and had a celebration dinner with my family, halfway through dinner there was a knock on the door, my dad went to answer it, when he returned Freddie Li was with him along with group of other men, he said they were business partners and they all wanted to celebrate with us, mum as usual had made too much so there was plenty to go around, after dinner Li pulled me aside and said he wanted to talk to me about the fight, he said he would let my refusal go this once, but the next time he ordered me to do something and I said no that I would be punished, I said I would never hurt or permanently damage someone, so he said that clearly I needed to be shown who was boss, the next thing I knew the house was filled with banging and one by one I watched each member of my family, mum, dad, brothers, sisters, aunts and uncles all drop to the floor with bullets in their bodies, once the guns stopped I went around checking every single one but they were all gone, all of them killed straight away, the so called business partners were all standing there each with a gun in their hand, I turned to see one pointed right at my head, Freddie Li dug his gun into my temple, and said that the next time I refused him, I would join them, they then turned and left the house, I heard the door slam, their cars drive away, I stood there watching over my family they were all dead, I sobbed on the floor for hours, when I finally managed to calm down I knew I couldn't leave them there, I closed all their eyes and carefully carried them all into the back garden where I spent the remainder of the day digging each of them a grave, I said a prayer for each one, ever since then I haven't let anyone in, or loved anyone, that's why I haven't been intimate in five years, the exact same time they passed, I didn't want to give him more leverage against me or to risk an innocent girls life, but then I met you and I tried to stay away so I wouldn't put you in danger but I couldn't and I'm sorry, I'm so sorry" he starts to sob uncontrollably
I pull him into arms and just let him sob knowing its what he needs.
"its ok baby, no matter how dangerous it is, I will never leave you, we'll stay hidden he doesn't have to know about us, except my parents because they'd probably catch us anyway since they're right next door but you can trust them I promise, I'll always be there for you, because I'm in love with you, I love you Tong Po" I tell him, his sobs are bringing tears to my eyes as I hear the pain in them, he hides behind walls, but in truth he is broken and vulnerable.
"Shhhhhh, its ok baby I'm here, I'm here and I love you so much" I reassure him.
"I…..I…love…you…to" he stutters out between sobs I hold him tighter, and let him sob into my neck, I don't care how long it takes him to calm down, he can take all night if he needs, I'll stay with him until he's calm.
Because I love him.