Chapter 21
Sian pov
The taxi parks in front of the house and we get out, My mother pays while Sean and I go to the trunk to get our luggage, Sean grabs his own luggage and I grab mine, we take it up the front door and Sean unlocks it, we step inside and put our luggage on the floor, then we go back to Tongs and mums things, once everything is in the house mum and Sean help me upstairs to my room with tongs and my things, then they leave me to unpack knowing I want to be alone, I start to unpack my things first and then once I'm finished decide to see what I can fit into my wardrobe belonging to tong, I'm shocked to see that I have room for everything, including a spare drawer for his underwear.
Since it's late at night I decide to go to bed, my eyes are sore from crying and my heart aches for tong, I start to look for some sleep wear but then see one of tong's shirts, I pull it out and inhale his cologne, I strip down and put the shirt on deciding I want to wear it so I'm close to him, I slip in to bed and manage to fall asleep.
Over the next couple of days both my parents try to get me to eat, but I just want to be left to sleep, turns out having a broken heart is exhausting, I miss him so much, I know it's stupid because we're still together and he's coming back, but what if something happens and he can't come back, I shake that thought away and inhale his shirt, the smell of his cologne is fading so I get up and spray more on the shirt, I haven't been showering either.
I go back to bed and once again fall asleep, the next morning the sun is bright and wakes me, I roll over to see my curtains are open and there's breakfast on my nightstand, I sit up and eye the food, I haven't felt like eating but now that the smell is entering my nose my stomach grumbles and my mouth waters, I sit the tray on my lap and demolish everything on my plate, this is to be my new routine, eat, drink, toilet and sleep, sleep was to be the thing I did most.
My parents are happy that I'm eating and respect my wishes to be alone, I'm thankful to them for it, every time I sleep, I wrap my arms around myself and imagine that tong is holding me.
One month later.
It's been a month since I left Thailand and parted ways with tong, I miss him so much and wish I could see him again if only for a few seconds, I am slightly worried that it's been a whole month and we haven't heard anything, but I try to keep my hopes up that he's ok and coming home soon.
It's the early hours of the morning, and even though it's been a month I haven't managed to break from my zombie like state, I still spend my time in bed wearing the same shirt belonging to tong that I put on the night we got home, yes I know, I'm gross I haven't showered or changed my clothes in a month, but put yourself in my shoes, imagine the one person you love the most has to go away for a really long time and you don't see or hear anything from them, would you have the energy to shower or do anything.
I think my body is trying to tell me I can't sleep anymore, and that's why I'm awake just now, the exhaustion is starting to wear of and I can't sleep, I stare at my ceiling and imagine tong's brown eyes are looking back at me, god I miss him.
All of a sudden my thoughts are broken by someone banging on the front door, I get up and quietly sneak downstairs to see who it is without them hearing me, I get to the front door and about to look through the peephole when I hear a familiar voice.
"Sian you have to let us in, we need your help" Kurt says.
I open the door straight away and am greeted by two very tired looking men, and a semiconscious man in the middle of them, they are all bruised and bleeding, I recognise the two men on the end as Kurt and Taylor, a lump gathers in my throat as I know that can only mean the semiconscious man in the middle is tong.
"What happened to you all" I ask as I move aside to let them in.
They follow me down the hall and into the kitchen, I switch on the light and they gently lower tong onto one of the seats, I hear footsteps moving upstairs and know that my parents are up and are most likely preparing to come down and see what the commotion is, the two boys sit down in the other chairs and pull mine up beside tong, he lying back against the chair and is not out cold, I check him over to see numerous cuts and bruises all over his face and body.
I get up and go to the kitchen cupboard and pull out a small bowl, taking it to the sink I fill it with lukewarm water and grab a cloth, I return to tong and dipping the cloth into the water gently start to clean him up, I'm not a medic but I do know his wounds aren't deep and won't cause any problems.
"He'll be ok, but he'll be sore and tired for a couple of days, when did you guys get here" I ask referring to the country
"about 2 and a half three weeks ago, we tracked Li to here and found him and a group of his goons hiding in a warehouse with guns, we rushed in thinking we could handle it, we didn't know they had the guns until we got in, we got separated but Taylor and I managed to get out, we met back up at the meeting place we had decided on earlier, we waited for hours for tong to show up, when he didn't we knew he hadn't made it out, at first we thought he was dead, and we're ashamed to admit that we weren't going to go back for him, but then we thought that maybe Li would want to make him suffer first before he killed him and there might be a chance we could get there before that happened and so we made a new plan to get in and get him out" both boys take in turns explaining what happened as I clean tongs wounds.
"Do you know what they did to him" I hear my mother ask, and I look up to see they are both standing in the doorway listening.
"No but we do know they must have been torturing him, because he was already like that when we got there, our wounds are from the first time we got in, we managed to get in and get him out without them realising, they were to busy planning when they should leave since we had found them again" Kurt explains.
"Ok, do you want anything to eat boys" my mother asks as she walks towards me, she kneels down to check on tong.
"His wounds aren't serious, good thinking cleaning them Sian, once that's done we should put him to bed and let him rest" she says and I agree.
"We don't want to trouble you, it's early and you all must be tired" Taylor says.
"So must you be, that's why I insist that you both stay the night and then have breakfast in the morning before you continue your search" Sean says.
The boys agree and they also agree that they will make a plan to go back to the warehouse to see if Li is still there and if not they will search for clues on where he went, I can't help but wonder how they are able to track Li the way they are, I voice this and Taylor smiles.
"I used to be in the army, I was apart of the Special Forces" he answers.
"So you were trained to do this type of thing" I ask him.
"Yes I was" he says.
"That puts my mind at rest, at least there's someone who knows what he's doing around to help" I say.
"Tong and I agreed with that" Kurt says chuckling.
"I've done all I can with his wounds, the bleedings stopped, all we can do now is let him rest" I say.
"Ok we'll help you get him upstairs" the two boys say and standing they come to stand on either side of tong.
They gently lift him and I expect him to wake from the movement but he stays out cold, I lead back into the hallway and up the stairs to my room, I'm now grateful that I have a double bed, I pull back the covers and they gently lay tong down.
"He'll probably be out for the rest of the night" Kurt says and I agree.
"Just be careful, we don't know if he's even realised he's out of there, if he wakes up and realises his arms are free and thinks he's still there he might lash out" Taylor warns me.
"Ok I'll be careful" I say.
"Just give us a shout if anything like that happens alright" Kurt says and again I agree.
They say goodnight and leave the room, I hear Sean showing them to the guest we have for when friends visit and again I'm grateful that we have it and it has to single beds along with a double bed, our house is quite big with three bedrooms, and they all have their own bathroom as well as well in the hall for visitors and one downstairs as well, so to say we live comfortably is an understatement, I sit down on the huge cuddle chair I have in the corner of my room and think about what to do, after what Kurt and Taylor said I don't know if it's a good idea to sleep beside him, in case he wakes up and panics, decided against it I get up and grab the spare duvet cover from the top shelf in my wardrobe, lying on the cuddle chair I pull the cover over me and drift into sleep.
I'm awoken by the sound of someone calling out, I sit up to see tong tossing and turning on the bed, he must be having a nightmare, without thinking I rush over to wake him.
I gently shake him to wake him up and he bolts upright and slaps me across the face, my cheeks stings and I'm pretty sure that's going to bruise, I reach across to switch on the lamp and turn his face towards me, he fights me and tries to push me away, hoping he'll recognise my voice I speak.
"Tong easy it's ok, it's me Sian, calm down you're safe now" I say as I try to soothe him, his head snaps towards me and his face softens.
"Hey handsome, its ok, Kurt and Taylor got you out, you're not at the warehouse any more, you're at my house" I say.
He looks around the room finally taking in his surroundings then looks back to me, I feel his body tense when his eyes fall on my cheek, I'd imagine its pretty red by now, he places his hand on it and I wince from the pain.
"Sian, I didn't know I thought they had come back to torture me again I felt my hands were free and lashed out, I'm so sorry baby, I didn't want to hurt you" he explains.
"It's ok baby, I know you didn't mean and I know you would never deliberately hurt me" I tell him.
His eyes are still half closed and I know he's still exhausted.
"We'll talk in the morning you should lie back down and try to sleep some more" I tell him.
"Will you sleep with me" he asks.
"Of course, I was only on the chair because I didn't know how you would react when you woke up if you didn't know where you were, but now that you know it's ok" I say.
He moves over so I can climb in beside him, as he goes to cuddle me I notice how close to me he is and I suddenly pull away, my insecurities surface but this time they have a good reason, I haven't showered since before I left Thailand, I stink and I can't let him know that.
"What's wrong baby" he asks me slightly hurt that I pulled away from him.
"I haven't showered since we last saw each other, I just didn't have the energy" I explain.
"It's ok neither have I, I haven't had the chance, nice shirt by the way" he smirks sleepily at me, I blush when I remember what I'm wearing.
Then the blush soon turns to horror when I remember this was all I was wearing when Kurt and Taylor got here.
"What's up" he asks.
"I didn't change when Kurt and Taylor got here, I completely forgot and was wearing this, I was just more worried about tending to your wounds, I'm sorry, my body is for your eyes only" I say.
"It's ok, I understand, it's not like you cheated on me, you were just slightly exposed in front of them" he says.
"I don't have underwear on" I add.
"OK not very comfortable about that, but again you were worried about and forgot" he says and kisses me on cheek.
We lie down and snuggle together, the pain in my heart is gone and I feel complete.
"If I feel better tomorrow how about we have a shower together tomorrow" he says.
"Ok, I really missed you" I say.
"I missed you to baby, I love you strawberry" he says.
"I love you to" I say and we fall asleep.
The next morning I'm awakened by noticing tong isn't beside me, I reach out for him but only find the bed sheet, I sit up and looking under the door to my bathroom I can see the light shining under the crack in the door, I look at the clock at it reads half nine in the morning, I lay back to relax for a minute then hear the toilet, the door opens and tong walks out.
"Morning handsome" I greet him.
"Morning strawberry" he greets me back.
He sits beside me and kisses me on my sore cheek, it still hurts a bit.
"Do you still want to shower with me" he asks.
"Of course I do, just let me get clean clothes" I say and get out of bed.
Grabbing clean clothes I head into the bathroom to see a pile of clothes belonging to tong already.
"Did you find your things ok" I ask him.
"Yeah, I had more trouble trying not to wake you" he says smiling.
"I never even heard you" I say.
We strip of and get in the shower, the hot water feels good and soothes my stiff muscles and bones, I turn around to face tong and he slowly steps under the shower, he hisses in pain when the hot water makes contact with the cuts and bruises on his skin.
"Are you ok" I ask him worried.
"Yeah just a bit sore" he answers.
"You will be for a couple of days" I tell him.
He agrees and we start to wash, I hear him hiss frequently when the shampoo and body wash touches his cuts, I wish I could take his pain away but I can't, he showers as quick as he can so the pain is over quickly, he finishes before me and decided I'm not washing myself well enough.
"Baby are you sure, I don't want you to go through any more pain than you have to" I say.
"It's ok I can handle it" he says and starts washing my body, it feels nice and I tip my head back and moan.
Once he decided I'm clean enough he kisses me on the lips, it gets heated and we attempt to make love, but we end up having to stop because he's too sore, I don't mind though I understand.
By the time we get dressed and exit the bathroom the smell of breakfast is floating around the room, we go down stairs to find everyone else is up, the two boys are sitting at the table discussing how to get in the warehouse again.
Tong and I sit beside them and they start to fill tong in with what they have so far, I cuddle into tong and he cuddles me back whilst listening to the boys, my parents are cooking breakfast together and I smile as I watch them wind each other up, I hope tong and I will be like that, strong as a rock.
The boys finish telling tong the plan and just in time for breakfast, we all begin to eat and I'm ignoring the question that's burning my brain, in the end I don't have to ask it Sean does.
"So son what are you doing when the boys go to the warehouse later on tonight are you going are staying here".
"I'm not sure I am still a little weak and pretty exhausted, but I want to help" he says.
"If you're weak you should stay here where you're safe and can rest, you could end up getting hurt even more if they're there and you come" Kurt says.
"I was thinking the same" tong agrees and he turns to me with a questioning look in his eye and I know he's asking me what I want him to do.
I stare back at him and know I can't hide the worry and fear of him going from him, without even saying anything he knows what I want him to do.
"Ok baby, I'll stay here" he says and runs his hand through my hair.
"Oh Sian what happened to your cheek" my mother gasps finally noticing.
"Tong was having a nightmare and when I woke him he thought I was Li and his goons and lashed out" I explain.
Before they can reply tong jumps in.
"I didn't mean to I swear, I would never want to hurt her" he says frantically.
"It's alright son, calm down we had a feeling that would happen, we understand" my mother says and reaches over the table to hold his hand.
"We trust you with her life and our own lives, don't we Sean" mum says.
"Yes we do" Sean agrees.
"Ok, I just didn't want you to think I did it deliberately.
"We know you didn't" they both say.
"After we find out where Li's going next we'll decide what to do when we get back, personally I think you should let Taylor and I go ahead and then joins us after a couple of days resting here" Kurt says.
"Are you sure" tong asks them and they both nod.
"Alright then, I'll contact you the night before I plan to leave and you can let me know where you are" tong tells them.
"Yes do that" they say.
After breakfast tong decides he wants to go back to bed and rest, he asks me to go with him and I agree, I want to cuddle and be with him as much as possible before he has to leave again.
The next day
We're sitting in the kitchen while the boys tell tong all the found at the warehouse, the found a clue that he's heading towards Mexico, they are leaving to go there this afternoon then tong will join them in a few days if they still haven't caught him, we're all well aware they could get in trouble for going after him by the police but we have no choice or he won't leave us alone if we don't.