A/N: Thanks again for all the feedback, follows and favoriting my story. This chapter is only from Christian's POV. I know you all want to know what has happened to him to make him the way he is now but it will take probably about three or four more chapters until the shit hits the fan and you will find out what exactly happened to Christian.

About the session with Flynn that is about to take place in this chapter. I'm not sure if a session would work like that since I never had to see a shrink, so I just used my imagination...

Disclaimer: I do not own FSOG or anything related to it.

Christian's POV

Thank fuck it is finally 6 p.m. so I can leave my office and see Flynn. The whole day when I should have been working my mind went back on trying to find a way to get Anastasia beneath me. That damned woman, I have no idea why I can't stop thinking about her. That's not what I do. I hope Flynn can sort this shit out for me. Out of all the shrinks I have seen other the years he is the first I don't mind going to. All those other assholes I only endured to make Grace happy as she believes that therapy can fix my issues. So whenever I told her I wouldn't see the asshole shrink she has send me to anymore she found a new one. Usually either I would stop going or they would recommend me seeing another shrink as I was not forthtcoming and they said I needed someone I could trust.

When I met Flynn the first time I wouldn't say a single word and just stared at him the whole hour. Fucker didn't even flinch once. After three sessions of the same he actually put a tv in his office and when I came and sat down he switched it on and starting watching some crap show while sipping a beer and when I asked him what the hell he was doing he told me that I was the best patient he ever had as he didn't have to help me find a solution of my issues since I wouldn't talk and that we could resume this routine because it was easy money for him. At this point I thought he might need a shrink more than I do and in the end we had a beer together. I only returned out of curiosity for the next session and somehow he made me talk. I still believe that this shit doesn't help me reach some goal which I have no idea what it is, but he is better than all the other shrinks I went to and it makes Grace happy.

When Taylor pulls up in front of the building that houses Flynn's office I tell him to drive back to Escala as I like to walk the quick distance from his office back to Escala. Once I reach the 15th floor I get into the office and his receptionist waves me right through.

"Christian" Flynn acknowledges and I sit down on one of the leather sofas facing him in his armchair. "So, tell me what was so important that you felt the need to see me before our usual appointment on Friday.

"I'm going crazy. Fix me!"

"Well Christian as you know we only have an hour so I'm not sure I can do this but maybe you start by telling me what is making you crazy." Fucking asshole is trying to hide his smirk, so I glare at him.

"Anastasia Steele that damned woman is stuck in my head. I met her Sunday and since then I can't stop thinking about her."

"Did you engage in sexual activities with her?"

"No thats the deal John, that fucking bitch won't let me fuck her. First she kicked me out of her apartment and then two day later I invited her for dinner and she walked out on me."

"Have you entertained the thought that she might not be attracted to you?" Is he kidding?!

"She is, I saw it right when we met. No she is just trying to drive me insane oh and she is virgin."

"Excuse but just how old is this Anastasia we are talking about?" now he looks worried fucker knows damn well that I would never become a fucking pedophile.

"Nearly 22 I mean there must be something wrong with her"

"Ok let's go back to how you actually met her."

"She is the roommate of Elliot's newest girlfriend. He invited me to come along to have dinner with them. You know his usual shit about me needing to go out more and make friends. Anyways they were all over each other so I joined Anastasia in the kitchen where she was preparing dinner for us. I found her attractive, so I asked her if she wants to fuck which she declined."

"How did she react?"

"Not to pleased actually and the fact that I then offered her money for a fuck didn't help either. I mean come on she was fucking attracted to me and how was I supposed to know that she is a virgin. So she told her roommate to get rid of me and of course Elliot threw a fit about my behavior towards her I guess I called her a slut or something like that and next thing I know is she grabbed me by the shirt dragged me out and shut the door in my face."

"I see well Christian can you blame her or your brother for their reaction."

"Hell John I didn't assault her." Fuck he pisses me off.

"Yes you did, verbally. The way you talked to her was rude and offending you can be glad she only made you leave and didn't slap you for your less than respectful behavior. Actually I'm rather surprised that she agreed to meet you a second time. Tell me how this meeting went down."

"We got into a rather heated conversation and in the end she walked out. But hell how was I supposed to react once she told me she is a fucking virgin. I mean asking her if she is frigid seemed a logical question seeing her age and the fact that she is beautiful, I can't see her as a woman who lacks male attention."

"Again Christian it comes down to how you ask a question besides there can be several other reasons for her sexual status. She could be religious or had traumatic events in her past but this is just speculation. Let me ask you how does her rejection make you feel?"

"Angry mostly I mean it is just a fuck"

"As you said she is a virgin and the first sexual experience is something precious to most women. You have to understand that if she declined your offer it is very likely that she is looking for an emotional bound with the man she gives her virginity to."

"But I want her." great now he is smirking again. "Could you imagine to date this woman start a relationship?"

"Are you nuts John? You know what I am!" he pisses me off by rolling his eyes at me. "Christian we talked about this you are not a misogynist. You don't hate or dislike all women."

"So because I like my mother and sister I am not a mysogynist?" I snort.

"Those are not the only women in your life you like. There is Ros your right hand woman. You told me yourself you like her and trust her. Then there is Andrea your assistant and of course Mrs. Jones your housekeeper. You are surrounded by women everyday and you don't treat them badly. Though I do agree with you that you have a strong dislike of the women you find sexually attractiv as well as women who show there sexual interest in you. But seeing what your birth mother and Elena Lincoln did to you..." I stop him by jumping of the couch and start to pace the office.

"For fucks sake John I am not here to discuss either of them. We were talking about how I am going to fuck Anastasia so I can forget her and move on!" I hiss at him but he doesn't seem to be impressed by my outburst.

"Again Christian you can't just look at a small part of the puzzle or you will never reach a conclussion. Your dislike in women and what happened to you as a child and teenager is tied to each other."

"I just want to fuck Anastasia" I growl and John sighs. "Fine let's focus on that instead, though I will tell you right away that I will not take part in helping you to seduce a young innocent woman only to spit her out once you are done with her. You have to consider that your way won't work all the time. Is this the first time you got rejected by a woman?"

I stare at him and try to reign in my temper. One time he brought up my birth mother and that old hag and I got so pissed I started to trash his office. He told me that was my one free pass and the next time I break something in his office I would have to find a new shrink. Since that is not something I'm looking forward to I take a few deep breaths and inwardly count to ten. When I feel slightly better I think about his question.

"Maybe twice I think they were both married."

"And how did you react back then?"

"I don't know I just took another girl home with me. It was their loss not mine"

"That's interesting so what is different about Anastasia besides the fact that she is a virgin?" How the fuck am I supposed to know? "John if I would know that I wouldn't be here right now."

"Did you engage in sexual acts since you met her?" Shit. "Yes well only if jerking off while imagining that she is fucking me with her mouth counts."

" Do you masturbate regularly?"

"No first time since I was a teenager." he rubs his chin and stares at me in that unnerving way he has. "You told me once you not only engage in sexual acts with women you meet but also hire escorts why did you choose to umm take matters in your own hands rather than use the services of one of these women?"

"Fuck John that's what I was telling you when I arrived that fucking woman is stuck in my god damn head. By now I know that my dick would rather fall off then get into action with anyone else. That's why I have to have her. Not fucking her is not an option."

"I see so purely hypothetical what are you going to do if you do have sex with her and you realize later on that you still can't stop to think about her."

"No, I fuck her and then I'm done with her." I snap can't he get that I just need to fuck her out of my system?

"Just humor me this one time Christian." I sigh fine have it his way. "I guess then I have to fuck her until I'm over her."

"And what if that day never comes?" Now I had enough. "For fuck's sake John I just want to fuck her all this what if shit is getting me nowhere."

"Christian I will talk very freely now; what is getting you nowhere is your inappropriate behavior and lack of respect towards most women. For a smart young man who he succeeded beyond expectations in the business world your relationship skills are poorly lacking. With the way you acted when you met Anastasia you offended her and embarrassed your brother and you repeated that when you had them over for dinner.

And this is not the only time you did something like that. Remember the time when your mother forbid you from ever bringing one of your many women to her house because you had the girl you brought to that dinnerparty perform oral sex on you while your mother had guests in the other room?" I smirk at that memory and John glares at me.

"I am serious about this your behavior is appalling and if you want to have any chance with Anastasia you have to change your behavior because from what you just told me about her, I can't see that she will be interested in what you have to offer. Since you are, thank god, not the kind of man who forces himself on women I don't see how she and you will get on the same page. So are you willing to work on yourself in order to might get a chance to prove yourself to her?"

Fuck. Shit. Fuck. There has to be another way. I can't allow her into my life. No I need to get over her. I mean hell what are the changes that we run into each other? We lived in the same building for nearly 3 months and never saw each other. If he thinks there is no change in hell for me to just fuck her, then I might as well get over her. Shit fat chance that will happen. I'm cursed. God damn it I hate women!

"You know what John. I have had it. I will just get over her. No way in hell I am changing just to get laid." John sighs and glances at the clock.

"Well Christian our time for today is over. Please take some time until Friday and think about what I told you tonight. I do want to help you but you have to want to work on yourself."

"I think I'm fine just the way I am" I mutter not giving a fuck that I'm sounding like a sulking teenager and leave his office. Well that was a waste of time.

I walk back to Escala still contemplating my options about what to do with the beautiful yet annoying Miss Steele when I stop dead in my tracks just when I was about to cross the street to Escala. Right on the other side of the street Anastasia is leaving the building and she is not alone. Fuck she is with a guy. Was she lying and that is her boyfriend?

I try to get a better look of the boy. Crap he looks like a teenager but a handsome little shit I give him that much. They are both laughing and start to walk down the street. Before I know it I follow them from a safe distance and see them get into a diner. Fuck what now? I watch as the get into a booth and when Anastasia sits facing away from the entrance I don't think twice I get into the diner and slide into the booth right behind them so I sit right behind Anastasia. I try to listen to their conversation but I'm interrupted by the waitress who is ogling me like an oasis in the middle of the desert. Fuck off your 80 years too old and 500 pounds too heavy for me I think to myself and order without even looking at the menu. Mac&cheese will do I'm not here to eat after all.

I'm just about to try to listen again when two more guys come in and sit down with them. What the fuck is she doing with all those fucking guys. I sink a little deeper into my seat and try to listen and yes it works I hear one of the guys.

"And Ana saw that crazy fucker again?" one of the guys asks. What crazy fucker?

"No, thank god though I have a feeling that won't last since we live in the same building and Kate is pretty serious about his brother." What the fuck she calls me a crazy fucker? Oh I would like to spank her for that.

"Come on Ana I know you like him you told me yourself you think he is hot" Ha I knew it!

"What, finally my sister likes a boy." Ahh that little dude is her brother one fucker gone two left.

"I don't like him. He is attractive Patrick but he was completely rude"

"You could still do him" one of the guys laughs so I assume he isn't interested either. Good!

"First I don't do one night stands and second I most definitely won't have sex with a man whore who probably has more STD's than modern science is aware of and anyways if I ever decide to enter the casual sex life then it should be at least in a friends with benefits kind of way. I ... I just don't want to be used and lied to again." Shit it sounds like she is about to cry. What the fuck happened to her? Maybe I need to let Welch dig even deeper into her past though he went into a lot of trouble to even find out about wealth or the fact who her birthfather was.

Fuck while I listen to them now talking about some random shit I realise that I'm now behaving like a stalker. Shit I need to leave. I ask for the bill pay quickly and leave before Anastasia can see me. I need to get a grip I can't get obsessed over that girl or I might as well let Flynn move in with me for around the clock consulting. No I need to get a hold of myself first I call Claude for session tonight and then I will go out and try to find some nice piece of ass for the night to prove to myself that I don't need that damned woman. Fuck I need a drink!

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