A/N: Again a big thanks for all the reviews, follows and favs for my story. I never expected this and it makes me want to update as fast as I can ;)
One of you asked if Elena is a rapist in my story, but I can't give that away without spoiling parts of my storyline, but Elena will shortly make an appearence in my story this much I can tell.
Disclaimer: All characters belong to E.L. James
Ana's POV
It's been 3 days since I was stuck in the elevator with Christian. I still can't believe that in the course of one conversation he first told me that he wants to fuck me out of his system and then asked me on a date. If someone else would have told me this story I would have laughed about the audacity that the guy has. But since I'm the person he talked about I'm not really amused. Worse I still can't get him out my head. I mean what the hell must happen to someone that he ends up that fucked up.
So for the last 3 days I spend most of my free time with trying to come up with scenarios that could have taken place in his past. In the end I got mad at myself when I realised I was trying to make an excuse for him so I could actually agree to go on that date with him. Elliot asked me about the summerparty aswell and since Kate's brother Ethan is in town he asked me to go with him but I told him I couldn't go. In reality I was just worried how the evening would end if Christian would see me with another man. The last thing I need is him punching Ethan in the face because he can't keep his temper in check. Because let's face it for a short second I thought he would hit me when I asked him why he wouldn't date guys if he hates women.
Boy did he get mad. I guess he is a homophob aswell. If he is his chances with me are going from zero to below zero. I could never be with someone who has a problem with Jose and Dave. I love them and they are the best friends a girl can have. I mean yes Kate is a great friend and I love her dearly but Jose is like a brother to me and anyone who doesn't get along with him won't get along with me as well.
Since today is Friday I decided I need a night out. Kate and Elliot have planned a romantic weekend on Bainbridge Island so I asked Jose and Dave to come over cook together have some drinks and then go to a club. I don't want to hear or think about Christian Grey today. Dave works as DJ so he knows the best clubs in town and we are going to the club where he will work tonight. This is going to be a long night. His shift won't end until 3 in the morning and we have planned to stay until he is finished so we can have drinks together and then go home.
When my classes are finished I head straight home and soak in my tub but of course Kate comes into my bathroom without knocking. She says it doesn't matter if we see each other naked since we are both girls but I like some privacy. Jeez one time she came in while I was on the toilet and she just started to talk I had to throw something at her so she would leave. Kate really knows no shame.
"Hey Ana, Elliot and I are leaving shortly I just wanted to warn you Elliot told his brother about our plans so he might show up here, just leave the door closed or use your pepperspray on him." From the look on her face she is serious.
"Kate he might be a douchebag of epic proportions but he won't attack me. If he wanted to do that he could have raped me when we were stuck in the elevator on Tuesday." Kate walks over to the toilet pulls her pants down, sits down and starts to pee. Did I mention she knows no shame?
"What don't look at me like that I'm just peeing. Jeez you are such a prude sometimes Steele. Anyways just please be careful with Christian. Elliot wouldn't tell me what is wrong with him but I have this weird feeling about him. I know you find him attractive but he will only hurt you if given the chance. And you don't want me to wear orange for the rest of my life, since that is not my color and I will kill him if he hurts you."
I look at her and roll my eyes. "Don't be so overdramatic, first I won't be here tonight and tomorrow I'm meeting my mom for some shopping. If he tries to see me so be it. He is attractiv but that doesn't mean I will suddenly turn into a completely different person and have a one night stand. I can take care of myself Kate, besides killing your boyfriends brother won't improve your relationship." Kate finishes washing her hands and sits on the edge of my tub.
"I know it's just when we met you were so depressed, broken even. I couldn't take it to see you like that ever again." I sigh and fight my tears. "I'm fine Kate it's not like I'm head over my heels for Christian Grey. So I will be fine. Now out with you or I will end up all pruny."
"Ok, I get the hint. Oh and I bought a dress yesterday but I think it's perfect for you. I have put it on your bed, wear it tonight and have some fun." She gives me a big smile and leaves. I love her but I hate it when she brings that part of my past up. Besides Kate and Dave I have never told anyone and I like to keep it that way. Jose of course knows since we already knew each other more than 8 years when it happened. I don't like to revisit that part of my history and what Kate fails to see is that this is the reason I won't let Christian near me. Great now my mood is taking a nosedive. So I get out of my tub wrap myself in a fluffy towel and take a look at the dress Kate was talking about.
Oh. My. God. She has got to be kidding. That scrap of berry colored satin can't hardly be described as a dress. It has an open back and deep cowl neck, also it is almost indicently short. My father would probably die of a heart attack if he would see me wearing something like that. No I can't wear that, it's just to open for me and all the guys at the club wouldn't give me a break. I hold the dress up and look at it again. Maybe one day I will feel comfortable wearing this but for now I will stay with a more decent clothing choice and in the end I go for a short denim skirt with a bright blue silk top and high heels. I pull my hair in a messy bun, use a little mascara and lipgloss and wait for Jose and Dave.
We arrive at the club at 10 p.m. and while Dave has to work Jose and I sit down and have a drink.
"So will you spill it now or do I have to force it out of you?" I look at Jose in surprise not knowing what he is talking about.
"Oh don't give me that confused look Ana I have known you since we were 10 years old, something is bothering you. So you can tell me now or I might torture the truth out of you" Great caught day dreaming about Christian Grey.
"It's stupid, you know I am still trying to figure out what it is that has made Christian the way he is." I confess and Jose smirks. "Babe you got it bad."
"No I don't" I squeak and he laughs. "Oh you can't lie to me I know you too well it is just like the time when you were day dreaming of Josh..." my face falls and Jose stopps immidiatly. "I'm sorry Ana I didn't mean to say his name or bring him up."
"Then don't fucking do it." I snap and down my drink in one large gulp. Great first Kate and now Jose can't they just stop reminding me of him or that time in my life. "I'm really sorry, anyways about that crazy fucker have you ever considered that maybe you should just do it?" Wow is he drunk already?
"Excuse me did you listen when I told you about him?"
"Yes of course and while he is a douche, he is a freaking hot douche. I googled the guy and nearly came in my pants just looking at him." he smirks.
"Eww Jose! That's total TMI. And you know he just wants to fuck me."
"Well, you could use him. I mean let's face it losing your v-card to him isn't the worst option."
"Yes, it is I want someone who respects me and wants more than just my vagina. Sorry to say that but now you sound like an ass Jose. I would never use anyone for anything."
"Ok again I'm sorry, you know I'm just worried, you miss out so much and I fear one day you'll end up alone while all your friends have their own family."
"Can't we just have fun tonight, please?" I beg and start to pull him from his seat and on to the dancefloor because if there is one thing that always improves my mood it's dancing.
Around 1 a.m. I had way too much to drink. I feel sick and I'm tired. I need to go. I find Jose on the dancefloor with some of Dave's friends and pull him to the side.
"Come on Annie let's dance" he shouts into my ear. "No I had too much to drink I will leave now"
"Are you sure?"
"Yes, I take a cab." I kiss his cheek and promise to send him a text once I'm home so he knows I made it safely back. I grab my jacket and purse and leave the club but when the cool air outside hits me I feel slightly dizzy. Maybe drinking first wine and then beer and shots wasn't such a good idea. I start to walk down the sidewalk as the next cab stand is not far away and I know a shortcut through a small backalley.
As I walk there is this feeling again that I'm beeing watched but of course when I turn around there is no one. So I keep walking but this strange feeling won't go away and now that I'm in the back alley I feel like it was a really bad choice to take that way. It's dark and creepy in the back alley and suddenly I see someone leaning against one of the brickbuildings in the alley. I keep my head down and pray the tall guy will leave me alone but the moment I walk pass him I feel him behind me.
"Hey baby so alone?" he slurrs. Shit the guy is drunk and I start to walk faster though beeing drunk and walking in high heels is not the best combination.
"Oh come on don't be shy" next I know he is grabbing me by the elbow. "Don't touch me" I yell but he only laughs and when I try to reach into my purse for the pepperspray I always carry with me he grabs my purse and throws it away. Ok now I'm officially scared.
"Come baby give me kiss!" His face comes closer to mine and his breath makes me even more sick but suddenly there is animalistic scream and someone is jumping the drunk asshole they both hit the ground with a thud and suddenly I realize it is Christian and he is beating the shit out of the guy. For a moment I'm in shock not able to move and just staring at the scene that plays out in front of me. But then I realize he is not going to stop. Shit.
"Christian stop!" I try to pull on his arm but it is to no use and thank god the next second his security guy is there and pulls Christian of the guy.
"Sir that's enough." he says so calm as if that was something totally normal. Oh my god maybe it is? No can't be that would have made the news otherwise.
"Don't you ever touch what is mine" he snarls at the guy who somehow stumbles to his feet and takes off. His? He thinks I am his? I'm just about to consider how I feel about this when he comes to stand right in front of me.
"What in the motherfucking hell were you thinking by walking through a fucking back alley in the middle of the god damn night." he yells at me and I stare at him wide eyed. "It's faster." I mutter meekly.
"Faster? Faster to what getting robbed or raped or killed?" His voice gets louder with every word and now I'm intimidated. "I'm sorry" my voice is barely a whisper and he sighs.
"Come!" he holds his hand out while Taylor gets my purse and the moment I put my hand in his he starts walking. "Not so fast. I'm in heels"
"You're fucking drunk your shoes are not your problem."
"Why are you so mad?" he stops abruptly and glares down at me. "Anastasia I'm boiling with anger right now. Do not push me that guy could have raped you or worse. Do you get that do you want some fucking low life to fuck you in a dirty back alley"
"No." I whisper and start to shake with the realization of what could have happened to me. Christian pulls of his jacket wraps it around me, picks me up bridalstyle and starts to walk. "I can walk" I murmur but he only arches an eyebrow at me making it clear that I should better keep my mouth shut until he has calmed down.
Two minutes later I'm in the back of a black SUV with him and Taylor starts to drive. I remain silent but suddenly something comes to my mind.
"What were you doing there?" When he doesn't answer I know it I just know it.
"I didn't imagine it right? You are following me since last week" I hiss accusatory but he smirks arrogantly at me.
"Anastasia I have a company to run. I don't have time to follow you around all day."
"Then what were you doing there?" I just can't believe that this was just a coincidence. "I have one of my security guys following you around." What the hell?!
"Why?"
"So I can make sure that you won't meet anyone else and when I was alerted that you are in a club I came to watch you myself and interfere if necessary." He sounds so pleased with himself but I'm shocked.
"Ok let me get that straight you will make sure that I won't meet anyone else as long as you want me?"
"Bet on it."
"Christian that's crazy and what's it to you. I mean you are the guy who told me he just wants to fuck me out of his system. Why do you care if you are the first or the 20th who does me?"
"I don't share." he simply says. "But I'm not yours!" He remains deadly silent and I sigh and stare out of the window until we arrive at Escala and get into the elevator. For some reason I'm not even surprised when he steps out of the elevator with me when it reaches my floor and I open my door expecting him to leave but instead he pushes the door open and gets in.
"Hey, I didn't invite you in." I snap and again he shuts me up with on glare so I walk behind him into the kitchen. "Sit" he points at one of the barstools and I'm too tired and drunk to fight with him so I sit down and watch him as he get a bottle of water from the fridge. "Where do you keep painkillers?" he asks and I point to the cupboard. He takes something from it and then places the small water bottle and 2 Advil in front of me. "Drink the water and take the Advil." again his voice sounds so commanding that I simply obey. So I take a sip of water and down both pills.
"All of the water Ana."
"I'm not thirsty." I pout. " For fuck's sake drink it." he hisses. "Yes Sir" I answer and poke my tongue out at him before emptying the bottle of water in a few long sips.
"Where is your bedroom?" he asks out of the blue and I gape at him. Does he think I will fuck him now. "Oh fuck me I told you I won't touch you unless you want me to. I just want to make sure you make it safely into bed.
"There" I point to the door and get up but need to steady myself on the barstool. "See that's what I was talking about." he mutters and helps me into my bedroom where I grab the shorts and tanktop I sleep in go into the bath room and come out five minutes later in my sleepwear.
"Wow you're a smurf" he smirks when he sees me for the first time without my high heels and I pout. "Well aren't you prince charming" I mutter under my breath but his gaze is no longer fixed on my face but on my legs or more precisely on the long scar on the side of my right thigh.
"What happened there?" he asks still staring and I hate it. "Car accident when I was 18" I mutter clipped and get into my bed so I can cover the scar with my duvet.
"Well I should leave now. Oh and your cell phone rang while you were in the bathroom it was your dance partner. He was worried you didn't make it home. He will call you tomorrow."
"Ok" for some reason I don't even care that he answered my phone without my permission to do so. I'm just too tired and when he turns to leave I feel bad. He did safe me after all and I didn't even thank him and before I can overthink this I make a decision.
"Christian?" he turns around and looks at me expectantly. "About that summerparty at your parents place next Saturday. If you still want to take me there I would like to go with you." For a second he looks utterly surprised. "Really?"
"Yes. What time will you pick me up?"
"At 6:30 p.m. sleep now."
" Night Christian" I murmur in to my pillow and fall in deep sleep almost immidiatly so I don't even here him leave.
Next Chapter will be the summerparty. I will try to post it tomorrow or monday. Until then have a great weekend. Oh and of course please leave me a review and tell me what you think so far.
Sunny