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"But you left Kens.. what does it matter that he wasn't me?" He asks letting what she just said sink in.

"Everyone I have ever cared about or even loved has left me in some way. I was scared of it happening again when you closed off.." she says "we've been partners for three almost four years and I can't help but feel as if one day I will wake and find myself alone, that this was all a dream that you never really existed. I'm a runner Deeks I always will be"

He remembers a song he heard a couple years back on a date with some girl he met on a case for LAPD "Trying not to love me thinking maybe if you ignored it the feelings would go away? I know the feeling. Only it doesn't work Kens. No matter how many girls I take out I always end up wishing it was you there. You're a runner because you're afraid of letting yourself love someone. I've heard the stories of on date Blye, but the person I drink a beer and watch crappy reality tv with after a tough case is amazing and everything except what the guys described you as"

Kensi opens her mouth to say something but Deeks holds his hand up to stop her. "As for Jack, Kens you did everything you could you gotta let that go." She laughs at his words and he doesn't bother hiding the hurt "This isn't going to work. I'm tired of holding on when you never had any intention making this work."

She grabs his hand and stops him as he gets up "Deeks, Jack is back.. he showed up at my place when I was getting ready and I told him I had plans, but I'm not entirely sure he will stay gone. I was checking my surrounding when you showed up to make sure he wasn't staking out my place when you arrived."

"So what'd he want?" he asks

Kensi stands up to meet him eye to eye "he wanted to take me out to dinner, said he felt like he should explain himself. Asked if we could do it some other time and I told him it wasn't going to happen."

"You laughed because now that he's in town this is one thing that won't go away?"

Kensi chuckles again "I laughed because I let it go a long time ago but after Dom was captured and died when we tried getting him back I didn't want another partner. Then Hetty signed you as liaison and partnered you with me, I hated it. The incessant babbling, the jokes, all of it and then one day I realized that I liked you and it terrified me. Deeks I couldn't take that risk and love you with everything I have and have you taken away from me."

"And then Sidorov happened?" he asked in a whisper as he wiped a tear from her cheek

"It scared me Deeks. It was too close of a call for me and in a moment of fear and weakness I ran. My darkest dreams nearly became reality"

"I'm sorry Kensi." He says hugging her

"I'm the one who should be apologizing" she said

"I closed you off, didn't want you to see me like that and didn't think twice about how it would affect you. Didn't stop to think that maybe it was like Jack all over again and you waking up to find that the person you cared about most wasn't there. I wasn't fair to you Kens, you watched Jack fall apart and he left you I didn't want you to see it all over again with me"

"I know. I wanted to fight it with you but at the same time I was scared of losing you for good. We weren't sure you would even return to work. I almost thought you would go back to LAPD and choose some long undercover assignment and I would never see you again. I know you and Sam never saw eye to eye on anything and I have no clue what happened or what was said but Sam blamed himself for what happened and I was confused as to why. I understood it as you watching his back because that we do as a team, but this was different. He asked Hetty daily if there was anything new from you, if you were alright and said something about wanting to see you but wasn't sure you would accept his pressence in your home. Deeks what happened?" She asks

"Sam made some remark about my character as an officer and that I wasn't an Agent because of my hair said no one would ever take me serious because of it's shaggy nature. But Kens that's not why I did it. He was cuffed to that case of gold and shoved in the pool and all I could think about was if I didn't save him and Michelle got killed what would happen to their little girl. Kensi she's just a child."

Kensi nodded she knew exactly what he meant. She had been there when she was a teen. Her mom had left her father for another man and Kensi ran the first chance she got only to have Peter Clairmont stage her fathers accident to make it look like a drunk driving accident leaving her with nothing and no one. "No child should ever have to endure that pain and yet hundreds of children do everyday."

"Hey I didn't mean to upset you with that Kens." He says realizing he brought back painful memories

"No it's okay I got justice for him. I just can't help but thing of how much he would like you. Putting others before yourself, he always told me to make sure I found a man who put others first because that meant I would have everything I ever wanted."

"I would give the moon and the stars till the end of our lives Kens. Everything you want you know that."

She kisses him lightly "I know you would. No more running from us" she whispers as she wraps her arms around him and he reciprocates slowly swaying to the sound of the waves crashing against the shore.

A/N: Hope you guys liked this chapter. Are things going to be a smooth ride here on out for Deeks or Kensi or will someone reek havoc on their lives? Leave me a review and let me know what you guys think.