Ana's POV

It's been 5 days since I had the knee surgery and everything looks very well, so tomorrow I can go home. I should be happy that I can leave, but to be honest I'm depressed. I have put on a happy face for my parents and my brother but once I'm alone all I do is crying. Christian didn't came to see me once. Not even Mia or Elliot showed up here.

Carrick stopped by on Tuesday to tell me that with Elena's dead the police will only look if she had any accomplices, but most likely the case will be closed shortly. I just nodded and didn't talk. I mean what was I supposed to ask? Maybe 'oh hey while I was kidnapped was your son out having a good time and is now back to his manwhore self?' I guess that is not exactly a good question. I wanted to call Christian but my phone is still with the police so I don't have any number and Kate was only going on about how this is all his fault, so I didn't want to give her more reason to go on by telling her that Christian didn't show up.

So now not only will I never be able to dance like I'm used to again, but also I have to deal with the fact that Christian has turned his back on me. Now it is finally official. Life sucks!

I'm just about to celebrate my own pity party again by starting to cry when there is a soft knock on the door to my room and Grace comes in.

"Hello Darling, I wanted to see you before you leave tomorrow. Christian asked us to leave you alone but..."

"Wait is that why Mia and Elliot didn't show up here, because Christian told them not to?" Wow that hurts and what the fuck happened that he treats me like that?

"Elliot wanted to talk with you and Mia well she is a little mad at you and..." Huh?

"Mad at me? Mad at me for what Grace?"

"You have seen how much she adores her brothers Ana. She is upset that you don't want to see Christian anymore." Is she kidding me?

"Grace I have no idea what you are talking about. Eversince I'm here Christian didn't show up. I wanted to call him but my phone is still at the police station and I don't think I will find his number in the phonebook. So if anyone has the right to be mad or upset it's me, because I went through hell since saturday and I thought ... I... nevermind" I mutter and wipe the tears away that are streaming down my cheeks.

"But Ana, Christian was here to see you. He was the first to see you and we all heard you yell at him to leave you alone and get out of your room." Grace looks confused and now I'm getting mad.

"I'm sorry to ask but why are you lying I'm telling you that Christian wasn't here and why would I yell at him. That makes no sense Grace."
"Ana when you were brought to the hospital we were all here and Christian asked your parents if he could see you first. Dr. Stevens just left you and he got into your room. We all heard you yell at him and once he got out your Dad told him to better stay away from you as the last thing you need is more stress." I frown and suddenly reality kicks in. Oh no!

I get out of bed as quick as I can and grab the sweatpants, tanktop and hoodie I wanted to wear tomorrow from the table in my room. "Ana what are you doing?"

"I'm leaving tonight Grace. Could you please ask Dr. Stevens to see me." I mutter and sit down on the chair to get out of my night gown and into the other clothes.

"Ana what is going on?"

"That day when Dr. Stevens came out of my room, he had just told me that I needed a kneecap replacement and I was so upset I just wanted to be alone and cry. He told me a nurse and a doctor would come to see me. I was facing away from the door and had no idea it was Christian who came into the room. Shit!"

"Oh dear, well you can call him now Ana and..."

"No, please Grace I need to see him it doesn't matter if I stay the night or not. Please get Dr. Stevens to see me."

She nods and leaves with a smile while I finish getting dressed and start to pack the rest of the stuff that isn't already in my bag. Once I've seen Dr. Stevens and talked everything through with him I'm good to go.

I somehow manage to take my bag while walking with my crutches and leave my hospital room.

"Miss Steele?" I turn around when I hear a familiar voice call my name and see Sawyer coming over to me fast.

"Hi Sawyer what are you doing here?"

"I'm umm ..."

"Christian has you watch me right?" I ask grinning and he nods.

"Perfect, umm can you take my bag I'm going home. Can you give me a ride or do I need to call me a cab?" I ask and he smiles brightly.

"I'm taking you home Miss Steele."

"Perfect oh and don't tell Christian I want to surprise him."

"Of course Miss Steele." He takes my bag and walks me to the SUV. Once I'm in the back of the car I sigh. God what a mess and how could Christian think I don't want to see him again? I mean ok technically I could blame him since that bitch kidnapped me because of him, but she was plain crazy so it is not his fault.

"Are you alright Miss Steele?" Saywer asks when I sigh again. "Yes, Sawyer can you tell me why men are so stupid?"

"Why are women so complicated" he asks back with a smirk and I laugh. "I have no idea."

When we get into the elevator I'm starting to get nervous. "Sawyer do I look ok?"

"Umm yes" he says shifting from foot to foot. "No I mean really I look like shit right? Oh great I haven't slept a full night in days, my hair is a mess because I can't brush it properly and ..."

"Miss Steele you could roll around in mudd and wear a sack and Mister Grey still would love what he sees." Sawyer says with a smirk and that relaxes me a little.

"Does Taylor know we are coming?"

"Yes I have send him a text massage so he wouldn't alert Mister Grey when he sees us on the CCTV of the garage or elevator." I nod and the elevator stops. This is it no more waiting I will just tell him how I feel about him.

When I step out of the elevator Taylor greets me with a warm smile, I smile back and continue to walk into the greatroom only to stop dead in my tracks. Christian is sitting at the breakfast bar having a glass of wine with a very beautiful woman that must be in her thirties. They look pretty familiar with each other and are so deep in their conversation that they don't notice me.

Great here I am leaving the hospital a day early because I thought Christian is heartbroken because he thinks I have send him away and here he is having a good time with another woman. I'm just about to leave when the woman turns around and sees me standing there.

"Hey Grey you didn't tell me you were expecting someone?" Christian turns around and his mouth pops open when he sees me.

"Don't let me keep you from anything I can see Christian has already found new company" I snap and turn around.

"No! Ana wait it is not what you think!" Christian runs over to me and stops me from walking away.

"Oh really. God I'm so stupid here I was thinking I finally found someone I could trust and you already found a another woman to keep you company..." The woman joins us and stops me.

"I'm sorry I think this is a big missunderstanding. I'm Ros Baily, I'm COO at GEH. I came by to discuss some issues at work with Christian. And just to give you piece of mind. I'm gay and have a beautiful girlfriend." she winks at me and I blush bright red. Great can someone please kill me?!

"Oh God umm I'm sorry I thought...umm I mean it looked like...oh God I need to stop talking" I murmur.

"Don't worry. I will leave now. See you in the office Boss" she says and gathers her bag and jacket and leaves.

"Do you want to sit?" Christian asks as the awkward silence stretches between us. I nod and he leads me to the breakfastbar. "Umm how about the sofa? Barstools are not really comfortable right now" I point to my knee and so we sit down on the sofa.

"Can I talk first Ana?" he asks and again all I do is to nod. "Ana I know you hate me for what Elena has done to you. I know it is all my fault. I promised to keep you safe and fucked up. I won't lie I will probably fuck up even more in the future I mean that's what I do I fuck..." I can't listen to him shred himself for one more second and so I gather all my courage lean forward grab him by the collar of his shirt so I can pull him closer and kiss him as if my life would depend on it. For a second or two I fear that he is going to push me away, but instead he pulls me closer and returns my kiss.

His tongue dips into my mouth and I welcome it with my own tongue, but when he gently pushes me down onto the sofa and leans over me his knee presses against my knee and I wince. Christian backs off immidiatly. "Shit, sorry I didn't think. Is your knee ok?"

"I love you" there I said it. I watch him as he just stares at me. "What?"

"I love you" I whisper again. Shit maybe I shouldn't have told him. Maybe he really just wanted to fuck me. Crap, I should leave.

"Christian I... I'm sorry I just you know I wanted to tell you this for a while now and never got the chance and... I should leave." I murmur but when I try to get up he gently pushes me back so I sit down again and he kneels in front of me.

"Why do you want to leave?"

"I... I don't know it's just I guess you don't want to be with me and..."

"Ana you told me to leave you alone." he reminds me and I roll my eyes.

"No I didn't, when Doctor Stevens left my hospital room he told me a nurse would come to bring me some pain relief and I just wanted to have some alone time to cry. I had no idea it was you Christian. Why didn't you say anything, I had no idea you even came to see me. I thought you don't want to see me anymore; that you decided to you know just move on. I only found out this evening when your mom came to see me."

"But it's my fault Ana. Elena kidnapped you because of me." he says sadly and I sigh. "Christian that woman was a complete nutjob, it is not your fault what happened to me and I don't want you to think like that. That is just what she wanted and we are not letting her win, ok?"

I stare into his beautiful gray eyes which are filled with doubt and smile. After a while he smiles back.

"So you are still talking to me?"

"Yes, though I'm a little mad at you that you didn't even try to see me again. You need to promise me to talk to me. I have spend five days crying myself to sleep because I thought you decided you don't want me in your life. I don't want to feel like that ever again."

"I just wanted to give you what I thought you wanted. Why didn't you call me?"

"My cell is still in my purse at the police station and there was no one I could ask for your number and... you know I'm a coward I feared if I would call you wouldn't talk to me. That's why I convinced Doctor Stevens to let me go tonight."

Suddenly his face goes from worried to mad. "Wait does that mean you should be in the hospital right now?"

"Yes, but I would have been released tomorrow morning anyway so it's no big deal. Can we please not talk about this now, I want to talk about us."

"I love you Ana Steele." he says and now it is my turn to stare at him. Did he just say that he loves me?!

"Say that again" I whisper and feel the tears build up in my eyes. "I love you and I should have told you when we were in Aspen but I wasn't sure how you feel and this is all so new to me." he says and I have to laugh despite the tears are now rolling down my cheeks.

"What is so funny?" he asks confused. "We. I wanted to tell you that I love you but I feared that you wouldn't feel the same way and that I got it all wrong. And when I finally wanted to tell... well it didn't turn out so well."

"You wanted to tell me earlier?"

"Yes, first last Wednesday but then the parcel from that bitch arrived and I thought it wasn't a good time and the second time was last Saturday. I guess the whole planning to do something thing doesn't work out for me that well."

"Then we won't plan anything and just see what happens." he murmurs and leans forward to kiss me again. "I wanted to bite that lip for so long." he growls while he is nibbling and sucking on my lower lip.

"I want you to make love to me" I murmur breathless against his lips. He backs up a little and looks speculative at me. "Wait a second" he gets up and I watch him take his phone from his pants pockets. What?! I tell him I want to have sex with him and he makes a phone call? I keep watching him as he dials a number and then listen to his call.

"Hi Mom... yes, she arrived safely and we talked...Mom listen, is it ok for Ana to have sex I mean with her injuries and all?... ok, yes thanks Mom." I gape at him I can't believe he called his mother to ask if I'm ok to have sex.

"I like it when you blush" he smirks but then he looks serious and I know I won't like what comes next. "Ana I need to know I won't hurt you and my Mom told me it's not allowed until the stitches are removed and your knee has healed some more. She recommended we wait at least two more weeks."

"I'm fine, please?" I try my best puppy eye look and he sighs and kneels again in front of me so we are eye to eye. "Baby, I don't like this anymore than you do, but this is your first time. I want you to enjoy it and not feel uncomfortable because of your knee or your head. When we have sex I want you to enjoy it and right now I don't think you will."

"Did I mention how much I hate that bitch" I pout and he smirks. "Believe me Ana once you are good to go we won't leave my bedroom for at least a month. I dreamed of getting lost in you for so long I can hardly wait any longer." He says making me blush again.

"Well Mister Grey I would say we have a date" smile and flush embarrassed when my stomach grumbles.

"Are you hungry?" he asks and before I can answer he calls out for Mrs. Jones and asks her to fix me something to eat.

"Thank you, I think I lost at least 4 or 5 lbs in the hospital. The food was gross, Patrick tried to sneak something in but that dragon of a nurse came in and took it away."

"What, why?"

"It was a massive cheeseburger with onionrings and she thought it is not healthy. So for the last five days all I ate was the yogurt that came with each meal the rest was mushy or cooked to death."

"You will get something soon. Do you want to eat in bed you look tired." I nod and he helps me into his bedroom where I take off my shoes, socks and hoodie and settle into bed with him next to me.

"Do you have pain medication" he asks when I scrunch up my face after he put some pillows under it.

"Yes, it's in my bag..." I can't even finish my sentence before he is out of the room and returns with a glass of water and my bag.

"Christian, wait I won't take anything now. I will take a pill later so I can sleep better and umm could you keep those pills for me?" I ask and stare at my hands. "Ana what is wrong?" he sits down on the edge of the bed and takes my hand in his.

"After the car accident I had to take those pills for a long while. Maybe even longer that I should have and it became really hard to stop taking them. I just don't want to risk getting used to them again. Doctor Stevens said I should take no more than 3 per day so I will try to take only one so I can sleep. Just keep them for me so I'm not tempted to take more than I'm allowed to."

"Ok I keep them and if I'm at work I'll give them to so she can keep them for you."

"Thanks" I murmur and he lifts me chin with one finger. "Hey, you don't need to be embarrassed about this. Those pills are addictively, this happens to a lot of people who need to take them for long. But now that you know their effect you can avoid it."

"Your right, I just don't like them."

"It's ok, soon you won't need them anymore. How long will you need therapy before you can dance again?" My face falls when he asks the question and again I can't stop myself from crying.

"Ana, baby what is wrong?"

"Sorry, it's stupid I just need to get used to it. Umm I won't be dancing again, well not as a pro or teacher anyway. My patella was shattered and they needed to replaced it. With therapy I will be able to live a normal life but dancing as I used to do it before is not possible."

"Fuck, umm I mean we can get experts to ..."

"Christian Doctor Stevens is one of the best in his field, if there was any other possible way he would have tried it first, but my knee was already making me problems and with the new injury this was my only option."

He hugs me and then kisses my forehead, the tip of my nose and last my lips before he starts to wipe the tears from my cheeks with his thumbs. "I'm so sorry Ana if I had taken..." I stop him by pressing one finger against his lips which he kisses softly.

"Christian it's not your fault. To be honest I knew that I was dancing on borrowed time ever since the accident. For the last year or so I had constant pain in my right knee, sometimes it would swell and Doctor Stevens already told me 6 months ago that I should think about retirement from the professional dancing. But I was to stubborn to listen. Not only for me but I felt like I was letting Jose down. I kept pushing myself telling me that I would consider it after the championships. Actually if this injury hadn't happened I would have needed a total knee replacement in a year or so."

"Ana how can this not be my fault. She kidnapped you to hurt me and..."

"And nothing Christian. The damage is done. So now we have two options one we move on or two you continue to blame yourself while I drown in my pit of selfpity guaranteeing that we won't make it as a couple because starting a relationship with those kind of issues will only tear us apart.

I can't have that Christian. So you have to decide now if you can put what happened behind you or not, because I can't be with you knowing our relationship is doomed from the start." I need him to understand this because I know this is will drive him crazy if he can't let go of it.

"I guess then I have to let this go now. After all I'm a in the moment kind of guy." I lean forward and kiss him. "That's good because I want my future to be with you."

Christian's POV

Fuck, I'm one lucky bastard. She loves me. Ana really loves me! How that happened? I have no idea, but I know from now on I will spend the rest of my life trying to make her happy and to keep her safe.

There is no way I will ever let anything happen to her. First I need to stock up security for her. I still think Sawyer does a good job but one guy alone won't do. Maybe two or three guys. Though for now there is no chance in hell I will let her leave the apartment.

She is too vunerable like this. Shit she could fall and make her injuries even worse and I can't have that. I will organize everything so she can have her physical therapy here. Once she is better we will see but right now I need to know she is here and safe.

I look at Ana who is lying next to me in bed and is sleeping peacefully. Fuck she is so god damn beautiful and she has chosen me. I can't fuck this up again. The last days thinking she never wanted to see me again were hell. I was worth shit at work and kept thinking of ways to get her back.

I have no idea how it happened but somehow this little angel sleeping next to me became the center of my universe and now that she is mine I will never let her go. If it was up to me I would get a priest over here tomorrow morning and seal the deal so every fucker out there knows that she is all mine, but I guess I have to ask Ana first. Girls always make a big deal out of that whole wedding business and what my girl wants my girls gets.

Monday I will call Cartier and let them bring a selection of rings over to GEH so I can select the perfect ring for her. Maybe I should ask my Mom and Mia what the perfect way for a proposal is. Hmm maybe after sex. She will be dazzled and I'm pretty sure she won't say no after we just had sex. Yes that could work!

Ana moves a little and her face wrinkles with pain but she doesn't wake up and relaxes almost immidiatly. Damn it Elena is damned lucky that she is already burning in hell or I would find her and kill her myself. I make a mental note to call my Mom tomorrow morning and ask her if there is any other medication for Ana. I get it that she is afraid to become addicted to the painkillers she is taking, but I hate the thought that she is in pain. There must be something else and I'm sure my Mom will know what will help best.

I look at Ana again and grin. She is sucking her thumb and looks like a small girl. I take my phone out take picture. Fuck seeing her like this I wish she was sucking my dick...Fuck... don't even go there Grey you only end up with a massive hard on and Ana needs to recover from her injuries first.

Damn when she said she wanted me to make love to her I wanted to do a victory dance through the greatroom but then reminded myself of the condition she is in. I want her to enjoy our first time together. No, I need her to enjoy it, because I want to fuck her until my dick is about to fall off. I want her beneath me, on top of me, against the wall, in the shower, on the piano, her on all fours...shit fuck shit...stop it Grey!

I take a deep breath but it's no help I have a massive hard on and I know it want go away so I get up silently walk into the bathroom and jerk off quickly. Thank fuck only two weeks to go and I never have to do that again. Honestly show me one guy who can live like that for a long amount of time.

When I get back into the bedroom I see Ana is moving around in her sleep murmuring something I can't understand but suddenly she really starts to toss around and I approach her quickly fearing she will hurt herself and just when I grab her shoulders she jerks awake with a scream.

"Ana, hey look at me it's ok it was just a dream." I try to console her and she stares at me wide eyed. "The sledgehammer" she murmurs and I freeze. Fuck is that what happened? My team tried to find out what that bitch did to Ana but the fucking police was less than cooperative. So I still have no clue what exactly happened to Ana while she was held hostage by that fucking bitch.

"Sledgehammer?" I ask and she takes a deep breath. "I was tied to a chair, Elena was there she went on about how she would make me curse the day I met you and then she wanted to leave for awhile but before she did, she came back with a sledgehammer and hit my knee with it. For a second I thought she would crush my skull with it." Ana whispers and hug her tiedly to me.

"Do you want to tell me what happened next?" maybe getting it all out will help. At least that is what Flynn always tells me. Ana nods so I sit down on the bed and craddle her in my arms.

"She left and at first all I could think of was the pain, but then I realised that this was my one chance to get away. I manage to burn the rope off at a oven that was behind me. Once I was free I got out of the cabin, but I was in the middle of the woods and I knew that I would never make it out of there on one leg and that Elena would most likely kill me once she would find me.

So I took a thick branch I found on the ground got back into the cabin and waited for her to return. I tried to knock her out with the branch but failed and suddenly she was pointing her gun at me. I was on the floor and she wanted to shoot my other knee. I got so angry and I don't know in hindsight it was a pretty stupid move but I just jumped her and we fought for the gun. It went off and Elena was hit by a bullet in her stomach. I kicked the gun out of her reach, took her phone and blocked the door with another branch once I left the cabin and called for help. When the cops arrived and opened the cabindoor Elena was shooting at them but they shot her first."

I just listened to Ana telling me what happened and wish I could get into the morgue and beat Elena's body until nothing is left of her. Fuck just hearing what Ana went through is torture to me.

"Hey, no more blaming yourself" Ana says and kisses me softly. With her it's like she can read my mind I can't hide how I feel and more so I don't want to hide anymore. I want her to know me like no one else. No hiding.

"Your right, but that bitch is damned lucky she burns in hell right now or I would kill her and it wouldn't be fast."

"I know but it is over. From now on it's just you and me." she smiles and that does things to me. "You're right but now you need to sleep. You've been through a lot and I want you to get better really soon so I can fu...umm make love to you all day long." Ana giggles when I have to correct myself and we both settle in bed.

If I don't have nightmares while she is sleeping next to me maybe I can do the same for her and so I hold her the best I can without making her uncomfortable with her leg and we both drift off into a peaceful sleep.

A/N: Ok ladies, one more chapter then we will finally come to the lemons ;) I'm a little torn about how to wrap up the storyline between Ana and her sister. So tell me if you would like them to reconcile or if you want Jenny to be a manipulative little bitch and Ana is better of without her? Next update will be either monday or tuesday. Until then leave me a review and share your thoughts with me.

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