Edward set me on the couch softly then he was gone, I was frozen I felt like I couldn't breathe, I didn't want to. Then I heard a loud shattering sound from downstairs making me jump. I screwed up, I shouldn't have said anything, now something is nice and Esme will probably clean it up... I should be the one to clean it up, it is my mess. I pulled my knees up to my chest my heart beating loudly, I could feel it my throat. I tried to listen for any sign of life anywhere downstairs. Nothing. I felt like a weed growing in a flower bed, ruining the whole aesthetic of the whole thing.
I heard a door slam, did Edward leave? I started to breathe heavy, I need some fresh air or I was going to go into a bad place. I stood up going into autopilot, I walked to the bathroom at the end of the hall shutting the door, I turned the sink on making sure the water was cool, when I glanced into the mirror my eyes your wild, my lips- my whole face was swollen. My cheeks, neck and chest was a bright pink color. I splashed the cold water onto my face, it took my breath away for a moment but it gave me the control to put it back into rhythm, I splashed my face a few more times, then I turned the tap off grabbing a hand towel out of the closet drying my face off, I heard a light knock on the other side of the door, I didn't jump thankfully.
"Bella?" I heard Emmett on the opposite side of the door.
"Uh.." I cleared my throat trying to fight back the tears. "Yeah?" I asked him biting my lip, breathing wasn't really a chore anymore.
"Can I come in... or you come out?" Emmett asked his voice was off from the normal goofy tone.
I reached out grasping the gold doorknob turning it slowly I peeled it away from the frame, Emmett stood there his eyes looking dark, not like he needed to hunt because they were butterscotch, no they looked troubled. He held his arms out, moving slower than normal. I dropped the towel I was holding practically running into his arms. I wrapped my short arms around his torso.
"It's okay Bella" His voice was thick, if I didn't know Edward's brother was a vampire I might have been fooled.
"Does.." I stopped from asking my question. "Can we step out of the house, I feel.. uh tight?" I told him trying to describe my feelings.
"Sure, do you want to walk, or me carry your out?" Emmett asked pulling away looking down on me.
"Could you carry me?" I asked him, my voice cracking a little.
Emmett picked me up as if I was a small infant child, the Cullens have told me that Edward was the fastest but their speed felt the same to me. Before I could really think more we were outside my the river. Emmett set me down, I was a little dizzy, he set his hands on my shoulders to steady me.
"Should I call for Jasper?" Emmett asked seriously.
"No, I can walk it off" I told him, he let me walk alongside the water, he took my hand in his the cool of his touch felt nice, he and Edward may have the same tempter but it felt different.
"Is he.. is he upset?" I asked after a few moments of silence. Emmett let out a breath.
"Bela, I.. yeah" He decided to tell my the truth, I never wanted to hurt him, Edward was the sun and my life was the solar system constantly revolving around him.
"I never wanted to hurt him" My voice cracked, a stupid tear made its way out of my eye. I sure as hell didn't want to cry in front of the toughest Cullen. Emmett pulled us to a stop.
"Let's sit" Emmett suggested, we face the trees on the other side of the river, he didn't let go of my hand.
"He isn't upset with you, he is upset that someone hurt you. He loves you, hell we all do. None of us want to see you hurt" Emmett told me, I bet Rosalie did.
"Is Rosalie upset at me?" I asked him, turning to look at his face.
"I think you're underestimating my wife. She isn't made at you either... you should probably talk to her later" Emmett told me, his head jerked over like someone had called his name.
"Bella are you okay to talk to him?" Emmett asked his thick eyebrows were squished together as he gazed at the house behind me.
"Of course" I said standing up but me being me I almost fell backwards, Emmett caught me by my arm giving me a halfhearted smile.
"Should I carry you?" He joked, I just nodded, he swept me up but walked a little faster than a human jog.
"Thank you... Beef Cake" I told him resting my head on his shoulder as we entered the home and Emmett carried me up to the third floor. He set me down in front of Edward's open bedroom door.
"If you need me, just call my name... I will here it" Emmett told me then he was gone, I waited a few moments then walked into the room, I was being wrapped up into cold arms, I tried to pull him so close that we could possibly mold into one person.
"Bella... I.. I'm sorry" Edwards voice broke, his shoulders shook, I could hear his abnormal breathing. Hearing the hurt in his tone made me start to cry with him.
"It's okay, how could you have k-known" I stuttered out, Edward held me closer if that was possible.
"I should've had Alice or someone stay behind with you... or at least had Alice looking into your f-"
"Edward stop" I told him, this was going to be harder then I thought. I pulled away slightly to look at his face, his eyes were boring into my soul.
"It happened before I even met you" I told him, confusion struck his features.
"I don't understand" Edward spoke slowly.
"Let's sit" I suggested just like Emmett had only a few minutes ago. He led me over to his couch sitting me down, our knees touched I turned to face him.
"It happened two years ago, you couldn't have stopped it okay? I don't want you to feel any guilt" I was trying to soothe the pain in his eyes, it was the pain that looks like it would torment the soul.
"I guess I should probably tell you the story. I just don't know how... I've never really told anyone" My voice broke.
"You don't have to, not right now. You have forever to tell me. I want you to tell me when you're comfortable" Edward spoke, his voice husky, I couldn't help but wonder that if he were human is that how his voice would sound when he would first wake up. I don't think I'll ever be "comfortable"
"Okay" I agreed, he leaned down resting his head on my shoulder as my fingers played with his hair.
"I don't want to ever leave" I spoke after a few minutes of silence, I felt safe here.
"Well then don't" Edward told me wrapping his arms around my middle.
"I won't" I whispered laying my head on his own.