Chapter 21

Yes I know it's late but I have a valid reason! I have literally been blocked with exams after each other, revision classes and handling my job! I didn't have anytime to squeeze it in and I am so so so so sorry! I love you guys I really do and thank you for bearing with me. Sorry for mistakes, I had to rush :(
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Christian emerged from the shadows. Oh my fifty. He embraced me into his strong arms and crushed me against his chest. I'll never get over the smell of him. His shirt was crumpled and creased like he slept in it, what was the time? Christian planted feather-like kisses in my hair.

'Baby, I thought I would lose you...I can't lose you Anastasia I just can't' He tightened his arms around my petite body causing me to cough for air. Immediately he pulled away and looked at me, 'You look awful, c'mon I'll get Dr Green to come around and check you over' I shook my head, my over-bearing protective fifty.

'Christian, I'm fine I just need to know everyone's okay then I want you to hold me, baby I was so scared' I whimpered and pulled my body back into his chest unaware of Taylor shouting at the poor new security, I was sure they were going to be fired. Heck even I agreed after all they let a psychopath in the house.

Christian tightened his grip around me, 'I failed you Anastasia, I promised I would never let no harm come to you or our children and I failed...I let her in our house and she tried to kill you' he inhaled sharply in my hair 'I could've lost you, Ana I can't lose you...not ever' I felt a tear trickle into my hair and down my face, my poor husband was crying, for me, for my loss.

'Christian I'm not going anywhere' I pulled back and looked at his face, the sauna lights radiated beautifully off his face. I was too immersed in this moment to realise that someone turned on the lights. His eyes were red and puffy tears trickling down his stubble. I pressed a light kiss on his stubble where the tears joined, 'You can't get rid of me baby, you always doubt my strength' I put on a weak smile but he knew that it didn't meet my eyes as he brushed a strand of my hair back onto my head.

'You don't have to be strong for me, I want to be strong for you' he ran his hands through my hair tugging it out of a messy ponytail. 'After twenty years of marriage you still won't let that Anastasia' he pressed his lips against mine. I opened my plump lips to let him in, letting him devour me. His lips were soft and plushy, gently I tugged his bottom lip inbetween my teeth and flicked my tongue over the contours of his lip. He let out a guttural groan and pulled himself away from me, 'No Anastasia, it's not the time you almost died and you want to fuck'

His words were blunt in my head, he still scolds me after all the years. He'll never change...but I don't want him to not ever. 'Sorry baby' I pleaded with him with my big eyes that I knew he couldn't resist. 'No' he whispered, gentle against my ear as he closed his eyes hugging me tightly against him. 'I won't ever let you out of my sight again, never again' he sent a icy glare to Taylor and I swear I saw him tremble but it was hard to tell from his hard, blank expression.

Theodore stood with Jaxon shaking on his hip and Phoebe next to him trying to sooth him by stroking his hair and whispering things that I couldn't hear from over here. Suddenly a dam broke down and floods of tears came washing down my face as I rushed over to my trio of angels.

Enwrapping them all in a tight hug I inhaled each of their scent, 'I thought I was going to lose you' I sobbed and felt Christian wrap his arms around us all kissing each of us individually.

Little was I aware of Lelia restrained and gagged by the new security that I didn't know. All I could hear was Taylor's barking orders, soon that bloke would give himself a heart attack. Lelia must have been caught and stopped by our rescuers when I was to immersed by Christian. He was my saviour, but today it wasn't. It was my eldest, Theodore.

I glanced up to see him, crushing me into his chest. 'Theodore...thank you' I managed to get out of my increasingly dry throat. I grabbed his head and peppered harsh kisses all over his face and curls. 'Oh Theodore' Expecting him to pull away he didn't, instead he wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me to him close as he started to break down sobbing into my neck.

'Mommy I was so scared' he whimpered trying to choke back his sobs as I kissed his head. Christian pulled Jaxon off Theodore as he shook in his arms. Christian placed his hand on Theodore's head to show his comfort in both children. 'I'm so sorry Theodore, I shouldn't have allowed to let her in or touch you. Baby I'd put your life before mine always and I've failed you all has a mom' I broke down in tears and clutched Phoebe into my other side as she sobbed.

'No mom, you aren't you were so brave you just wanted me and Jaxon out you didn't think of yourself' I smiled in his head, 'Theodore I always think of my children's safety before anyone else's, your dad does to'

My heart warmed as Theodore turned away from me and crushed himself into Christian, his body wracking with tears. Christian clasped his hand around his head passing me Jaxon so he wrapped his other arm around his waist pulling him to him and kissing his head. 'Dad I was so scared, I wanted you but you didn't come, so I tried to save mom but dad I was terrified, I didn't wanna die!' He bawled and I saw my husbands eyes tear up as I grasped Jaxon and Phoebe close to me.

'I'm sorry I didn't come, soon as I heard I came as fast as I could. Theodore you were so brave and I never want you to go through that ever but you did and I've failed you' I could see Christian's knuckles whiten as he clutched our beloved son closer, 'I failed Phoebe by letting her get hurt, I failed your mom by almost letting her die and I failed you and Jaxon by risking your entire safety through the hands of a psychopath' Theodore's head shook furiously. 'Dad you didn't know, how could you know? You're my hero' He looked up at his dad, eyes shining with fear but adoration he only had for his dad, 'You'll always be my hero daddy, but I failed you. I wanted to be a hero like you but heroes don't get scared'

Christian gaped at his son for a second before kissing his nose, 'The most bravest heroes get terrified, it's human nature but I promise you son I won't ever put you at risk, ever again' He looked at me and pulled us into him kissing our heads. 'I won't let any of you be in harm again' Slowly I leaned in and pressed my lips to him lightly before pulling away and mouthing 'I love you'

Looking towards Jaxon I put a dummy in his mouth, 'baby it was a game that's all' I tried to reassure him and he shook his head terrified, 'We won't play it again, I promise' I kissed his forehead and he held his pinky for a pinky promise. Putting on a bright grin for his sake I secured my pinky with his and shook a little. 'Shall we go to bed and read that bad woman away?' he nodded and snuggled his head on my shoulder clearly still frightened as his body shook in my arms.

Theodore looked me clearly tired, 'I'm going to get a drink' I nodded clearly concerned, 'Then go to bed baby, You aren't going school tomorrow' he nodded and padded off his shoulders telling me he was still tense.

Christian looked at Phoebe and pulled her into his arms, 'c'mon princess, time for bed' She nodded meekly her eyes drooping, I wasn't sure if it was from tiredness or her sustained injury. I kissed her head and gently stroked over the bandage as she padded away with Christian. He bent a little and scooped her into his arms like she was that young girl falling asleep on the couch waiting to be carried to bed. I smiled a little at the image, Fifty gave me a stern yet soft look as he managed to tug me with him.

'I'm not leaving you alone, Taylor is with Theodore and I have a security personal that I would trust with my life stationed at Theodore, Phoebe, Jaxon and our door' His tone was strict, blunt and entirely business-like. Normally my knees and I would be quaking for him with want but not tonight, I'm not sure I could face that after my children's lives were at risk. I nodded silently agreement and followed my husband as he gently dropped Phoebe on the bed. Sleeping soundly he placed a kiss to her head and guided me and Jaxon out. Him wide awake frantically looking around. Christian gave a curt nod to Luke as he stood, formal and stiff outside the door his face expressionless and almost cold.

We trailed to Jaxon's room and was met with one of the twin security Phillipe or Gaston. I don't know which one I could never tell the difference, I never could. We tucked Jaoxn into bed and hushed rocking him in his bed for hours, soothingly telling him stories for hours on end until he couldn't take the tiredness trying to take over him anymore forcing him into a dreamless sleep. I didn't move for an hour, watching him intently scared if looked away he would disappear. The bed lifted as Christian stood and walked behind me kissing my ear.

'Baby, c'mon we have to let him sleep' I shook my head watching him intently with a burning gaze. 'Yes Anastasia, he's fine do you really think I'd let anything happen to him again?' I shook my head and let Christian stand me up as he pulled my arm gently out and encased me into his side.

A loud cry was heard from the kitchen and we rushed towards the source to see Theodore on his knees crying and a anxious Taylor holding him in his rushed over and grabbed him hold and tightly, 'It's okay Theodore, it's okay' he cooed into his head trying to calm as Theodore climbed onto his lap like a scared five year old. Slowly I knelt beside them and stroked Theodore's hair off his face as he sobbed furiously.

Swiftly in one move Christian stood up holding Theodore in his arms and me wrapped in his side. 'Theodore you're tired, frantic and you need to get your sleep, it'll be okay I promise' I could see in my husband's stormy grey eyes that he was broken trying to hold it together. Oh my fifty.

'Baby let mom and dad put you to bed' I whispered soothingly and he nodded slowly and wearily at my words. Swiftly we walked into Theodore's room and I let my husband tuck our son gently in his bed. His eyes were dark and heavy and clearly trying to fight sleep. I knelt besides him and stroke the hair off his face placing a gentle kiss on his forehead, his nose then softly his lips. 'Sleep tightly baby, don't fight it' Eventually he let the sleep take him and Christian watched him.

'Baby go to bed, I'll keep an eye on him' I shook my head and walked to him, 'I need you Christian, please I was so scared' Finally I let my tears go in front of my husband and him only.

Embracing me in a hug he took a breath and scooped me into his arms bridal style, 'Bed Anastasia' I nodded not complaining just needing everyone safe so I can sleep, be away from the nightmare in the arms of my loved one. Before I knew what was happening I was placed down inbetween the plush, thick soft sheets. My clothes were tugged off me and replaced with a night gown. My eyes were growing increasingly heavy as I tried to focus on my beloved husband but it was all a blur, I felt his hot heavy arms around me as he pulled the duvet over us and I snuggled into his arms.

'Sleep now Anastasia, I won't let anymore harm come to you or our family. That I swear by' I really wanted to talk to him about how scared I was but my body was limp and shattered, my mind refusing to respond as my eyes grew heavier by the second. 'mhmm' was all I could let out. I knew for sure our children were sleeping safely and that's all I cared about. 'Sleep now baby, I love you' His feather-like lips lingered in my hair as I turned my body to him causing his lips to be planted on my forehead. Nodding in agreement I somehow tightened my arms around him.

'I love you' I clogged out, my senses to tired to be bothered to respond anymore. I drifted off in a restless sleep, waking up panicking about everyone. But everytime Christian would be there with his burning gazing holding me, soothing me back to sleep. My beloved husband putting everyone first before him, my fifty, my one and only. I love him and that is what will get me through this. Our love and our love for our trio of children that bonds us together. They were the strength I need, he was the strength that I relied on and I knew that his love for us built up his everlasting strength that he didn't knew he had. That is what made me love him each more everyday, his devoted love, his journey being turned into our journey.

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