Disclaimer: I do not own the rights for the characters. I thank L. J. Smith for creating this beautiful books, Julie Plec for creating the show and TheCW for showing it.

Okay so here's the update. I really made it. I'm so happy.

All I know is we said hello
So dust off your highest hopes
All I know is pouring rain
And everything has changed
All I know is a new found grace
All my days, i'll know your face
All I know since yesterday is everything has changed

-Taylor Swift feat. Ed Sheeran Everything has changed

10/06/2012, 11.22am, gym

"Elena get here!"

"But I have to go now."

"You told me, you would have to go the moment your parents are here. And I can't see them so get on that damn court!"

"Okay, Jules."

It was stupid of me to believe, that they would be here in time just once.

But I loved the game, so I didn't think about it anymore, which was the worst idea I've ever had, how I realized later.

So I played and I had fun. A lot of fun. Together with Bonnie I probably had the best game ever. I dribbled, passed the ball and scored. Nothing could stop me in that moment. But then I was thrown back into reality. My phone was ringing. Yeah brilliant. That's just what I needed right now. I was in such a good mood I couldn't handle my Mom right now. She would just tell me how sorry she was, but they wouldn't make it to pick me up and I would just have to take the bus.

But despite that, I told Jessica to replace me on the court and took my phone.

When I looked at the display I was confused. It wasn't my Mom, who was calling, it was my aunt.

Weird, I couldn't remember the last time she had called me. Why now?

But I picked up.

I can't remember what happened next. Or better, I don't want to remember.

The next thing I know, is that I picked up my stuff, changed into normal clothes and left the gym.

I ignored Jules, who was coming after me and ask why I had to leave to suddenly.

I ignored how Bonnie looked at me with concern in her eyes.

I ignored everyone and everything while I waited outside the gym.

I waited for my aunt to pick me up.

But Jules didn't want me to leave without answers. She followed me outside the gym.

"Elena what happened? We're winning big time and you're playing the game of your life-"

"It's not the game of my life. I hate it. I HATE IT! I'm never gonna play again. You can believe me that. Nothing will get me back on that court.", I screamed at her. She looked at me confused, but I didn't care. In that moment I saw the car of my aunt. She got out, picked up my bag, looked apologizing at Jules and got in the car next to me.

And then I drove away.

Away from Jules.

Away from the gym.

Away from my friends.

Away from my life.

18/11/2012, 1:53pm, Trevor's room

"Let go of me!"

"Come on sexy, I know you want it, too. Or do you want to be a stubborn little girl today? No, not with me. You fucked the entire school but not me or what? But do you know what?

There are bets. Terrible bets. Who's the next one? How many will there be this week? Or my favorites: When will she get pregnant or get a disease?"

I looked at him horrified, That couldn't be true. Bets? It was already that bad?

If they all just knew the truth. They wouldn't laugh at me anymore.

And Trevor, he just didn't know better.

So I just said: "You've probably bet that you are the next, haven't you? Just tell them we did it, okay? Tell them whatever the fuck you want. I don't care. Just leave me alone!"

I didn't want to let him see my tears. I fixed the buttons of my shirt, tried to safe the rest of my dignity and left.

Luckily I had a free period now. I would need it. I was just around the corner when I started to cry. And not just silent tears. I started to sob. And so I started to run. I just wanted to get back to my room.

Shit, I didn't know Caroline's schedule by heart. Hopefully she would have classes and wouldn't be in our room. I really needed it for myself right now.

But in just in the moment I went around the last corner I bumped into someone.

I just ignored the person, like I ignored a lot of things lately, and went on, trying to hide my tearcovered face. But then I heard shouts.

"Elena, wait!"

I didn't stop walking, not until I was in my room and sitting on the floor of my closet. There I broke down in sobs.

And I lost again.

I wasn't able to make the only goal I had in my life.

And then suddenly the door opened. Again. And I saw him. Again.

Couldn't he let me drown in my misery?

"Elena?"

"What do you want Damon? Damn. How did you get in my room?"

He didn't answer my questions. He just hold out his hand for me.

But I was stubborn. I didn't want his help. I didn't need it.

I could just deal fine with it. Alone. Why couldn't he just leave?

Leave, like everyone always did.

"Come on Elena! It's just a hand. I don't want to donate you my kidney or anything", he said and smiled and me.

Again this beautiful, breathtaking smile. But this time he meant it. He wasn't just suppressing his laughter.

I smiled back with a week halfsmile, but also took his hand and let him help me to get up.

"Okay, so now, what do you want from me?", I asked him again.

''Do you remember what I told you last time?''

Yes, I did. Every word. But why was he asking me that now?

Maybe my mascara was all over my face. Again.

But why should he follow me into my room then? I would probably fix it in here.

He recognized my confused face and understood that I didn't have a clue what he wanted to tell me with that. So he said:

''I told you, you should talk about it with someone.''

Ahhh he meant that. But now I was confused again. Did he mean I should talk to HIM about it? Or-

He cut off my thoughts. Again.

''I meant you could talk to me about it, if you want.''

Okay, so he did really mean it like that. But I couldn't tell.

Not after everything I went through to get what I have now.

Or could I tell him? What did I think. I couldn't. I put that thought back into my mind. Hopefully it wouldn't come out again.

''Thank you. But I'm fine again. Really. And there also isn't really something to talk about. I'm just having a bad week. But thank you for the offer.''

He was so sweet to me. And he was the first one, who really wanted to talk to me.

I don't know what I was thinking at that moment, but I finally asked.

''Do you already have a project partner for literature? If not, I don't have one either and I would like to be yours.''

Okay. What did I say. He would totally say no. I just sounded like a little girl, who was madly in love with him. Which I clearly wasn't.

"Yeah. Okay. I don't have one. And I would really like to work with you. But I have one condition.''

He had conditions. I looked at him curiously. What did he want?

Please don't say he wants the same like all the others and-

''You have to tell that to your lovers.''

And he smiled at me again. His blue eyes full of honesty and happiness.

And I couldn't believe my luck.

''Yeah. But that could also turn out to be your problem, if they want to punch you for it'', I joked with him.

''Okay. You can tell them, that I'm already shaking of fear.''

In that moment he saw the clock behind me.

''Shit. Is this clock working correctly?'' The sudden tension in his voice was unmistakably.

''Yes, why?''

''Because I don't have break now and the lesson started ten minutes ago.''

Oh. I hadn't thought about that. But luckily it was my lunch break now.

What class he might have now?

Just in the moment I wanted to asked him he stood up and walked to the door.

''Ciao Elena. I see you in literature.''

And with that he left.

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I hope I can upload the new chapter early on Thursday but I can't promise.

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