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Surprise! One more chapter today.

Yeah I'm just that good. Haha I'm only kidding. I just had more time then I thought today. So just enjoy it :D

Don't you cry for the lost
Smile for the living
Get what you need and give what you're given
Life's for the living so live it
Or you're better of dead

-Passenger Life's for the Living

07/06/2012, 1:43pm, kitchen

'' How was school today? ''

'' Just fine. We're gonna write a test in chemicals on Friday, but the rest was really fine. ''

My Mom looked at me angrily. Only because I complained about tests, she always looked at me like that. But I was used to that, so it didn't matter anymore.

'' And what about you, Jer. Everything fine?''

'' Yes. Perfect as always.''

Yes, that was typically my little brother. But little may be a bit wrong. He was about 6'0" tall. But that wasn't the point at the moment.

'' So Mom, there's this game on Saturday and I wanted to ask if I could go?''

I looked at her with my best imitation of big, deer eyes. Maybe she would allow it then.

Okay normally I could go to every game I wanted, but this weekend we wanted to make a family trip, which would probably turn out to be boring as hell, but what did I care.

'' Elena, you know you don't have time!''

'' But Mommy. The game is at 11 am and the trip only starts at 12:15 pm. If you pick me up, I could play until halftime break, shower and then we would still be in time, wouldn't we?''

'' Let's see. The game starts at 11 am? I'll talk about it with your dad, okay?''

'' Okay. Thank you Mom.''

In that moment the phone started to ring. I hurried to pick it up. If it was the call I waited for, I didn't want my Mom or brother to pick it up.

'' Hello?''

'' Hey Elena, it's me, Bonnie. I just wanted to ask you if you're going to play on Saturday?''

'' Hi Bonnie. I don't know yet. I just talked about it with my Mom and she told me she had to think about it. But I think she will give in.''

'' And did Kol already call you?''

Ahh that's why she called, to talk about my love life. But she was my best friend. So she was allowed to talk about it.

'' No he didn't. But he should call any moment. Ciao, see you tomorrow.''

'' Ciao sweetie. And good luck with Kol.''

And five minutes later he really called and we scheduled a date for Sunday evening.

18/11/2012, 6:42pm, gym (at the boarding school)

'' Hey Elena, you're actually punctual once.''

Caroline walked to me with a bright smile on her face and hugged me.

'' I heard about what happened in literature. They fought about being your partner, seriously? Did you at least choose one? And where have you been for lunch break. Trevor told everyone you'd been in his room with him and you had sex. Please tell me he's lying. I mean, seriously, Trevor? You could get everyone and you chose him? Ahh and did you hear about Lexi. She supposedly broke up with Lee, because he made out with Andie'', she was bubbling.

Wow, she could talk that much and that fast, that sometimes you couldn't even follow everything she was saying.

'' Hey Care. Slow down. Breathe in. About my project partner, I already have one, but I asked him and not the other way. And about Trevor. Yes, we've been in his room, but no I didn't sleep with him.

And that about Lexi isn't relevant anymore. They're back together, because Lee told her she's his epic love.''

'' And how do you know that? Who's your partner? And you always tell me you didn't sleep with anyone. Nobody believes that anymore.''

I just wanted to protest and tell her the name of my partner, when Rebekkah, our captain, came into the gym.

'' Okay girls. There's a big game on Saturday. I want us to be in perfect shape for that. So in position and let's go!''

So that was the end of our conversation and the start of practice.

I loved it. I was a second Brooke, like Rebekkah used to say.

For a short moment I forgot everything around me and was one with the moves.

Practice always made me forget all the bad things in my life.

The sadness. The bad memories. Everything was gone for the moment.

I wished it would be like that all the time.

But after one hour and fifteen minutes practice was over. And I remembered everything again.

And then I saw him. He was standing in the doorway.

The moment he saw me he smiled.

I wanted to go to him and talk to him but then Stefan was next to him, tipped him on the shoulder and they went to the locker rooms together.

Yeah right. After cheerleading there was basketball practice. How could I have forgotten that?

Caroline just gathered her stuff as I went next to her to pick up my bag.

'' Okay spill the beans. What was that with Damon. You nearly ate him with your looks. Is there something between you?'', Caroline asked me like the Gossip Girl she was.

'' There isn't anything going on between us. He's just my literature partner. Not more'', I answered her.

'' Yeah, believe what you want. I know what I've seen.''

And with that she went back to our room.

12/06/2012, 11:48am, my room

I looked at my phone.

23 new messages. Who wanted to contact me that urgently?

The first three messages were from Jules. She wanted to know, if I was fine, why I was in such a hurry to leave and if I really meant it like that.

I deleted all of them.

The next one was from Bonnie, but she asked almost the same as Jules.

No interesting messages at all. Despite one. One message was from Kol:

Elena, where R U? Maybe you forgot it, but we had a DATE. So if you decide that I'm worth your time and you might want to show up, forget about it. I'm done. I really liked you, but not anymore. It's over. So forget about me!

Kol

Ohh. The date with Elijah. I totally forgot about that. But why care, I wouldn't have shown up either way. There I would have to talk. And what should I talk about. I would have had to be happy. And that I couldn't be at the moment.

Not after what had happened.

My phone vibrated and I got a new message.

Again from Bonnie. She was writing me the whole day.

Elena, where R U?

Elena, R U fine?

Elena, why aren't you in school?

Elena, what happened?

Elena, call me!

Okay the next one was interesting.

Elena, what's wrong with you? I just talked to Kol and he told me, you didn't show up yesterday and you didn't even call him. Why Elena? You're talking about him for ages. You told me how much you liked him and when you actually have a date with him you don't show up. What the hell is your problem. If you decide to talk to anyone again, call me. Xoxo Bonnie

Really interesting. Kol went immediately to my best friend to tell her about it.

Brilliant, now I was mad again. Mad at Kol. How could he? And why? Why? Why did they leave me? Why did they leave me back all alone? How could they do that to me?

I wasn't thinking about Kol anymore. Obviously this was about something else. Something more.

19/11/2012, 12:34pm, literature class

'' Hey Elena.''

'' Hey Damon. How are you?''

I sat next to him. The sitting order didn't matter anymore.

For the work on the project, Mr.. Tanner told us, there weren't normal lessons anymore.

We didn't even have to show up in class anymore. We could also work on our projects in the evening if we wanted.

But today we would get our topic.

'' So now you pick one paper per team. On that piece of paper is one word. You're supposed to write about what this word means. You can look it up in the internet, ask your classmates or whatever. But at the end you should have about ten pages about your term. You're in pairs of two, because everyone will probably connect your topic with something different. The partner should prevent you from just writing about that aspects of your word.''

Aha. Very interesting task. Define a word. That couldn't be that hard.

Mr.. Tanner came to me and Damon and let us pick a word.

Pain

Only one word. That word. I already knew enough about it. But that I didn't want to tell anyone. Not even Damon.

But how should I make this project work, if I couldn't talk about my own experiences.

A tear was streaming down my cheek. One single tear.

I quickly wiped it away.

Damon hadn't seen it. I hoped.

'' Should we meet at 6:30 pm at my house.''

Damon brought my thoughts back to reality. Again.

'' I have practice at 6:45 pm. So maybe a bit earlier? What about 5:30 pm?''

'' Yeah okay. 5:30 pm is fine.''

And so he left.

And I was deep back in my thoughts.

So that comment about Brooke, it's from One Tree Hill. I love that show soo deal with the hints. So now I really won't upload anymore until Thursday/Wednesday. So have a beautiful weekend. Thank you for the follows and favorites. And also Thank you for the reviews. I really appreciate them. So R&R as always.

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