Boarding School Chapter 4- Under, a vampire diaries fanfic

Disclaimer: I do not own the rights for the characters. I thank L. J. Smith for creating this beautiful books, Julie Plec for creating the show and TheCW for showing it.

I'm back ;D Paris was great,, but I really missed writing so I'm glad I can do it again.

So here's chapter 4.

Don't leave me alone with me
See, I'm afraid
Of the darkness
And my demons
And the voices
Saying nothing's gonna be OK

-Alex Hepburn Under

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17/06/2012, 2:23am, bathroom

This pain. This endless pain.

I just wanted it to stop. Just didn't want to feel it anymore.

Feel anymore.

But nothing made it better. Nothing at all.

It didn't get better.

So I took a painkiller.

But it still didn't get better.

So I took another one.

And another one.

And at some point the box was empty.

And I blacked out.

I felt the ground under my cheek.

And then I didn't feel anything at all. Finally.

The pain was gone. Everything was gone.

I heard someone call my name, but it was too far away.

And even if I tried to find the origin of the voice, I would then have to feel the pain again.

After a short time the voice was gone again.

And everything went black again.

And every feeling was gone again.

But just for a short time.

And then one feeling came back.

Fear.

I didn't want this. I didn't want to die.

I still had friends. I still had family.

I really didn't want this. So I started to fight.

I fought against the darkness.

And when I felt pain again, I knew I had won.

I was alive. And then I also heard the voice again.

19/11/2012, 5:29pm, Damon's house

Wow. In the light the house seemed even bigger.

The door got opened.

'' Hey Elena! Come in!''

I got in and followed him into the living room. First I saw the large piano. It nearly took in a quarter of the room. And the room was really large.

And the I saw the glassdoor. Or better what was at the other side of the door.

A huge pool.

What I would give for to swim in there right now.

I turned around a saw that Damon was watching me.

'' You've been here before, haven't you?'', he was joking with me.

'' Yeah I was. But in the darkness I hadn't seen the pool last time. Or the piano.''

'' Do you play?'' He looked at me curious.

'' A bit. But not that well. I've never really had the time to learn it properly.''

'' You didn't? What did you do that took all your time?

He smiled at me. I was sure, he only did it so I would tell him the truth.

But I was a perfect liar.

But when I wanted to answer him, I had an other idea.

Why should I lie to him with this?

It didn't matter if he knew it or not.

'' I had practice. Or games. But mostly practice.''

Okay. I was a bit surprised by my answer. I wasn't that honest in a long time.

'' Which kind of sport? Or has it always been cheerleading?''

'' No. I only started cheerleading when I came here. I used to play basketball.''

Again, I was totally surprised by my honesty.

'' Mhh. You and basketball. It's hard to imagine that. You're not taller than 5'7", are you?''

He smiled. Irresistibly and long.

'' Size isn't everything. I was really good.''

And now I smiled at him. With a really bright smile.

I didn't plan on doing that. But it was an honest smile, which I hadn't done in a long time. Because I haven't had much fun lately.

'' Okay so I only believe that if I see it. But even if you were good, why did you stop then? You could play here, too.''

Shit. I either had to lie or tell him the whole truth. Stop. What was I thinking. I had to lie.

'' I don't really know. It was just somehow over. I didn't go to practice anymore, ignored my coaches and just quit.''

He looked at me with a weird expression on his face. I couldn't tell what he was thinking about. But I really wanted to know why he looked at me like this.

But then he changed the subject.

'' So I think we should start working on our project. Do you already have any ideas?''

'' Yes. I would say we start by looking up the definition in different encyclopedias and the internet. Then we can ask a few people and sum up what we got. At the end we put our own opinion in and then we're finished.''

Puh. Change of subject. Yeah I really needed it. Otherwise I would have told him more. And I wasn't ready for that.

And I also could hopefully have put off my own opinion as long as possible. Until then I had time to come up with something. I needed to.

We worked for another hour and then I went back to the school.

17/06/2012, 2:17pm, hospital

'' Where am I?''

The darkness was finally gone and I was lying in a room I've never seen before. Everything was white and somber. Hopeless.

'' Oh my gosh. You're awake. I'm so glad.''

That was my cousin. Why did he sound so concerned? And damn it, where the hell was I?

I looked around again. At the wall there was a TV. Nothing unusual.

But, weirdly, the bed had wheels.

Oh, now I got it. I finally knew where I was. In a hospital.

And then I remembered why and how I got here.

After I had fought against the darkness my cousin tried to keep me awake. After some time, which felt like hours, the ambulance came and brought me to the hospital.

'' Elena, why did you do that?''

He always asks directly. That was who he was. And that was what I liked about him.

'' I don't know, Matt. I don't know.''

And then I broke down. I broke down in tears. Badly. I was sobbing and my whole body was shaking.

It was the first time I cried at all after the accident.

After a while I managed to calm down and my aunt came in.

'' Elena, I think you should talk to someone. And if not with us, then at least with a psychologist.''

'' Okay.''

Just one word. I didn't say more. Only that one word.

But I really meant it. I was really serious.

I couldn't do it anymore, not like it was before. I needed to change something. And I believed that was what I needed.

23/11/2012, 5:15pm, my room

Damn was it hot today. 95 degree Fahrenheit and that at the end of November.

Nobody should have to live with that.

I was just packing my stuff to go to Damon's to work on our literature project. I was there every day for the last four days and I also hung out with him and his friends, including Caroline and Rebekah, at lunch.

When I was just about to leave my room my phone rang. I needed an eternity to find it in my purse.

'' Hello?''

'' Hey Elena, here's Damon.''

'' Hey Damon. How are you?''

'' Fine and you?''

'' Also. I'm just on my way to you.''

'' Are you already far?'' No, was he doing what I thought he was doing? Did he really want to cancel? Us working together was what brought me through the day. That and of course cheerleading.

'' I just went out the door. Why?''

I didn't want him to cancel. I should have just pretended to be nearly at his house... shit.

'' I was just thinking that it's way to hot to work today.''

NO. He really wanted to cancel. But before I could think more he continued.

'' So what do you say about abandoning our project for the day and going swimming instead? I mean, how often can I use my pool in November?''

What? He didn't want to cancel? My mood lightened in a second. And swimming was just what I needed now.

'' Sounds awesome and I think we could also need a break of working. So I'm just gonna change and then head to your house, okay?''

'' Okay. See you soon. Ciao Elena.''

'' Ciao Damon.''

So that was chapter 4. I know it's not that long. I just wanted to upload as soon as possible so you don't have to wait too long.

Someone asked why Jenna called Elena?

That's what I wanted with that kind of writing style. I wanted not to tell you everything immediately.

But I think, they're a lot of hints in the story. And I promise if you don't know what happened after this chapter, you will definitely know it after the next.

It's amzing how many of you actually like my story. I've never thought of that.

Special thanks again to Emogirl506 she's my first reader ever and always reviews so thank you for that ;D