Disclaimer: I do not own the rights for the characters. I thank L. J. Smith for creating this beautiful books, Julie Plec for creating the show and TheCW for showing it.

I'm b-a-c-k. I know it's been long, but I've been busy and abroad, so I couldn't write.

I also had some kind of writing blockade after writing part of this chapter, so it took me longer than normal to write it.

Oohh the reason I hold on
Oohh cause I need this hole gone
Funny you're the broken one but I'm the only one who needed saving
Cause when you never you see the light it's hard to know which one of us is caving

Not really sure how to feel about it
Something in the way you move
Makes me feel like I can't live without you
It takes me all the way
I want you to stay... Stay...

-Rihanna Stay

03/09/2012, 2:29 pm, boarding school design class room

So that was the last period of my first day. Until now I liked every single class and I hoped that would continue with this one. I wouldn't have cheerleading for two more days and then there would be the try-outs, but Caroline promised to practice with me. So design was my last class today. I was really excited because I didn't really know what to expect. I was standing in front of the classroom, the door still locked. There were only about six other girls with me and I didn't know if this was all or if the others just were late.

A small, a bit round woman came to the classroom and unlocked the door. She turned around and smiled at us.

'' Get in my beautiful young ladies. We'll have a lot of fun this year, won't we?''

Yep, I already liked her. She reminded me a bit of my grandma, but also a bit of the cat I'd had when I was younger. She seemed really nice and open minded.

After I got in the room I was shocked by it. But in a good way. The room was the most beautiful classroom I've ever seen. It had big windows and was really bright. The walls were covered with sketches, drawings and pictures of amazing dresses and outfits. There was a table with breathtaking fabrics on it in every possible color. There were also buttons, zippers and everything you needed for making clothes.

There were only ten tables in the room, but everyone of it was large, with a big sketchbook, pencils and a sewing machine on it. And next to every table was a mannequin to dress.

I choose a seat, still amazed by the room, when I looked at the mannequin at the front. It was wearing the most amazing dress I've ever seen. It was a pink one, with a heart shaped top and a loose, long skirt.

Then it was the first time I took a better look at my teacher, Mrs. Flowers. Her clothes seemed a bit crazy, but they still matched perfectly and somehow also fitted her. She wore a green, mustered top, loose, orange trousers and a red vest. It would have looked crazy and dumb on any other person, but it just fit her perfectly.

'' So, my name is Theophilia Flowers and I'm going to be your design teacher for the next school year. Our class is rather small, we're only seven pupil but that's perfect with me. So just that you know it, the first two to three weeks we're just going to sketch and then I'm going to teach you how to make a dress, top, trouser... just whatever you like to make.

Everyone of you will have to plan a big fashion show at the end of thee school year, which will present some of your clothes. But I will tell you the details when the time comes. And now we're gonna start with those sketches.''

After 45 more minutes the class was finished and I knew I chose the right subject. I already loved it.

26/11/2012, 12:38 am, Damon's house

'' Oh my god. Nathan is really an ass.''

I hit him playfully.

'' Don't you dare saying one bad word about him or I will probably never talk to you again.''

We've watched One Tree Hill for the past 7 hours and only took breaks to get some dinner and to go to the bathroom. We nearly watched the whole first season.

'' Why not Elena? Are you in love with him?''

He teased me. I knew he would.

'' No I'm not.'' But because I blushed I added. '' At least not anymore.''

He started to laugh.

'' I knew it. Elena Gilbert would always fall for the bad guy.''

He still laughed, now holding his stomach and nearly falling of the couch. But I wouldn't be me if I wouldn't counter with something.

'' First of all, Nathan is not the bad guy anymore he changed, second I'm not falling for the bad guys, I'm falling for the good looking ones and third at least now you don't have to be worrying about me falling for you, because you're neither bad nor good looking.''

I teased him. I knew it was a lie. He might not be bad, but he was definitely good looking, with his raven black hair and his piercing blue eyes. And because he was a basketball pro he had a body like a Greek god and I didn't need to fall for him anymore, I already did. He just didn't know. Yet.

He took his hand to his heart.

'' Ouch, Elena now I'm hurt. I have to admit I don't spend as much time on styling my hair as Stefan. But I never thought I was that ugly.''

Okay he knew I lied about that.

'' Okay now I definitely know that you love yourself.''

'' Didn't you already know that?'' He smirked at me. He still wanted to tease me. And I didn't know what to say to counter him anymore. I already gave all the good ones away.

So I just decided to not say anything and took the popcorn instead and put a handful in my mouth.

We sat in silence for a few seconds, both staring at the TV before Damon turned his attention back to me.

'' Do you really think I'm worried about you falling for me?''

I didn't see that one coming. I just told it to tease him. I never really meant to. And now I didn't have an answer. I just looked at him, not sure what to say. He looked at me like he expected me to answer, but I really didn't know what to say. I didn't know if I was ready for this. I didn't know if I was ready to be rejected or to be accepted. I just didn't know how I felt. I still looked at him. His blue eyes locked with mine and few a short moment everything was clear. I knew what I wanted. And because I knew it I moved closer to him. Our faces were so close, our lips only centimeters away and I wanted nothing more than to kiss him in that moment. My eyes moved out of his view and I stared on his lips. And in that moment I lost the clearness I had before. I still knew I desperately wanted to kiss him, but my head got in the way. There were now a thousand but what ifs and buts and I was shy again. Not sure what to do. I tried to avoid looking back into his eyes and looked at the wall next to his head instead. And there was my perfect getaway.

'' Shit, it's nearly 1 am. I should have left here 5 minutes ago.''

I started to panic. A bit because of the time. But I was sure I would make it just in time. But more about how close we haven been and how Damon just didn't do anything. If he didn't want to kiss me he could have at least stopped me. But he just sat there, looking at me in anticipation for an answer.

I jumped of the couch and got my purse.

'' I'm so sorry I have to go in the middle of the episode. But you have to promise me not to watch it without me, okay?''

I still wanted to spend time with him. And that was my guarantee I could. Because I've seen how much he liked watching it.

He looked disappointed. I didn't know if it was because of our nearly kiss, because I had to leave now or if it was because he couldn't watch One Tree Hill anymore.

But then he smiled and gave me a hug.

'' Promise, I wouldn't do that. Be safe and have a good night.''

And with that I went back.

05/09/2012, 5:48 pm, gym

I was so nervous. Only a few more minutes and then it would be my turn. I practiced the whole week with Caroline and she told me I'm a natural talent and that I shouldn't worry to get in the team. But I still was. I mean, there were only four spots and I desperately needed one. Not only for my reputation which I started to build up this week, but also I recognized how much I loved cheerleading and also how much I liked Caroline. So getting in the team was the best way to be popular, dance and spend time with my new friend. I now just had to make it.

'' Elena Gilbert, please.'' Rebekah announced my name. I'd already met her before, because I spent lunch with Caroline and she introduced me to all of her friends, who are all in the squad.

I still was nervous. I tried not to show it, but I don't know how effective that was. I went to the spotlight in the middle and waited for the music to start. I looked at the jury. There were of course Bekah and Care, but also Isobel, Katherine and Pearl. I knew all of them and they all smiled cheerfully at me. I think they all hoped I would be good enough to make it into the team, because they already liked me somehow.

So then the music started and at the beginning I was really concentrated on what Caroline taught me. The steps were easy to do, but in the same time looked really difficult and only experienced cheerleaders would know them. But as I mentioned, Caroline thought I was a natural talent, which maybe was true.

So when I heard the first refrain of the song I forgot about all my worries and nervousness and just became one with the song. I danced as if there was now tomorrow. After the song was finished I just had to say some cheers for the basketball team, the Mystic Fall's Ravens and then was done.

From then on I could only wait. I'd given my best and hopefully it would be enough. I went back to my place and watched the others.

When I randomly looked to Caroline she saw it and smiled at me with a bright and big smile and the I knew I made it. It wasn't official yet, but I still knew. And I was happy, like I hadn't been in a long time. I still had to wait until everyone was finished and the team finished discussing.

'' So all of you were very encouraged and you were all good. But some of you were a bit better then others. So we found four girls for the team and I will now announce them. All the others, please don't be sad. I'm sure the B- and C-team will be happy to have you in their team and you still can try next year. So now to the four lucky girls. Rose, Greta, Emily and Elena. Congratulations, you are in the team.''

I knew it, but still was so happy I jumped up and ran to Caroline. Before I could think about it I hugged her.

'' Thank you so much for practicing with me. I don't know what I've done without it.''

'' Elena, now I'm the one that can't breathe.''

I let go of her and started to laugh.

'' I'm sorry Care.''

'' It's okay Lena.''

And the she hugged me again and we were both happy.

Less then a month and the it's TVD thursday again. I don't know how I /we survived it, but we did. And can't wait for season five after all the Delena pictures I've seen so far. So for all of us, please October hurry up.

So to the story, just be patient with Delena, they'll have a few more little moments until they come together. I already know that moments and how they'll come together. Everythings planned I just have to find the time to write it. I'm back to school now and basketbal starts again so I'm really busy, but I promise I'll find time.

So I changed the mascot into a raven. One reason is of One Tree Hill, but also because Damon is a raven in the TVD books (I never really got it in the show). So I found that kind of funny. I hope you don't hate me for it.

Thank you for the support I got while I wasn't updating. It meant a lot.

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