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I wasn't taught this way,
With a thousand things to say.
I was born with a broken heart.
What I'd give for that first night when you were mine.
Thought you were mine.

So I'll put this cigarette to bed,
Pull some sheets from off you side.
I put my arm around you safe in the night.

Cary Brothers Belong

Sunday, 27/11/2012, 9:30 am, boarding school

That was the only thing that really sucked at boarding school. Breakfast.

It wasn't that it's not good it's just the time I hated about it. You could eat from 6:45 am to 9:30 am. And weekends were no exception.

So this meant no breakfast for me today. I was just so tired when I got home from Damon last night and didn't hear my alarm in the morning. And now I'd ran to the cafeteria to be there the exact minute they closed.

Hopefully I had some cereal bars left in my room. Otherwise I would be starving until lunch.

I just went back to my room when I bumped into someone. I started to smile because of how often I accidentally ran into Damon. But when I looked up it wasn't him.

It was Trevor.

'' Look who we got here.''

I decided to ignore him. So I just went on walking, but he immediately took my wrist.

'' Where do you think you're going Elena? I think we have something to talk about.''

'' I don't think so Trevor. I think you said enough the last time I saw you and I know you got what you wanted, because now everyone thinks I'm even a bigger slut because I slept with you, which I didn't do. And I know that's all because of you. So I have nothing to say to you. Just let me go.''

I tried to free my arm, but he didn't let go. Strengthened his grip on me.

'' Trevor stop it! You are hurting me.''

He really was. My fingers started to get numb because they didn't get any blood anymore and I cried out in pain.

'' Nanana, I think I can make you cry other things out in a more pleasuring way. Because Elena, you know, I decided to give you a second chance. Maybe it was just not your day the last time we were at my room. But I know you want me.''

I really couldn't believe what I just heard. After everything he throw at my head the last time I saw him and after what i told him then and also now, he still didn't get it.

'' Trevor are you really that dumb. I would never sleep with you, even if you'd been the last man on planet. What do you think would make me want to? The way you treat me? Yeah, hurting my hand is definitely what I like. Or calling me a slut? A total turn on. So now just let go of me and leave me alone!'' I screamed. I was in pain and hungry and he just made me totally mad.

I tried to free my wrist again. But even if I think it wasn't possible he strengthened his grip again.

The pain was nearly unbearable but I tried not to start to scream. I didn't want to make a scene. But I couldn't stop the tears forming in my eyes.

'' Please Trevor let me go.'' I begged. Something I never did. But it just hurt so much and I started to get scared of what he could do. Would he force me to sleep with him? I still could shout, maybe someone would hear me and help me then.

'' Oh sweet Elena. Now you are begging. That's what I want to see in bed with you. So stop being the prude you turned in and pull out your old self. You know you want it.''

He still wouldn't let me go. Should I scream now? But I really didn't want to make a scene. That would cost me my reputation. The one were I was independent and strong. But I could also...

'' Okay you got me Trevor. I want you. You're the only one that really knows me. The new me? That's just a mask. But i can't hold it up anymore. I need you.''

I tried to let my voice sound seductively and looked at him alluring.

With my free hand I stroke his cheek and I could see his mood change. His eyes turned dark of lust and I really hoped he would go of my hand now, because he was so horny I didn't know if I would be strong enough to fight him. He was still taller and stronger then me.

'' There's my bad girl. I knew you were in there somewhere. So your room or mine?''

He let go of my wrist. That was my chance.

'' None. You are really dumb.''

but before I could turn around and get away I felt a horrible pain in my cheek. It was worse then the one in my wrist had been. This freaking bastard had really slapped me. How could he?

I started crying and the tears started to flow again. I sank to the ground holding my hurting side of my face.

Before I could look back up I heard the sound of a fist hitting flesh and then I heard Trevor screaming.

'' You freaking bastard. You will regret this. I swear it to you. And you Elena, we are not done yet.''

And then I heard him storming away. The next second I felt the presence of someone near me. I finally found the courage to look up again and then I saw him. My eyes met his blue ones and I throw my arms around his neck and buried my face in his chest. And there I was, sobbing in his arms and he tightening his hold on me.

Damon Salvator.

My personal savior.

Monday, 08/10/2012, 3:47 pm, my room (boarding school)

'' Caroooooliiiiiiiiiiiinnnneeee!''

I screamed, I was so happy. I just opened the door to our room when I shouted out for her.

And then I saw she wasn't even in the room. Just when my mood started to change, she opened the door to our bathroom.

'' What Elenaaaaaaaaa?'' She sounded a bit annoyed. And then I saw why. She was shaving her legs and had shaving cream on half of her right one.

'' I really need your help, but I think it can wait until you're finished.''

'' Good.'' With that she closed the door again and I had time to think about what I had to do. After five long weeks of sketching clothes and learning how to sew Mrs. Flowers told us that we would now start making our first own dress. I was happy, when not more. I just had so many sketches and couldn't decide which one I should take for my first dress. It had to be something special, but still, shouldn't be too difficult to make. It was my first dress.

I knew I would have to wait a few minutes for Caroline, so I decided to already take out my designs and look through them. Maybe i could kick some out before I showed them to Care. And I have to admit, I was also a bit nervous. I didn't show my sketches to anyone besides my teacher and Caroline had a good taste in fashion, so it would be hard if she didn't like them.

Five minutes later I excluded already half of the designs when Caroline came out of the bathroom.

'' Okay Elena, what do you need my help with?''
'' Mrs. Flowers told us we would be making our first dress out of one of our own designs and I just cannot pick one out.''
'' Then let me see them!''
She came closer to my table and I handed her the batch of papers.

'' Elena these are like 50 papers! How did you draw so much in onlly five weeks?''
'' Actually, these are only half of what I draw. I already decided against the other ones.''
She looked at me in disbelieve. I couldn't believe it myself that I made that many sketches. It was just that after I started I just couldn't stop.

Caroline started to look at the first design. I watched her face closely, still nervous. I wanted to see her reaction. And then I saw it. Her eyes brightened and her lips built a little smile.

'' I really like this one. It's totally beautiful. But let me see the others first.''
And she really looked at all of them. After one hour and at least thirty

'' Oh my god Elena, that dress is amazing'' and '' Elena, you should just quit school and start designing for a big company'', we decided on one dress. It was one on my favourites from the beginning. It was strapless, ended at the middle of the tights, had a heart shaped neckline and was loose. It was planned to be in a flower pattern and with a belt at the waist. It was claerly a summer dress, but it was perfect for the beginning.

So it was all settled. I would start making my first dress tomorrow and I couldn't wait for it.

I had to promise to make Caroline one too some other time, but this one was especially for me.

Saturday, 28/03/2002, 10:54 am, animal shelter

'' Okay Elena, Jeremy, you have to decide on one animal you both like okay? We will really get only one.''

I already knew what I wanted. A puppy. Bonnie had one. Her name was Tara and she was so little and she was white with black dots. Bonnie's Mom said it was a Dalmatians, but I didn't know what that was. Jeremy took my hand and looked at me with his little eyes.

'' Come on Lena. I want a kitten, pleaseeeee.''

'' No Jeremy I'm sorry, we will get a puppy, just like Bonnie.''

So I pulled him to the spot where I've seen the dogs. And there was a little light brown one, with big blue eyes.

'' Look Jer. This one looks so beautiful.''

My 4-year old brother looked at the little dog and then started to cry.

'' Noooooooo. I want a kitten. Please Mommy. I don't want a dog.

My parents just looked at us unsure what to do.

I looked at my little brother. His face was already covered with tears and his eyes were puffy and red. I hated seeing him cry. I still was his big sister and I had to protect him. But I wanted a puppy.

I looked at him again. Okay, maybe my brother was more important.

'' Jeremy don't cry, please. I hate it when you cry. I promise, we'll get a kitten. But only if I get to name it.''

Jeremy eyes brightened.

'' Really? Thank you Elena.''

And then he hugged me and we went to the cats.

'' Lena, how do you like this one?''

Jeremy pulled me to one of the kittens. It was one of the smallest cats I've ever seen. It was something between brown and orange but had a black face and black dots on its legs. Its eyes were in a beautiful green. My absolutely favorite color.

'' I love it. Daddy, is it a boy or a girl?''

Daddy came over and kneed next to me. He looked at the sign next to the cat.

'' It's a girl. You wanna take it.

Jeremy and I both nodded.

'' And we're going to name it Yuki.''

Okay, so I decided to add the days because it was a bit confusing without them. I'm not planning on adding them to the previous chapters but if you really want me to I'll think about it. I didn't plan on updating today either, bcause you know it's Friday the 13th and yes I believe bad things happen on Fridays the 13th s. But I finished today and I'm not sure if I'm able to be at my computer tomorrow and I really didn't want you to wait until Sunday.

Next chapter is what comes after Elena's encounter with Trevor and after Damon saved her. I actually wanted to put it in this chapter but it would have been too long. So I put the design part in it, because this will be a big part of Elena. ;D The part about Elena's childhood was just something to lighten the mood and hopefully to love her even more. (For me that's not possiible, I already adore her).

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