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Next chapter. I got inspired today and wrote it all at once. One of the songs that inspired me was Shelter ;D Okay the whole Birdy album inspired me, but that song in particular.

Can I be, was I there
It felt so crystal in the air
I still want to drown whenever you leave
Please teach me gently how to breathe

And I'll cross oceans like never before

So you can feel the way I feel it too
And I'll send images back at you
So you can see the way I feel it too

Birdy Shelter

Sunday, 27/11/2012, 9:58 am, boarding school

I was still in his arms, still crying, his arms still caressing my back. It felt perfect, but what just happened shocked me too much to feel well.

'' Elena, do you think you can stand up. We should get you to your room.''

Damon's word pulled me back into reality. And for the first time I really looked up. It was like a miracle that no one was around. Maybe it was because it was Sunday.

I didn't want to leave my position, but I could see Damon's point. It wasn't the best to sit on the floor in the middle of a school hallway. So I nodded and let go of him. He got up before me and hold his hand out for me to take it. After he helped me up, he lay his arm over my shoulder to comfort me and guided me to my room. When I recognized our direction I spoke for the first time.

'' Damon, please, I don't want to be in this building at the moment.''

My tears still streamed down my face when he looked at me and then nodded.

'' Okay, my house it is then.''

And so he walked me back to his house. I tried to keep my mind distracted with everything other then what just happened. So I thought about my designs. What could I do next? Maybe I could do another one for Care?

I was so deep in thoughts that I didn't even recognize we were already at the house and Damon situated me on the couch. Only when he was about to leave I noticed and started to sob again.

'' Damon please don't leave me!''

He then turned around, looking more worried than before.

'' Oh Elena.''

That was all he said before he came back to me and hugged me again.

For the first time I let my mind think about what happened and came to one conclusion.

'' It's all my fault. Everything is my fault.''

I started to cry harder and tried to tighten my grip around Damon. But he pushed me away and looked me in the eyes. I've never seen him more devastated and more shocked. Even right after the attack he didn't look like this.

'' Elena Gilbert, don't you dare saying or even thinking such a thing. It's not your fault. That's not even close to the truth. It's not your fault that Trevor is such a sick person, who believes it's okay to treat you like this. You did nothing wrong. Do you get that?''

I just shook my head. It was my fault. If I had handled things differently from the beginning after I came here, this wouldn't have happened. Everyone believed I was a slut, and because of that I didn't deserve anything else.

'' It was my fault. I deserve it. I deserved every bit of it. If I had just not told Finn to tell everyone, they wouldn't think I'm a slut. But I did, so I deserve it.''

Now Damon looked angry.

'' Elena, I have no idea what you are talking about, and what happened with Finn, but I know that you are one of my best friends and that after the short time that we now each other. You are one of the most caring and sweetest persons I know and you are anything than a slut. And now listen to me, you absolutely did not deserve this. Do you get it. YOU DID NOT DESERVE THIS!''

He was so angry he nearly shouted. I think he was really mad at me for saying things like this, but after everything, how should I believe that I did deserve happiness. I just got over the fact that my parents and my little brother, to whom I've sworn that I would always protect him, had died because of me. I opened up, so that I had now two awesome friends. It was all a bit too much for me. And today Trevor was my end. He was the drop of water that got the drum to overrun.

For a long time I didn't say anything. I just thought about it, Damon still looking at me. Okay maybe I should've really acted differently with Finn, but everything after that wasn't really my fault. It was gossip and what others wanted to see in me. And still, that didn't give anyone the right to force me to do things, let alone to hit me. Oh my god he hit me.

And after I remembered my cheek hurt again. I touched it with my hand. Bad mistake. The touch hurt so bad, that I started to cry again. Maybe I'd never even stopped. But Damon noticed.

'' Elena, this conversation is not over, but I'm going to get you some ice to put on that. And we still have a lot more to talk about!''

So he left the room, but was back in a blink, with the ice in his hand. His face had softened again when he touched my cheek with the ice. It immediately felt better.

'' Thank you.''

I smiled weakly at him and out my hand to my face to hold the ice by myself. But even after I hold it myself, he didn't let go.

He he brushed the tears on the other side of my face away.

'' So can you think clearly again now? Or do still have the delusional idea that it was your fault and that you deserved it?''

He smirked at me, trying to lighten the mood. But I could see that his smile didn't reach his eyes. He was still serious and concerned.

'' I think I believe you. It wasn't my fault and no one deserves something like this. I don't know what would have happened if you weren't. So thank you.''

I really didn't know what would have happened. I don't know if I could have stopped Trevor myself, so I was really glad he came. But why was he at school first place?

'' Damon, what did you do at school?''

He looked away, he clearly didn't want to tell me.

'' It's not about me right now.''

I looked at him and rolled my eyes.

'' Damon tell me.''

'' Okay, but don't make to much out of it. I had morning practice again and I missed by oversleeping. So I had longer.''

My eyes opened in shocked. He still had morning practice because of me and now he also missed it and had to practice more because of me. I had to stop doing this to him. Whatever it took me, he wouldn't miss one more minute of practice because of me.

'' Damon-'' I started, but he interrupted me.

'' Elena, don't say anything. I'm glad I did. Otherwise I wouldn't have been there at the right time. So let us both just be happy I have such a deep sleep.''

I sighed. I know i wouldn't win this one, so I just let it go.

'' And besides Elena, we have more important things to discuss.''

I knew we had. I just didn't want to.

'' What should we do about Trevor, Damon? He threatened us.''

'' Elena, is that even a question. He tried to force himself on you and he hit you. We have to tell Principal Lockwood about it. He will get suspended.''

I didn't know if I wanted that. I mean, yes what he did was horrible, but this could destroy his future. And his parents paid really a lot of money for this school.

'' Do we really have to?''

'' Elena, we do. He should be glad we aren't including police.''

'' Okay, fine. But can you come with me when I tell Mr. Lockwood?''

I really didn't know if I would go through with it, if he wasn't there with me. I would probably have to face Trevor again and I wasn't sure if I could do that alone.

'' Of course I can. And I am also a witness. So I'm going to be there for you. But I'm a bit curious. What was that about Finn you mentioned?''

I hadn't planned on saying that earlier. It just slipped my tongue. That was the only part I left out when I told him everything. Only Caroline knew it. The story of how I became the slut of school.

Sunday, 04/09/2012, 5:46 pm, Finn's room

Finn seemed really nice. After he helped me on Friday I saw him yesterday at lunch. We got to talk a lot and he really seemed nice. Although I wasn't into him, it would help me getting popular. He was popular himself. Being a senior, member of the basketball team he was part of the in-crowd. If I was befriended with him, I could be a part of the school high society, too. That was the reason I agreed to his invitation to his room.

Turned out to be bad decision, but back then I didn't see it like that. I just saw my opportunity.

'' Do you want to drink something?''

'' No thank you, I'm fine.''

I walked around in the room. Trevor had a single room, which was really seldom. He had a lot of pictures of the basketball team in here. I didn't know most part of it, after only being here for two days.

'' So Elena, why don't you sit down?''

I did as he asked me and sat down on his bed next to him. I still looked around in the room. It looked a lot like mine, only smaller. When I turned around I saw that he looked at me.

He brushed away a stray of my hair.

'' You look beautiful, do you know that?'' I blushed. I wasn't used to getting compliments. I've never had a date, let alone a boyfriend. The closest I came to that was with Kol. But as I didn't went, it didn't count so, yes I was inexperienced.

'' Thank you.''

He still looked at me, his hand now stroking my cheek. It didn't feel right. I didn't feel comfortable. But I couldn't back away. He was 18 and he was like in the royal family of school. Backing away would be my social death. And that before school even started. So backing away wasn't an option.

I looked at him shyly, not sure what to do. When I didn't do anything, he leaned closer, his lips nearly touching mine. I've seen this in movies. I knew what I had to do, so I got closer until our lips touched. When they did, he took over. The kiss wasn't bad, but it still didn't feel right. I expected my first real kiss to somehow feel incredible. And this kiss, it didn't feel like it. I just waited for Finn to end it, but it didn't seem like this would be in the near future. He played on my lips with his tongue until I opened them. He took the opportunity and slid it in my mouth to deepen the kiss. It didn't make it better, it made it worse. And then without a warning his hands slid under the hem of my shirt and he tried to get it off. I stopped him with my hand, but instead of stopping he moved to the zipper of my jeans. I didn't want this.

I ended the kiss and created some distance between us.

'' Finn stop. I don't want this!''

'' Come on Elena. Don't be a prude. I asked you to come to my room and you agreed. You know what was to come.''

'' No I didn't and Finn I really don't want this. I just want to be friends.''

'' I have enough friends. And I didn't lie when I told you that you are beautiful. And it's just sex.''

For him maybe. But not for me. I was still a virgin. Sex meant a lot. It wasn't just something I did for fun.

'' No Finn. I really don't want it.''

'' But Elena-''

'' I'm a virgin.'' I blurted it out, the only way to convince him.

He looked shocked. He didn't expect me to be one. Okay, maybe my clothes didn't help me. I wore a really short skirt and a red strapless, skin-tight top.

In that moment the door opened and one of his friends came in.

'' Oh sorry I didn't know you were busy.''

He smiled with a big dumb smile.

I looked down at me. My shirt was still displace and the button of my jeans was open.

I jumped up in shock and fixed my clothes.

'' It's okay. I should be going anyway.''

I ran out of the room without looking at both of them. When I was about 20 feet away I heard Finn's friend asked.

'' Did you two have sex?''

I stopped in my moves.

'' What do you think buddy? Of course we did.''

I was shocked. He lied. But I still didn't turn around to make it right.

I never spoke to him again.

And on the first day of school everyone talked about it. They didn't even know me and believed to know me because of a lie. Yes this was like any other highschool.

So I wrote the whole chapter today. I'm proud ;D I hope to write another one this week. I got a few really positive reviews this week. Thank you for that :)

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There isn't really anything about the story at the moment, only that the conversation between Elena and Damon will continue next chapter and that he will do something extremely sweet. ( Trust me!)

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