Disclaimer: I do not own the rights for the characters. I thank L. J. Smith for creating this beautiful books, Julie Plec for creating the show and TheCW for showing it.

I'm soooooo sorry. I konw it's been a while, but I was like busier than busy. I was still sick, but not so sick I could stay home. But I was exhausted in the evenings and didn' have the energy to write then. I also had 3 job interviews, which means I missed 3 days of school and had to revise it all at home and do all the homework. And if that wasn't enough my brother and my friend moved at the same weekend and I helped both of them. So I hope you're not too disappointed in me.

But I'm glad I found time to write now and I really hope you'll like the chapter.

Chapter 17- This Song saved my Life

I wanna start by letting you know this
Because of you my life has a purpose
You helped me be who I am today
I see myself in every word you say

[…]

You're my escape when I'm stuck in this small town
I turn you up whenever I feel down
You let me know like no one else
that it's okay to be myself

- Simple Plan This Song saved my Life

Saturday, 03/12/2012, 11:40 pm, Damon's house

I loved the party. The music was great and I loved dancing. And since Damon somehow managed to convince the guys to tell the truth, I still didn't know home as Damon didn't want to tell me, they all treated me well. They asked me to dance or if I liked something to drink, but didn't expect anything for it.

The only thing I was sad about was that I hadn't seen Damon yet. I already missed him after a few hours, but he didn't know and probably didn't really miss me. So I didn't want to let that ruin my night.

I was just dancing with Care and Kat to one of our favorite songs and sang along the lyrics.

'' So wake me up when it's all over

When I'm wiser and I'm older

All this time I was finding myself

And I didn't know I was lost

I didn't know I was lost

I didn't know I was lost

I didn't know I was lost

I didn't know I was lost ''

After we cried out the final words Caroline and Katherine were exhausted.

'' Lena, I think I need something to drink.'' Katherine had a red face and breathed rapidly.

'' And I definitely need a break.'' Caroline added.

I wasn't exhausted at all. I felt like I could dance the whole night and still go running afterwards.

'' Okay then do that. I'm staying on the dancefloor.'' I smiled at them with a big smile and they smiled back and walked towards the kitchen, where the drinks were situated.

I concentrated on the music again and recognized the song that was currently playing. It was a fast song so I started to dance along, swinging my hips. I was glad I had chosen that dress, because I could perfectly dance in it.

I was so into the music that I didn't realize it when the song changed. I was still in the middle of the dancefloor, dancing alone, eyes closed.

I only got out of my trance when I felt to hands on my hips, holding me from behind. Before I could turn around to see who was standing there, I felt his chest touching my back. My whole body shivered at the touch. I then knew exactly who it was. When I then felt his breath in my neck I felt like my legs would give in any second. But fortunately they didn't. So I just continued dancing, enjoying his closeness.

He moved along with me perfectly. His hands, still on my hips, felt like they were touching my whole body. When I couldn't take it anymore, I turned around. Our eyes locked for a second. His blue meeting my brown. He smiled at me and I felt my knees getting even weaker.

I threw my arms around his neck. I told myself it was for support, because I still thought my knees would give in, but who was I kidding? I just wanted to be even closer to him. His hands didn't leave my hips for a second, and I was glad for that.

We danced even closer together, our whole bodies touching. I'm not sure if it was me who pressed myself against him or if it were his arms trying to get me closer. The only thing I was sure about was that I liked it. No not liked. Loved. I didn't want to think about the reasons for his or my behaving. I just wanted to enjoy the moment with him.

We were still dancing fast when the song changed. The next one was slow, so I placed my head on his chest. His hands wandered upwards and encircled my waist. In that moment I wanted nothing more than to just never let go of him.

Captured in the moment I paid more attention to the song that was playing.

Home, reflections of eyes shine bright in my mind,

Remind me I long to be cold and feel alive,

For that s what inspires me

Home, to be free, just to breathe,

Only seen in the eyes that know me

Home, like a dream out of reach,

I can t see through the film that clouds it

Memories fade to dust,

Slowly losing touch

I didn't know the song, but I decided that I liked it. It would from now on always be our song, if he knew it or not, because in that exact moment I was sure that I loved him. It was the first time I just let it be us. The world around us was forgotten. I could hear his heart beating in his chest and I wished that it was beating for me and I imagined what could be.

To belong is the feeling I want,

Is it wrong to miss the time that we had?

Now it s gone

Didn' t plan for this,

She sang about the past, but all I could think about was the future, what I wanted it to be. But how it probably never would be. But a girl could dream, couldn't she?

As I listened for the last part of the song, I looked up and met his eyes staring at me. He looked as happy as I felt and I desperately wanted to kiss him, but what if he didn't kiss me back? Everything would change between us than, and I didn't want that. But what if he kissed me back?

I stopped in my movements and he stopped to. The song was still playing, but we were just standing there. Watching each other.

I m grateful for the chance, that it s mine,

So I ll cherish every second of time

To belong is the feeling I want,

Is it wrong to miss the time that we had?

Now it s gone

Didn t plan for this,

Home is where my heart is

It s the feeling I want,

Is it wrong to miss the time that we had?

Now it s gone

Didn t plan for this,

Home is where my heart is

Didn t plan for this,

Home is where my heart is

Damn she was right. Home is where my heart is and in that moment home was exactly in front of me, not knowing about it.

As the song was finished I didn't know what to to, so I stared at the ground.

'' Elena.'' He sighed. It was the first word he had said the whole night and it sounded like the most beautiful melody in my ears. I looked up again, just to see something in his eyes I didn't quite understand. No one had ever looked at me like that and then he leaned closer. My eyes wandered to his lips and I waited in anticipation, not moving an inch. His lips nearly touched mine, when I felt a hand on my arm pulling me away.

'' Lena, this is our song!'' Rose shouted in my ear with excitement. Then I listened closer to the music.

Yo I'll tell you what I want what I really really want

so tell me what you want what you really really want

I'll tell you what I want what I really really want

I was fast excited myself. We once danced to that song in practice just to loosen up a bit. Now I saw that all cheerleaders were on the dancefloor, dancing to the song. I glanced back to Damon, giving him an apologizing look and joined my team mates. We probably looked ridiculous out there, but that was the goal. Just to have fun dancing.

Yo I'll tell you what I want what I really really want

so tell me what you want what you really really want

I wanna huh I wanna huh I wanna huh I wanna huh

I wanna really really really wanna zig-a-zig ahhh

When the song ended we all giggled and the grouphugged. We hadn't have that much fun in a while.

The rest of the evening I spent dancing and chatting with the girls.

Tuesday, 29/06/2004 10:34 am, Everglades

This was amazing. I've never seen that kind of animals before. Only in zoos maybe. And here I could see them all. Yesterday there were flamingos. I loved them. I mean, what is not to love about them. They are pink and they make funny noises. So yeah I liked the flamingos.

'' Mommy, when are we there?'' Jeremy asked for the seventh time. We were driving for some minutes to finally see the manatees. My dad had shown us some pictures and I thought they looked kinda ugly, but my Mom said they were her favorite animals so we decided to see them.

'' We're nearly there Jer. How about we play a game? How about I spy with my little eye?''

'' Yeeeeees!'' Jeremy and I both creamed in unison. We loved that game. There was always something new to find and it was always fun.

'' Okay so I think your Mom should start.'' My Dad smiled at my Mom, she nodded and looked around. Then she turned around to us and said:

'' I spy with my little eye, something beginning with s.''

'' The sun.'' She shook her head.

'' The SUV in front of us?''

'' The shorts Dad is wearing?''

She always shook her head. Neither Jeremy nor I found out what it was and we've already played for 5 minutes.

'' Maybe we can't find out because we can't see it anymore. I think we passed it five minutes ago.''

I was a bit angry. I really wanted to know what it was. And I hated loosing, not that I would show it.

'' No sweetie. You still can see it.''

Jeremy looked determined to find out. He looked at my Mom, trying to pout.

'' Mommy, can you give us a hint?''

He was adorable when he looked like that. I knew why he got everything he wanted. You just couldn't deny him anything, when he looked at you like that.

'' Of course I can, Jer. Okay let me think... It's really large.''

'' But Mom, I've already asked if it was the sun.'' I was really angry now. We played for minutes and I've already had the right thing.

'' Elena, I told you it is not the sun, but I give you another hint. It's blue.''

Okay something large and blue. What could it be? I turned around to see Jeremy's eyes lightening up.

'' I know it, Mom, I know it. It's the sky.''

'' Yes it is.''

Jeremy was so happy that he got it right. He had a bright smile on his face and giggled. He even high fived me.

I was glad he won. I loved seeing him happy like that.

'' Okay, then it's your turn now Jer.'' My Dad stated.

We played until we arrived at the manatee station and my Mom squeezed when see saw her favorite animals.

Songs I used in this chapter:

Wake me up- Avicii

Home- Birdy

Wannabe- Spice Girls

So I made it right before TVD. I'm sooooo happy it's back. It feels like my life has the life in it back, if you know what I mean. And all these Delena spoilers we got, I don't know if I'm going to survive it.

Again I'm so sorry for my belated update. I try to publish the next chapter sooner again.

Thank you all for sticking with me and everything.

Love PrincessNeens

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