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So there is what you waited for. Chapter 22, all written at once :)
Chapter 22 – 1,2,3,4
Give me more lovin' than I've ever had
Make it all better when I'm feelin' sad
Tell me that I'm special even when I know I'm not
Make it feel good when I hurt so bad
Barely gettin' mad, I'm so glad I've found you
I love bein' around you
You make it easy
It's easy as 1, 2
1, 2, 3, 4
There's only 1 thing 2 do
3 words 4 you
(I love you)
I love you
There's only 1 way 2 say
Those 3 words and that's what I'll do
(I love you)
I love you
- Plain White T's 1,2,3,4
Sunday, 11/12/2012, 2:15 am, on the way to Damon's house
I was freezing. Maybe it was not the best idea to go out only with my Pjs, a jacket and boots in December, but I was a bit in a rush.
Maybe I was a bit too much in a rush. Who the hell would go out of the house at 2 am, all alone? Yes I was indeed a bit scared. But to my satisfaction I was nearly at Damon's house, ready to pour my heart out.
Yeah, I was still very determined to tell him how I felt, but I didn't really know how. The speech, I had prepared back in my room when I couldn't sleep, didn't fell right anymore. This was just so spontaneously, that my speech or whatever I would do, should just be like that, too.
But still, I usually had to plan everything, so it was my nature to worry about that, too. So should I just blur it out to him, the minute he opened the door? Or should I wait until we were inside? Maybe I didn't have to say something at all, he would get the hint when I would stand in front of his house at 2 am? But, no, I didn't want that. I wanted him to know exactly how I felt, so no hints needed. Only spoken words would make it.
I was so deep in my thought that I didn't even realize that I was standing directly in front of Damon's house now. My feet had carried my all the way, without me navigating them. Maybe my body knew better what I wanted than my brain.
But when I was standing there, I realized that there was no light on in the house and than it hit me. Damn Elena, it is after 2 am. He won't be awake. And shit, I wouldn't come back into my room because of this damn school rules that I had to be in school at 1 am. After that the alarm system would be on, so that no one could enter the school. I wondered how I even got out. But now it was too late.
I had only two options. Wandering around town for the rest of the night or waking up Damon and doing what I was here for to do. Maybe I could sleep here after that. Hopefully, if everything went fine.
Okay Elena, you are here so don't be a coward.
So I rang the bell, hoping he wouldn't be too mad at me for waking him up. After an awfully long time, there was no sign of him. No light on, no sounds, so I rang again. Maybe he wasn't at home at all?
But then I heard him shout.
'' I am coming. But what time do you think it is anyway? It's fucking 2:30 am!''
Oh no, that didn't sound well. I saw how the lights behind the door turned on and I was really afraid. Maybe it wasn't the right time after all, Not when he was mad at me.
The door opened and a very angry looking Damon faced me.
'' What the..''
Before he could finished hid face lightened a bit. I think he recognized that it was me and he didn't look that angry anymore. He even looked released. He had an expression on his face, that made me loce him more. And in that second I knew what I had to do.
'' Elena, what are you-''
But he couldn't finish. This time it was me who prevented him from that.
I had thrown my self at him, my arms around his neck and I had kissed him. And when I kissed him, I was absolutely certain that I loved him. I felt the electricity in my whole body. I was shaking with relieve and felt joy overwhelm me. But then I realized that he didn't kiss me back, and my heart broke. Maybe Caroline wasn't right after all. I stopped kissing him and pulled away. I felt embarrassed. I had kissed him and he had rejected me. Tears crept in my eyes and I turned around, so that he wouldn't see them.
The only thing I wanted in that moment was to get away as fast as possible.
Saturday, 10/12/12, 12:30 am, my room
I fell asleep with the picture of raven-haired children around my children and that's exactly what I dreamt about.
'' Mommy, Mommy look!''
I looked down at my little daughter showing me a picture she had drown. It showed the whole family. Damon and me were standing in the middle, me holding the hand of our daughter, Damon holding our other daughter's hand and next to her our innocent little boy was standing.
The picture showed a perfect family. And that's what we were. Okay maybe not perfect, but happy. We had a beautiful home, I had a loving husband and we had three amazing children.
Yes it was the life I had always dreamt of. Then I remembered my daughter.
I caressed her hair and kneeled down next to her.
'' The picture is beautiful sweetie. How about we pin it at the fridge?''
She nodded enthusiastically.
I took her hand and we walked over to the fridge.
'' Okay, so where should we put it.''
'' At the top.'' She pointed at an empty spot right at the top of the fridge. I picked her up and let her put the picture there with a magnet. She smiled beautifully and I just had to smile back at her.
Then I put her down again.
'' Do you know where your brother and your sister are?''
'' Yes they are up in their rooms.''
I nodded. '' Okay, can you get them down. Tell them dinner is ready.''
She nodded again and then she ran upstairs.
Yes this life was perfect.
I smiled in my sleep, having this perfect dream about how my life could develop.
But the next morning I had forgotten about it when I woke up.
Sunday, 11/12/2012, 2:28 am, in front of Damon's house
The only thing I wanted in that moment was to get away as fast as possible.
But the second my feet started to move, I felt his hand on my wrist and I was pulled back and turned around. I now faced him again and what I saw made me have hope again and my heart was that broken anymore. The way he looked at me with pure adoration was just too much for me.
He then only sighed one word, my name and I knew I wanted to hear that again. His voice was full of love and lust and before I knew it his lips crashed on mine. And I instinctively started kissing him back. His hands traveled to my lower back, pulling me closer to him. My hands found their way back around his neck.
It was him who deepened the kiss. When his tongue explored my mouth I let out a soft moan and my hand found its way into his hair. I finally did what I've wanted for so long, I mean other then the kiss. I buried my hand in his black curls and it felt amazing. His hair was so soft. In an instant we were inside the house and Damon closed the door behind us and then pressed me against it. My feet found their way around his hips and I think I couldn't have stood any longer. I was so stunned by the kiss and my feet would have melted away otherwise.
The kiss itself was amazing. It was the best kiss I've ever had and you know, I had a lot of experience. Damon's lips tasted incredible. I couldn't say like what they tasted, it was just him. And also the kiss was perfect. There was so much lust for each other in it, but also this incredible amount of love. And I knew from that kiss on, that I was addicted to Damon's lips. There would never be a moment that I wouldn't want to kiss him.
He pulled away way to soon for my liking, but we both were in desperate need for air. When he did, I opened my eyes again, stood back on my feet and I saw him. And I really liked what I saw. There was the biggest smile I ever saw on his face. His hair was messy from my fingers and I loved it. It looked so sexy and in my opinion he should always wear it like this.
When I looked at him I also realized that he only wore his Pjs, or in his case only pajama bottoms. No shirt at all. Even if I had seen him shirtless already I was stunned by his beauty. He was just unbelievably handsome.
After a few seconds we both had our breaths back, but he was the one who spoke first.
'' That, was... Wow.''
The smile on my face grew even bigger with his speechlessness.
'' Yes it was.''
My brain was still much, because of the kiss. So I couldn't say anything else myself.
He chuckled a bit, but then leaned in to me to kiss me again. But I had other plans, so I pushed him back with a hand on his chest. Even this little touch made me shiver, but I had to stay in control a little bit longer.
When I refused to kiss him he looked confused.
'' Damon, I came here for another reason. Okay I imagined kissing was included, but still, let me first say why I am here.''
He smirked a bit about the comment, but then he looked curious about why I was here.
'' Okay, so this might take a bit longer. Can we sit down?''
He took my hand and led me to the couch to sit down.
I took a deep breath. It was now or never.
'' Okay. So when I sat there in your closet you were the one who found me. I told you that I didn't want your help, but I know that deep down I was happy someone cared about me. I knew I wanted to be near you, but I couldn't admit it to me or anyone else. So I took our literature project as an excuse to be near you. We became friends and I liked you even more. Then, at the evening in your pool, we nearly kissed and I was then certain there was more between us. And I got scared, because you know, I didn't wanted people to be too near to me back then, so I screwed things up between us. But it was awful not being near you anymore. So I told you everything and that was the moment I knew I love you. And everything after that was just torture for me. The touching, the nearly kisses it all made me crazy, because I wanted it so badly. I wanted to kiss you. But I didn't want to loose you either. I was afraid that if I told you what I feel, you would reject me and I would loose you for good. So I tried to forget about my feelings and just be friends. But it didn't work. Everyday I wanted it even more, but I was a coward. So I talked to Caroline and she made me realize that I should act on my feelings. So here I am. And the kiss we just shared it was incredible and all I want is to kiss you again, because Damon, I know this might seem crazy, but I love you.''
The whole time I didn't look at him, scared of how he might react. When I now looked at him I saw him stunned. But then he started to laugh.
'' You have to be kidding me.''
No I was the one speechless. I just poured my heart out and he was laughing at me.
'' The whole time I wanted nothing more than to kiss you, but I thought you didn't want me so i didn't do it. And now you are telling me that you wanted it for as long as me. So we wasted this whole time?''
Before I could answer, his lips were on mine again and this time I didn't protest.
Okay are you all happy now? I at least am. It took them so long and now they finally kissed. :D
I hope it turned out good. Sorry about the dream. I was a bit out of ideas and I needed something to fill in and to tease you with a bit of a cliffhanger. But I didn't wanted to be too mean so the second part was also in the chapter :D
So about teh TVD episode I have one tip for you. Never bet on anything of it. It always turns out badly.
But now to the real thing. I hated how Elena is avoiding Damon. I just want them to be happy together. And I was shocked that Nadia (Or how to write her) is Katherine's daughter. But the moment between them was so touching. ;)
I'm still sorry about not being able to answer reviews. I hope my computer problem will be solved next week.
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