A/N I don't own anything. I'm just having fun.

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There will be 3 more chapters I think.

It is a companion piece to Tiny little fractures but form Jyn's POV

#6 Changes

There are some changes in Jyn's life and she's absolutely aware of them … most of the time.

#A place to rest my head

A bed.

A piece of furniture Jyn didn't pay much attention to thought the years in Saw's rebel camp or the time when she was on her own. She could sleep whenever on whatever as long as it was dry.

Jyn was thinking absent-minded about this lying on her bed that morning.

Now on this kriffngly cold planet she has a bed in her own room. A bed with actual linen on it and a pillow. She's very fond of her pillow actually, its soft and she doesn't have to fold her jacket every time she wants to lie down. She even requested another pillow just to see if she would get it. And now she's extremely proud of her two pillows. For someone who has spent better half of her life sleeping on dirty floors or ship's benches to own a bed is … extraordinary.

The pillows are hers and she adores them. In that rare moments in her room, she can feel like as a young girl again. To be happy about trivial things such as pillows, beds, rooms and clothes you can change every day.

To Jyn's surprise she discovered that what she thought is a luxury -meaning her tiny room with her bed and pillow -is now her anchor. Her place in all that chaos in the galaxy at war. She didn't know that she'd missed her own place so much until she got one. She doesn't own much things, actually the only things she owned when she was extracted from Wobani was the clothes she was wearing that time. And now she had a room, a chest of drawer full of fresh clothes and pillows.

Suddenly a knock on the door stops her mussing over the accommodation changes in her life. She rises to open the door. She suspects who is outside the door and she can't stop smiling. And there he's, Cassian is standing in her door a few datapads balancing in his hand.

"Cassian?" She asks him as of greeting.

"Jyn." He nods his head in greeting and he has that easy going look on his face. The one Jyn started to associate with him being relaxed and ...not bothered by the weight of the galaxy on his shoulder.

"I was wondering if you have some time to look over tomorrow's schedules."

"I was going to check them in the Office later." Jyn starts but she's still smiling, she knows that the schedules are here with Cassian and they will be working over them together. As he would need an excuse to come here. After Scarif things became complicated between them. There were so many things that just weren't spoken between them. And now they're too preoccupated in the fight and duties and ...Cassian is back being that business-like Intelligence Officer most of the times.

But not now. Not here.

"I brought them." He offers looking at the stack of datapads in his hand.

She smiles at him and let him walk into her room. This is not the first time Cassian invades her room. Actually, it's a habit of theirs. It became some sort of unspoken agreement to meet and discuss things in her room. It was Cassian who actually said it's faster and more quiet than in the Intelligence Centre and he was right. And also, Jyn actually likes when they're just the two of them. She can watch the real Cassian then, the one who is not strict, by the book officer but just... her friend who lived through hell with her.

Jyn had one more suspicion looking at Cassian who walks past her room and without even asking sits on her bed, steals one of her precious pillow and tucks it behind his back to rest it against the wall. Only then he catches her staring at him.

"What?" He asks getting comfortable with all the datapad scattered around him but making room for her. Jyn's looking at him narrowing her eyes in that special way.

"You're a pillow snatcher you know." She informs him her tone playful.

"You've two, you should learn to share." Cassian answers without thinking his eyes twinkle with that hidden smile of his.

"It's enough you take so much space on the bed there's no pillow sharing." Jyn's words are out of her mouth without thinking and only then she actually hears what she said to him. Cassian just gaps at her with his mouth slightly open. This conversation could have totally different meaning in different circumstances. Jyn stops talking and blushes furiously when the implication of her words comes to her mind. She racks her brain to say something, anything, to make a joke of this situation but her brain just stopped working. She stands rooted in the spot captured by Cassian's eyes. She can see something dark flashing in his eyes and for a long moment they just stare at each other. But the moment's gone and Cassian just clears his throat and speaks.

"I can sit on a chair if you want."

"Don't." Jyn says fast, too fast for her liking, and she adds. "I hate chairs, they make everything so official, move over." She finishes and climbs on the bed next to him. She doesn't know why the thought of Cassian not sitting in her bed shoulder to shoulder with her is suddenly so repelling to her.

She likes sitting with him like that.

On her bed.

Even when he snatches her pillow... when he leaves it smells of him...and it soothing.

But she will never say that to him...

#Food

There's plenty of food in the Rebel Base. Not that it's especially tasteful but it's there whenever you feel hungry.

You don't need to fight for the food or pay amounts of credits for some scraps.

The food is always there and it's a huge change in Jyn's life.

But there's also the food that Cassian can cook.

And he can cook actually.

Using all the kitchen utensils (Jyn still thinks that half of them are secret weapons hidden in the kitchen just in case.)

It was only once when Cassian preformed that cooking skill for her and she still can't forget how easy it was for him.

It was the second day they were stuck inside rebel save house on Squarr due to a hurricane. Their scheduled plans had to be postponed and they were stuck together in a small, cramped hideout. Jyn was bored beyond belief, Bodhi was trying to keep the conversation but neither Cassian nor K2 were very interested in talking. All four of them were stressed and had enough of this temporary imprisonment.

When Bodhi gave up on any chance of conversation, he got up from the table to fetch some nutri bars but Cassian made some indecent snorting sound and he also stood up from the table where he currently was scrolling through his datapad.

"We are not going to eat that again." Cassian informed Bodhi darkly and started rolling up his sleeves.

"Great, are you going to fetch some food then Cassian?" Jyn asked trying to sound jokingly but somehow being forced to sit in on place with absolutely nothing to do tended to make her angry. She looked at Cassian form her datapad and pointed on the only window in that tiny kitchen. The rain was beating furiously against the enforced glass and the howling of the wind was clearly heard through the thick wall of the building.

"No." Cassian sent her a dark look. "I'm going to cook something."

"Cooking, you?" Jyn almost snorted at him.

"Just for the record I'm not only good at killing people and spying. I can cook sometime." Cassian explained and only that gave Jyn an odd feeling of something warm inside.

"This, I need to see." She said to him playfully getting up from her chair.

"You can help, if not, there's no ogling me in the kitchen." Cassian informed her and finished rolling up his sleeves not really looking at her.

K2 and Bodhi monetarily froze at the exchange but after over a month spent with Cassian and Jyn and their way of talking to each other, they just get used to it.

"I can help." Jyn informed him offended by being accused of ogling him. She wasn't ogling him. Maybe rarely stare at him when he wasn't looking but she did not ogle. She hoped she didn't.

"More like ruin everything." K2 chipped in.

"Thanks K, you're so encouraging as always." Jyn said sarcastically to the droid, but he only blinked at her his artificial blue eyes.

"What, I'm only stating the obvious, I know that Cassian can cook but you have never presented any of that ability." K2 informed in his very unemotional tone.

"It's enough K" Cassian barked at the droid and looked back at Jyn. "If only you don't hurt yourself." He smirked at her and went to the kitchen area.

"Hilarious, both of you." Jyn muttered but followed Cassian to the kitchen.

Twenty minute later Jyn was sent back to the table because she clearly was in Cassian line of work. After bumping into her for the third-time Cassian only sighted and pleaded her not to help him.

Jyn faked being hurt but inside she was relieved that she could stop getting into Cassian's way. Clearly, he knew what he was doing.

After another twenty minutes, there was actual food on the table. It was a simple soup but it was hot and smelled delicious. Jyn was looking at Cassian with a mixture of surprise and admiration and it was a little too intimidating for him. Everyone actually were staring at him and the food as it would explode any moment. Cassian finally had enough of the tension and spoke.

"Guys I swear I didn't poison it, you can eat this."

As on mutual agreement both Body and Jyn grabbed their spoons and started eating. At the first taste of the hot brown liquid Jyn's eyes winded in delight. She grinned at Cassian and he actually grinned back.

As she was saying rebels had food.

And one specific alliance officer could make it even better.

#Flying

Jyn can't fly a ship. It's stupid, she knows that but she's never had a chance to learn that. In Saw's rebel base, there were more important things to learn for her and when she was left alone there was absolutely no one who cared whether she knew how to fly a ship.

It was Bodhi who first offered her the lessons and she gladly agreed.

But today Bodhi is on parameters duty so Jyn can forget about flying.

She decides to leave the hangar when Cassian's voice stops her.

"Jyn where are you going?" He asks her wiping his dirty hands on some old rag because he's just finished checking his U-wing stabilizers.

"Nowhere, I forgot that Bodhi is on patrol, I though we'll be flying." She answers him shyly, she doesn't know why it's so embracing to tell Cassian she's learning to fly when he absolutely knows about it. Only today he was talking with her about that during breakfast.

"I can teach you today." Cassian offers looking at her face and when he sees a slight hesitation in her expression he adds. "If you want."

"I… well..." Jyn pauses for a second, the thought of being locked up in a small space in the snowspeeder with Cassian has some good and absolutely bad points in it." I don't want to make you any trouble."

"It's no trouble. I don't have anything better to do." Cassian says and looks back at his ship. "Have you ever fly a U-wing?"

Jyn eyes widens in surprise and horror. It's Cassian's ship, the one that she hasn't supposed to even sit in his pilot seat (as if that ever stopped her) and now he's offering to let her fly it.

"No, and no way." She informs him her eyes wide. "I'll not fly your ship."

"Why not?" He asks her smiling at her. It's distracting. This smile of his is absolutely adoring and ...distracting.

"Are you kidding me, what if I scratch it or something?" She says that absolutely seriously and he smiles even wider his eyes twinkle in mischief and it's a rare sight. Damn that smile of his.

"I've crashed the last one, it will survive a scratch. Come on." And without thinking he grabs her by her arm and drags her in the direction of his ship. Jyn doesn't know what is burning her more his hand on her forearm or the thought of him actually teaching her to fly.

The preflight preparation is a haze and before Jyn notices Cassian is stripping her the pilot seat – his pilot seat. She's so surprised and dazed by the feeling of his hands brushing against her sides that she's momentarily speechless. She just starts at him trying very hard to control her rapid breathing not wanting to let him know how much his closeness is working its way on her. And then Cassian and his hands are gone and Jyn can see him sitting in the copilot seat preparing to fly the ship from the hangar.

"I will take her from the hangar and then you can have the controls." He informs her and Jyn is wondering how he can't hear the hammering of her heart because honestly this is the only sound she can hear. She only nods her head and quietly speaks "OK."

"You need to relax Jyn, flying should be fun" Cassian says to her grinning at her like he's having the best time in his life.

"I will try." She answers him. As long as you will not touch me again Jyn thinks to herself and takes a deep calming breath. And then they're off through the hangar door and Cassian lands the ship just outside the Echo Base gates. Then he looks expectantly at her.

"Your turn."

"I've never done that before, it's so much different from a snowspeeder." Jyn says a slight panic in her voice.

"Not so different, just bigger." Cassian says and jumps form his seats. "Look".

And Cassian is back again next to her, so close that if she as much as angles her head she will bump into his shoulder or his cheek to be specific. He hovers over her and then covers her hands on the rudder with his and Jyn stops breathing. It would be so easy just to twist her head a little and… kiss him.

He's so close that his breath is tickling her side of the neck and only that is unnerving and absolutely distracting and… exhilarating.

Cassian's saying something but her fogged brain just doesn't register it. And then Jyn feels that the ship is back in the air. Cassian's steering the U-wing still holding her hands.

"OK, you're clear, now I'm going to let go" He says so close to her ear that his breath is tickling her neck and that small sensation sends shivers down her spine. WHAT the hell is wrong with me! Jyn thinks frantically. And then nods at his words, she doesn't think she's able to make any sound. Then Cassian's hands left hers and she feels relieved and unhappy at the same time. But she can feel the low hum of the engine, she can see the slow passing of the snowy landscape outside the ship and she can feel she's actually flying.

"There you go." Cassian says smiling at her. "It was easy."

"Because you did it for me." Jyn says not daring to look at him her hands gripping the rudder so hard that it's almost painful.

"Just the first time. I'll not be so kind the next time." Cassian informs her but he's not stepping back from her.

"So, there'll be a next time." Jyn half asking, half hoping it will be.

"If you want." Cassian answers and Jyn can feel that he's still so close to her. She dares looking at him and he's smiling at her that rare warm smile that makes her heart skips a beat. Their eyes lock and it's the elevator on Scarif back again. As if the time stood still. The thoughts of his hands on her are back in her mind and she's transfixed by his dark eyes. His eyes become darker and Cassian is looming dangerously close to her now. There're like mere inches between them. Jyn holds her breath waiting for something inevitable to happen.

And suddenly there's a strong gust of wind and the ship jumps in the air. Jyn panics and holds the rudder even harder if that is even possible and Cassian fights to stay on his feet when the ship jerks up and down. Finally, Jyn regains control over the ship and Cassian jumps on the copilot seat and grabs his rudder to help her.

"Hoth is not a very good place for flying lessons, the winds here…" Cassian says helping to maneuver the ship and make it stable.

"So, the lesson's over…" Jyn asks half wishing that it's not. Because now when she actually can breathe again, without Cassian dark, searching eyes looking at her she actually begins to enjoy flying.

"Who says that, let's fly more lieutenant Erso." Cassian ends her worries and buckles his seat belts. "The lesson is far from over."

#Friends

Jyn Erso didn't have friends… until now.

There're days that she's still too stunned to acknowledge the fact that there're people here at the Echo Base she can call friends.

Her friends.

At first it was very touch and go with her, the first days after Scarif Jyn didn't know what she wanted to do with her life more less to make friends.

But she stayed and certain people just entered her life. What was more surprising especially to her that she's let them.

Bodhi was the first one who she could call a friend because it was easy to be around him. He was a nice and kind guy who treated her more like a younger sister, so it was just natural to spend time with him.

And there were missions when Bodhi was almost always their pilot when they needed one.

There were also Chirrut and Baze but since they decided to come and go from the rebel base as they pleased and never really joined the Alliance it was more difficult to see them often. But when they were at Echo Base they always made sure to check on Jyn. It was kind and remarkable feeling to have someone who takes care of you.

Even K2 mustered some friendly remark toward Jyn once a week. But taking into consideration their constant bantering, he was as much friendly as he could.

And there was Kyle, Cassian's friend. After a proper second introduction (since their first meeting wasn't much pleasant due to Kyle's bad mood) Jyn decided he was a decent man. The fact that Kyle actually expressed his gratitude for saving Cassian's ass (his words exactly) was very beneficial. And the fact that he was Corelian with all the charm and easy goings of that kind helped a little. But the major factor considering Kyle her friend was the fact that he was actually the only person who Cassian was listening to and the only one who could make Cassian flush and double take just by expressing his bold opinion.

And Kyle insisted on calling her a rebel girl which made Cassian even more flustered especially with comments that suggested that Jyn was actually Cassian's rebel girl. She only smiled every time Kyle was starting to torture poor Cassian. It was so easy getting under captain Andor skin having Kyle at her side.

And Cassian, Jyn was constantly referring to him as a friend in her head… but it hasn't been helping. No matter how hard she's trying to think of Cassian as her friend the truth is, he's so much more to her…

#Purpose

For the first time in a long time Jyn feels that she belongs somewhere.

She has this feeling deep inside her that all her doings have some meaning. That she finally found a purpose in her life. It's not that she suddenly starts to believe in the rebellion, but she started to believe in the people who she's fighting the Empire with. She has found the meaning for all that pent-up emotions swirling inside her for years. That darkness that was inside her for years was finally gone.

It took her some time and small steps.

When they were frantically moving the Base One form Yavin IV to this froze hell called Hoth Jyn was doing all she could to help. She was no Alliance officer then but still she worked her, only recently healed form Scariff, ass off to help with the evacuation and it felt good.

Then it was Cassian who suggested that she should train the new recruits in hand to hand combat. At first Jyn thought he was kidding but she could tell just by looking into his eyes how serious he was about that. And it was one of the best ideas he had.

Jyn almost immediately felt like home on the training area. All her techniques from Saw's training helped her to gain an excellent opinion as an instructor.

There was only one incident with a group of pilots after which two of them were limping through the base supporting matching dark circles under their eyes. Cassian couldn't stop laughing at the two of them for the past two weeks.

And there was the Intelligence office.

Jyn was thinking about actually joining the alliance forces but she would like to do it with all the good reasons.

The bad reason, she thought, was her actual one, the only one she had in her mind ever since she walked off Scarif more or less intact, and its name was Cassian.

Jyn was just afraid that joining rebel forces for a …man was actually quite girlish thing to do. To enroll because suddenly she couldn't stand the idea of not being around him.

And then Cassian went on a mission and didn't come back in the scheduled time.

No one would tell her anything because she wasn't actually an intelligence officer. Being promoted lieutenant on board of the Rogue One flying to Scarif didn't actually count much to Draven.

Two days of Cassian's absence was like a living hell for her.

Cassian did came back the day after the scheduled time, supporting a massive bruise to his left side and some broken ribs.

The next day Jyn was officially ranked lieutenant and was co-signed with Cassian on low ranked missions as a tutorial for the Intelligence training.

If asked, Jyn would refuse profoundly that she did that for Cassian.

Of course, she didn't do it for him.

She did that for herself to never ever was forced to wait for the news about him.

#A place to call home

Hoth is not her home. It's too cold, too bright and definitely with too much snow.

Echo Base isn't her home either because it's just a base and it could be evacuated the moment the Empire would find their location.

But still Jyn is at home.

Every time they return form a mission whether it was a success or failure Cassian always smiles at her that small warm smile that makes her heart skips a beat and says.

"Welcome home."

She knows it's not only for her, but for all the crew members (mostly Bodhy and K2 these days) but Jyn feels home whenever she looks into Cassian's eyes and see that warm spark that ignites there.

Yes, Jyn Erso has finally found her home.

Her home is not a place, but it's the people who makes her feel like home.

Like she belongs somewhere, like she's their home as much as they're hers.

It's true what they say. Home is, where your heart is.

A/N: Please tell me what you think. And I even have a tumblr account now, so You can say hi! Look for my-annalay-love if YOU want :D

And I'm sorry for all the mistakes (English is not my first language, but that has never stop me:)