It is after lunch break and Ally has still not texted me. I hope everything is okay. I decide maybe I should try first.
"Hey Baby, How was the doctors?"
I hear a ping instantly, "Everything was fine."
I feel like something is wrong, "You sure? I just want to make sure you are okay and that nothing is wrong."
"I am fine. I actually think I am happy."
What? This is weird. "What are you happy about?"
"About thinking about us and our future."
I smile, "I like that."
"Can I ask a weird question?"
Still smiling, "Sure, baby."
"What do you see in your future?"
I smile big, "I see me and you, married. We have kids and they are amazing. We live in a big house with a backyard and a dog. Our family is happy and we all play music. We are the music family. I see us getting old together with our grandkids and hopefully our great grandkids. Why?"
"No reason. I just wanted to know."
"What do you see in your future?"
"I see the same."
I am smiling and thinking about how perfect life would be. A little Ally or Austin running around, they would be so cute. I didn't realize my phone went off until I hear a ping. Opps, Ally text me twice.
"Austin?"
Confused and worried I write back, "Yeah?"
"I was watching a movie. I saw this couple have a kid at 17. I thought it was cute how in love they were. What do you think?"
Scrunching my face up because I am really confused, "Um, I think it is weird. I mean it's all good as long as the kid does not suffer and the parents are happy and are able to still live their life. I just believe marriage should come first. Why?"
"No reason. I guess I am being weird today. I got to go. Love you."
"Love you too."
That was weird. Why would Ally ask how I felt about 17 year olds having a baby? "You really are stupid. Why can I not be the main person? You already know, I told you this earlier." With that he is gone again and I am left thinking. She would have told me if something was wrong. I know she would have. What was with those questions though? Oh well, no need to worry. It's time to go on stage and rock.
Ally's Pov.
I am sitting in my car and I start to get excited over the baby. When I hear a ping, oh great, it's Austin.
"Hey Baby, How was the doctors?"
I tell him the truth "Everything was fine."
"You sure? I just want to make sure you are okay and that nothing is wrong."
Why does he not believe me? I guess because I am lying to him? "I am fine. I actually think I am happy."
"What are you happy about?"
Oh man, what do I say? "About thinking about us and our future."
"I like that."
Wait, this may be good. I can see how he feels about this without actually saying it. "Can I ask a weird question?"
"Sure, baby."
Okay, here it goes. "What do you see in your future?"
"I see me and you, married. We have kids and they are amazing. We live in a big house with a backyard and a dog. Our family is happy and we all play music. We are the music family. I see us getting old together with our grandkids and hopefully our great grandkids. Why?"
Oh, He wants what I want. Yes, maybe everything will be okay. "No reason. I just wanted to know."
"What do you see in your future?"
I tell him the truth. "I see the same."
He doesn't write back. I figure he is daydreaming. I write him back because I have one more way to see how he feels about this without actually telling him what is going on.
"Austin?"
"Yeah?"
Come on Ally, Just write it. "I was watching a movie. I saw this couple have a kid at 17. I thought it was cute how in love they were. What do you think?"
"Um, I think it is weird. I mean it's all good as long as the kid does not suffer and the parents are happy and are able to still live their life. I just believe marriage should come first. Why?"
Wait. He believes in marriage first. I always did too but that didn't happen. What am I going to do now? "No reason. I guess I am being weird today. I got to go. Love you."
"Love you too."
Ugh, this is crazy. He loves me and would love this baby too. I have to tell him. He just told me what he felt though. Maybe I can do what the doctor did and hide it for a little while. That would be great.
I go home and am watching TV when I hear the doorbell. I get up and answer the door to see Alex.
"Hi, what are you doing here?" HE smiles as I let him in.
Sitting on the couch I follow suit, "You never came back, so I wanted to come check on you."
I smile, "That is sweet, thank you. I just didn't feel like coming back. I am fine. I will be there tomorrow."
HE smiles and goes to get up, "Okay then, I am glad you are okay. I will see you tomorrow. Bye Ally." Giving me a hug he leaves. That was sweet.
I am sitting on my bed when I hear my computer beep. I get up to go look. Austin wants to video chat.
I click accept and soon his face appears on my computer. "Hi, Ally." He is smiling so big.
I smile and take the laptop to sit on my bed, "Hey Austin. What's up?"
"I just did this gig and it was amazing. I wanted to see your face to complete the amazing night."
"I am so proud of you."
"Ally?"
"Yeah."
"I miss you so much. I want to be there so bad. I cannot wait for this to be over."
"I miss you too. It will fly by. I promise." Maybe I should just tell him, everything would be okay. I mean the doctor told me what happened with her and I feel like hiding it would make it worse.
"I hope so." He starts to smile again asking about my day as I tell him omitting a lot of details about what happened at the doctors.
"That is cool. Hey Ally, What's that?"
I look to see what he could see when I see a baby book that I picked up on the way home. Just admit it. "It's a baby book, duh." Laughing it off like nothing.
HE looks nervous, "I know that. Why do you have it?"
Just admit it, Ally. He is giving you the in. "Ally?"
"It's for my cousin, she is having a baby and I wanted to get her prepared." I chickened out.
"That's cool. IS she okay?"
"Yeah, she just does not know how to tell the boyfriend so."
"Wow, she needs to tell him. It's only fair."
Oh, great pile on the guilt. "Yeah."
We talk about his tour for a little bit when I yawn, "Go to sleep baby. Talk to you soon."
Smiling at him, "Okay, I love you Austin. No matter what remember that."
"Okay, I love you too Ally." He signed off and I realized I can't tell him. It would hurt his dream to bad. Maybe one day but not any time in the near future.
