Sorry, really I am. I have been thinking about updating but I was saying I wasn't getting enough reviews…a lot of hits but not enough reviews. I haven't discussed it with my beta yet but I will, if the story doesn't progress I will be deleting it… u can all review against it or not.

I was thinking of baby names and I was wondering if I should name the baby what Bella wanted to name both kids in Breaking Dawn. I'll post a poll.

And in other news I want to know what you guys really think about the story so far…I've got like over 1,000 hits so that's a start right.

Thanks again for those amazing reviewer's and my amazing beta Edward Cullen Wifey she helps me a whole lot.

Okay on to the story enough said, you're gonna love this ish.

Epov

I was a total ass for what I did to Bella. She should be my number one priority in life and I fucked up big, when she walked out of the hospital she just strode right pass me, not even a hi or something.

Last week in school I saw her and fucking Yorkie chatting it up and laughing like she wasn't fucking pregnant, who the fuck did Eric think he was. Bella was really ignoring me now; she only called when it concerns the baby, that's if she calls at all.

I was sitting up last night by the phone waiting for the usual and she never ring me once and when I called there, Charlie said she went out with some friends. Huh? What friends? Bella's only friends were friends of mines and my sister. So where was she? Then I called Alice's phone and she so called claimed they were together but I knew better. Whenever Alice and Bella went out they would either be with me and Jasper lying to our parents.

So that night I waited for Alice to come home and ask her where Bella was, "she was with me the whole night" was her exact words. I knew she was lying but I let it rest for the time.

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I was going to my locker and Tanya came to me.

"I heard you and the little girl broke up, is it true." Now Tanya Denali is known for her slutty ways and everyone knew I was a slut also who fell for it. In my years of liking Bella all of her friends (the little that she have now because I scared them off) use to be all up in our business, telling her stuff like we're not meant to be, he's cheating on you, he wanted to date me, and my most favorite; I saw him last night driving to the girl's house Bella how stupid can you get. Bella and I would talk and then we would argue, she would get over it then we'll be back to brand new. So what the fuck is making Bella change her mind.

"Yea we broke up, what's it to ya?"

"Hmm doing anything tonight?"

"Wasn't but now I guess I'm doing you," Tanya was an easy lay and for an older chick she was dumb and stupid. Of course I would never be caught dead with Tanya without a condom.

"Okay, my house or yours?"

"Don't worry bout it I got this," and with that we were off to first period.

So I had plans with Tanya that means the chick I was talking to had to wait. I know I want to change but sometimes I think with my dick and not my heart, my heart's saying go to Bella and beg for forgiveness and then my dick is saying Bella is holding out on you please just go get some pussy, you need it.

I was on my way to class and look who it was waiting for me…Isabella fucking Swan and Rosalie Hale-Swan (I even forgot they were sisters…step- ugh whatever).

"Sup Rose, Sup Bella"

"Don't sup Rose and Bella me." Duh its Rosalie, "why were you talking to Tanya Denali and smiling?"

"Because I can and what's it to you, last time I check… my name is Edward and I fucked Bella Swan, not Emmett and I fuck Rose Swan." She scoffed and walked to class, I laughed at her.

"So why are you still here or do you want to rub Yorkie in my face Isabella?" she didn't answer so I was going to walk off.

"Edward wait," I thought I was never going to get her back, she was so easy, "we have to talk, come by around 10 my parents will be asleep and what were you talking to Tanya for?"

"Reasons Bella, reasons." Stay out my business babe, cuz you got a lot of making up to do.

"K, member 10 tonight."

"Yea til then, later."

I was happy I get a quick fuck before meeting Bella and I get my baby back, who says you can't have your cake and eat it too? Tell me that motherfucker cause he was so wrong.

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Ugh school was finally over and I was waiting for Alice and Emmett to arrive. I felt a vibrating feeling in my pocket and notice it was my phone, Tanya was texting.

Am I cummn wit u r u'll pic me up lata. T

I quickly typed back. She needed to come with me now we really do have little time with all of the fore play we'll be doing.

Cum out 2 the parking lot, drive wit me. E

Alice and Emmett made it out with Rosalie and I saw Tanya walking towards the car. Strange Rose didn't complain. I turned to see what Rosalie was doing; she was walking over to Bella. I smiled.

My smiled turned quickly; Jacob Black was by his car with his arms stretched out to Bella's.

"WHAT THE FUCK IS SHE DOING?" I shouted to anyone who was listening, they all laughed at me and Tanya huffed and jumped in the front seat. Alice glared at me and I glared back; it's a twin thing.

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I was driving and the car was in silence and I wonder what the fuck Bella and Jacob was doing in his car right about now. Everyone must know what I'm thinking and start to chuckle. It was Emmett who burst into fits of laughter when he saw my face.

"What's the matter Edward, one slut ain't enough for you?" Alice slapped him hard on the hand and then he must have realized what he said.

"Shut it pea brain, at least I don't have to be all missionary style 24/7." His smiled turn into a frown and I grinned this time.

I decided it was too much tension so I turned the music on and finish my drive home.

When we got home I ran everyone out the car and drove off with Tanya in it. I was going to the forest in my mom's little cottage I was going to have my way with Tanya today.

"Oh Edward it always amazes me, this is so friggin hot!"

"Let's get going baby; I wanna pull a long one." We walked into the cottage and I turned on the lights and walked over to the couch. The thing with Tanya is, she's cool. Whatever I'm down for she is too and that right there shows a down ass chick. I got my bag of weed out and started to roll up my joint, it was fresh shit so I know I would be on cloud nine today before I head over to Bella's.

"You want a hit," I asked Tanya as I took a drag of the joint in my hand. She grabbed it from me and did the same, she choked a little but that was still cool. If Bella ever knew I did this shit she would fuck me up, she hinted but never really found out.

"Come on baby; let me show you what a real woman's like" then she went in front of me and kneel on the floor. One thing I didn't like about sex with Tanya was that she thinks she's some sort of porn star.

She looked up to my face and then she unbutton my jeans, I groan I was begging to be free. She then pulled my flaccid dick from my boxers and then tugged at it. I laughed, for what I don't know but I did.

She put her tongue to the tip of my dick and started to wet it. Oh that shit felt good. She then blew on it and placed the whole thing in her mouth or what could fit. I watched Tanya gag and stroked my dick as she was giving me her famous blow job but something didn't feel right.

I still let her continued she travelled up my length and then back down and she was starting to pump me faster. I could feel it coming but I didn't want to let go just yet. She was now fingering herself while sucking me and off and believe me the shit was good. She then moved her fingers from her pussy and placed them on my balls and started to play with them. I came and squirted right in her mouth, she swallowed every bit.

"Yum, just like always, now come fuck this pussy," that was of course a nice invitation.

I was hard again and grabbed the condom from my pocket, I ripped it open with my teeth and rolled it on my dick it felt nice. Tanya was bending over the couch and I knelt down and lick her pussy for a few seconds –just too wet it- and then position my cock to her entrance. Without warning her I shoved my dick roughly inside of her and started to penetrate her deep. I know Tanya liked dirty talk.

"Ugh…Tanya so good, pussy feels so right," I smacked her ass. She grunted, she started to wiggle around so I pulled onto her hair and hold her into place.

"No babe, stay still," I hold onto her hip with one hand and her hair with the next and started to thrust into her again. She was moaning under me and I know it wouldn't take long, for her that is.

I grinded my pelvis into her ass repeatedly and she looked like she was about to come.

"Not yet Tanya," I flipped her over and thrust into her again. She came hard on my dick and I rubbed her clit to send her over.

"Oh God, Edwarddddddddddd," she screamed.

I wasn't finish yet I grabbed her legs and put them over my shoulder and pushed forcefully into her.

I rubbed her clit again and she was moaning a lot. Then I bent down and kissed her and came inside the condom.

I started to grasp for air we've been at it for one hour but I wasn't done. I was hard again so I changed condoms and pushed her on the floor, I was in back of her and she was flat on the floor I started to take off of her clothes.

"Edward, would you leave Bella if I told you I really wanted a relationship…I mean like leave for good without turning back?"

"Yea, you're talking too much let's finish."

I thrust into her again and she groaned. I started to grind into her and she pushed herself back on my erection.

"Ugh fuck, tight pussy…b-baby this is good." I whispered in her ears. The position was getting old and I stood her up. I went back to the couch.

She looked at me like what to do "ride," I told her and she positioned herself over her cock and slammed down hard.

I grunted and she screamed; she came again. I was close and I could feel it I looked at the time and saw it was 8 I wanted to wrap this up. I started to go faster and then spurted my seed into the condom. We both started to pant, and then Tanya laughed.

"Wow Edward that was some heavy shit," I slapped her ass again and then laughed too. She gathered up all her clothes.

"I mean what I said Edward, think about it, please," I wonder what she was talking about and let it slip with a yea.

After we spent another hour making out, smoking and drinking I dropped Tanya home and decided to head to Bella's 15 minutes early. The bitch was specific for a reason because Jacob Black's car was on the driveway when I pulled up.

"I knocked on the door and Emmett answered.

"Dude do you want to wake up the 'rents?"

I pushed past him and ran to Bella's room; I was shocked to what I saw. Bella fast asleep on Jacob's chest, his hand on her stomach and he was singing to her.

"Get the fuck out of this room and don't touch her fucking stomach," Bella jolted up and she looked frantic.

"Did you do this Bella on purpose?" I asked. She shoke her head and then she got up and pulled me into the room.

"Edward shhh, I was telling Jacob you were coming over and that he should leave and he insisted he stayed over. Be quiet you'll wake mom and dad."

"So why didn't you leave Black,"

"The same reason why you came," he wasn't making any sense.

"Why?"

"Guys stop it," Bella said as she sat on the bed.

"Jacob don't interrupt please? Edward thought about it hard and I thought giving you some time off you would have been thinking about your mistakes but from your smell –which is nauseating- you didn't so we're over." What the fuck was Bella saying?

"Jacob what the fuck did you put up in her head and Bella what the fuck is wrong with you?"

"Would you shut up and listen Jacob came over about an hour ago and wouldn't leave because I was crying over you, he told me do what I think is best and I think the best thing to do is get you out of my life, it wouldn't be fair for the baby so you can still be around for it, but stay the fuck away. You would never be the man Jacob is Edward, you hurt me continuously and I allowed you for too long, we are through and that's that." Jacob was about to touch her.

"Don't touch her," she looked at me with pleading eyes as if she wanted to believe this wary look on my face but she didn't trust me, I gave her no reason too.

"Bella baby please, I made a mistake I promise I won't do any of that stuff again baby please don't do this to me I love you. Please Bella stay with me?"

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Bpov

And look how the tables have turn. Edward thought I didn't know about his hook up with Tanya recently…he needs to know he his brother mouth is too big for his own good.

Jake was quiet the whole time watching Edward grovel and this is what I needed, maybe our relationship does mean something to him. But now I was confuse I'm really into Jacob now, it was so childish what we broke up for anyway, a year later or so I still had sex.

"No Edward I won't take you back,"

"Bella please baby, I-" Jake cut him off

"Bella I'll love you more than Edward can, you should stay with me, I can help you take care of the baby."

Edward interrupts, "it's not your fucking baby Black."

"Yea well your doing a shitty job Cullen."

Edward turns to me and ignores as Jacob continues to run on, "Bella I'm dying here, can't you see I can't live without you, baby I love you don't do this."

"No Edward you had your chance let her be,"

"You know what Jacob you're a stinking dog and it's time u say your prayers," next thing I saw Edward lung for Jake and they started to fight.

"You guys stop NOW!!!!"

No one listens to me anymore.

Watcha think….yea lemon sorta off but I'm not good with this stuff review please and thank you.