Well well here is a new chapter. I've been working on it all day and it is now over 1am...
This chapter is hella long and I WILL ALSO WARN YOU! YOU MIGHT NEED TISSUES! THIS HAS BEEN A WARNING!
Enjoy!
Kate's POV
February 23 2017
I'm currently sitting on the floor in my bedroom in my New York apartment packing my things before I fly out to LA. Heading out to LA for the Oscars at which I am presenting. I'll be staying at Kristen's while I'm there which means we get a weekend together. The last time we were together was during Christmas and New Years and that was like two months ago. We've been busy on different coasts. The whole long distance thing is tough and we've wanted to end things several times but we always end up realizing that we are each others one and only.
My phone buzzes and I slide it out of my pocket and smile as I see a new message from her.
8:37am
K-bear: Can't sleep knowing you'll be here in a few hours so I thought I'd text you to see what you are up to :*
I smile at Kristen's text it's so sweet that she can't sleep but honestly it's 5:37am for her so she really should be sleeping.
8:38am
Me: Hi donut. First off I think you should be sleeping and you know why ;) but I'll give you a hint. It's 5:40am in LA! Second I'm sitting on my bedroom floor packing…
A few minutes past before my phone buzzes again.
8:44am
K-bear: Sorry Moose wanted food haha. Well now I'm up and about to get some coffee ;) When's your flight?
8:45am
Me: That's exactly how Nino woke me up this morning haha. Well okay then someone is gonna fall asleep early tonight ;) it's 10:45am (NY time duh) so I'll have to leave soon.
8:45am
K-bear: okay text me when you're at the airport so I know you got there safely and I'll pick you up at LAX. Love you :*
8:46am
Me: yes I'll. Love you too :*
I put my phone back in my pocket and continue to pack my things. Nino's sitter is picking him up in 15 minutes and then I'm off to JFK.
Kristen's POV
Here I am, at 6am fully awake because I'm too excited to see Kate that I can't sleep even though she won't be here for like 8 hours.
I get some clothes on and finish off my coffee, then I put on Moose's leach and we head out for a walk.
Even though it's only February the LA weather was quiet nice. It's not too warm but not too cold either, it's just perfect.
It was a little over 9am when me and Moose got back from our walk and I still had several hours to kill. Kate had texted me that she had gotten to the airport safely. I'm pretty sure she's already on the plane so now we're one step closer on seeing each other again.
I know it's a six hour flight between NY and LA but Kate being at JFK and not her apartment is a step closer. Right?
Ugh I'm literally gonna go insane if I keep this up so I decide to text Melissa to see what she's up to and if she wants to hang out.
Thankfully Melissa's kids had a playdate so she did have time to hang out so I grab my things and Moose and head out to my car.
I met Melissa up at a cafe and she could literally tell that something was up with me.
"Honey what's wrong?" I smiled weakly.
"Nothing is wrong."
Melissa raised an eyebrow.
"Why are you lying to me."
*I just haven't gotten enough sleep tonight. Been too excited about Kate coming."
Melissa laughed.
"Makes sense." She nods.
"You haven't seen each other since New Years it's understandable that you miss her."
"I'm not gonna lie about this but this long distance thing is really hard. We've both wanted to give up so many times."
"But you're still together that's gonna mean that you rather wanna be together than apart and that's gotta count for something right?"
"Yeah I guess you're right. I just wonder how it will look in the future you know?"
"Because you're here and she's on SNL?"
"Yeah like how will it be after we get married will be continue the whole long distance thing? Because Kate won't leave SNL willingly, it's her dream and she's gonna stay as long as they let her. Also Kate has said that LA isn't her thing so she won't be moving her either not even for me. So that would mean I'll have to move back to NY full time and I'm not sure if I can or want to do that."
"It seems to me that you and Kate needs to have a talk when she gets here."
"Yeah I think we do. Thank you Melissa I really needed to have this talk."
"You're welcome and do know that I'm always here for you and for Kate if you ever need something okay."
"Yeah." I smile, this time genuinely.
We get up and I hug Melissa.
"Hey you wanna get lunch and maybe some shopping?" Melissa asks and I nod and we head towards my car before we drive off for lunch.
Kate's POV
I'd been on the plane for an hour and I was honestly so bored. I had talked to Leslie on my way to the airport and honestly thank goodness I have her in my life. I know she thinks I'm weird when I send her pictures of Nino for no reason but I also know she secretly loves it.
I grab my book from my bag and plug my headphones into my phone. I turn on some music and then open my book. Hopefully this will help with passing some time on this long ass flight.
It wasn't long until my eyes fell shut and I was sleeping.
Well hopefully I won't wake up until landing.
Kristen's POV
It's 12:30pm and Kate's flight should be at LAX in 1 hour and 15 minutes so that feels good. Me and Melissa had parted ways a half hour ago and I was on my way to pick Kate up a gift, a surprise gift just because I wanted to and then I'm off to the airport.
I went through I few stores not really finding something that I wanted to give her but when I was literally about to give up I saw it and now here it was in a tiny little bag and I was smiling like a damn fool in my car on my way to the airport.
Kate's gonna love this. I can just feel it.
Weirdly enough I got to the airport at 1:45pm which just happened t0 be the time Kate's flight was supposed to arrive. There was a little traffic but not as bad as LA traffic can be trust me.
I park the car and grab my car keys and phone and walk into the busy arrival area of LAX.
As usual there was a bunch of paps but also some fans that wanted autographs and pictures. I manage to shoot Kate a text that I was waiting for her and she sent back that she was about to walk out from grabbing her luggage.
About 5 minutes later Kate walks out from the big doors and a big smile forms on my face.
"Hey girl." I say as I embrace her in hug.
"Hey baby." She says and plants a kiss on my lips.
We decided to head to the parking garage fast to avoid paparazzis and fans. Not that we don't appreciate the fans but now was not the time.
We get into my car and I hand Kate the gift I got her.
"What's this?" She asks curiously.
"I got you something."
"You didn't have to."
"I know but I wanted to."
"I don't deserve you."
"I know."
She playfully hits my arm and I just laugh.
She pulls me closer to her and kisses me again.
"Thank you." She says.
"You haven't even opened it."
"I know but I already know I'm going to love it."
I smile at her.
"I'm always gonna love something that I've gotten from you."
My smile gets wider.
She opens it carefully and her eyes go wide and I can't help but smile again.
"So I guess that you like it." I smirk.
"I just don't like it, I love it and I knew I would."
I had gotten Kate a necklace with a tiny head of a cat that actually slightly looked like Nino in silver. It also happens to be vintage.
"Thank you this is amazing."
"You're welcome honey butt."
Me and Kate just ordered in and cuddle on the couch when we got home and I wouldn't have wanted it any other way.
When I woke up the next day Kate was already awake stroking my hair.
"Good morning love." She says and kisses my forehead.
"Good morning." I say and get up so I could face her better.
"Hey before you got her yesterday I met up with Melissa and we had this conversation about our future because it's been something I've been thinking about for a while and I really think we need to talk, about our future."
"I honestly couldn't agree with you. I had a similar conversation with Leslie on my way to the airport."
"Okay good. So how about we get some coffee and then sit down and talk?" I ask.
"Yes that sounds good." I get out from bed and reach my hand out for Kate to take before we're off to my kitchen.
We sit down on the couch both putting our feet up on the couch as well. Facing each other we both just look into each others eyes.
Kate breaks the silence between us.
"Do you wanna start or should I?" She asks.
I take a deep breath.
"I can start okay?"
"Okay." Kate says and grabs my hand.
"So you know me and Melissa went out for coffee earlier today and she could tell that something was off, with me and…" I'm trying really hard not to let the tears fall from my eyes.
"And I told her that something had been bothering me for awhile, about our future because we've both wanted to give up on this relationship because of the whole long distance thing. I know that you won't leave SNL willingly and I know LA isn't your thing so you won't move here, not even for me. I also do know that I'm not sure if I can or want to move back to NY full time. This honestly has nothing to do with that I don't wanna marry you because I do, I really do but this long distance is killing us and we both know that." I couldn't hold the tears from falling any longer so I just let them fall down my cheeks as much as Kate lets hers fall down hers.
Kate takes a deep breath.
"You just took the words out of my head. This is exactly what I have thought of as well. I feel like just because I have my entire life in NY I can't tell you to drop your life here in LA to live with me in NY, as much as I want you to move with me to NY that just isn't my place because honestly I shouldn't do anything to you that you don't feel comfortable with."
This was honestly not supposed to turn into a crying mess but it has. Me and Kate are unsure about our future together and right now I don't know how to fix this, especially since Kate is going back to NY in a few days there is no way we're gonna work this out in just two days especially not when we have work to do these few days we have together and not to mention the fact that Kate is presenting at the Oscars on Sunday. I have a feeling I'll have to travel to NY so we can work this out because we really have to. But now is not the time, we don't have the time. Oh gosh what have I done…
Kate's POV
Sunday February 26, 2017
These last couple of days has been really hard for both me and Kristen. We've been in and out of the house at different times for work, I don't know about Kristen but I haven't avoided her after our conversation I've just been super busy with different things and especially prep for the Oscars and when I've gotten home late Kristen has already gone to bed. This is honestly killing me as much as our long distance relationship. I don't know how to fix this but I know we have to because honestly Kristen is the best thing that has ever happened to me and I really don't wanna lose her, especially for something as silly as distances. So I really really hope that we can work this out.
I honestly thought that I had time to roll around and fall back asleep from the thoughts that has been hunting my dreams for the past few days but that's when my alarm goes off. I groan and grab my phone to shut it off. Great…
I get up and head into the kitchen to get some coffee to hopefully stop being so grumpy. I get my mug and sit down on Kristen's couch, I turn on the TV and grab my phone to check if I had some new messages. Leslie had sent me a bunch of texts about different things and some of my SNL co-stars had sent me good luck texts for the Oscars, which I had rolled my eyes at because I was honestly just presenting nothing else and presenting is a piece of cake.
I place my phone down on the table and start flipping through the channels but there was nothing of interest so I shut it off and head into Kristen's bedroom. She's still sound asleep and I honestly want to keep it that way because as much as our future has worried me and kept me up at night it has also kept her up at night so if she's sleeping I'm gonna let her sleep. I tiptoe into the bathroom and turn on the shower, hopefully a shower can wake me up more as the coffee hasn't helped enough. I strip out of my clothes and get in letting the warm water fall over my body. I really needed this.
As I'm done and gotten all my things together I write Kristen a note and leave it on the bedside table, I kiss her forehead and then I'm off to the hotel to get ready for the Oscars.
I know Kristen would try to stay up and watch the Oscars but would probably fall asleep an hour in which isn't that bad because at that time I would have already presented. But I know she also would have wanted to be up when I get back but we both know that that would not happen and if I was right. When I get in through the door at 2am she was sound asleep on the couch. I couldn't let her sleep there all night though so I walk up to her and kiss her on the cheek.
"Hi baby. Come on you can't sleep here lets get you into bed." I say calmly. Kristen tries to open her eyes but its not very effective. I help her up and guide her towards her bedroom. I get her into bed and then I proceed to undress myself and getting my over size t-shirt on and then climb into bed with her. Kristen moves closer to me already almost asleep again. I kiss her forehead and whisper a good night before I close my eyes to fall asleep.
"You looked stunning." Kristen murmurs. I open my eyes and look at her.
"Always for you babe."
Kristen smiles her eyes still closed.
"I will move to NY for you." Is the last thing Kristen says before she falls back asleep.
I smile and kiss her on the lips one more time before I fall asleep as well.
Until next time :*