A/N - Thanks for the feedback. Glad you're not going to kill me for last chapter. This one is emotional for Jason. Daughter's water broke so I can't proof read. Sorry. Got to go!

Chapter 38

Elizabeth is already standing in the doorway, watching Claudia who has no idea what happened rock Jake as a nurse watches.

"He's so handsome. I'm in love." She glances at the door and sees Liz start to cry. "Elizabeth, what's wrong?"

The new mom ran towards them and then took Jake from her arms.

A chair was shoved behind her and Piph helped lower her onto the seat before she fell.

"Mommy is here, baby."

"What happened?"

"Sam McCall happened. She fell off the roof in front of Jason and Liz with a fake baby in her arms, but said it was Jake," Piph explained.

"Oh my God!"

"It was horrible."

"Where's Jason?"

Alan stepped into the doorway. "He's right here."

Claudia could tell by the look of worry on Alan's face that something is very wrong. She ran to the hallway and found Jason looking down at the floor, like he'd rather be anywhere else.

Finally, she found her voice. "He's alright; all ten toes and fingers and those beautiful blue eyes that he got from you."

He didn't move so she tugged him towards the doorway and then pulled his chin up and his eyes filled with tears as he watched Elizabeth smile at their son. A strangled noise escaped his mouth and then he stumbled to the room next door where he slid down the wall and pressed his head against his knees. Images of Sam falling and hitting the ground with the baby still in her arms slashed through his mind as he squeezed his head and begins to rock. All he can hear is her yelling that it was all his fault.

Claudia sat next to him and held him as he lost it and his emotions came pouring out. She never thought she'd see Jason in this condition, but she understood. If she had seen her brother crashing to the ground, she would be a hot mess right now.

Alan shut the door and let them be as he stationed himself in front of it to give Jason some privacy.

Today should be a joyous day, but instead, Sam had taken the Morgans to hell and back.

"Jake is fine. Your baby is fine and he needs you to be okay."

He gripped her tighter, not thinking it will ever be okay again.

"I know what you saw was horrible, so let it out so you can be there for Jake."

"I can't get it out of my head. This is all my fault. I led Sam on and then broke up with her on television. She went crazy and it's on me."

"Jason, you had no way of knowing she'd do what she did."

He pulled back and covered his face with his hands and then wiped the tears away pushing down his emotions as he struggled for control. "When Elizabeth really thinks about it, she's going to hate me."

"She loves you."

"All I do is hurt her. It's inevitable. Sam almost killed our child. You didn't hear her sobs. She sounded so broken, begging me to bring him back."

Claudia shakily stood and walked out of the room and then approached Elizabeth. Monica was by her side as well as Emily, Epiphany, and Leo.

"Elizabeth."

Liz looked up at her and smiled as tears clouded her eyes. "He's so beautiful."

Claudia wiped a tear away as her bottom lip quivered. "I know. Listen, Jason is in a really bad way and he's scaring me." Her face contorted and Liz swallowed hard.

"Where is he?"

"He's next door."

"Okay." She looked at Jake one last time and handed him to his grandmother.

They could hear Alan arguing with someone, so Liz ran into the hallway and watched as he pushed Jason back into the room.

"You are not going anywhere! You need to face this."

Jason threw a chair and then his hand collided with the wall before he slid down it again. Elizabeth slowly entered and then squeezed Alan's arm and he left.

"Jason…" Her heart clenched as she watched the life drain out of him. He grew impossibly still and she called his name again. "Jason!" Like a car sputtering, he starts to struggle a bit and she can hear him panting as he tries to speak.

"I'm so sorry."

"For what?"

"If I had gone about things differently, maybe she wouldn't have lost it."

She tensed and then anger overcame her. "Dammit Jason! You can't blame yourself for everything especially when you told me I couldn't. I asked you not to break up with her. Is it my fault too?"

He shook his head no.

"Then stop beating yourself up. What happened on that roof was horrible. You loved her before and you watched her die and thought Jake did too."

The image crashed into his mind and he threw his head backwards and it smashed against the wall and when it wouldn't go away, he did it again and Liz grabbed him, pulling him into her body as she rocked him and rubbed the back of his head.

"Don't do this. I love you so much. We need you. It's not your fault. It's not my fault. She lost it and I'm so sorry that you had to see them fall, but when you almost followed her—I don't think I would have survived if they hadn't pulled you back." She started to sob, thinking about the horror of what they had witnessed and he gripped her as they cried together for several minutes, letting their emotions out.

"We have two beautiful little boys and I'll be damned if I let anyone ruin our family." She grasped his face and made him look at her. His eyes are bloodshot and he looks so emotionally spent. "Tell me we're going to be okay, Jason. I need to here you say it. Please baby. Don't let her win."

His eyes filled again realizing he is scaring her. "I'm sorry. You don't need this right now. We'll be okay. I'm just—"

"I know, but we need to turn to each other."

He let out a shaky breath, trying to pull it together. "What do you need?"

"I need you to hold our son and feel his heart beat and know that he is alive and be thankful for that. You can't control another person, but you can control your reactions. We're both probably going to be a mess for a while, but we're fighters. No one can bring our family down." What happened on the roof will scar them for a while, but she had faith that their love could heal them.

"I love you. Thank you."

She kissed him reverently. "I love you with all of my heart." She never wants to see him this broken again and he felt the same way.

The door opened and Claudia moved inside with the baby. "Someone wants their mommy and daddy."

Liz smiled and watched as Claudia handed Jake to Jason who stared at his son in awe. Cameron ran through the doorway and jumped into his mom's lap.

"Hey baby."

He looked at her and then Jason. "Why are you sad?"

"Daddy lost an old friend. She went to heaven." She didn't want him to know what had happened. Watching someone else break is hard, but she is just glad no one she loved got hurt.

Cam got up and gave Jason a side hug.

"Thank you Cam."

"Is he going to sleep all the time?" he asked as he touched Jake's blanket.

Liz smiled as she softly rubbed Jake's head. "He will at first, but before you know it, he'll be crawling around."

"I can teach him how to play motorcycles."

"I think he'll like that," Jason said.

Claudia wiped a tear away as Audrey put her arm around her. Everyone is happy that the couple is going to be okay.

Johnny pulled her into the hallway and gave her a hug. "You okay?"

"That was rough."

"Thank you for being there for him."

"I think they just need to spend some time as a family."

"I'm going to go home and cook so they'll have something to eat for dinner," Audrey said.

"I'll grab lunch and take it over. Just text me what they like and I'll go to Kelly's," Claudia said.

"Thanks!"

She left with her guard in tow and then Liz finally gazed at Monica.

"Can you tell us what led up to what happened?"

Monica nodded. "Well, apparently, Sam had been watching the babies and then heard the nurses talking about Jake. One nurse, had set him down and then decided to bring him back into the room while she answered a page and another sat the practice baby on the table. We use them for training. She saw Sam turn and look at it and smile, but there was an emergency and she ran off, so that is when Sam took it, thinking it was Jake. A nurse saw Sam on the roof and called it in, not realizing the baby was fake. The other nurse then went to your room with Jake and saw Claudia who had been with you previously, so she recognized her and let her hold Jake while she watched."

Jason handed Liz the baby. "Thank you for being there for us."

Alan nodded. "We love you."

Liz kissed Jake and then looked up at Alan. "You want to hold him."

He smiled. "I would love to."

Epiphany strode into the room. "There is something you need to know."

"What?" Jason asked as he arranged Cam in his lap.

"There was a news report that stated that Amelia and Ric Lansing were attacked yesterday. They think it was Sam."

"Are they alive?"

"Amelia is in critical condition. She was stabbed multiple times. Ric came to her aid and tried to stop Sam, but she stabbed him in the heart and fled."

Liz sighed. "Maybe that is why she lost it."

All eyes turned to the door where a clearly upset Alexis stood.

Not waiting for them to respond, she continued. "I got a note delivered ten minutes ago. She said that she is sorry, but she can't live without Jason and she has been trying to forget, but can't. I came here because she said she was going to find you and convince you to take her back. Mac says she has a warrant out for her arrest. Apparently, in a drunken haze, she stabbed two people. They think she had just found out about your wedding. My daughter lost her life because as usual, she was obsessed with you. I knew you were going to end up killing her!"

"Alexis Davis! Don't you talk that way to my son in front of his children," Monica yelled.

Alexis is shaking in rage.

Jason moved Cam towards Elizabeth and then stood. "I'm sorry for your loss, but Sam's mental breakdown was not because of me. She lied and hurt people and there are consequences for that."

"And you do what you do for a living and there are consequences too, like people get shot and almost die and can't have children."

"And I live with that every day, but I didn't kill her. I broke up with her for good reasons. Don't act like she is a victim. Her life was ruined because of her past. I will always bear some guilt where she is concerned, but I'm not taking the full blame because she chose to be with me knowing there could be consequences. I think once you grieve, you'll see that."

"I can't even look at you right now," she said before stalking away.

"Jason…," Monica said.

"No mom, it's okay. She's hurting and I get it. If I died, people would tell you that I was bad and deserved it and you would probably freak out on them because you try to only see the good. Someone pretty special told me that I can't blame myself for everything and I'm going to try to believe that." For a minute, he wondered if he should have told Alexis about Ric, but then figured she probably would have freaked out even worse.

He gazed into Elizabeth's eyes and was met with a smile.

"Can we take a picture with the baby?" Monica asked as Jason helped Elizabeth stand.

"Sure."

Monica gave Liz her cell phone and stood next to Alan and they took a few pictures.

"Give us tonight and then you can come over tomorrow afternoon," Liz said.

"If you need more time than that, you let us know."

"I know that Edward will start getting antsy if we wait too long."

Alan chuckled. "You have no idea. He was telling every nurse that Jake is his great-grandson and how proud he is of you."

Jason almost did a double take.

"It's true. He said Jake was the best thing you've ever done."

"Well, he's probably right about that."

They walked to the elevator with Liz carrying the baby and Jason carrying Cam.

Paulie approached them. "The car is out front."

Jason nodded.

They watched the family get in the elevator with much relief.

"Epiphany, why don't you take off," Alan suggested.

She sighed. "I am exhausted."

"You did a good job on the roof," Monica said.

"I just wish they could get some peace."

"Me too."

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Jason watched Elizabeth breastfeed his son. They were emotionally fried, but it felt so good to be home where everyone was safe. She started to hum and it reminded him of when he used to watch her paint.

"You should sleep while you can," she said softly.

"I'd much rather watch you." He didn't want to let them out of his sight. It was hard enough letting Cam sleep in his bed, but he wife didn't want Jake to wake him up.

They hadn't slept very well the last few days. Elizabeth was having nightmares, so between them and Jake waking up, she was exhausted.

"When you start to pump, I'll get up with him."

"Okay." She wanted him to experience everything. "Want to burp him while I go to the bathroom?"

"Sure."

She rose from the rocking chair and gently laid his son in his arms and then put a burp cloth on his shoulder and left him to it.

He lovingly patted Jake on the back while he spoke softly to sooth him.

Elizabeth watched them for a moment, her love for Jason growing by the second. He had been a rock since they had come home and made sure Cam was entertained. She slipped into bed just as Jake finally burped and Jason put him in the bassinet before curling up around her.

"Feels so nice," she said. "I know you're worried about me, but I spoke with Gail and she said it is normal and will lessen over time."

He kissed her on the forehead, glad that he doesn't dream. Alexis had freaked when she found out about Ric, but it also showed her how messed up Sam was to do what she did. Sonny had being coming over in the mornings to cook breakfast for Cam and had been spending more time with Kristina and Molly so Alexis could grieve.

The next morning, Leya slipped into the house with some food and put it on some trays and Francis helped her deliver it.

"Hello," she said before entering their room.

"Come in," Liz said softly.

Leya smiled as she watched Jason put the baby in the basinet. "Room service."

"Oh my God, I'm starving."

Jason slipped in next to her and Francis handed him a tray and he thanked him.

Leya sat in the chair next to the baby and watched him sleep. "He's so beautiful."

"I thought I was just being biased."

Leya smiled at Liz. "If you want, the boys have been asking about Cam. I can get him ready and take him back with me. We were going to take them to a carnival."

"He would love that."

"Then it's settled. We'll keep him tonight so you can rest."

"Thank you, Leya," Jason said. He likes her. She is good with Sonny and he seemed genuinely happy. "So, I heard you moved in."

Leya grinned. "I did. I even met Carly."

"How did that go?"

"She was fine. I actually expected a tantrum, but she thanked me for taking care of the kids and seems like she's very happy with Jax."

Liz and Jason shared a glance.

"I think she's growing up." She had been given the whole Sonny and Carly history by several people and was a little nervous. It wasn't that she couldn't take care of herself, but she didn't want the boys to have to deal with it.

"That's good to hear," Jason said. Maybe there was hope for her.