so, this is basically my story. Everything in this chapter is real. Except for the names, but the events happened for real, and I'm willing to share it with you.

November 14th:

" Hey, jo!" gale says as He sits beside me in art class. Few months has passed since the fire night. I did as if I never felt anything. Honestly, I don't know what I feel. I never loved someone. maybe I'm wrong, I'm always wrong.

I rest my chin in my hand. This class is boring. I look over Peeta's shoulder. Our assignment was to draw someone in the class. He's drawing Katniss grey eyes.

I look over Katniss paper, and see Peeta's blonde locks. My sheet in empty,because I suck at drawing.

" would you mind look at me, Jo?" Gale asks. I turn to him and he goes back to drawing.

Few minutes later, he shows me his picture. It's me, with my short brown hair, and my usual grin.

" you're stupid" I say with my grin. He nods. He reaches for a pencil, and his hand touches mine. I get chills, and my heart flutters.

Yeah, I definitly love Gale Hawthorne.

" only 30 minutes left, guys!" Katniss says excitedly." I can't wait go home! " she says.

" hey, finnick, who are you drawing?" I ask. He's been too much quiet. He looks at me, and shows me his picture.

" I drew myself, of course!" He exclaims. We all laugh, since he drew himself prettier.

" so, Gale, I saw you with that chick yesterday." Finnick begins. I listen subtly.

" Madge?" He asks." Yeah, she's pretty hot." He says.

" and? " finnick asks. " you have a crush on her?" He exclaims.

" yeah, kinda" Gale admits. Then, my heart breaks. I literally felt it.

" you're quiet, suddenly, Jo. What's wrong?" Katniss asks.

" I'm fine. Just tired,I guess." I say. I feel my eyes water. I hate crying in public. I hate crying, period. The bell rangs, and I ran in the hall, all the way to my locker. I took my bag, and I ran outside. I heard Peeta call me, but I didn't go back. In the bus, I really wondered where did that come from. I think it means I love him. I was convinced this was just a crush.

The problem is: Madge is a bitch. You know when someone is evil, but you're the only one to see it? Madge is that kind of girl. She's in my physical education Class.

She's the kind of girl who is always with her friends, bitching about anyone. She'

thinks she's a fucking queen. i'm the only one seeing how sneaky she is, but I can't go and tell Gale, because he'll know I like him. God, I fucking hate them!

I'm not the kind of girl that hit on boys. I'm single, and I'm proud of it. I really don't know what's happening to me. Anyway, how can a boy like Gale love me? I'm not popular, I'm not a whore, I don't know!

I'm interrupted by my phone ringing.

" hey, Johanna" Peeta's face appears on my screen. " why didn't you wait for me?" He asks.

I shrug. " I was tired." I say lamely.

" you're lying" he detects. " look, Peeta. You're a dude. You don't get this shit. It's very nice of you, but I'm okay." I say firmly. We hang up, and I go back to wondering.

November 15th:

I'm eating with Katniss today, since Peeta has something. She's off to get our lunches. I am waiting for her, lost in my thoughts. I see Gale sitting with finnick, in front of me. He sees me, and waves. " come sit with me" he mouths. I shake my head no. Katniss arrives in this moment with our food trays. We eat, and i try Forget Gale. How his smile got bigger when he saw me. How can he love Madge fucking undersee, i dont know.

When i leave the cafeteria, I see him flirt with her, and it makes me want to throw up.

I go to my locker, and grab my bag. I go walk outside on the field. I sit on the bench, and look at the cheerleaders. They are practicing a routine with Jumps and everything. finnick comes and sit besides me.

" is it bad of me to wish them to break their neck?" I ask. He laughs.

" so, what's wrong with the cheerleaders?" He asks.

" i dont know, just, they're sooo popular and everything. And they like, rule the school. And i hate them. " i explain. " i should get going." I get up and leave.

The afternoon is pretty Boring, english class and math. I dont listen math, the teacher hates me anyway. I draw little hearts on my agenda, and i write gales name everywhere. Nobody know about my crush, so i hide the hearts. Madge and katniss are in my class math. Madge is talking to katniss and they laugh. I'm angry, now Madge is trying to steal my friend. She's so sneaky! The more i know about her, the less i like her. We have a problem.

I know a girl like this, and i really hate her, so she helped me with the character:)