I have no idea how sex actually works, I just went for what most smut stories say it's like, but with more talking involved
XII. Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive
They buy what they need, and get a room with a single bed, on purpose this time, and it's a whole thing.
"Are you sure about this? You can always back out"
"I'm sure"
"Ok, ok"
Connor licks his lips, Evan pulls him into a harsh kiss, demanding, and Connor kisses back desperately, heart on his throat. The part ways, panting, and Evan looks at Connor through hooded eyes, and Connor kisses him again, hands grabbing at Evan's waist , hands curling through Connor's hair in a way that shouldn't feel so good, lips parting, tongues dancing.
The next thing he knows, he has Evan pinned against a wall, cheeks flushed, pupils dilated, and kiss swollen lips; and Connor realizes what's about to happen. A gentle hand breaks him out of his trail of thought, and he meets with lake green eyes.
"Hey, you ok?"
He feels tears in his eyes, and he isn't sure why exactly he's crying, Evan smiles warmly at him and wipes them off, so soft and careful.
"Sorry"
"Don't, take your time"
"God, what did I ever do to deserve you?"
"Ditto"
Connor snorts, caught unguarded; while Evan is grinning proudly, Connor kisses his stupid grin. It's slower this time, Connor is testing, trying the ground so he doesn't fall, and after a bit he grows confident enough to leave Evan's lips and concentrate on his neck.
Connor pulls his shirt off, followed by Evan's, stopping for a moment to trace each other's abdomens, greedy hands and greedy eyes. Evan starts working on his pants, he's one for cold decisions on times like these, Connor helps speeding the process, then helps getting rid of his, leaving them both in their underwear.
Evan's the one to initiate the kiss this time, pulling his body against Connor's and making both of them moan at the contact, Connor has to hold them both when they almost lose balance.
It happens in flashes, moving closer to the bed, then there's an awkward pause, and it's such a rarity to them that it causes them to laugh.
"I uh, I have no idea what I'm doing"
"Uhm… I ah- I do? I mean, I may or may not have researched, so, you know"
"I should've guessed Kleinman would rub on you"
"He was all I really had for like, eleven years"
"Only eleven?"
"You kind of appeared in my life before he got the twelfth"
"Fair"
"Get the lube, I'll walk you through it"
"Not one for taking charge?"
"I… may or may not have experimented"
"Oh my god"
Connor has this shit eating grin, and Evan swats him in the arm, mock angry, completely flustered.
"Go, grab a condom too"
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"You want to warm it first"
"Am I going to- ?"
"Yep"
"Jesus"
"I know"
"I… does that, you know, feel good?"
"Yes"
"Oh"
"…"
"Did you, try it with someone or- ?"
"You're my first?"
"Christ… that' a mental image"
"Go slow at first… y-yeah, like that, you're ah- trying to widen it?"
"Right"
"That's ah~, really good"
"…"
"You should, add another, a-and, god, scissor them"
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"Push in slowly"
"Jesus, you feel so- god"
"You're ah- you're really good too"
"Fuck, don't stop"
"You're so hot when you curse"
"Hush"
"…"
"Con!"
"You ok?"
"Do that again"
"Oh"
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"That was-"
"Yeah"
"And you were-"
"Yeah"
"God, I love you"
"You ok?"
"I love you too"
"O-oh"