Weeks had come and gone yet things remain the same between Ashley and I. She was my rock and I was hers. When one of us felt like we needed support we did the best that we could to help each other. She made me feel alive with every whispered 'I love you', every sweet kiss, every time she held my hand. I know she is being as strong as she can without her dad and the love I feel for her grows intensely every time I'm with her.

"What are your plans after school?" We were laying on her bed. My head was on her stomach and she was playing with my hair. We hadn't talked about our plans after school. In fact I'd been avoiding the subject. What if our plans were completely different?

I pull myself up and look at her and she looks worried. "I actually got my acceptance letter from UCLA a couple of weeks ago."

She looked surprised and it made me nervous. "Why didn't you tell me?"

"I don't know." I mumbled causing her to tilt my chin up.

"Tell me." She whispered before cupping my cheek.

"I just—I didn't know what that meant for us."

"So you'd rather not tell me? How are we supposed to figure it out if you can't tell me what's going on?"

She's right. The best thing to do is be completely honest with her and I have to learn to step it up in that department. What was I going to do just say oh hey by the way I'm going to college today? Why does life have to be so complicated?

"You're right. I should have told you." She gave me a small smile before giving me a kiss. "So what are your plans anyways?"

"I honestly have no idea. With my dad's inheritance coming in, I really don't have to get a job so I could live anywhere."

"Why don't we get a place of our own? Near UCLA?" I asked as I tucked a few strands of hair behind her ear.

"Do you think your ready now?"

I gave her a big grin as I laced our fingers, "Baby, I've been ready for a while."

"Yeah?" She returned my grin before jumping on my lap.

"Absolutely." I wrapped my arms around her waist as she laced her fingers behind my neck.

"Let's do it baby. Let's get a place of our own."

"Ashley can you seriously just quit nit picking everything." I huffed as I crossed my arms. It feels like all we have been doing since graduation is fighting about where we are going to move to. Every condo we look at is either too small, in the wrong area, or just not good enough.

"I just want it to be perfect for us, Spence." She replied as we looked at the layout before us. Even I can admit it wasn't really the best condo but it seems like she is finding something wrong with every one we look at.

"Are you sure that's all?"

She turned to face me looking pissed off. "What do you mean?"

"I mean, it's like every time we look at a place you find something wrong with it so that we don't choose it. Are you reconsidering moving in together?" I couldn't help but ask and it scared me to death. All I wanted was for us to find a place and be happy together. It's like one day something had changed with Ashley and I can't figure out why.

"Alright so what do you guys think of the place?" Our realtor walked into the room interrupting our conversation.

"It's not good enough for her." I replied harshly as I continued to look at Ashley. "Or maybe I'm not." I spun on my heels and stormed out of the room before slamming the door and heading to the elevator.

I waited in the car until Ashley finally came down. When she did, she opened the driver's door before sliding in. Since I had the keys, the car was already started. I refused to look at her so I stared at out the window as I watched couples walking hand in hand, mother's holding their babies, normal people getting to live their normal lives.

"Spencer, we need to talk." Her voice barely came out as a whisper over the hum of the car running.

"You should have said that a long time ago instead of getting my hopes up of us finally getting to live together. If you didn't want to move in then you should have said something a long time ago."

"Spence, please look at me."

I sighed before turning my head to look at her. I couldn't read the emotions in her eyes. They went from scared to nervous to sad.

"I haven't been putting off finding a place because I don't want to move in with you. I've been putting it off because there is something I need to tell you before we pick a place and I've been holding off on talking about it."

At this point I'm infuriated. We have been looking for weeks and if she had to tell me something then just fucking tell me. "Spit it out Ashley."

"We should probably go back to my place before we discuss this." She replied and I could literally feel myself burning up from how pissed off I was.

"Just fucking tell me!" I am not even sure why I'm getting so upset. I just have this gut feeling she is going to tell me she doesn't want to be with me anymore.

"I got a job offer." She whispered causing me to pause in confusion. A job offer? Last thing I knew, Ashley wasn't even looking for a job due to her inheritance. How the hell did she get offered a job out of nowhere?

"What are you talking about?"

"Someone from my dad's label was at the party the night of the memorial. He had recorded me and took it back to the label. They got a hold of me a few days after graduation and offered me a contract to sign with them." It was so much information to take in. The fact that she felt like she couldn't share good news like that threw me off. I looked into those beautiful eyes I loved as I placed a hand on her cheek.

"Baby, I'm so proud of you. Why wouldn't you tell me something like that?" I asked as I rubbed my thumb over her cheek causing her to place a hand over mine.

"The recording studio is in New York." Within that one statement everything made sense. I was going to lose her. She was leaving me. My hand quickly pulled away and I felt my whole world caving in. I didn't even notice the tears streaming down my face until she tried to wipe them away, but there was no stopping them.

"Are- are you breaking up with me?" I mumbled out as I felt a lump form in my throat and I felt my whole body start shaking.

"No!" She yelled causing me to jump. "God no, Spencer this is not me breaking up with you." She pulled me as close to her as she could with the console in our way and wrapped her arms around me as I cried into her neck.

"I just don't know what to do. You want to go to school at UCLA and I want that for you. It just means I would be traveling a lot and I didn't know how you would take that. I got it extended so that I don't have to leave until the end of the summer and—"

"Wait!" I pulled out of her embrace as I glared at her. "You already took it? Without even talking to me about it first?"

She sighed in frustration as she ran her hands through her chocolate curls. "It's a big opportunity for me. Just like going to UCLA is a big opportunity for you."

Am I allowed to be mad? I don't think I would be nearly as mad if she had told me about it when she first found out. This is a big thing that could make us or break us.

"Do what you have to do, Ashley. If this is what you want then I can only hope it doesn't tear us apart." I whispered as more tears ran down my face. I could now see her crying as well. Please don't let me lose her.

After a few weeks on going back and forth on what we should do, we finally decided to go ahead and get a condo near my school. I would live there and Ashley would visit when she wasn't recording or on tour. It was only a few days before she would be flying out for the first time to New York. I couldn't bear the thought of losing her and I could see it was affecting her as well. We had been attached at the hip, not like that was different from any other time. It just become more real as I saw her starting to pack up clothes from our condo. It killed me inside to know I wouldn't have her there to comfort me on my bad days and vice versa.

I was in the middle of cooking us eggs and bacon when I heard some noises coming from the bedroom causing me to walk in to see what she was doing.

"Baby?" She was sitting on the floor crying with her knees against her chest. I quickly walked over and wrapped her up in my arms.

"Spence, I don't know if I can leave you." She said in between tears.

It was killing me as much as it was hurting her but I had to be strong for her. "Yes you can. Ashley, I'm not going anywhere. I'm so proud of you for doing this and your dad would be too. I'll be right here when you get back."

"Promise?" She sounded like a child as the tears stained her cheeks. I nodded before softly pressing my lips against hers. The natural taste of Ashley's lips and her tears were on my tongue. I lifted her up off the floor and walked her to the bed before laying her down as we continued our kiss.

We just needed to taste and touch each other. To know we supported each other and show our love to one another. It was the only thing we had left. So that's what we did for the rest of the morning. Letting the breakfast go cold, we made love to each other until we had no energy left.

Afterwards we lay on our bed wrapped up in each other. Just giving each other kisses here and there. I couldn't ask for anything better at the moment.

"I got you something." Ashley whispered to me before getting up and grabbing a shopping bag. She pulled out a webcam before giving me a small smile. "This way we can still see each other and talk or even if we are lonely we can get a little kinky." She gave me a wink causing me to let out a sincere laugh, one that hadn't been let out for a while.

"That's my girl, always thinking ahead when it comes to sex."

This caused her to laugh before slapping me on the ass, "You bet your ass I do."

I woke up wrapped in Ashley's arms. Today is the day I have been dreading. It's our last full day together before she leaves in the morning. Nothing could have prepared me for this day no matter how hard I tried. I looked up from her chest to see her sleeping. Those perfect lips, perfect nose that scrunches up when she smiles, her curly dark brown hair that I love running my fingers through, and last but not least behind those closed eyes were the eyes that I get lost in every time I look at them. How could I possibly spend months at a time without her? She's my life and it doesn't make sense without her.

"Should it freak me out that you're staring at me?" She whispered huskily causing me to jump. Her eyes were still closed but she gave me a small smile.

"Only if it freaks me out that you knew I was staring at you with your eyes closed." I replied with a laugh causing her to open one eye.

"Kisses?" She asked with an innocent voice. I laughed before moving up to her and pecking her on the lips.

"No more until we brush our teeth." Of course once I say that she begins to pout.

"You don't like my morning breath baby?"

I rolled my eyes before slapping her thigh, "I love everything BUT your morning breath."

"It's not nice to hit your girlfriend! I might get bruises and then people will think you're abusive."

I raised an eyebrow before pulling away from her. "You're on a roll today. Guess you don't want to shower with me."

"No! No more jokes, I promise!" She scrambled after me as I made my way to the shower.

"You better not!"

Spending the day together trying to avoid the fact that she was leaving was harder than I thought it would be. It got brought up once but I told her I didn't want to talk about it anymore. We were currently getting all dressed up to go out and have a nice romantic dinner. I seriously wasn't up for it.

"Ash!" I called out causing her to walk in wearing a black strapless dress with her hair straightened and a smoky eye. She looked beautiful. "Uh- nevermind."

She walked up to me in concern and tucked my hair behind my ear. "What is it? You can tell me."

"Would you be mad if I said I would rather spend tonight here in the condo instead of going out? I just want you to myself." I asked shyly causing her to laugh. I raised an eyebrow in confusion.

"That sounds perfect. The only reason I said I would take you out is because I thought it was something you would want to do."

"I honestly would rather be cuddled up in bed watching a movie."

"Movie it is." She replied before unzipping her dress and letting it fall to the floor. My eyes widened as I realized she wasn't wearing a bra and her panties were black and see through lace. I could instantly feel the heat rush in between my legs.

"See something you like?" She asked seductively causing me to look up at her. Her eyes darkened with lust and she nibbled on her bottom lip.

"I see everything I like." I replied before crushing my lips into hers. I walked her over to the bed before pushing her back. I was still in my tank top and shorts so we quickly rid myself of them. I looked down at her perfect round breasts before trailing my focus down to her abs that I love touching. I slid my hands over her stomach causing her to flex and let out a moan. I think she likes it just as much when I touch them. I ran my fingers down to her underwear before sliding them down her tanned toned legs. I started by kissing her ankle and making my way up to her inner thigh. I licked and sucked on her skin causing her to let out a soft moan.

"Baby please?"

"What do you want me to do?" I asked before lightly sliding my tongue up her clit and then pulling back.

"Fuck! Baby, I want you to eat me out! So fucking good!"

"So good that I make you cum and then I have to clean you back up with my tongue?" I asked in my lust filled haze. I wanted her to think of this when some nasty skank was trying to get her number in New York. I wanted her to think about begging me to make her cum.

"Fuck yes baby! Make me cum and then clean me up really good."

"Just what I wanted to hear." I purred before roughly licking her clit causing her thighs to shake as her hand reached down and gripped my hair. I rubbed and grabbed her ass as I sucked her clit into my mouth and rolled my tongue around it.

"Oh fuck baby! Fuck, fuck, fuck! Oh shit!" Her hips were bucking into my face as I continued to eat her out. I slammed two fingers into her and began pumping them in and out of her as I lightly nibbled on her clit. Almost immediately she came undone and screamed my name as she came for me.

She was breathing heavily as she tried to recover. I snuggled up into her side but she was quick to push me away.

"Oh no you don't! Every time you snuggle into me you end up falling asleep and I am definitely having my desert." She replied before rolling me onto my back.

I let out a soft laugh before saying, "You're more than welcome to have desert. Hell you can even have seconds."

I know I know! sorry for such a long wait! I hope this makes up for it! So how do you guys thing Ashley and Spencer will do without each other? hmmm. Thanks rain for getting me in the right direction!

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