Months have passed since Ashley left for New York to start her music career. We tried to see each other on the web cam every night before we went to bed but with Ashley's career quickly sky rocketing, it became harder and harder to find the time. She tried flying out to see me when she could but she recently came out with her cd and they had started her tour throughout the United States. I had never felt more alone. Here I was coming home from school every day to sit in a condo by myself and no one to talk to. I started throwing myself into school work and even got a job interning at a book publishing company. I had always been interested in writing and was hoping this would put my foot in the door. My boss, Brooke, was very sweet. She was also gay which made it easier to talk to about our love lives when we went to lunch. It was really nice to be able to talk to someone about how hard it was to be in a long distance relationship. We were actually becoming great friends and went out for drinks a few times after work.

I was currently sitting at my desk at work going over a manuscript that Brooke wanted me to look over. She would let me do this from time to time and it was exciting being able to take on such an important task. I felt my phone vibrating in my desk, causing me to pull the drawer open and check to see who it was.

Ashley.

I hadn't talked to her in couple days. Our schedules are so different what with my classes being in the day and then going straight to work right after. By the time I get off of work she is either performing or at a signing and I tend to fall asleep before she gets home. I feel myself smiling as I slide my thumb over the screen to answer the call.

"Hi." I let out with a rasp as I ran my fingers through my hair.

"Hello beautiful. How's my girl doing?" The sound of her sexy raspy voice sends chills down my body. Hearing her voice never gets old and I will never get used to the feeling she gives me when she calls me beautiful.

"I'm missing you like crazy. Are you still coming home this weekend?" I asked excitedly as I began tapping my pen on the desk.

She paused which caused my smile to fall. "Actually that's why I was calling you."

I wanted to cry out in frustration. Is it so wrong of me to want to see my girlfriend for ONE weekend? "Let me guess, you're too busy?" I replied flatly causing her to sigh.

"There's a charity concert going on this Saturday and I was asked to perform. My publicist thinks it would look really good for me if I were to do it."

I throw my pen down on the desk and shake my head, "Of course she does." I have met her publicist once. Ashley had flown me out to see a concert over a weekend and let's just say her publicist was very into her. If looks could kill then she would be dead and Ashley knew I wasn't a fan of her.

"Spence, please don't be like that. It's not about her. This is about me and trying to further my career." She replied exasperated and I really could care less at this point. I was seething and she was about to know just how much.

"Of course it's about you. It's always about you. I just wonder if you will ever remember about me, us, and ever put our relationship first. Don't you understand, Ashley? I miss your touch. I miss you holding me and kissing me and telling me that you love me—"

"I do love you Spencer!" She interjected causing me to roll my eyes.

"Then start acting like it! I just want to see my girlfriend for one fucking night for Christ's sake!" I could feel the hot tears rolling down my face and I quickly tried to wipe them away but it was no use, they wouldn't stop.

I could hear her breathing on the phone and I knew she was at a loss for words, as was I. "Can I see you tonight? On webcam and we can talk everything out? I have a dinner tonight with my producers but I should be done by ten." She whispered and I really didn't want to see her. It would only make things harder.

"I don't have anything else to say to you, Ashley."

"Please, Spencer?"

I tried to swallow the lump in my throat but it was no use. "Have fun at your dinner." I whispered before pulling the phone away from my face and hitting the end button.

I took a deep breath but was quickly startled by a knock at my door. I looked up to see Brooke standing in my doorway. I quickly tried to wipe the tears from my face, clearly embarrassed.

"Sorry Brooke I know I shouldn't be taking personal calls at work. Won't happen again."

Brooke slowly walked over to my desk and sat on it to where she was next to me and looked down at me. "I didn't mean to interrupt. Don't worry about personal calls you work your ass off for me."

"Thanks Brooke."

She nods before giving me a sad smile, "Is everything okay?"

"Oh you know, just dealing with the long distance relationship." I try to force out a laugh but fail miserably.

"If you need anything let me know, okay?" I gave her a smile and a nod in response, causing her to stand up and walk back to the door. "Spence, do you wanna grab a couple drinks after work? Looks like you could use it."

"I don't know Brooke-" My phone buzzed causing me to look down.

I'm just trying to provide us with a good life. I wish you could understand that. –Ashley

"A couple drinks sound good." I say after throwing my phone back into the drawer and slamming it shut.

If only she could understand, her being with me would be enough.

I threw back a shot of something Brooke picked out. The warm liquid glided down my throat and left a burning sensation. I wasn't opposed to having another.

"One more." I said to Brooke as she finished her own.

"Are you sure? You've already had three." Her raspy voice reminded me of Ashley's. Her hair was brown with waves, it wasn't as dark as Ashley's but it still resembled it a lot. I've noticed quite a few things about Brooke that reminded me of Ashley. Her spunky attitude, her bubbly personality, her loud raspy laugh, and her smoldering eyes all brought Ashley to mind. It was hard to be reminded of her at a time like this.

I contemplated her question. Am I sure? At this point, I'm absolutely positive.

I lick my lips, tasting the distinct taste of what ever shot I took last that was still lingering. I give her a nod causing her to sigh before flagging down the bartender.

After we took the last shot I promised it would be my last. We made our way to a corner booth away from the noise.

"You want to talk about it?" She asked as before sipping on her glass of water.

"What's there to talk about? Even my girlfriend doesn't want to see me." I could feel the tears building up and the effect on the alcohol was not in my favor for hiding my emotions.

"Spence, I'm sure it's not like that. I bet she just has a lot going on right now and she is having a hard time balancing everything." Even I could tell she didn't believe the words that were coming from her glossed mouth.

"You know the first time Ashley called me Spence was the first day I met her. It was like an instant connection. She was telling me that she wouldn't take advantage of me if I changed in front of her." I let out a soft chuckle as I wipe a couple tears away. "When you call me Spence it reminds me of that day and the way we quickly fell in love. Now it's like none of it even matters anymore, like I don't matter anymore."

The alcohol was really kicking my ass and the tears were at a non-stop. I think the alcohol was affecting Brooke as well because she placed a hand on my cheek and swiped a tear away with her thumb. "Spencer, you do matter and if Ashley can't realize that then she's an idiot."

I nuzzled into her hand before placing my hand over hers. "Thanks Brooke. This really helped." I leaned forward and pulled her into a hug.

She ran one hand up and down my back and the other was place on the back of my head. "It's going to get better Spencer."

"I hope so." I whispered before leaning back. She gave me a small smile as she ran her hand down to my neck. Something in her eyes changed and they went dark. Before I knew it her lips were pressed against mine. Her lips were soft and sexy. Her tongue swiped against my bottom lip begging me for access which I quickly granted. Her tongue found mine and they battled for dominance. She smelled delicious and her hair was soft in my fingers. Her lips were quickly moving with mine and she moved so that she was on my lap. Her skirt hitched up so that she could straddle me. I ran my hands up her soft toned thighs causing her to moan in my mouth.

This kiss was exciting and sexy and it had me reeling. There was just one problem—

It wasn't Ashley and it never would be.

I quickly pulled back causing Brooke to look at me in confusion. "I'm sorry, Brooke. I just can't. I'm with Ashley and I love her. I shouldn't have kissed you back I'm—"

"Spencer, stop! It's my fault. I don't know what came over me." Her eyes were wide with panic, "I guess it's just because we're both going through a shitty love life right now and I shouldn't have used that as an excuse to kiss you. I hope we can just forget about this and act like it never happened." I could tell she was sincere and I honestly couldn't be mad at her.

I give her a small smile before nodding at her, "I would be more than happy to forget all about this but you're still on top of me and it's very distracting." I reply with a laugh.

Her face burns red with embarrassment as I help her off my lap. "We should probably get out of here." I reply before grabbing her hand, helping her up to let her know I wasn't mad.

We reached my condo in her limo; did I mention she's rich? Yes, very. I went to open the door but her hand stopped me.

"Spencer, I really am sorry. That was totally unprofessional of me to do and I hope you don't let this affect our business relationship."

I give her a smile as I nod, "Of course not, Brooke. To be honest, I consider you a friend and I won't let this affect it either. It was a drunken mistake and I don't hold anything against you. I'm in the wrong as well for kissing you back. So if you're going to apologize then I owe you one too."

"Oh please, Spencer. Don't apologize. Let's just forget the whole thing."

"Sounds good." I reply before opening the door and stepping out into the warm air.

"Oh and Spencer?" I turn back to face her before raising an eyebrow. "I consider you a friend as well. I meant it when I said if you ever need anything I'm here for you. I'll try not to kiss you next time." She replied with a wink causing me to laugh.

"I thought we were forgetting about that?"

"Who could possibly forget about a kiss like that?" She gave me a smirk causing me to shake my head at her in disapproval.

"Good bye Brooke Davis."

"Good bye Spencer Carlin." I laugh as I shut the door and make my way up the stairs.

As I walk into my condo I kick my heels off and pull the clip from my hair, letting it fall to my shoulders. Today has been—exhausting to say the least. I'm still drunk and at this point I could really use a hot shower. I pull the zipper down the back of my dress as I make my way down the hallway. I let it fall before stepping out of it leaving me only in my bra and underwear. I pick up my dress and walk towards my bedroom. When I open the door I realize my lamp is on and I look to my bed to find her sitting there in one of my t shirts that I sleep in, and her short shorts that she always sleeps in.

I feel a lot of emotions going through me right now ranging from anger, happy, guilty, and the list goes on.

"Well this is a very good hello." I see her eyeing my body and I look down to realize I'm in my underwear.

"What are you doing here?" I whisper causing her to look back up into my eyes.

"My girlfriend told me that she missed my touch, so I came to deliver." She replied before standing up and walking towards me. She pulled me into a hug and I got lost into her touch and smell.

I felt the tears streaming down my face. I have missed her so much that it hurts. "I've missed you so much Ashley."

"I've missed you too, baby. More than you realize. I know you don't think so but I go to bed every night thinking about you and wishing you were sleeping in my arms. Wishing I could taste your lips and feel your skin against mine. I don't want you to ever feel like I care about anything else more then I care about you. I love you Spencer, more than anything."

I pulled back and I could tell she was sincere with her words. "I love you too Ashley. I just need you here more. I hate being away from you so much. It hurts me."

"I know and I'm so sorry. I guess I just let myself get too involved with work and I needed a reality check. I'm going to be here this weekend with you like I promised and then I've only got 3 more show before my tour is over. I'm going to take a few months off after that and spend time here at home with you."

"That sounds perfect." I reply as I place my hand on her cheek. She leans in and captures my lips in a sweet kiss.

She's quick to pull away which causes myself confusion. "Have you been drinking?" She asks with her nose scrunched up.

It's like I got punched in the stomach when the events of tonight come back into mind. Fuck. I kissed Brooke. I place my hands over my face and groan.

"Spence, what's wrong?" She asked as she ran her hands up and down my shoulders. Spence. It brings me back to the night she was going to take me out on the town.

"So you asked about me huh?" I stopped dead in my tracks as I felt a blush creep on my face. She had the biggest shit eating grin on her face. I had to come up with something quick.

"Well I was just wondering where your attitude came from and after I was told you were the daughter of a rock star, it all made since." I replied coolly as I collected myself before following her upstairs to her bedroom.

"Oh so I have an attitude now, huh? Well I guess you're right." She said with a grin as she grabbed some dresses out of her closet and threw them on the bed. "I already know what I'm wearing but here's a few for you to choose from. In my opinion, I think you would look smokin' in this." She picked up a strapless black mini dress that had a matching belt that was covered in sequins.

"Where's the bathroom?" I asked, obviously wanting to go change.

"You can change in here Spence, I'm not gonna take advantage of you." She replied with a raspy laugh that made me weak in the knees. Just hearing her give me a nick name made my stomach do summersaults.

"Ashley, I-" I couldn't even bring myself to say it. To tell the love of my life I betrayed her trust.

"Spencer what is it? You can tell me." Of course she would say that.

"My boss, Brooke, heard us on the phone today. She knew I was upset and took me out for drinks. I was really upset and I was crying." She was starting to catch on and she pulled away from me and I could see the shock written all over her face. This was killing me to tell her.

"I'm sorry, Ashley. We—we kissed and I stopped it before anything else happened. It shouldn't have happened. I was really drunk and-"

"Stop." I froze and could see the shock slowly turning into anger. I have to do something, I have to make everything better.

She quickly grabbed her duffel bag before storming out of the room. I quickly followed after her and the tears once again were falling down my face.

"Ashley, please don't leave." I yelled before grabbing her arm and turning her around.

"You know, I may have been a shitty girlfriend lately, but not ONCE did I cheat on you. Don't you ever fucking tell me I don't love you because it's the damn opposite. You clearly don't love me."

My whole world was crashing right now and I didn't know how to stop it. "Ashley, you know I love you! Where are you going?" I asked with a sob. I feel like a fucking idiot. I cheated on the love of my life and now I'm left here bawling in my underwear. It's exactly what I deserve.

"I guess I'm going to the charity event after all." She replied harshly before opening the door. "You might love me but clearly not enough to keep you from cheating on me." And with that the door slammed in my face.

I wrapped my arms around myself as I felt the sobs wrack through my body. I walked to the table where I threw my purse and retrieved my cell phone. I dialed her number silently hoping she would answer.

After a few rings she picked up. "Brooke? No I'm not okay. Can you please come over? Thanks."

BAM! I literally sat down and just started writing. Not sure how I got here but looky there! Can Ashley ever forgive Spencer or will Spencer turn to Brooke once again? What if Brooke and Spencer end up becoming a couple due to this fall out! The possibilities! And for those of you who don't know Brooke Davis is from one tree hill and no I don't own her nor do I own the show. Although if I did own Brooke Davis… yum. She is sexy as hell!

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