I was currently sitting in my office after finishing up my day at school and was currently filing some of Brooke's paperwork. She had been distant since the night that we kissed and it was really starting to bother me. Ashley had to go back and finish her tour and normally I spent time with Brooke to make things easier. Now it's like she will barely look me in the eye and if she says anything to me, it's all business related. I have asked her two days in a row if she wanted to go eat lunch but she said she was too busy with work and wanted to work while she ate. I didn't realize how much I relied on her as a friend and I was really starting to miss her.

I paused on the folders I was working on and made my way to Brooke's office which was right down the hall. I knocked before waiting on her response letting me know I could come in. I opened the door and she briefly looked up before going back to typing whatever it was on the computer.

"Everything okay, Spencer?" She asked causing me to sit in a chair in front of her desk.

"I'm not sure. Can we talk?" This caused her to stop her movements and look up at me. I could see it in her eyes that she wanted to do anything but talk to me and it definitely didn't make me feel too great.

"Sure. What's going on?"

"I just wanted to make sure everything was okay between us. Ever since that night you seem kind of stand offish with me. I just don't want that to affect our friendship."

She sighed before running her manicured fingers through her hair, "Spence, I just—I don't know. I don't want to be the reason you and Ashley have issues. I grew up watching my parents fight because my mother always thought that my father was cheating on her and I don't want to feel like I'm the other woman, if that makes sense?"

Woah. Other woman? I guess I never thought of it like that. "Brooke, it's not like that at all. Yeah we kissed but it was a mistake and you shouldn't blame yourself for that when it was both of our faults. You've been a really good friend to me and I don't want to lose that. Ashley and I were already having issues and you had nothing to do with that."

She began to nibble on her lower lip as she contemplated what I had said. "You've been a really great friend to me too, Spencer. If you want we can go to lunch but just make sure that you let Ashley know. I don't want her thinking that this is anything more than friendship and then it becoming an issue in your relationship with her."

I gave her a big grin as I nodded, "I can do that. So does that mean we can go to lunch now? I'm starving!"

She let out a laugh before nodding as she grabbed her purse and followed me out. Let's just hope Ashley doesn't take this the wrong way because I really like having Brooke as a friend.

"So how are things going with you guys?" Brooke asked before taking a bite of her grilled chicken salad. We were sitting outside at a table right outside of a café eating our lunch.

"It's going good I guess. She had to go back on tour but she said that after she finishes up she is going to be done touring. Well, for now anyway."

"For good? She's just going to give it all up?" She asked me with wide eyes and I don't blame her. I was thinking the same thing.

"I don't think she could ever give it all up but she will be taking some time off and staying at home with me. To be honest, I'm sure she will get some great offer again and she will end up leaving but I guess it's the thought that counts. It's hard being alone every night."

"For what it's worth I can see how much she loves you. It's all over her face." Brooke replied causing me to smile. I love her too. She's my rock, my lover, my everything.

"Did you come to that conclusion when she talked to you the other night?" I asked with a smirk causing her to look fearful which confused me.

"She told you what happened?"

I raised an eyebrow as I tried to figure out if I was missing something, "Yeah, she told me she might have been a little hateful to you when she saw you leave my apartment but you told her that I kept saying how much I loved her so she just came in and fell asleep."

Her panic seemed to fade as she let out a breath. Am I missing something? "Yeah I just um, thought she may have told you what the exact vulgar words were. Didn't want you getting mad at her." She let out a small laugh as she looked away. I may not be super close to Brooke but I can definitely tell when she is avoiding something.

I decide to let it go as I give her a small laugh in return, "Mad at me? If anything I would be worried you would be mad at her. She can be pretty hateful when she wants to be."

"It's fine. I understood where she was coming from. She was just looking out for you." I smile at the thought and give her a soft nod.

"I'm just ready for her to be home again." I can't wait to be back into her arms and run my fingers through her wavy locks.

"Don't piss off the neighbors too much when she gets back." She says before giving me a wink.

"Oh we will."

After work I had gone home and taken off my clothes before taking a nice steamy shower. It felt amazing to wash the day away. If only I had had a certain pair of arms were around me. I let out a sigh as I shut the water off and stepped towards the mirror. I wiped my hand over the steam so I could see my reflection before combing the tangles out of my hair. I grabbed a towel and wrapped it around myself before going into the bedroom. I fired up my mac before slipping on some underwear and a bra before sitting down in front of the desktop.

I heard a ping come from skype to let me know Ashley had logged on. I let out a squeal of excitement before clicking on her name. She was quick to answer and her face filled up my screen causing me to grin at her. She looked like she was dressed to go out.

"Hey baby." I whispered before blowing her a kiss.

"Hey beautiful girlfrr friend!" She let out a loud giggle as she kissed the screen.

I frowned as I looked at her and she was acting odd, like she was out of it. "Are you drunk?"

"Maybe a little?" She replied with a laugh as she showed me how much with her thumb and index finger.

"Are you going out tonight?"

"Yeah! Rachel wants me to go to this publicity even tonight since I don't have a concert tonight and we may have had a few shots." She lifted up her shot glass to show me before taking another.

Okay, now I'm fuming. She's going out drinking with her damn publicist!? I hate Rachel. She always flirts with Ashley but Ashley won't fire her because she's really good at what she does. Well she can kiss my ass for all I care; she needs to keep her slutty fingers away from my girl.

"Hey sexy bitch! You're not really gonna make me sleep on the couch are you!?" I heard Rachel's annoying voice in the back ground. Oh it was fucking on. Ashley definitely knew what was about to happen because her eyes widened in shock.

"Spence, don't!"

"Don't you dare tell me not to! You're letting her sleep in your room? Are you fucking kidding me? You know I don't like her." I spat at her causing her to groan and run her fingers through her hair.

"Spencer, I was just going to let her crash in my room because they had a mix up when we booked our rooms and they are all full. Besides you know I don't like Brooke yet you still work with her." Work with her? She doesn't think we're friends anymore?

"Speaking of Brooke we had lunch today. At least she spends her time with me when she's not working. You just go get trashed with Rachel and let her stay in your damn room instead of having a conversation to ask me how I'm doing."

"You are still friends with Brooke?" Is that all she heard!? Great, now it looks like she is getting pissed off. I'm so sick of fighting with her it's unreal.

"Yes I am because she is still there for me when you're not. Don't even try to tell me I can't be friends with Brooke because it obviously doesn't matter to you that I don't like Rachel."

She paused as she glared at me before her next words, "If I fired Rachel would you quit being friends with Brooke?" Shit. Oh shit. That backfired on me. Brooke is one of my best friends and I don't want to lose her.

"No." I whispered.

"Then don't give me that bullshit about Rachel." This is obviously going nowhere. "And to be honest I still don't trust you after you kissed Brooke. I've been trying to but you're not giving me much of a reason to. All you want to do is defend your friendship with her but when are you going to fight for ours?"

Well that was a slap to the face. If that's not her calling me a slut then I don't know what is. I could feel the anger bubbling to the surface and I was getting close to saying something I was going to regret.

"Ashley, I have been fighting for our relationship and that kiss was a mistake. Brooke isn't trying to get into my pants like Rachel is trying to get into yours."

Ashley let out a sarcastic snort before shaking her head, "It might have been a mistake to you but not to her."

"What's that supposed to mean!? We're just friends, nothing else."

"That's what you think." What the fuck is she talking about!? I put my hand over my face and sigh.

"Look, I'm getting really tired of fighting and I have to go to school and work tomorrow so I'm going to bed. My point was I would think that you would want to talk to me instead of getting trashed with Rachel but I can clearly see that's not the case. So have a great fucking night." I didn't even bother shutting my webcam off I just tossed a shirt over it so she couldn't see me.

"Spencer!" She was still yelling and I could see her from my bed so I sunk my face into my pillow ignoring her. "Please, come back!"

"Forget her Ashley, let's just go have some fun and you guys can talk later." I wanted to fucking strangle Rachel.

"I don't know Rach, doesn't sound like a good idea." She replied back and I honestly felt bad from the tone in her voice. She sounded sad and defeated.

"Come on, Ashley! It will be fun and you'll forget all about it."

I heard her let out a soft sigh, "Okay, let's go."

Awesome. She chose Rachel over me but I guess I didn't give her much of a choice. I can feel the exhaustion set in and I close my eyes. I start thinking about the first night we had sex. It was amazing and everything I wanted it to be. In spite of how scared I was after the rape she made me completely happy and I felt safe. When did we let things get in-between us? Should we take a break and see what we should do? I feel my addiction to her becoming less and less and it's possibly due to the fact that I'm not around her enough. I know she said she would come back home to me but when would she leave me again? Would I be back in the same boat? Miserable and alone. I left the darkness take over as I drift off to sleep.

I heard a crashing sound causing me to sit up in my bed. My heart was racing and I had a feeling someone was breaking into the condo.

"Oh shit!" I heard someone yell causing me to jump. I searched my room but it was dark and my eyes hadn't adjusted yet. A light flipped on but it was coming from my computer. I squinted as I tried to figure what the fuck my computer was doing.

Then it all clicked and I remembered I never turned my webcam off last night and I guess she didn't either. I rolled my eyes knowing she'd be back with Rachel. I was about to get up and turn it off when I heard Rachel say something.

"Now where were we?" I my eyes widened and I really didn't want to know what she was talking about! I could hear them kissing and soon I saw Rachel shoving Ashley onto the bed as they continued their kiss. There was no way this could really be happening. Their hands are all over each other and I feel like I'm going to hurl. I run over and hit the power button on my computer as fast I can before I see anymore.

What was I supposed to be the crazy webcam girlfriend who starts screaming 'quit kissing my girlfriend even though she's kissing you back'? Pathetic.

I wanted to cry, I wanted to be angry, or even sad would due, but all I could feel is shock. I looked over at the clock and it said 3:18 a.m. There was no way I'd be able to fall asleep after seeing that. She gave up on us. Sure I did it first, but I stopped what was happening. I told her that Rachel was like this and regardless of whether Ashley is drunk or not she still gave in to it. Maybe we weren't meant to be together. Maybe fate brought us together in high school to get us through the hard times—as friends. The thing is that I love her. I'm in love with her. She is sexy and sweet and she used to do anything for me. We were stuck together like glue and now it's like all we do is fight. For every step we take, we take two steps back. The thought of Brooke comes to mind. She supports me when I need her, she always listens to me when I need her to, she makes me laugh, and she is just there for me. I need Ashley to be that. I just need somebody, anybody.

I grab my phone before dialing Brooke's number. After a couple of rings she picks up before dropping the phone and mumbling a cuss word.

"Hello?" Her voice is husky and I have to admit it's sexy as hell.

"Brooke." My voice cracked as I tried to get her name out and I felt the tears streaming down my face without realizing I was crying.

"Spencer is that you?"

"Yes. Can I come over?" I whispered as I tried to wipe away the tears.

"Of course. Are you okay?" Her voice was laced with fear and it actually comforted me that she cared.

"I just need someone." I whispered as I got up and began putting clothes on.

"Okay, Spence. I'll text you my address. Please be careful."

"I will."

Before you guys starting bashing me! This is a Spashley story so just keep that in mind. Thanks for all of the encouraging reviews for the last chapter. I would have gotten this update sooner but my birthday was on the 17th and a friend of mine got into a wreck that night and then passed away the next day. I actually threw myself into writing because its kept my mind off of things just couldn't get it up yet.

The lem: Thanks so much! There will be plenty of Brooke don't worry. I'm obsessed with her.

DominoL: Im glad you are enjoying it and got through all of it! Feel free to give me any input you would like it always makes me think of new things to do in my story.

Rain1657: Thank you! I hope you don't think im going the wrong way with this story I just want something new and different. Like the torn between two lovers type of thing. From something that she always knew and depended on to someone who is different and there for her but stable. Can't wait to see what you think.

Inviziblinc: Im glad you could see where Im coming from. No story is perfect and different writers like to do different things. Also no love story is perfect and rough patches are a part of life. Thanks for the reviews and support.

A mind that sits still: You ask and you shall receive! I completely agree. Spencer can't be the only one to make mistakes. They are going to have to get over their shit and become different people if they want to make things work.

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