Well after all this time I decided to write again and what happens? I get almost done with the chapter and it closes out without saving. Fuck my life. So here we go again. Hopefully I can remember everything. Ohhhh btw. Hi guys!

I sigh as my taxi pulls up to Brooke's condo. I felt like a mess. I was wearing yoga pants and a hoody to go with my messy bun on the top of my head. I payed the driver before stepping out and heading for the elevator. What was I doing here? If I was trying to work things out with Ashley this was definitely not the right place to be. I get into the elevator before pushing her floor number. You would think I would be crying and screaming and hunting Ashley down, but at this point I was all cried out and the only person I wanted to see was Brooke. Have you ever just been so fed up with something you just don't care anymore? I know deep down I still care but at this point I want something different. How many times are we supposed to go through the ups and downs? I keep thinking it will get better but it never does. I understand no relationship is perfect but when you lose the will to fight, what's left?

I sigh as the elevator beeps at me letting me know i've made my destination. I thought I would have time to prepare myself before I saw Brooke but as the elevator doors opened, I quickly realized she owned the whole floor. Her condo was beautiful. Most of her furniture was cream colored with a few pieces being red that seemed to give the place some color. It seemed like nothing was out of place and I was almost scared to step on the carpet with my shoes on. I heard foot steps coming from the kitchen and before I knew it she was in front of me. She was wearing a white v neck and black booty shorts.

"Come in." Her husky voice made the hair stand up on my arms. It was so similar to Ashley, yet so different. I followed her over to her cream colored couch and we each faced each other as we sat on either end of the small love seat. She had a fire going in her fire place and the lighting did her justice. I guess I've never looked at Brooke closely, or at least not like this. She had taken her make up off but her skin was still flawless. Her brown locks flowed to her shoulders and had a slight wave to them. She had a beauty mark on her cheek and she had adorable dimples. She had curves to her body and they were definitely sexy. I think my favorite thing about her is her eyes. She had these hazel eyes that I could get lost in. It was hard to read them but I saw flashes of emotion from time to time.

"So what happened?"

"You mean when I watched Ashley about to fuck Rachel on my webcam that she forgot to turn off?" I asked causing her nostrils to flare. I saw anger wash over her face.

"You've got to be kidding me? I told her." She mumbled as she shook her head.

"Told her what?" I asked causing Brooke's eyes to go wide with fear.

"Told her she better not fuck you over again." I feel like Brooke was hiding something from me. She tensed up anytime that conversation is brought up and Ashley told me the kiss meant more to Brooke but I never though to say anything about it.

"What happened that night, Brooke?" I asked causing her to take a sharp intake of air. She closed her eyes and bit her lower lip causing a nervousness to build in my stomach.

"She asked me If I loved you." Holy shit! I can only imagine how angry Ashley must have been to ask that.

I tried to calm my nerves before I asked, "What did you say?"

"Yes."

My mind was officially blown. Here's this beautiful girl who always listens to me when I'm hurting, jokes to make me laugh, does anything to see me smile and probably causes the least drama, telling me that she loves me. Is it wrong that I wanted her to say yes?

"Brooke-"

"No stop, Spencer. I know what you're going to say. You're in a fucking relationship and here I am telling you that I love you for Christ's sake." She jumped up and began pacing around. "I'm so fucking stupid.

I jumped up and stepped in her path causing her to come to a hault. I placed her hand on my racing heart before looking up at her.

"Do you feel that?" I asked causing her to nod. "That's what you do to me. I'm not sure what it means or what I want it to mean. I don't even know for sure if me are Ashley are in a relationship but you definitely have my attention Brooke."

She smiled before placing a hand on my cheek before trailing her fingers down to my neck, leaving a tingling sensation in her path. "That's good to hear."

"Brooke?" I locked eyes with her as she looked at me with confusion, "Can I kiss you?"

Her mouth opened slightly as she took in a breath. She licked her lips before giving me a soft nod. I grabbed her by the waist and pulled her close to me. I placed a hand on the back of her neck before pulling her to me. I slowly pressed my lips against hers and almost died. It felt like like heaven. This time I wasn't drunk and could enjoy the planned moment. Have you ever tried something and wondered why you didn't have this your whole life? That's what this felt like. Like everything made complete sense.

I slowly bit her lip causing her to moan as she ran her fingers through my hair. She pulled back and gave me the sexiest smile that showed me her dimples.

"Stay with me tonight?" I bit my lip as I contemplated her question. I wasn't ready to sleep with her. Hell I didn't even know if I was in a relationship or not. "Just sleep." I guess she knew what I was thinking about. I gave her a smile before nodding. She returned my smile before grabbing my hand and leading me to her bed. She stayed true to her word and we spent most of the night talking and cuddling.

I woke up smelling breakfast. I could hear music playing but it was too far to hear who it was. I stretched out in her big white comforter and sighed. It felt good to wake up with someone to talk to even if they were in a different room. You would think I would be upset and sad but honestly I am just excited to see Brooke and talk to her. I got up and walked into the bathroom before splashing some water on my face. I put some toothpaste on my finger and tried to clean my teeth. I felt like a high schooler again, preparing to see their crush. It was a weird feeling. I followed the scent of what smelled like pancakes to the kitchen. What I saw before me was the most adorable thing. Brooke had her hair pulled back and she was in the process of making what I had thought, pancakes. That wasn't the best part. She was shaking her butt to the music that was playing and singing along. She definitely wasn't the best singer but she was kinda sexy shaking her butt like that.

"Hey, hey, hey, hey Ooh, oh

Won't you come see about me? I'll be alone, dancing, you know it baby

Tell me your troubles and doubts

Giving me everything inside and out

And love's strange so real in the dark

Think of the tender things that we were working on

Slow change may pull us apart When the light gets into your heart, baby

Don't you forget about me

Don't, don't, don't, don't

Don't you forget about me"

I couldn't help but let out a small chuckle causing her to freeze before turning to face me. Her cheeks were bright red and she had some flour on her face. "I didn't wake you did I?" She asked as she played with the spatula she had in her hand.

"No. It smells amazing. Oh and FYI, I could never forget you." I said as I walked over and wiped her face off. If she wasn't red before, she definitely is now.

She gave me a smile but then it faded, "Can I ask you something?" My smile faded as well and I nodded for her to continue. "Why are you here?"

Ouch.

"The best answer I have for you is that when my world came crashing down, you're the person I wanted to be with. You make sense to me." I replied causing her to chew on her lower lip.

"I don't want to get hurt." Her voice was huskier then normal which i'm sure was from just waking up. I definitely liked it.

"I don't want to hurt you, Brooke. I just don't know what's going to happen."

She gave me a small nod before starting to make our plates. It was hard to tell what she was feeling. Me and Ashley usually screamed or cried but she just gave me a small smile. She has her guard up and I don't know if she will let me be the person to bring it down. I picked my phone up from the counter and realized I had 20 missed calls and 30 texts... from who else but yours truly. I sighed and put my phone back without checking anything.

"You should probably talk to her." Brooke whispered before setting my plate down in front of me and then sitting down to eat hers as well. The problem was I didn't want to talk to her. It's not because I was mad and spiteful, it was because I just had better things I wanted to do and Brooke was one of them.

"How would you like to go for a walk to the park with me after breakfast? Maybe do some shopping?" I asked causing her to look up at me.

Her eyebrows shot up and she nibbled on her lip, "You sure?"

"I wouldn't be asking if I wasn't." She gave me that adorable smile before nodding.

"I'd love to."

We spent the day together. Walking around and shopping. Trying on outfits and laughing at each other. I got ice cream and wiped some on Brooke's facing causing her to squeal. It's been a good day to say the least. I didn't want it to end. I knew eventually I would have to talk to her.

The sun was setting as we walked up to my apartment. "You know you still need to talk to her." She said as we walked up to my door.

"I know. Honestly Brooke, today has been perfect. I'm not ready to face the real world. I know deep in my heart we are done. I'm going to have to go to new york to talk to her." She placed her hand on my cheek.

"Can you see me in your future?" She asked as she traced my bottom lip with her thumb.

"Absolutely." She smiled before leaning in and softly pecking me on the lips. I couldn't resist as I grabbed the back of her head and deepened the kiss. "See you when I get back?"

"Can't wait." She gave me her signature wink before walking away with the sway of her hips that had me memorized.

I walked up to my apartment before opening the door and walking in with a smile. Today was definitely what I needed.

"You done ignoring me?"

Maybe not.

Well well well! Sorry for a delay of two years. I had a lot going on. What do you guys think? I know im moving away from spashley but it could go back!