"Ed...I.. I'm sorry..." Roy breathed. "I don't know what came over me."

Ed paused for a moment. Roy's heart sunk as he waited for a response. Guilt spread through him like wild fire. What had he just done? He hadn't felt the intimate touch of another person in such a long time. His job enveloped his entire life. His own loneliness and desperation had led him to practically assault his subordinate. The fact that he had been thinking about doing that for a long time didn't help either. He had always had an attraction to Ed, physically and emotionally, though he never liked to admit it. Plus, with the fear that he may never see him again after he attempts the transmutation... all those feelings came rushing out. This may be the last time he ever got to let him know how he felt, but what could be going through Ed's head? He didn't try to pull away. Roy figured that was out of pure shock. There's no way that he had really wanted to kiss him... but then again he had kissed him back. A sudden ray of hope ran through his mind, but was quickly dismissed by the overwhelming sickness in his stomach. He ran his now clammy fingers through his dark hair.

He almost jumped when Ed responded.

"Its okay. I shouldn't have acted the way I did." His lips lifted in a sad smile. He glanced at Roy through golden bangs.

Roy inwardly sighed in relief. Ed didn't seem mad, which was a surprise, but the sadness in his voice pulled at Roy's heart more than he thought it would. Was it that he never realized his feelings were this strong, or that he suppressed and ignored them to the point where he forgot them entirely? Either way, he could feel them quickly pushing their way to the surface more and more with every second they were alone.

Roy finally gathered the courage to look up at him.

"I know I may not have long left. I don't want to waste time by sulking, but I haven't been this scared in a long time..." Ed whispered solemnly, his eyes never leaving the floor.

"Don't talk like tha-" Before he could finish, Ed interrupted him.

"I want you to kiss me again." Ed heart pounded against his chest. The nervousness of saying that, let alone to Roy, would have never let him say it voluntarily, but with all that was at stake there wasn't any time to lose. He had always wondered what it would be like to kiss Roy, to touch him, to feel his heart beating against his. The thoughts had haunted him. Why did he have those feelings towards another man, let alone his superior officer? He had always hidden his feelings out of shame, but he left all that guilt behind. Now that Roy had broken that barrier, there was no hiding his feelings any longer.

What could Roy really do? He couldn't say no. He wasn't used to seeing his subordinate in such a vulnerable state. Ed was usually the one who could figure everything out on his own, the one who never depended on the help of anyone, who was totally self reliant. But now... Roy could tell by his expression that he was in need of something. Whether it was comfort, attention... love? His heart cringed at the last word. Ed wasn't the most affectionate person in the world, but its something that everyone should be shown from time to time. Ed had never settled down, found someone special, or even made time for dating at all. He was always off in different places. He barely ever saw his family, besides Al. He had deprived himself of the warmth of getting close to someone, and it had all boiled up to this point. With the threat of the transmutation in the upcoming days, there was no turning back now.

Roy closed the space between them with long, slow strides, as if he were giving Ed a chance to change his mind, but he didn't. He didn't say a word as Roy approached him. He only gave him a stern, serious look, attempting to hide the fact that his heart was racing in his chest.

Roy cupped his cheek and waited. Ed raised his chin as confirmation, and then their mouths were on each other's once again. Roy's lips parted slowly, smoothly, lovingly. Ed's slow, stiff movements were partnered with Roy's cursive and fluent experience. Their minds were blank, focusing on nothing but each other, while their hearts pushed against their chests. Ed's hands rose and gripped Roy's sides like he was never going to let go.

Their bodies pressed against one another's, and Roy released the groan that he'd been holding in his throat. Roy's hands slid down to his shoulders, and then to his hips, and Ed gasped as Roy tugged on his belt loops.

Suddenly, he pulled away leaving both of them with heavier breathing and tighter pants than either of them had before.

"Ughh, this feels so wrong, Ed! You're so young, and I'm your superior! People with think I'm taking advantage... and that I'm some perverted creep who's abusing his power!" Roy exclaimed.

Ed's face went blank for a moment. Then he doubled over in laughter. Roy was flabbergasted.

"Uhm.." He mumbled.

"That's what you're worried about?! That I'm too young for you? And not the fact that you were just making out with another man?! Oh, that's hilarious!"

Roy growled as his cheeks turned crimson red.

"Don't mock me, Fullmetal! Its a real concern!"

"Don't get so uptight. I won't tell anyone, I promise." Ed chuckled. "Plus, look at the bright side."

"And what would that be?" Roy grumbled.

"I'm in a much better mood now."

Roy sighed and pinched his nose. He smiled under his hand, glad that the depressing atmosphere had been lifted.

"I'm glad."

"Hmph, I'm sure you are. In more ways than one." Ed's eyes flickered to the bulge in Roy's pants and back to his face, snickering as the blood flooded his cheeks once again. Roy gritted his teeth as his face burned with embarrassment.

"Do you have no shame, Fullmetal?"

"Nope! But hey, its best I get going. Al's probably worried! I'm pretty tired too." Ed said as he stretched his arms.

"You're just going to leave?"

"Yeah, you wanted to stop anyway, right?" Ed yawned.

"I guess. Get home and get some rest. But we need to talk about some things tomorrow, understand?"

"Yeah, yeah, yeah. I'll be over for breakfast."

"O-okay. That's fine." Roy wanted to be shocked at his upfront-ness, but it really wasn't surprising at all.

They headed towards the door and Roy watched as he walked down the steps, jacket flung over his shoulder.

"See ya tomorrow Colonel!" Ed lifted his hand in a wave and didn't look back as he left.

"Good night, Fullmetal."

Roy smiled as he shut the door behind him. He ran his fingers through his hair and exhaled in relief.

Maybe this isn't such a bad thing after all...

Review Please! Sorry for the kind of late update!