Chapter 12

The flowers were beautiful, even at night. Inuyasha sat alone in the flower maze, laying down in a black outfit so he was less visible to anyone who passed by. The guests had all left hours before, the candles finally being lit. The sun went down slower up here, Inuyasha sighing.

He was pregnant. He wasn't sure how he was supposed to feel about that. He didn't feel any hate or any love for Sesshomaru or the being inside him. Kagome had been excited though when she found out she was pregnant. Even though she would die soon after its birth.

"As long as I can see it's face and hold it in my arms, I can die happy." Inuyasha didn't feel the same way, turning onto his side. He wouldn't be able to hide it for long. He wouldn't show until almost forty days into the pregnancy, but Sesshomaru would be able to sense it as it drew more and more on his energy. Inuyasha sat up, looking up to the clouds. When he had came outside they had burst with color, but as the sun fell away, the clouds became dark shades of blues and grays.

He looked to the flowers, touching a finger to a delicate petal of a daisy. He picked it gently, bringing it up to his nose. He took in a deep breath, laying back down. He had brought a piece of the bark with him, nibbling on it as he thought. He knew it was weird for him to do this, but it tasted good to him. It tasted like cooked meat, Inuyasha's mouth watering as he began to bite into it.

The small ounce of sun on his face disappeared, Inuyasha frowning. He felt he should go back inside, but he didn't want to be near Sesshomaru. He wanted to see Rin but she was asleep. Inuyasha sighed, standing up. He decided he would walk around, but once he stood he was suddenly very tired. He swayed a little, yawning. He thought about sleeping outside, laying down. He closed his eyes, feeling vomit rise in his throat. He fell asleep before he could vomit though.

He dreamt of his son and Kagome, holding him as she cooked dinner. She was pregnant again, their son listening intently as Inuyasha told him stories of his travels. He was five, a big child in his lap. He was almost fully human, not cursed with Inuyasha's ears. He was glad for that, laughing when he threw his hands up in the air with excitement.

"Enough boys, eat your food," Kagome scolded, setting the plates in front of them. Tenshi went to his seat, eating quickly so Inuyasha would tell him more. Inuyasha chuckled, eating slowly. He felt sluggish and sick suddenly, his vision darkening for a second.

"Let go Inuyasha." Inuyasha gasped when Kagome and his son moved farther and farther away, Inuyasha trying to run towards them. Tears were in his eyes, Kagome's eyes meeting his. Her eyes were filled with tears and love, Tenshi holding her hand as he looked to his daddy.

"Let go, daddy." Inuyasha bolted up right, gasping for breath as his lungs felt like they were being crushed. The pain slowly went away though, Inuyasha falling back. But he didn't fall on soft grass, he fell on silk sheets. He sat up quickly, realizing he was naked and back in his chambers. The blankets barely covered his body which was covered in sweat, Inuyasha looking to the side when he felt the bed shift. Sesshomaru laid there asleep, Inuyasha looking away.

He felt panicked and out of place, but he was also hungry. He got out of bed, not caring to grab a sheet as he walked over to the fire place. The fire had been lit, Inuyasha frowning as he just sat in front of it. He wanted a piece badly though, Inuyasha reaching forward. He managed to get a piece of burnt bark from the ashes, blowing on it before nibbling on it. He felt like it should be drenched in curry sauce, standing up. He put on a hakama, walking to the kitchen. Daisy stood in it, cleaning up the messes left behind.

Inuyasha wondered if she ever slept.

She looked up to him, smiling softly.

"Got the munchies?" Inuyasha was confused at first, looking to the burnt bark in his mouth. He took it out, wiping his mouth before looking away. Daisy said nothing on the matter, Inuyasha clearing his throat.

"You won't tell…" Inuyasha didn't finish his sentence, Daisy laughing. She shook her head, sitting him down.

"You only have the right to tell him, so until you do it's our little secret." Inuyasha was grateful, putting the bark back into his mouth. Daisy shook her head, Inuyasha speaking with it in his mouth.

"Can you make some curry sauce?" he asked, Daisy scolding him for talking with his mouthful. He asked again with the bark removed, Daisy saying yes.

"Tell me if you crave anything. I'll make you a special meal," Daisy told him, Inuyasha feeling a tad bad for keeping her up. He didn't know how to cook all that well though.

"Well, some rice with pudding and curry sauce sounds nice. Oh, also some sushi dipped in peanut butter along with some bacon and miso soup." Daisy just shook her head, raising a finger.

"I will warn you, it will taste good going in but not out," she warned him, Inuyasha nodding in understanding. Kagome had told him that many times.

"It's alright, if i'm going to deal with this, might as well get pampered," Inuyasha grumbled as she prepared the curry sauce. It was his main craving so she thought she might as well get it prepared before the rice. She frowned though at his tone of voice, Inuyasha seeming more down than before.

"Lady Inuyasha-"

"Inuyasha is fine." Daisy smiled, glad he was comfortable with a first name basis with her.

"Inuyasha, why do you seem so down about this? Isn't it a time for celebration?" Inuyasha frowned, looking away.

"To be honest I never liked Sesshomaru this way. Sure things change in the bedroom, but I had a mate before him. She was everything I loved and needed." Daisy frowned, knowing losing a mate was rough. It was like a part of your soul was torn from your body, especially with dogs. Unless it was arranged.

"She was human," Inuyasha told her, Daisy raising an eyebrow.
"Not to draw conclusions, but is Rin yours?" Daisy asked, Inuyasha shaking his head. He rested his head against the counter, closing his eyes.

"No, Sesshomaru had taken her in many years ago. I didn't take her in as my own till recently. My mate had a son. She died, along with my son." Daisy frowned, feeling the heaviness of his sadness. It was like an aura you couldn't escape, Inuyasha hiding his face in his arms.

"I had a dream about them. They wanted me to let go. How could I do that after so little time?" Inuyasha raised his head, tears shimmering in his eyes. Daisy looked away, starting the rice.

"I lost my first mate in the war. I had been devastated. I starved myself of everything and slowly tried to kill myself. I lost my daughter to my carelessness. But that's when Makito found me. I hated him, beat him every time he tried to help me. But somehow he taught me to let go but never forget. I love him very much, but we have yet to have a child." Inuyasha had listened carefully, wiping away his tears.

"Everyone loses something in life. Then we meet people who we want to kill on a daily basis." Inuyasha laughed at that, Daisy giving him a small smile.

"You don't have to forget, but sooner or later yo have to let go. You may not love who comes along, but you never know till you give them a chance. Took me nearly a hundred years to give him a chance." Inuyasha laughed when she rolled her eyes, sniffling as he wiped away the tears that fell.

"No one tells you that you have to love again besides you. His child lives in you now, Inuyasha." She walked over to him, touching a hand to his stomach. Inuyasha felt it contract, wincing slightly. Daisy smiled, touching her hand to his cheek.

"Lord Sesshomaru seems cold, but he has a heart. Get to know it before you tell yourself he's a monster." Inuyasha's eyes widened as she pulled away, her fingers wiping away a tear. She went back to cooking, Inuyasha resting his head against the counter. He didn't want to give him a chance, but he knew he had to let go. From all his years, he knew holding on hurt everybody, and helped nobody.

With a deep breath, he visioned Kagome and Tenshi. They held his hands, their fingers slowly slipping from his. He wanted to hold on, to never let go. But slowly they began to walk away, Tenshi looking over his shoulder.

"I love you daddy."

Inuyasha ate quickly when Daisy finished his wacky meal, giving her a hug before returning to his room. He still wasn't prepared to return to his room, but his cravings had died down enough for his sleepiness to seep in. He kicked off the hakama, getting into bed. He sat there for a second, looking to Sesshomaru. He was facing him, his eyes closed as he slept. Inuyasha didn't even want to look at him.

He took a deep breath, figuring he should take baby steps. He reached over, moving his hair out of his face. The skin on skin contact made his skin crawl, but he didn't pull his hand away. He slicked a hand through his hair, smoothing it back. He felt calmer the more he touched him, keeping his touches strictly to his hair.

Baby steps he told himself, pulling his hand away when he felt calm enough. His skin still crawled a little bit, but he felt better. He laid down, facing his back towards him. He still couldn't stand looking at him. He felt a hand wrap around his waist, gasping when he was pulled back against a hard chest. This was far past his baby steps, Inuyasha struggling to get away.

He suddenly found himself pinned to the bed, Sesshomaru straddling his legs, looming above him. Inuyasha became stock still, his vision changing. His demon didn't try to take his strength away this time though, it's wishes granted. Inuyasha put his hands to his chest, wanting to push him away. He didn't get the chance to though, lips capturing his.

These weren't baby steps!

Sesshomaru pulled away, a frown on his lips.

"Why were you eating the firewood?" Inuyasha felt like he was caught red handed, looking away. He didn't tell him, but he was glad when he unstraddled him. He sat up, pulling his legs to his chest. He felt uncomfortable now, Sesshomaru quiet for a moment. Inuyasha felt weird. He didn't know what to do or say, his ears falling back against his head.

He didn't like the silence.

"When did you find out?" Sesshomaru asked after a moment, his voice calm. Inuyasha couldn't tell if he was mad or not, tears brimming in his eyes.

"Tonight. I didn't want to tell you till I was further in," Inuyasha told him, slitting his eyes toward him. Sesshomaru was staring off into space, his teeth biting lightly into his bottom lip as he thought. Inuyasha felt that was the first time he did anything close to showing emotion. He looked away, butterflies fluttering in his stomach.

"Do you want to keep it?" Inuyasha grew furious at his question, facing him and growling.

"I told you I didn't like you in the first place!" Inuyasha growled in his face, Sesshomaru's eyes becoming dark. Inuyasha sat back down, sighing tiredly.

"I couldn't abort it even if I wanted too. It wants it." Inuyasha laid down, feeling defeated. He stared up at the ceiling, thinking back to what Daisy had told him. He didn't want this, not in the least. But he couldn't kill the child by being careless. Even though it was Sesshomaru's, he wouldn't allow it.

"I didn't ask that. I asked if you wanted to keep it." Inuyasha's eyebrows rose, rising up. He didn't have to think about it.

"Of course I do. I lost a son and that was the most devastating thing for me. Even though it is yours, I want to keep it." Sesshomaru looked to him, Inuyasha feeling slightly cautious when his eyes showed relief. His lips twitched up slightly, Inuyasha scooting back. It was too late though, Sesshomaru pinning him down to the bed. Inuyasha struggled, arching when he grinded against him.

"Sessh-!" Inuyasha growled, trying to get his wrists free. Sesshomaru leaned down, pressing kisses against his neck. Inuyasha shivered, his thighs shaking. Sesshomaru smirked, pulling away. Inuyasha was a mess of puddy beneath him, his eyes lidded with lust and his cheeks red with arousal. Sesshomaru kissed his lips, tasting the firewood. He slipped his tongue inside his mouth, a shiver running through his body.

His tongue was so soft, Sesshomaru tasting many things. He felt he would be turned off by it all, but that only turned him on more. He pulled away, panting softly against his lips. Inuyasha was gasping for breath, Sesshomaru lifting his thigh. Inuyasha gasped as he went low, his leg placed on his shoulder. Inuyasha grabbed his hair, his lips parting as wet heat surrounded his cock.

Inuyasha tightened his fist in his hair, his thighs shaking as he took his cock deeper. He could feel his tongue against the bottom of his cock, his lips cushioning his shaft, his hot mouth sucking softly around him. Inuyasha gasped when his hands came into play, holding him up. A hot tongue lapped at the head, poking into the slit. Inuyasha's hips thrusted up, his other hand fisting the sheets as he he raised his knee. He thrusted softly into his mouth, Sesshomaru increasing the maddening suction.

Inuyasha began to moan, coming closer and closer to his release. He whimpered as he drew so close it hurt, thrusting his hips harder. Sesshomaru took him all the way down, Inuyasha nearly screaming. He came into his mouth, Sesshomaru sucking softly. He pulled away, Inuyasha spasming as he came down from his euphoric high. He was leaking onto the sheets, Sesshomaru putting his other leg on his shoulder. Inuyasha shook his head as Sesshomaru placed his arms on either side of his head, leaning down as he captured his lips, folding him almost.

Sesshomaru reached down, lining himself up. Inuyasha tried to pull away as he pushed in, Sesshomaru biting his neck to stop him. Blood spilled into his mouth, Inuyasha stilling as he whimpered. Their bodies touched together, Inuyasha gasping as he released his neck. Sesshomaru licked his lips, licking the wound so the blood would clot. Inuyasha squirmed beneath him, Sesshomaru rising up to his knees.

Inuyasha stared up at him, the butterflies in his stomach calming. His eyes held so much emotion, the wave shocking Inuyasha. His thoughts shifted when he pulled back, the heat inside him nearly unbearable. He gasped when he thrust back in, Sesshomaru groaning as he grabbed his left thigh and pushed it up to his chest. This raised Inuyasha's ass slightly, Inuyasha fisting the sheets when that carnal pleasure zapped up his spine.

"Sesshomaru," he moaned, the slow pace Sesshomaru wanted to set thrown out the window. Inuyasha gasped as he sped up his thrusts, his body electrified as pleasure gripped his balls. It swirled around his spine, shocking every vertebrae and muscle. Inuyasha gasped, arching as it ran down his spine suddenly and his cock hardened, weeping onto his stomach. Sesshomaru slowed his thrusts, thrusting in slow and hard a few times, sweat rolling down his skin before he set back a quick pace.

Inuyasha turned his head into the sheets, saliva sliding down his cheek and staining the sheets. He brung the blanket closer, biting his clothed hand as he tried to muffle the screams that began to build up. He pushed his hips against his, increasing the pleasure. He put a hand to Sesshomaru's chest when he grinded against him, nearly choking on his moan as that carnal pleasure he craved seized his cock and made it weep.

His body was on fire, his skin burning when Sesshomaru ran a hand over his thigh. He kissed it, Inuyasha yelping when he sank his teeth into his flesh. The feeling of his tongue lapping at his flesh and the slow drawing of his blood was maddening, Inuyasha digging the heel of his feet into his back.

He arched up, grabbing the bed frame with a cry. He was so close to cumming, his entire body jolting as he released his flesh. Blood poured down his thigh, the wound closing. Sesshomaru licked away his blood, grabbing onto his thighs harder as he thrust into him. Inuyasha felt his stomach tighten, his eyes snapping open. His lips parted as the dam broke suddenly, his orgasm shocked out of him.

Inuyasha clenched and flexed every muscle, his entire body shaking with the effort as he exploded, a silent scream torn from his throat. Sesshomaru groaned above him, his fingers pressing hard enough against his thighs to bruise. Inuyasha groaned when he felt the knot form, exhaustion taking over his body. He collapsed against the sheets, closing his eyes. He panted, his heart beating erratically in his chest.

Sesshomaru laid over him, his body shaking. Inuyasha groaned from their position, Sesshomaru letting down his legs. Inuyasha sighed in relief, his hands sliding up his back. He relaxed under him, the knot slowly undoing. Sesshomaru pulled away, falling down next to him.

Inuyasha was already asleep.

Author's note: I am so tired it's funny. Wanted to post this before going to bed, but hope you liked it. A dogs pregnancy is 63 days, amazing huh?