Rachel: bold
Beth: italic
Both: normal
Chapter 13:
Mama my friend...
Back then I didn't know why
Why you were misunderstood
So now I see through your eyes
All that you did was love…
Lima, 8 months and a half of pregnancy (Otherwise known as: 2010)
In days like these everything seems worse. She is feeling the weight of it all. Eight months ago and she had everything: popularity, the perfect body, the boyfriend (she could live without it though), she was head cheerleader and queen of McKinley. She knows it seems stupid to think about those things, but she is sixteen, those are the things she should be thinking about. She shouldn't be thinking about what she was going to with her baby.
Why did god let this to happen to her? She has always been a good Christian girl.
One damn time! And she got pregnant!
Why did she allow her old insecurities back to her life?
I hope you're happy Lucy! 'Cause this is your damn fault!
Mine? Oh no… it was your fault, you're a slut, I wanted to wait for my Prince Charming remember? I would've never slept with Puck, he is kind of hot but no… especially not because of a stupid compliment… and also for the record I wouldn't have date Finn either… he is an idiot…
Just shut up your fat!
And more important I'd never abandon my daughter…
I'm not! I can't keep her… I'd be a terrible mother and that moron would be a terrible father… we can't keep her!
"Well baby girl, you chose the worst mom and dad possible, your dad is a moron and I'm selfish bitch, not to mention the fact that we're teenagers… I know it's hard to hear it, but I'm being honest with you."
She is lying on bed with her hands caressing her belly. She is feeling sad because the moment is coming, the moment that she will have to be apart from her baby.
"Do you wanna hear some music? I can put on your favorite song."
The baby always kicks when she hears "keep holding on".
"Oh… sorry baby, the battery is dead."
She tosses her iPod away.
"Do you want mama to sing to you? Okay…"
You're not alone
Together we stand
I'll be by your side
You know I'll take your hand…
"I know… it was better when she sang… hey! I have an idea."
Why is she assuming that Rachel would see the message? She probably has something else to do than to check her MySpace account.
Quinn bursts out in laugh with that thought.
Yeah right… Berry really has something better to do…
She logins.
Wait… I can't ask it with this profile… she knows it's mine…
I can't believe you are creating a new profile just to send her a message…
Yes, and I will put your name loser.
From Lucy Sky D. : Hey loser…
She starts writing but deletes it immediately.
That won't work smartass…
Hey! I don't have to insult her; I'm not myself… besides you trying to make her sing a song to you… okay, I can be nice…
From Lucy Sky D.: Hey! You're amazing! I have to say I loved all of your videos!
Lord help me…
She braces herself.
From Lucy Sky D.: I have a request…
She waits several minutes and then she finally receives an answer.
From Rachel Berry: Hi! Thanks! I'm glad you appreciate my videos… I mean, as long as you're not some kind of pervert.
From Lucy Sky D.: I'm not… I just wanted to ask you to sing a song to me but you're probably busy…
She couldn't resist it, and a little bit of sarcasm wouldn't kill anyone.
From Rachel: It's okay. I'm not doing anything.
Obviously…
Quinn thinks.
From Lucy Sky D.: Could you sing "Keep holding on"?
From Rachel Berry: I don't know… this is a special song to me.
From Lucy Sky D.: Why not?
Gee Berry! Just sing the damn song!
She huffs impatiently.
From Rachel Berry: Long story… you can ask another one perhaps?
From Lucy Sky D.: I want this one… look I'm very sad and depressed here and this song always help me to get better.
From Rachel Berry: Sorry to hear it… okay but I'll delete it after you watch it.
From Lucy Sky D.: Why?
Quinn is really curious.
From Rachel Berry: nothing, wait a moment. I will record the video and upload.
After some more minutes the video is there.
From Rachel Berry: There!
From Lucy Sky D.: Thanks!
From Rachel Berry: You could watch it on YouTube… why to put this much effort just to hear a song? I'm mean, don't get me wrong I like Avril but it's not like this is a very difficult song to find around.
Quinn actually can hear Rachel's annoying voice inside her head.
From Lucy Sky D.: This song really makes me feel better and I love your voice… any other question?
The truth comes out, followed of course by the denial.
Well, I can't say it's because my baby loves this song and she always kick when Rachel sings… it'll be pretty obvious…
"See what mommy is doing for you baby girl?"
From Rachel Berry: no… I hope it helps, and remember I'll delete it at the end of the night.
From Lucy Sky D.: It will… Thanks again.
From Rachel Berry: You're welcome! Lucy in the sky with diamonds ;)
Quinn smiles widely then she shakes her head.
Aw… Rachel made you smile…
So what?
Nothing, I think she is nice…
Shut up! You're pathetic… Don't ever say that again! Berry sucks! Oh yeah, I forgot you sucks too, I bet you guys would be best friends…
I don't know why you're so scared of becoming her friend…
I'm not scared! I just don't want it! She is a freak and annoying! Shut up and go away… you're a dork, pathetic and fat girl!
Okay… just to remind you… I am you and you are me… never forget that… someday people will find out…
Not if I can avoid it!
"Okay… I'm officially crazy baby girl… Let's see this video… shall we?"
She starts the video and Rachel appears on screen.
And there she is putting all her heart in a song.
You're not alone
Together we stand
I'll be by your side
You know I'll take your hand
When it gets cold
And it feels like the end
There's no place to go you know I won't give in
No I won't give in.
.
Keep holding on
'cause you know we make it through, we make it trough
Just stay strong
Cause you know I'm here for you
There's nothing you can say,
Nothing you can do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
.
So far away I wish you were here
Before it's too late this could all disappear
Before the doors close, this comes to an end
But with you by my side I will fight and defend I'll
Fight and defend yeah yeah
Hear me when I say, when I say
I believe nothings gonna change, nothings gonna change
Destiny
Whatever is meant to be
Will work out perfectly yeah yeah yeah yeah
Quinn closes her lap top.
"Are you happy now baby girl?"
The baby kicks.
"Okay I have to ask, you think she sucks right? That's why you always kick me when she is singing. I mean, you're my daughter after all."
She caresses her belly.
"Don't worry… soon you won't have to hear her ever again."
She doesn't know why she is remembering it now. Maybe it's because Rachel is singing and now she doesn't have to pretend that she doesn't love to hear her singing. Or maybe it's because she knows she is so close to Beth.
Quinn and Shelby managed to leave all their problems behind. Shelby always made sure to keep both Quinn and Puck aware of everything. To Puck it was heaven but Quinn never managed to deal very well with the fact that she had her daughter in her life, but at the same time she couldn't have her fully; that and the fact that, although she criticized Puck for being immature, she wasn't exactly an example of maturity.
Why did she step away?
Her mother is more connected with Beth than she is and Beth may not even recognize her anymore.
Perhaps it was the busy life of college; and now her career, not to mention the physical distance between the two cities, all she knows is that she misses her baby. And it is time to be a good mother for once.
Quinn said nothing all the way home. Just drove. Truth, the distance between the two houses is not big, but Rachel noticed the silence, she didn't say anything, she sang. She only says something after Quinn parked the car.
"There's something wrong?"
"No."
Rachel frowns in disbelief.
"Are you sure?"
"You're here with me, everything is perfect."
Quinn kisses her girlfriend and sighs.
"I love to kiss you. And I love that I can kiss you whenever I want." Quinn kisses her girlfriend again. "And… any part of you that I want."
"And where do you want to kiss me? May I know?" Rachel arches her eyebrows.
"Mostly… here…" Quinn kisses Rachel's lips. "I love these gorgeous lips of yours."
Rachel giggles as her girlfriend kisses her cheek.
"But here too." Quinn kisses her other cheek. "And here…" She then gives Rachel a sweet kiss on the nose. "Thank God for your decision Rachel, 'cause I would've never forgiven myself if you had changed your nose."
"Do you think I'm pretty?"
Quinn leans to connect their foreheads.
"I think you're beautiful, but that's not the reason why I love you."
She kisses Rachel's forehead and then she locks her hazel eyes onto Rachel's chocolate ones.
"I love every little piece of you Rach… your heart, your soul, your passion and your compassion, your talent, your voice, your ambition, I love that you can be so self centered in a moment and so selfless right after. But yes, I think you're beautiful, I think you're gorgeous; I love your beautiful chocolate eyes and I definitively love the way you're looking at me right know…" She says affectionately as Rachel smiles at her. "Because it makes me feel like the luckiest girl in the world."
Rachel cups her girlfriend's cheek and caresses Quinn's skin with the pad of her thumb, the blonde closes her eyes and Rachel leans her head to press their lips together. Rachel kisses her girlfriend slowly and fondly, patiently exploring every part of Quinn's lips. She wants to show Quinn, she wants to make her girlfriend feel her love for the blonde.
"Wow…" Quinn sighs. "That was an amazing kiss."
"I think we better get in." Rachel smiles lazily.
"Yes…"
They leave the car and walk toward the front door holding hands.
"Girls!"
Judy welcomes them with a big smile on her face.
"Hi mom!"
Quinn hugs her mother.
"Hi Judy! Do you mind if I hug you too?"
"Of course not Rachel and you don't have to ask."
"She does it with everybody mom."
"Well, I like to be polite." Rachel explains happily.
"Except with me." Quinn frowns playfully. "She never really respected my personal space."
Rachel looks at Quinn with a puzzled face.
"You've never noticed it, have you?"
"What?"
"You used to hug me in such a way. I mean, even before we became friends; you always did it in a special way, well, at least it's how I like to think of it."
"That's because you've always been special to me."
Quinn is happy that Rachel loves her now; in fact she is in cloud nine and whenever she thinks about it, it brings a smile to her face; but a small part of her wants to believe that somehow Rachel loves her for so long as she loves Rachel.
"Okay, I don't want to interrupt the love birds, but Quinn? Why don't you go show Rachel the house backyard? The lunch is almost ready and it is vegetarian food this time Rachel." Judy says excitedly.
"Aw…Judy…You're the best!"
Rachel kisses her cheek, Judy blushes and Quinn smiles as they walk toward the living room.
"Ass kisser…" she mumbles.
"Says the girl who apologized to my dads for her bitchness."
"Hey! I did it with my heart okay?"
"And you should, and I think I'm guilty as well. You're my daughter after all…"
"Let bygones be bygones. That's past now and I should've not brought this up."
"And mom, if you were in my place you'd do the same; you should've seen how awfully annoying Rachel was."
"Lucy!" Judy says firmly.
Quinn looks around, searching for someone.
"Who?" She smiles. "I'm just kidding mom."
"I can't see the fun."
"Me neither." Rachel says holding back her smile.
"You guys are no fun."
"Whatever. As I said, lunch is almost ready." Judy informs playfully and then leaves them.
"Come on Rach, let me introduce you to my dad's mausoleum, otherwise known as the Fabray's residence."
Rachel giggles and takes her girlfriend's hand.
"How is Judy by the way? I know it's been years since the divorce, but…"
"She is okay I guess. We don't talk much about my father, he moved on. I think she did the same."
"Did you have any contact, I mean, with him?"
"After…" She trails off. "My accident, he came to see me and mom; but just that, nothing special and I really like it this way."
"I feel like a jerk because I didn't' ask you to live with me; you know, we weren't rich as your family, but it was only me and my dads always spoiled me so much. We could have-"
"Hey, don't do that." Quinn interrupts sweetly. "Don't beat yourself up, nothing that happened to me is your responsibility and I know that if I had gotten homeless for real, you would've not let me live on the streets."
"Never…"
Quinn pecks her girlfriend on the lips.
"Besides, I would've never accepted your offer you know that, right?"
"Yeah right, like you would've resisted the chance of living with me."
"Ha… keep it real Berry; I could barely stand you in that glee club room." Quinn says in her best HBIC tone.
"Hmm… just like that time when I went to school with that Britney's outfit. Right? That's why you couldn't look at me." Rachel smirks.
"There's a difference between me wanting you because you were hot with that outfit and my complete intolerance to your annoying way of being."
"You thought I was annoying?" Rachel pouts.
"I thought it was pretty obvious."
They laugh at that.
"Just to clarify things; I didn't think you were annoying, 'cause I pretty much still do." Quinn says teasingly.
"You're so funny Fabray…Very well; it will have a payback." Rachel narrows her eyes at her girlfriend.
"I take it back, sorry love." Quinn kisses her girlfriend's cheek, but Rachel keeps the pout in her mouth. "Have I told you I love you today?"
"Yes, when my mouth was in your-"
Before she can finish off her sentence, Quinn silences her with a heated kiss.
"Mmm… let's go silly."
Quinn takes Rachel to the house backyard.
"So… this is the infamous hot tub." Rachel grimaces.
"I don't know what you're talking about."
"Really? I must have mistaken then; I thought this was the hot tub where you and Finn made out until he-"
"Don't mention his gross thing please." Quinn cuts her off and does a disgusted face, the same one she made when Finn ejaculated.
"It's not gross..." Rachel says unthinking, covering her mouth right after, her eyes wide open.
"Oh my God! Rachel!" Quinn whines.
"Sorry… I think sometimes I don't think before I speak." She grimaces playfully.
"You think?"
Quinn breathes heavily.
"Don't ever mention something like that again."
"What's the big deal anyway, you also did it right?"
"Not with him!"
"I didn't mean with him." Rachel rolls her eyes.
"Yes." Quinn is the one grimacing this time.
"You didn't like it?" Rachel says with a mischievous smile.
"I-I… I don't know… that's not the point!"
"Oh love… I think your gay is showing." She teases.
"What gave me away?" Quinn arches her eyebrow insinuating.
"Well… first when you went down on me and gave me the most amazing orgasm that I've ever experimented and this combined with the knowledge that you don't appreciate the art of suck a-"
Quinn covers Rachel's mouth right when her mother approaches them.
"There are my girls!"
"Hey Judy!" Rachel says innocently.
After lunch they (Rachel and Judy) decide to bake some cookies.
"Mom Rachel is a disaster in the kitchen."
"Maybe I'm not a good cooker, but I happen to be very good at bake some cookies." Rachel informs smugly.
They talk nonstop. Mostly about Quinn, to Rachel's amusement and to Quinn distaste when Judy promised to find some pictures from little Quinn.
After the bake Judy insisted that she can't have a Grammy winner at her home and not be honored with a live performance. She didn't need to ask twice.
"I definitively suck at this game! You lied to me." Rachel shouts.
"Bluffing… I was bluffing." Quinn says cynically.
"More like a lie." She huffs as she crosses her arms over her chest.
"Rach, when I play poker, I'm not a nice guy."
Rachel smiles amused as Judy shuffles the deck.
"You know ... my dads named me because of Rachel Green."
"I know."
"Do you?"
"I think you mentioned that once."
"I didn't know you guys actually paid attention to me. I mean, sometimes not even Finn did."
"Finn is an idiot." Quinn says casually, taking her cards.
Rachel looks at her curiously.
"Okay…" Quinn runs her finger through her hair. "There are two Finns for me, one is this nice guy who I dated in the past, who are my friend and who I love, but there is this Finn, the one who almost married you, the one who I want to break his nose every time he looks at you just as if you are one of his belongings; and the one I swear I want never see closer to you again."
"Quinnie, jealousy is not healthy for any relationship."
"You don't have to be jealous, it's over between us. We're just friends." Rachel reassures her girlfriend.
"I know." Quinn nods and they get back to their cards.
"Let's play! I'm Rachel Berry I can't lose!"
But she did lose. She couldn't beat Quinn Fabray, she was the ice queen for a reason. She is unreadable, even for Rachel, apparently.
"Thank God it wasn't strip poker; I'd be naked before you took off your shoes."
"You're probably right; last time I played, Puck was naked before I could even remove my shirt."
"You played it with Puck?" Rachel frowns and Quinn smiles.
"Not just Puck… Santana and Brittany too."
"Really?" Rachel laughs. "There was alcohol involved I suppose."
"Lots of alcohol."
"Here!"
Judy gets back in a happy mood.
"Speaking of alcohol… Mom…" Quinn whines.
"Quinn, it's just a glass of wine, don't be silly."
"I won't drink. I'll drive Rachel home."
"What? No, no, no… It's your last day here I want you with me."
"But I'll be with you. I'll just take her home and I'll be back."
"Like that will really happen; I know that in the moment you get there you will stay… you girls will sleep here with me… well, not with me; you got me."
"Are you sure?" Rachel asks.
"Yes I'm sure sweetie."
Judy smiles at her.
"Rach…"
"Mmm?"
"Rach… I'm loving this but…"
Quinn is doing her best to resist the temptation that is Rachel Berry on top of her, kissing the hell out of her.
"God I love these lips!"
"So, stop talking and kiss me."
"I'm getting really turn on here."
"That's the point."
"Baby?" Quinn says in a pleading tone and Rachel stops her motions as she looks at her girlfriend. "I don't want to do it here…"
"Here? You mean your bedroom?"
Quinn nods.
"Not with my mom at home."
"But we did it in my room. My dads were there."
"Your dads are different."
"'Cause they're gay?"
"No!" Quinn says hurriedly. "I mean, maybe?" She bites her bottom lip apprehensively.
"I see."
"Rach…"
Rachel gets off of her girlfriend and settles by her side.
"No… I understand you, and I'll respect you. I'll be sexually frustrated and aroused, lying next to your sexy body but I'll control myself."
"Sorry… but hey, at least we had sex today."
Rachel laughs amused.
"Oh my love… you have much to learn about Rachel Berry's sex drive."
Quinn licks her lips as she gets hot just with that revelation, raking over Rachel's body with her eyes. Smirking, Rachel turns around.
"What you're doing?"
"Sleeping."
Quinn gets close to cuddle her girlfriend.
"No, no..." Rachel removes Quinn's arm.
She can't see it, but Rachel is smiling from ear to ear. She then rolls over and crossing her arms behind her head, she looks at the ceiling, also smiling.
Rachel takes a pillow and places it in between the two of them.
"What now?"
"Just in case you decide to be possessive while you're sleeping, good night."
"I know you're punishing me, but I'm over the moon to have you in my bed; I mean, I'll have to ask you to pinch me just so I can know I'm not dreaming."
In a bolt, Rachel turns around and presses their lips together passionately.
"Do you still think you're dreaming?" She says huskily as she pulls away.
In a haze, Quinn nods and Rachel kisses her again.
"And now?"
"I'm confused… it could still be a dream; I think I'm gonna need more kisses."
And they do kiss and then Rachel bites Quinn's bottom lip.
"Are you convinced?"
"Not really…"
Smirking, Rachel pinches her girlfriend's outer thigh.
"Ouch!"
"Now?"
"Yeah, I'm not dreaming and you're mean."
"Go to sleep beautiful; we need to rest."
"Can we cuddle?"
"I thought you wouldn't ask."
"Good night my love."
"Good night my princess." Rachel says happily.
But then something hits her.
Oh dear Barbra! Beth!
How could she forget something so important? Maybe it is because she is so distracted with Quinn.
Oh my God! Well, now more than never I have to execute my plan and avoid the…
Oh crap! It's L.A…We can't arrive together…
I know! San takes Quinn and we stay in our homes… separated for awhile…
Yeah that's it…
Meanwhile in New York…
"I'm not going Kurt."
"Yes you are! You cannot stay locked up here all the time."
"Please don't make me regret coming here."
After Quinn's odd performance in the glee club's reunion, Rachel told him that they had to talk. She said she was sorry for put him in that situation, but thanked him for everything.
He eventually figured out everything when Rachel said she had to go to Lima one day after Puck informed him that he couldn't work out with him because he had to take Quinn to the airport. Finn naturally asked if she was okay and where she was going and Puck said she was okay and that he didn't have to worry and that she was going home, to Lima.
He told Rachel he wanted to stay and she said it was okay, he isn't dumb, okay sometimes he was, but he put together the pieces of the jigsaw and everything started making sense. He went to New York because he thought his stepbrother could help him with his confused state of mind.
Kurt did not help much because he said it was up to her to open up to him; Kurt told him that Rachel would probably open herself to him when she is ready. He told Finn that it was normal to get confused because any person in his place would be.
But it was worse for Finn and not just because he loves Rachel, but because for the first time in their "Love triangle", he is experiencing what both girls had experimented before, when he broke up with one of them to be with the other.
Well… it definitively sucks!
But it wasn't about Quinn's love for Rachel. He honestly could live knowing that all the time that Quinn tried to pull him away from Rachel it wasn't because of him. He could live knowing that somehow Quinn had never loved him; she would've not slept with Puck if she had.
Rachel however is a completely different thing. He wouldn't bear knowing that she didn't love him as much as he thought she did;
Everything was confused and popping in his head.
The underwear occurrence;
Rachel's effort to get him a job to allow him to take care of Quinn's baby;
The gardenia…
He doesn't even know why this was upsetting him, he was the one who was whining to Rachel about Quinn's bad mood; maybe it was something his mother said when she saw the corsage he bought to Quinn. What was it?
And for last, the hospital drama in their wedding day;
"Come on Finn… you have to move on."
"I love her Kurt."
"And she loves you."
Finn looks at her stepbrother sadly.
"Hey… she does, maybe not as a lover anymore, but Rachel loves you okay? You're one of her best friends and as I remember we have a pact."
Finn sighs tiredly.
"I know… It's just too difficult. I'm confused and I have all this thoughts, Kurt?"
"What?"
"You probably know this kind of things. Do you know what a gardenia means?"
"Hey… just because I'm gay."
"Do you?"
"Yeah…"
"And?"
"They mean secret love."
Finn stands up takes his jacket and goes toward the door.
"Finn?"
Kurt follows him.
"I need a beer."
"I'm going with you."
Finn shakes his head vehemently.
"Yes I am… come on."
They leave the apartment and Kurt takes him to a nice bar that he and Blaine go sometimes; it's not so fancy but it's not the gross type.
"This sucks dude!"
"I can imagine."
"No you can't! I bet you prefer her than me!"
"Who?"
"Quinn!"
"Hey… I want Rachel to be happy, years ago that meant you and if Quinn makes her happy now, yes I'll support her, do you have a problem with that?"
Finn doesn't answer.
"You broke up with her Finn… you gave up."
"I wasn't fitting in her life. She was becoming a star, what should I have done?"
Finn bursts out into tears.
"I don't want to make you feel worse, but she was about to give up on Broadway for you, before you broke up with her, and yes, I can't pretend that I'm not happy that she didn't give up, look at her now."
"So… you're saying I was holding her back?"
"Sometimes? That's exactly what you used to do, but no, that's not what I'm saying, I'm saying that you should have stayed by her side, supporting her, but now it's too late."
The tall man sighs thoughtful.
"That's the song she sang to me."
"What?"
"She sang "it's too late" to me;"
"Oh Finn." Kurt curls his lips.
"It's really over right?"
"Yes… But hey! Wipe the tears and be a man! This is not the end of the world; I know there's some amazing woman out there for you."
"No woman can be as amazing as Rachel."
"You can try a man then." Kurt says teasingly.
Finn frowns at him.
"Sorry, bad joke…"
"Do you think Rachel loves Quinn?"
"I don't think Rachel would risk their friendship if she didn't."
"You think… maybe her love is not new, do you think she has been in love with Quinn for a long time?"
"I don't know; we didn't talk about it yet. Wait! Are you doubting that she loved you? She sang Carole to you!"
"Do you remember the corsage that Quinn used in junior prom? Rachel chose it and you told me gardenias mean secret love."
Oh my God!
Kurt keeps a straight face despite his excitement.
"Finn…" He waves his hand in the air. "She probably chose it because she thought Quinn would've been pretty with this."
"Why she would've wanted Quinn to be pretty?"
"Because she is Rachel Berry, she cares."
Finn smiles at that.
"Yes, you're right."
"Yes I am." Kurt nods happily as he thinks:
I can't believe it… those girls… They are so meant to be…
"Oh please no! No, no, no… tell me you didn't sleep with him?"
"I don't know…"
"Quinn! Tell me!"
"I'm not going to tell, you'll have to wait the next episode."
Rachel is using her time on the plane by watching the episodes she didn't see yet.
"You can't; you don't love him. You love Seth, he is gonna be so devastated." Rachel pouts.
"First of all, I don't love any of them. I love you…"
Quinn gets close to her girlfriend, but Rachel moves away.
"Quinn…" She whines.
"What?"
"I think it'd better to go slow with the PDA."
"Why?"
'Cause we have to talk to Shelby and Beth about it… but I can't tell you this… it will ruin the surprise…
Sure it's because of this…
Yes it is!
"Just for now okay?"
"Okay." Quinn nods, a little disappointed though.
When they land at the airport Brittany and Santana are already there.
"Hey bitches! Welcome to my house since I'm more here than at my own house."
"Don't be dramatic." Quinn rolls her eyes.
"She's missed you guys." Brittany informs them.
"It was just three days." Quinn says in disbelief.
"I'm so happy you guys are not fighting anymore. I mean you guys are okay, right?" Brittany asks worriedly.
"Yes B…" Quinn answers with a happy smile plastered on her face.
"Okay? They totally fucked each other! It's written all over their faces B."
"It is?" Rachel asks horrified.
"Calm down gayberry, it's just because I know you guys and also because I have a psychic Mexican third eye." She smirks. "So, I wanna hear the details…"
"Yes, we need to know." Brittany says eagerly.
"Yes we're together. With the blessing of Judy Fabray." Quinn says smiling like a fool.
"No way!" Santana says surprised.
"Way! Apparently no one can resist the charm of one Rachel Berry." Rachel gestures to herself. "Specially the Fabray women."
"Sure…" Santana rolls her eyes.
Right at the moment, Rachel's phone rings.
"Hold on girls."
Hours ago, when they were about to lift off, she received a text from Kurt.
From Kurt: need 2 talk to U
From Rachel: I'm on my way to L.A… call me when I land?
From Kurt: Ok xx
Rachel sees Kurt's name on the screen and answers him.
"Hi Kurt!"
"Hello Fabulous… can you talk now?"
"I'm still in the airport but talk to me, there's something wrong?" Rachel asks in concern as the other three girls put their attention toward her.
"Not really… hey you own me more details! that poor message you sent me didn't fulfill my need for information."
Rachel giggles.
"Sure…"
"Well, now let's move to the rough subject, I don't want to separate you girls now that you finally together, but you have to come to New York."
"Why is that?"
"Finn…"
"What about him?" Rachel's voice is full of concern and the other girls notice.
"Don't worry, it's nothing really bad, but put yourself in his shoes."
"What did you say to him?"
"Nothing, believe it or not, he figured out by himself, but he needs to hear it from you Rachel, remember when he and Quinn got back together and they were hiding it from you?"
Rachel sighs and looks at said girl.
"Yeah… I get it. I'll be there as soon as possible, take care of him."
"Okay… bye Rach!"
"Bye Kurt!"
"What did he want?" Quinn asks right away.
"You know Kurt, he wanted some details."
"Can we go? I was just kidding when I said this is my home." Santana interjects.
"Yes S…" Quinn exhales tiredly.
"Uh… actually, Santana? Can you take Quinn home?" Rachel asks as she bites down on her bottom lip expectantly.
"Why? You're not coming?" Quinn inquires surprised.
"I'm going to my house, I know you won't like it, but it's better this way okay?"
"What you're talking about Rachel?" Brittany asks.
"What she is saying B is that she has some duties as the queen of Narnia." Santana says annoyed.
"It's not that." Rachel turns to Quinn. "Baby please just go with them. I'll call you when I get home okay?"
Quinn nods slightly upset and Rachel wants so much to kiss her girlfriend just to prove how much she loves the blonde, but she sees some paparazzi out of the corner of her eyes. She then hugs her girlfriend and Quinn whispers into her ear.
"I love you."
Rachel smiles happily and in love.
"Come on guys." Quinn turns to the other girls.
Hours ago…
As soon as Rachel wakes up she proceeds to put her plan into action.
She calls Shelby.
"Hi mom!"
"Hi kid!"
"Mom, I don't know if you know, but I'm here in Lima."
"Mmm… I know… small town and I was wondering when you were going to make a visit."
"About that, I have to go back to L.A. today, it was a quick visit, you know dad broke a leg."
Just a little lie.
"I know… so, you're already tired of your mother?"
"It's not that and that's why I'm calling; I really need to go back today but I was wondering, can you and Beth visit me in L.A?"
Waiting the answer, Rachel bites down on her bottom lip apprehensively.
"Well, I thought you'd never ask, sure we can!"
"That's great!"
"Beth is gonna love it."
"She will…" Rachel smirks. "When will you guys be able to go?"
"I don't know… four or five days from now, is that good?"
"Excellent!"
"Okay… it's a date then!"
"I'm waiting for you. I've got to go mom… love you!"
"Love you too kid!"
And then she only needs one more call.
"Hey Claire… can you pick me up at the airport today?"
"You better have a good reason for me being here."
Santana informs as she gets in Rachel's house.
"I called my mom and I invited her over, she will be here in a few days. She will bring Beth, we need to talk about, you know… me and Quinn, because I'm Beth sister somehow and Quinn is-"
"I get ii." Santana cuts her off.
"I don't wanna be smug but Beth adores me, one picture or gossip or rumor and she will know and that's not how I want her to find out."
"That's why you wanted you guys to be in separated houses."
"Precisely." Rachel nods her head. "We were friends visiting their parents at the same time, just that." She pinches the bridge of her nose. "I need some more days, can you handle her?"
"How am I supposed to do that?"
"I don't know; you guys are friends; do things friends do. She can't be here, as much as I want it, and we can't go out together."
"Do you have some Berry essence for me to throw at myself? Because that's the only way she will agree to be with me these days."
Rachel giggles amused.
"There's a thing that I think it will help."
"What?"
"I need to go to New York."
"You've just arrived."
"I know."
"What is it? Wait! Finn is in-"
"New York, I know…" Rachel cuts her off.
"Hell no!"
"Santana… Finn needs to know for me."
"And you'll hide it from Quinn?"
"No… I'll tell her, after I get back."
"Rach…"
"Don't worry okay? I just can't tell her now because she will be upset and insecure and then I won't go, but I have to. I'll tell her I have some business there or something, it's just one day."
"Kurt? Dude? I'm home."
"He is out."
"Jesus! Rachel? You scared the shit out of me."
Finn raises his arms up in the air dramatically as Rachel grimaces guiltily.
"Sorry…"
"What are you doing here?"
Looking at him, she takes a deep breath.
"Take a sit Finn. We need to talk, no secrets this time."
"Okay…" He sits.
"Look Finn I don't want you to know for someone else." She bites her bottom lip as she ponders her words. "Quinn and I are together… as together, together, as a couple." She gestures her hand.
"Yeah… now we all know what it feels like." He says dejected.
"What do you mean?"
"I left her for you and you for her and now I know what it feels like."
Rachel tries hard to hold her laugh but she fails miserably.
"It's not funny…" He whines.
Rachel bursts out into laugh.
"Rach!" Finn tries to keep a straight face but fails too. He starts laughing.
"Sorry." She cleans her throat.
"It sucks." He states.
"Sorry again."
"It's okay. I mean, not okay, okay… but…"
"I know."
"I'm really glad that you're here Rachel."
"And that's a proof of how grown up and mature you are. I mean, look all this chairs here." She teases.
"Yeah Kurt has lots of chairs."
"He does."
"Do you love her?" He says promptly.
"Yes. I do." Rachel answers honest.
"For how long?"
"I don't know." she gets confused as she is not really getting where he wants to go with this question.
"You loved me right?"
"I still do Finn; only in a different way now."
"What If you've loved her all this time? You know what people say about hate?"
"Firstly, I never hated her. Secondly, here you go again, doubting us."
"Do you know that a gardenia means secret love?"
"What?" She opens her mouth, taken aback.
"Quinn's corsage…" He clarifies.
"You asked for my help." She says promptly.
"No… I said that I was going to choose the wrong thing as always."
"Whatever Finn." She waves her hand dismissively.
"Rach? Were you in love with her back then?" He inquires suspicious.
"It doesn't matter." She says resolute.
"Yes it does." He insists.
"No… I don't think so." She raises her voice. "You know what Finn? You can stop that, 'cause you know I loved you and if I remember well, you were the one who broke up with me! For the third time!"
"I know…" He sighs.
"Good… you chose to be apart from me and now I'm choosing her, 'cause she makes me happy."
"Second…" He points out. "That time at the train station wasn't a break up."
"It seemed one to me."
He smiles fondly at her.
"Are we okay?" She asks pleadingly.
"I guess."
"Hey I was thinking. You can stay at my apartment; you know, so you can have some more privacy."
"I'm moved by the offer, but I have to refuse, besides I'm going back home soon."
"Okay…" She nods.
"By the way, I don't think Quinn would approve; I have to tell you something about her, she is a very jealous person."
"I know that." Rachel nibbles on her lip uncomfortable.
"She doesn't know you're here, right?"
"Not exactly, she knows I'm here; she doesn't know you are here though."
"Good luck." He teases with a mischievous smile on his lips.
"I don't need luck… I'm Rachel Berry."
Little did she know that actually she could have had a little more luck. She went back to L.A. and when she arrived, she went straight to her bed, because she needed to rest. She is human after all.
She was sleeping in a sleep so deep that she almost lost track of time.
"Sorry I'm late… Hey B, Hey San, Hey baby." Rachel kisses her girlfriend cheek and sits on her chair.
They are going to have dinner together. This time though it feels like a double date.
Rachel can feel something is bothering her girlfriend as she looks at Santana who is looking at her with solicitude.
Jesus! Berry… just run! Run for your life…
Santana thinks as she shakes her head at the other brunette.
"So, Britt, I haven't had a chance to congratulate you on your new job. I hope you know I intend to see you. Does Rihanna have her agenda ready?"
"I think so, I can give you later so you can choose where you going to see me. Maybe outside of the country? It would be great the four of us in a foreign country… maybe Paris… you know Paris is the city of love?" Brittany beams.
"That would be amazing, I loved Paris." Rachel says as she looks at Quinn's hand; the blonde is drumming her fingers on the table. "There's something wrong baby?"
"I don't know. I was hoping you could tell me." Quinn says coldly.
"I would if I knew." Rachel frowns confused.
"You don't?"
"No, and I really want to know 'cause we were okay when I went to New York."
"Yeah, and you lied to me."
"What?" Rachel raises her voice slightly. "I didn't lie to you."
"You went to New York to see Finn."
"Who told you that?" Rachel asks guiltily.
"You just did."
"It's not what-"
"It's not what?" Quinn cuts her off.
"I needed to see him." She tries out.
"Gee Berry! You're making it worse."
"I told you to not tell her Santana." Rachel complains upset.
"Thanks for trusting me." Santana says outraged. "I didn't tell her." She waves her off. "She figured out when the moron let slip that Finn is in New York."
"So why did you lie to me?" Quinn steps in.
"Quinn, please baby, listen to me. Remember when you and Finn started dating again?"
This seems to calm the blonde down somehow. She nods slowly.
"And you guys hid it from me?"
Quinn nods again.
"I heard you guys talking about that and Finn was concerned that it could break my heart."
"Because he was still in love with you, are you telling me that you're concerned about him because you're still in love with him?" She says voice cracking.
With her heart tight as she wants nothing but put her girlfriend in her arms, Rachel ignores the question.
"He was right, it broke my heart, but it was worse to find out that way, that's why I wanted him to know for me."
"Do you still love him?"
"Quinn…" Rachel whines.
"Answer me." Quinn demands.
"Yes… but…"
"So you lied to me when you said you wanted to be with me?"
"No…" She shakes her head promptly.
"No? Are you-"
"Can you just listen?!"
Rachel cuts her off as she raises her voice a little.
"Yes I love him and I care about him, because he is not just my ex; Finn is my friend and for a long period of my teenage life he was my only friend and he wasn't perfect but he was all I had; before Kurt, before Mercedes, Tina, Blaine, before you…
"So I'm sorry if this bothers you, but you have to know that loyalty is very important to me and that I care about my friends; Finn and I as a couple is over, but he will always be my friend, we're over, it's past.
She pauses as she locks their eyes onto each other.
"You are my future 'cause I love you. And not like I love the others. I love you…I'm so in love with. I love you, the kind of love that makes me think about you all the time, the kind of love that makes me want to kiss you senseless right now just to show you how much I love you, but I can't do it right now." She sighs soundly. "I hope you got me cause I can't live without you Quinn Fabray. So please, can you forgive me?"
"Quinn is a little speechless right now but I'm sure she will answer you soon." Santana teases her friend.
Quinn blinks a few times before she says:
"We. Need. Bathroom. right. The fuck. Now."
"Uh?" Rachel asks confused.
The blonde stands up quickly and goes toward the bathroom, leaving an astonished Rachel behind.
"Rach what are you waiting for?" Brittany smiles at her.
"I think I…" Rachel trails off as she leaves them and goes to the bathroom as well.
"Amateurs…" Santana says as she rolls her eyes.
As soon as Rachel gets in the bathroom she feels Quinn's hand on her waist pulling her to a passionate kiss.
She pulls them inside the nearest stall, closes the door, pushes Rachel's back against the now closed door and kisses her greedily. They kiss each other as there isn't tomorrow, making love to each other's mouths passionately, with tongues wrapping around each other, over and over.
But as they have to breathe, they pull away from each other.
"Mmm baby that was so hot." Rachel whispers.
"Yeah… but we need to get back. They're waiting for us." Quinn points out annoyed.
"I think they can wait." Rachel presses their lips together again.
"Yeah… I lost count of how many times they did this to me." Quinn informs amused.
They kiss again and soon enough things get heated, but Quinn pulls away before they can get too much into it.
"Come on love, before I lose my senses."
"But Quinn… I want you." Rachel pouts as Quinn pecks her cheek.
"Come on, before someone comes in."
When they return to their table, Santana is waiting with a smirk on her face.
"Not what you're thinking Santana." Rachel informs casually as she sits on her chair.
"I'm not thinking anything." Santana shrugs innocently.
"Sure…" Quinn chuckles.
"Hey Q, Rachel is here! You should take a picture from us now. You didn't forget did you? You promised."
"What?" Rachel asks amused.
"B is right." Quinn turns to her girlfriend. "It's a girl, her name is Beth and she is your fan. I promised that I would send her a picture from the four of us, as soon as it was possible." She informs.
"Okay…" Rachel smiles.
Brittany calls out the waiter and offhandedly, asks him to take a picture with Quinn's phone.
"There, I already sent it." Quinn informs with her face glued to the screen of her phone.
"Let me see it. Aw… It's so cute." Brittany says in awe. "Faberrittana rocking the world!"
"Faberri what?" Rachel asks as she giggles happily.
"Faberry…" Brittany gestures to both Rachel and Quinn. "And Brittana, the most amazing couple in the world."
"Yes we are." Santana says prideful.
"Faberry?" Quinn asks amused.
"It's how we're calling you guys."
"When she says we, she means she, Kurt and Blaine."
"You liked it too San." Brittany points out.
"I think we have fans baby. I liked it, because my name is intact." Rachel teases.
"I knew you'd think that." Santana mocks.
"Well it was this or Quinnchel." Brittany shrugs.
"Why didn't you guys choose this one? It has my name complete in there." Quinn whines.
"Because it reminds me of finchel." Brittany explains matter-of-factly.
"I like faberry." Quinn says promptly.
"Faberry it is."
Rachel says smiling at her love.
Her nerves are over the edge. Shelby and Beth will arrive anytime and she is eager to see them.
And everything has to be perfect.
When Rachel has no more nails to bite they arrive.
"Hi mom! Hi Beth!"
"Rach!"
Beth gets close and hugs her sister.
"Sorry for not picking you guys up at the airport."
"Rach, you sent us a driver. It's perfectly fine. Come hug your mother."
They hug each other.
"So… this is your new house? You know I thank God that you look like me, 'cause when people talk about Rachel Berry I can say you're my daughter and they actually believe me."
Rachel laughs at that.
"I can't say you're my sister. No one will believe me." Beth pouts.
"Yeah… but I don't know, you remind me of someone." Rachel teases her. "She is an actress, very famous and very pretty, actually she is beautiful."
"More than I am?" Beth smiles at her, blinking her eyelashes hopefully.
Oh! That tease tone… she is really her daughter…
Rachel thinks.
"You're both equally beautiful." She conceals.
After that Beth goes straight to the pool; which is perfect because Rachel needed to talk to her mother alone.
"So…" Shelby looks at Rachel expectantly.
"I have some news." Rachel starts.
"It's alright Rachel. You can tell me."
"Quinn and I… we're together, together as a couple; we love each other." She bursts out.
"Okay." Shelby nods her head as she rubs her thighs up and down.
"You don't seem surprised."
"That's because I'm not."
"Are you okay with this?" Rachel questions unsure.
"I'm okay with anything that makes you happy, but we do need to talk to Beth about this."
"I know; that's the main reason why I invited you guys. Quinn doesn't know she is here, but yeah we need to talk."
After spending almost all day in the pool Beth decides she cannot fight her hunger anymore. She is starving.
"What you want to eat shorty?"
"Soon you will not be able to call me shorty anymore. Have you noticed that I'm almost your height?"
"Sadly I have."
"Maybe I'll call you shorty…" Beth says mischievously.
"No, no, no… you won't do that to your sister little Quinn… so… what do you want to eat?"
"I want pizza! But it must have lots of bacon!"
"Sure…" Rachel giggles. "Mmm, You and I have some business after…" Rachel trails off mysterious.
"What kind of business shorty?"
"Hmm, don't push your luck Beth."
"You love me. I'm safe."
"You bet I do, but you will see, now let's get some pizzas!"
"Hi there!"
"I found it odd you calling me to come here now, especially in daylight."
Quinn says resentful as Rachel smiles. She's missed her girlfriend.
"Just kiss me." she demands.
"Always…"
Quinn kisses her girlfriend, but Rachel pulls away too soon in her opinion.
"I have a surprise for you; it's in the pool."
Quinn frowns confused.
"What kind of surprise?"
Right on cue, Shelby gets in the living room.
"Rach who is…" She stops mid sentence when she spots the blonde near Rachel. "Oh hi Quinn!"
She walks toward Quinn and hugs her.
"Hi…uh… is everything okay? Where is-"
"I said your surprise is in the pool" Rachel cuts her off. "Go ahead."
Rachel bites down on her bottom lip. Yes, a small part of her thought Quinn could run away.
"Okay." Quinn says smiling from ear to ear.
It's only when the blonde walks toward the pool that Rachel breathes a sigh of relief.
Beth beams when she sees Quinn standing in the edge of the pool, the blonde bends down smiling at her child.
"Hi…"
"Hi…"
"Rachel said my surprise is here in the pool, can you tell me what is it?"
Beth smile gets even bigger.
"I guess it's me." She says shyly.
"Mmm… I thought so too."
"Do you want to swim with me?"
"I thought you'd never ask me. I hope is not too cold in there."
"You're not like Rachel are you? She is so girly and delicate sometimes, just like my mom… sooo annoying."
Quinn laughs lighthearted.
"Okay. You convinced me. I'll go change."
Beth literally looks like a fish in the water, she is an excellent swimmer and Quinn is impressed as she watches her daughter mesmerized.
Rachel appears from time to time to see if they are in need of something.
"Hey Rach…"
Quinn calls her girlfriend out as Rachel is talking on the phone.
"Okay… Bye…" She tosses her phone on one of the pool's chair and sits on the other. "Hi…" She says to her girlfriend.
"Don't you think that I noticed that you avoided the pool area all day?"
"Like you don't know why…" Rachel rolls her eyes in faux annoyance.
"I don't." Quinn says innocently.
"Maybe it's because you're hotter than hell in this mouthwatering bikini?" She admits. "I don't want to traumatize your daughter." She whispers.
"Thanks by the way. I know what you're doing and I feel like an idiot."
"You couldn't know. I wanted to do a surprise."
"I should know, she is my daughter, I should have taken into consideration her feelings and the consequences that this will bring to her."
"Don't beat yourself up because of this… she…"
"What are you guys whispering in there?" Beth asks as she gets close to Quinn.
"I was asking her what she'd like to eat." Rachel informs.
"Please say pizza with bacon."
"Yeah I want that." Quinn says as her eyes are actually gleaming.
"Beth you ate that yesterday." Rachel points out.
"I can eat again. Please?"
"Yes Rach please?"
Mom and daughter pouting at her; what she could do?
"Alright… someone will be kissless today."
"Who cares about kiss when you have bacon?"
"High five Beth…"
Quinn raises her hand as higher as possible, Beth jumps and they high five.
Before the day is over Rachel has one more surprise for Quinn. She asks Quinn and Shelby to take a seat, while she and Beth settle on the Piano bench.
"Hey guys… Beth wants to sing a song for you."
"Sure… that was my idea." Beth rolls her eyes.
Rachel starts playing that one single note of the song's intro. She arranged a very much smoother version of this song and now Beth is ready to sing.
Tripping out
Spinning around
I'm underground
I fell down
Yeah, I fell down
Quinn melts because her baby is so grown up and she is so cute singing.
I'm freaking out
So, where am I now?
Upside down
And I can't stop it now
It can't stop me now
.
Oooh Oooooh Oooohhh
I'll get by
Oooh Oooooh Oooohhh
I'll survive
When the world's crashing down
When I fall and hit the ground
I will turn myself around
Don't you try to stop me
.
Oooh Oooooh Oooohhh
I won't cry
I found myself myself
.
Rachel sings along with her sister.
In Wonderland
Get back on back on
My feet again
Is this real? Is this real
Is it pretend?
I'll take a stand a stand
Until the end
.
Oooh Oooooh Oooohhh
I'll get by
Oooh Oooooh Oooohhh
I'll survive
When the world's crushing down
When I fall and hit the ground
I will turn myself around
Don't you try to stop me
Oooh Oooooh Oooohhh
I won't cry
When the song ends, Shelby and Quinn applaud enthusiastically.
"That was beautiful my baby." Shelby says prideful.
"That was amazing Beth!" Quinn beams.
"We have one more song for you."
Rachel winks at Beth and then starts singing.
She used to be my only enemy and never let me free
Catching me in places that I knew I shouldn't be
Every other day I crossed the line
I didn't mean to be so bad
I never thought you would become the friend
I never had
.
Rachel smiles at her mother.
Back then I didn't know why
Why you were misunderstood
So now I see through your eyes
All that you did was love
.
Mama I love you, Mama I care
Mama I love you, Mama my friend
My friend
I didn't want to hear it then
But I'm not ashamed to say it now
Every little thing you
Said and did was right for me
I had a lot of time to think about
About the way I used to be
Never had a sense of my responsibility
Back then I didn't know why
why you were misunderstood
.
So now I see through your eyes
All that you did was love
Flashback:
"I'll explain what will happen Beth. Quinn will cry when we sing this song, but that doesn't mean she is sad, on the contrary it means that you are doing well."
Now:
Quinn is crying and smiling at the same time so Beth knows that Rachel was right. Older sisters are always right.
Mama I love you, Mama I care
Mama I love you, Mama my friend
You're my friend…
So her baby and her love are singing to her, what else could she do but cry her heart out?
So she cries and watches in complete awe.
The songs in order:
Keep holding on – Avril Lavigne
Alice - Avril Lavigne
Mama – Spice Girls