Allys POV
Honestly, I should've seen it coming. With me beating the hell out of Cassidy. Not that I regreted it or anything. But in that moment, I couldn't help but stifle a sob, looking up at my dad's disappointed eyes.
First period seemed okay, no one really coming towards me.
They were basically just looking at me and whispering behind my back. And to think, I was warming up to these idiots.
I was just starting to relax a bit when they called my name on the intercom, giving me the chills. I swiftly stood up, grabbing my bag as I walked out of the room, not exactly giving a care. Little did I know that it would get me suspended, maybe even expelled.
Now here I am, trying my hardest not to cry as my dad simply shook his head and walked out of the living room, shutting the door behind him before I heard the sound of the engine start.
Once the sound of the car droned out of the house, I ran to my room, and threw myself on my bed.
I shouldn't be crying.
I shouldn't.
No.
But here I was, sobbing my hearts content as I felt a pity party coming up, each cry racking my frail body.
Why did I have to be such a disappointment?
That's all I seemed to do these days.
I bit my lip to stifle a sob, but failed as my body shook again.
Why couldn't I be the tough girl everyone imagined me to be?
Because every time I cried, I felt like the real me was coming back with each sniffle, and each cry.
I hated myself so much that I changed myself, and now I hate myself even more.
And for once, I cried myself to sleep.
Co-Author's Note First part of chapter 17, dunno when we'll update next but happy holidays yo! :D