Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight. Nope, sure don't.

AN: I came up with the outline for this chapter nearly a month ago and everything I tried to write was complete and utter crap. I deleted four versions of this chapter before I was finally happy. I hope you all like it.

Warning: This chapter contains lemon because it's been severely lacking in this story as of late.

The first couple of weeks with a newborn are always the hardest. The baby isn't used to it's surroundings, the parents are so sleep deprived that they will overreact to the smallest things but it doesn't matter. What matters is enjoying being a family and over looking the fact that your husband forgot to do the dishes or that your wife hasn't had more than two minutes to herself much less time to take a shower in three days.

Paul had gone back the work the Monday after Easter. He'd only had four days with Bella and Holden but he couldn't miss anymore time from either of his jobs. He would be picking up more shifts at the bar to make up for the lack of a second income until Bella felt that she was ready to to go back to work.

Renee had tired to step in after Paul got home from his day job most nights until Bella reminded her that this would be the only time they had together as a family for a while. Bella let Renee watch the baby for a few hours a day so that she could get some sleep but that would be over soon. Renne had stayed an extra week as it was and she herself couldn't take anymore time off from work. Charlie had offered to take Renee to the airport the next morning so that Bella wouldn't have to.

Bella wanted to make the most of the time she had left with her mom. Renee had been there to hold Bella's hand and console her when Holden had gotten his first shots a week ago. She had taken Holden's screaming in protest like a pro while Bella nearly panicked at the idea of her son being in pain.

"It gets easier. I handled your first shots a lot worse. I completely freaked your dad out. To this day he can't have his blood drawn without thinking about it," Renee said with a solemn shake of her head.

"I just wish Paul could have come."

"I know, Baby," she said, kissing Bella's temple.

"He's a good dad though, right?"

"He is a great dad. He's doing everything he can to provide for you and Holden. He's there for you when he can be which is what every woman wants. Why don't you let me look after Holden tonight since it's Paul's night off?"

"We couldn't ask you to do that," Bella objected with a shake of her head.

"First off, I offered; secondly, I have less than a day with him. Let me me enjoy being a grandma while I can."

"We couldn't leave him."

"Then just have a night to yourselves in your room. Order take out and have a night to focus on Paul. I'm not saying that you should have sex because I doubt you're ready for that, but show him how much you appreciate him."

Bella agreed with her mom wholeheartedly. Even before the baby had been born her focus had been on preparing for the baby. Paul hadn't seemed to mind and hadn't acted like he was feeling neglected. If Paul wanted her attention he knew how to get it, but he had been too busy with work to focus on anyone but himself.

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The front room was empty and the house was quiet when Paul got home from work. He toed off his boots expecting Bo to jump from behind the baby's door like he liked to do. He walked to Holden's room to find it empty. Something caught his eye across the room and he noticed the candle light spilling from his room.

Bella was in the bathtub when he finally made his way to the bathroom.

"Where are your mom and Holden?"

"Billy invited mom over for dinner, she took the baby with her. And why is the first question out of your mouth about my mother? I'm naked and wet!" she said gesturing to her body.

A growl rose from deep in his chest as he shed his shirt and pants quickly. His hands fumbled with his boxer briefs before coming to stand over Bella. She pushed them down, excitement coursing thorough her as she leaned up to let him climb in behind her.

"There is only one rule that you have to go along with. If you can agree to it, than we'll be fine."

"What's the rule?"

"We aren't having sex tonight. Anything else is fair game."

"Can I do this?" he asked, his hands sliding down her stomach to slip into her folds.

"Mmm, yeah," she said with a sigh.

"What about this?"

His mouth was on her neck, his tongue swiping over her skin.

"Yep, that too," she agreed, leaning into him.

She placed her hands on his thighs for leverage before moving against him. She could feel his erection sliding against the crack of her ass and it brought a new sensation to the equation.

"I have a question," she broached gently.

"Hmm?" he asked against her neck.

"Have you ever had anal sex?"

"Once, the girl complained that I hurt her so I never tried with anyone else."

"New rule: rule one just went out the window."

"No," he said firmly.

"Have I ever led you to think that I'm one of those girls who can't keep up with you?"

"No."

"Your wife is offering you sex, and you're saying no."

"I don't want to hurt you."

"If you do I'll let you know."

He wasn't sure if she wanted to do this because of their lack of sex recently or because she wanted to try something new. The idea of hurting her sent a chill up his spine. He was brought back to reality by the feeling of her ass gliding smoothly over his erection yet again.

"If we're gonna do this you need to completely honest with me and you have to trust me," he relented.

She turned her torso so that she could brush her lips to his. He pulled away before things could go farther and grabbed her by her waist to lift her off of him.

"It would be easier if you faced me."

She straddled his lap with her hands on his shoulders.

"You're going to have to relax, I won't get very far if you aren't."

She nodded, she wasn't nervous at all but she was curious. She trusted him and knew that he would never intentionally hurt her. His hands reached her to cup her ass, massaging it gently. After a minute or two she felt herself relax enough that he could slip a digit inside her hole a few inches.

"This could take a while," he said dryly.

"We've got all night. I'm pretty sure my mom said that she wouldn't be home until late. i've got ways to keep you quiet if she comes home early."

He gave her an even look and she smirked in reply. Since he couldn't pretend to be mad at her for long he grinned with a roll of his eyes. She rocked against his hand, causing his finger to slide deeper inside her. She concentrated on relaxing more as the pain being stretched got to be too much.

"You okay?" he asked in concern.

"I just need to relax more. Don't stop," she pleaded with her eyes.

After a couple of minutes Paul was able to slip in another finger. Bella rocked against his hand, feeling more relaxed than she had ever been. Paul's erection was almost to the point of being painful, if he wasn't inside her in the next few minutes his dick just might snap off. Bella, sensing his discomfort put a hand on his shoulder.

"I think I'm ready," she whispered.

He asked her with his eyes if she as sure and she nodded, leaning up so that he could position his penis with her ass.

"It's gonna be uncomfortable for the first couple of minutes. Just don't tense up on me."

She was thankful for the warning and she stilled as he pushed the head of his penis inside. The pain wasn't bad just not what she was planning on. She could feel him slowly slipping inside her and she let him take over. He lifted her hips as he pushed in and she was able to lower herself back onto him.

"You okay?" he asked in concern.

"I'm fine, the pain is starting to go away," she answered honestly.

"Shouldn't we get out of here? The water is probably ice cold."

"Can you do that while you're inside me?"

He stood and her hips wound around his waist. He slipped out of her as he carried her to the bed. He laid her down, holding both her legs to place them over his shoulders. He slid into her easily and sank into her almost to the hilt. She hadn't complained once and he had to admit that sharing this with her made him love her even more. He never would have asked her to give herself up like this even though he had thought about how it would be. He had never thought it would be this good.

Bella felt completely open to him and all of her focus was on him. She didn't care that she wasn't really getting out of this. She would need to take care of herself and that was fine. Her hands slid to her folds and Paul smacked them away lightly.

"No," he said shaking his head, leaving no room for argument.

He grabbed her hands and held them over her head. His movements were slow but forceful and she felt every thrust. She could barely move other than her torso and hips. She met his thrusts with ease and she could tell that he was close. He caught his bottom lip between his teeth.

"You're not playing fair. You know how much that turns me on," she growled.

He shrugged indifferently before smirking. He leaned down, pushing himself fully into her. His lips met her in a bruising kiss that stole her breath. He pulled away without warning, letting go of her hands and pulling her legs down before pulling out of her.

"What are you doing?" she asked when he rolled off of her.

"I want you to sit on my face," he said pulling her close.

She stared at him, wide eyed. He gave her an impatient look before she did what he asked. She hovered over his face, her weight resting on her arms which were resting on his torso. His erection stood proudly at attention and she reached out to wrap a hand around it. They had never sixty-nined before but it wasn't something that she was against. She stroked his penis a few more times before leaning forward.

Paul's moan against her sex vibrated through her entire body, sending waves of pleasure up her spine. It had taken her weeks to be able to learn how to take all of him into her mouth but luckily he had been patient and had talked her through it. She had given him a blow job nearly every night until she had gotten it right. What guy wouldn't love that?

Paul should have tried to talk her into his sooner. She was a natural, just like he thought she would be. He felt his balls tighten and before he could warn her to back off a little he came with a loud groan. Bella had been paying more attention than he had and had let him slip almost completely out of her mouth so that she could swallow his seed.

Paul tightened his grip on her hips and continued having his way with her. He alternated between swiping his tongue through her folds and sucking on her her clit, pulling it between his teeth gently. Her breath hitched and she grabbed hold of the sheets to keep from grinding against his face even more than she already was. Her orgasm exploded making her toes curl. This was the first time that had happened without them actually having sex.

Once she regained feeling in her legs she climbed off of him. He kept her close by draping an arm over her shoulders. She rested her head on his chest, closing her eyes. He pulled the blanket over them and drifted off to sleep.

Renee came in an hour later and saw them still sleeping. She decided to keep Holden with her for the night because it was obvious that they both needed a decent nights rest. Paul hadn't even stirred when she came in.

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Bella woke the next morning to the sound of Paul talking softly. She opened her eyes to see Holden sitting on Paul's thighs, his little legs pushing against Paul's stomach, rapt with attention as Paul talked to him.

"Don't worry about people knocking on you for being small when you get older little man, because you're gonna be short just like your mom. Just because she's short that doesn't mean she scare the hell out of somebody. I'll tell you all about when you get older."

"I'm scary?" she asked, her voice thick with sleep.

"When you want to be. Why do you think Jared won't so much as look at food until you tell him to get himself something to eat?"

"I hit him with a rolling pin one time! He stole a handful of cookies fresh from the oven."

"And he learned not to mess with you," he said with a rough laugh.

"You aren't scared of me."

"No, I'm scared of hurting you. It's a wold/imprint thing. I've been through too much to be scared of someone the same size as Tinkerbell," he retorted with a smirk.

"Hey," she warned, poking him in the ribs.

Holden turned his attention to Bella and his eyes lit up with recognition. She took him, cradling him in her arms. He instinctively latched onto her breast and she ran her fingers through his hair.

"Do you want some tea?" Paul asked, rising from the bed.

"Yeah," she answered, not taking her eyes off the baby.

Paul pulled on a pair of basketball shorts and a t-shirt before leaving the room. He had felt awkward after catching Renee staring at his pecs one morning and from then on he kept a shirt on unless he was behind closed doors. Renee was sitting on the front step with Bo at her side when he looked out the front window. She must have just woken up because the coffee wasn't ready. He heated up a mug of water in the microwave and grabbed a box of tea from the cabinet by the fridge while he waited for the water to heat.

Renee came in as he was adding honey to Bella's tea and she smiled tiredly in greeting. He nodded in response, letting her get a cup of coffee first.

"Thank you for watching Holden last night."

"You're welcome. I only have a few more hours with him and I don't know when I'll be able to see him again," she said sadly.

He nodded in understanding. Bella had mentioned that Renee had been wanting to move back to Washington but Phil couldn't get out of his contract. Maybe it was time to make a trip to Florida in the near future.

"Is Bella up?"

"She's nursing but I wouldn't go in, she's not decent."

"I'm dressed now," Bella called from behind the closed bedroom door.

"Have a good day at work Paul," Renee said over her shoulder as she headed into the bedroom with her coffee and Bella's tea.

"Come back and visit soon Renee," he said with as much sincerity that he could muster.

Renee leaned against the door once she had shut it. Bella was making the bed while Holden slept in his swing. She looked over her shoulder to see her mom giving her an amused look.

"What?"

"I thought that you weren't going to have sex last night," she said, folding her arms over her chest with a smirk.

"There are other things people can do naked mom," Bella said in defense.

"Yeah, like play naked Twister, but that leads to sex," Renee said with a light laugh.

"I do not want to know how you know about that," Bella said with a shudder.

Paul laughed lightly with a shake of his head as he pulled on a pair of jeans fresh from the dryer. he left a minute later after calling that he was leaving from the front room.

"So, you did have sex last night?"

"We fooled around, that was it." She wasn't about to tell her mom that Paul had popped her anal cherry on top of everything else.

"I couldn't stand the idea of sex or your dad coming anywhere near my vagina for at least a month after you were born," she admitted.

"I so did not need to know that!" Bella said, her face a mix of horror and disgust.

In Sam's jeep Sam stared at Paul questionably. They had yet to pull out of the driveway and had heard the whole conversation.

"Just be glad that Emily's mom isn't like that."

"Is she always like that?"

"Only when she thinks I won't hear."

"Dude, that's weird."

"Bella's dealt with it her entire life; she's used to it," he said with a shrug.

"No wonder she doesn't have a problem with Quil's dirty jokes or Leah's bragging about how 'amazing' Jake is in bed," Sam said, using air quotes for the word amazing with a sarcastic eye roll.

Paul shook his head with a scoff as Sam put the jeep in neutral and finally pulled out of the yard. He had been skeptical of how Bella had been raised until he had listened in on a phone conversation between her and Renee. He had thought that it was funny at the time but it had gotten old really fast. She was a little too inquisitive about his and Bella's relationship for his liking. Luckily Bella hadn't told her everything because if she had they would be having a very serious conversation when he got home.