Chapter 94
On the night of Tuesday October 9th Jessie and Cordelia were on a date. Time was Cordelia would've been too afraid of her friends' opinion to date someone not popuar like Jessie. But Cordelia found she no longer cared what most of them thought. She still cared what Harmony thought, but they'd both become less shallow lately. Cordelia liked Jessie, but she feared her secret would cause Jessie to reject her. Still, experience had taught Cordelia that secrets were bad. So Cordelia told Jessie the truth, about the fraternity rape, her pregnancy, and abortion. Jessie seemed angry, as she had feared.
Jessie: Who did it?
Cordelia: I don't know. I was unconsciouss.
Jessie: Then they're all dead.
Cordelia: No. Jessie, I don't want you to go for revenge.
Jessie: Did you report it?
Cordelia: No. I couldn't repeat what happenned in court many times.
Jessie: So those bastards get away scott free. That's not right.
Cordelia: I know. But I want to just forget about it and move on.
Jessie: Is that why you and Xander broke up?
Cordelia: He offerred to marry me, even though we'd never been together. But I couldn't go through with my pregnancy. Xander didn't agree with my choice, he tried. Anyway it was never the same after that.
Jessie: Do you ever regret it?
Cordelia: Sometimes. I feel guilt, I mean I'm not a sociopath. I try to be there for Harmony, she's stronger than me. If you don't want to be with me, I'll understand.
Jessie kissed Cordelia. Cordelia knew at that moment that she'd found happiness again.