Hi. I know. I haven't updated in forever again. Sorry. I've just been really lazy and depressed is all. Someone close to me recently passed away and I just... I'm sorry. Anyway here's the chapter. I apologize if it's crap. I kind of forced myself to write it.

Disclaimer: blahhhhhh. I don't own this.

"Alice..."

I could hear a voice calling me.

"Alice..."

"I think she's coming to."

I could hear multiple voices. What was going on? Slowly, I opened my slate blue eyes and looked around me. I appeared to be lying down on a couch in one of the many rooms of Wammy's. Around me was Mello, Near, Matt, and... L? I jumped up and just stared in confusion. Why was L here? What in the world happened? Wait, did I faint?

"Alice, how are you feeling?" Near suddenly asked.

"W-what happened?" I asked back, completely ignoring my twiny's question.

Mello answered me. "You fainted." Oh, so I did faint. Great...

Why had I fainted again? I stood there quietly and thought about it for a minute. After a few seconds it started coming back to me. My reason for fainting was because I had freaked out upon seeing L... L... He looks like the guy who killed my brother, and I had just spent the day hanging out with that murderer... And I...

"Alice!" Matt yelled as he shook me.

"Huh?" I said, confused.

"We were talking to you." Near stated with a hint of annoyance in his voice. How unlike him.

"Oh... You were?" Was all I said in response.

The three boys sighed. They were obviously getting annoyed with me, but unlike them L just stood there. He was watching me, observing my every movement. It made me feel really uneasy.

L most likely noticed this and tried to make me feel better. So he walked up to me and tried to pat my head to calm me down. He tried, reader, but I freaked out. When I looked at him I saw the man who killed me brother, and so I pushed him away screaming.

This confused all of them, but especially L. After all, L thought I was in love with him or at least had very strong affections for him. It wasn't my fault though! He just looked so much like Demetri's killer, or perhaps the killer looked a lot like L. Either way, the two appeared similar to one another.

L still looked at me surprised, but soon he looked like he realized something. "Alice, you and I need to talk." L said calmly. He looked at me and then at the three boys. "If you three could please leave us alone for a bit."

Matt, Mello, and Near looked at L and me and then at one another. Hesitantly, they agreed and the three boys left the room, shutting the door behind them. This left just L and me.

L looked at me and then motioned for me to take a seat. The expression he had on his face was a really serious one. Then he suddenly turned to me and said, "Alice, how about you tell me about what happened with you and BB."

"Who is BB?"

L had kicked Mello, Matt, and me out of the room. He wanted to talk to Alice alone apparently, and I couldn't help but wonder why. What was so important that he wouldn't want the rest of us to know about? A feeling of uneasiness began to consume me. Something had happened to Alice that L knew about, and I wanted to know. If something bad had happened to her, then I wanted to make sure she was okay. She, after all, seemed to be terrified of who knows what. Oh, wait L probably knew.

Thinking about this made me even more uneasy, but it also caused another emotion in me to stir. I had begun to feel a bit of irritation. This was unlike me, reader, to get annoyed with L. Since the day I had first arrived at Wammy's, I had almost always agreed with anything L did and never once got annoyed with him. He was someone I admired, someone everyone admired, yet lately I had been feeling irritated by him. I could feel my usual poker face slipping as I thought about L and Alice.

Perhaps this was just me being jealous. Alice liked L after all. Oh, that's right reader. I knew of Alice's little crush on L. It was pretty obvious. I'm surprised Mello and Matt never realized it. She, after all, was always cuddling a shirt that she had gotten from him whenever she slept. Also, whenever L was brought up, Alice seemed to brighten up. Oh, and not to mention that note she had hidden that was, oh yes, from him.

Yes, that's right reader, I had read the little note she had hidden in her violin case from L. The one that talked about meeting him on July 14. When I had read it, I finally understood why she had run off on her own that day, and that's when I figured out that she liked the world famous detective. This also got me thinking about something else. If I became the next L, then would Alice finally like me or would she continue to only have eyes for the original?

"Near? Are you coming?" Matt suddenly asked me.

"Hm?" I responded blankly, since I had no idea what he was talking about.

"You idiot, are you coming with us to go eat dinner?" Mello questioned annoyed.

I glanced once more at the closed doors, which behind them Alice and L sat talking, before nodding in agreement. With that the three of us left to go to the dining hall. Looking at the other two, I could see the obvious look of irritation and frustration on their faces. Hm... Maybe they had realized Alice's feelings for L too...

L had explained to me who BB was. Beyond Birthday... Demitri's murderer... He told me about him once living at Wammy's just like me, about how he went insane and ran away, and about how he had begun killing people. I, in return, hesitantly told him about my day with BB, the L look-alike... And about us sharing a... kiss... After that, I couldn't look at him with out feeling rather stupid. I bowed my head in shame and just looked at my knees.

"Alice..." I heard L say, but I continued to look down.

That's when the raven haired detective began patting my head. It wasn't awkward and rough like the other time he had done this. In fact, this time it was actually soft and gentile. I wasn't expecting this and looked up at him in surprise and became even more surprised when I saw his face. Instead of his usually void of all emotions face, there was a soft, caring smile. Was I dreaming? What he did next was even more unexpected.

"Don't be sad, Cilia. It's alright now. Big brother is here for you." He said so sweetly.

Upon hearing these words, I began tearing up. What L had just said... My brother always told me this whenever I would cry or was depressed as a child. Remembering this made me cry even more. I really missed my brother, but I couldn't help but wonder a bit about how L knew about my brother doing this to comfort me. Maybe he had told L about it when he was still alive... Oh, well. Soon, I started crying more and L hugged me, although it was a bit of an awkward hug.

"Just forget about the bad." I heard L say as he held me tightly.

I cried even more and this went on for several minutes. Soon I began to feel tired though and started closing my eyes. As sleep started taking over I heard L say in his usual emotionless voice, "don't worry Alice. I'll catch BB soon. I swear to you." I only nodded tiredly before sleep finally consumed me.

That's it for chapter 11. Sorry for any mistakes. I won't make any promises about updating quickly because I know I won't. I seriously just don't have any inspiration to write anymore. Mehhh... I'm sorry. I'm just really depressed. I don't know when I'll update this again. Bye. Sorry.

Chapter 12 coming I don't know when.