It's been quite a while now, hasn't it? I am so extremely sorry for not updating in such a long time! There were times when I wanted to, but just couldn't think of what to write. Writer's block really sucks. Just urghhh. Anyway, here's the long over due Ch. 12. Enjoy! I apologize now if there's any grammatical mistakes! It's late and I am tired.

Disclaimer: I am unfortunately not the owner of Death Note which makes me sad.

It had been a few months since the incident with my brother's murderer had occurred. During that period of time I had been allowed to speak with L on a daily basis; however it was through a computer. He would talk to me an hour every night and it was nice. It would always make me feel so much more at ease after talking to him. I believe that is the only reason he has this private calls with me though, just to make me feel better.

You see dearest reader, if you remember the events of what happened before correctly, I had met with the man who killed my brother, Beyond Birthday. At the time it happened I was completely clueless, but L had explained everything to me and after that incident I was never really the same. I had begun to have nightmares about the night Demitri was killed and about BB coming to kill me. Anxiety was eating away at me, and Rodger, who had noticed this had contacted Watari who told L. It was because of this that L proposed the idea of speaking with me every night before I went to bed. Think of it almost as if L was some kind of therapist to me, reader.

During these calls with the famous detective, he would speak to me as if I was some pitifully sick child who needed looking after. I hadn't noticed it right away, but I eventually realized this. His manner of speaking to me was different from the time I had first met him and the time I secretly met with him. Ever since that incident with BB, L treated me as if I was weak and needed protecting. This very much made me feel upset, dear reader, about how he was only doing this out of pity, but at the same time I enjoyed speaking with him.

Anyway, I believe it is about time I move on to more interesting things; such as what happened during the events of my day. I had just finished my lessons and was just sitting outside under my favorite tree. Quite some time had passed since I last sat out here like this. Truthfully, I had avoided going outside for months. I had my reasons though, reader. You see, one reason was I was afraid of Beyond Birthday being outside watching and waiting for the chance to end my existence. The other, well, my other reason was snow.

Winter had brought huge blankets of the fluffy white ice. I, being from California, never had snow before and also I just never really enjoyed the cold, so I spent most of the chilly season indoors. It was spring now though. The snow had thawed and flowers were slowly starting to bloom. Wanting some fresh air, I decided to finally set foot outside. The weather was still a bit chilly though, so I had on a sweater to keep warm.

I leaned back against the tree and closed my eyes. A cool breeze sent shivers through my whole body, but I have to admit that I felt happy. The air out here was crisp and refreshing, and it was just amazing to be outside again. Honestly, being inside made me feel like I was suffocating all the time. Why had I been so stupid and not done this before? I heaved a heavy sigh and continued trying to relax out here.

"Alice!"

My eyes snapped open as I heard someone call out to me from somewhere. Looking around I saw no one though. What in the world? I was positive someone had called out to me. Did I just imagine things or-

"Alice! Over here! Look up!"

I looked over in the direction of the house, and upon looking up I saw a familiar red haired, goggle wearing boy at an open window on the second story. It was Matt. He was waving like mad trying to get my attention. Laughing to myself I waved back.

"Oh hey, Matt!"

"What are you doing out there?! It's cold! Come inside! You'll get sick!"

"No, I won't!"

"Yes you will! Get in here!"

Shaking my head at him, I turned away and proceeded to ignore his yelling. Matt continued to call out to me, trying to convince me that I would get sick by staying out here. Eventually though, the sound of his shouts disappeared and all was silent once more. I turned to look back at the window, but it was now shut and he was gone. This surprised me a bit that he had given up so easily like that, but then…

"Alice! Come inside right now!"

There he was at the front door. He looked annoyed, but also genuinely concerned over my well-being. It was nice of him to be so worried about me like this, but I do so enjoy messing with him, reader. So I stuck my tongue out at him and turned away. I heard him grunt in frustration and snickered to myself. I truly expected him to yell and scream even more, but her didn't. This came as a big shock to me.

"Stop being so stubborn, Alice, please? Just come inside." He said so calmly.

Looking back at him, I saw he had a completely seriously concerned expression on his face. Sighing, I got up and walked over to him slowly. When I reached him, he hugged me tightly. I was utterly confused as to why he was just randomly embracing me like this. I felt the heat rise to my cheeks and just stood there awkwardly.

"Matt… What are you doing?"

There was absolute silence after I asked my gamer friend about his actions. The quietness added to the awkwardness of this situation and I felt my face grow redder. He suddenly pulled away and turned away from me.

"You… Uhh… You looked cold, so I hugged you to warm you up. Do you feel warmer now?"

"I… I do… Thanks…" I replied sheepishly.

I looked awkwardly looked away from him and up at the sky. In the corner of my eyes, I noticed him turn and look back at me. His cheeks seemed a bit flushed. I felt my heart pound a bit. Oh no, was he…Without really thinking, I reached one of my hands forward and placed it on his cheek. Matt just froze and at my touch and looked completely shocked.

"W-what are you doing?!" He questioned sounding very alarmed.

He took a step backwards. I proceeded to take a step forward.

"You look flushed! I mean your face is turning all red! Are you sick? Is that why you're worried I'll get sick?"

I tried to reach out and touch him, but he kept backing up. His was face just getting redder by the second.

"Alice, I'm not sick! Don't touch me!"

Matt had back up into a corner and so he had nowhere to run. I placed my hand on his forehead as he struggled to get away from me. He felt warm and I frowned.

"You are sick!"

"W-what?!"

"Come on we have to get you to bed so you can rest, mister."

I grabbed onto his arm and pulled him along. The guy had a fever, I knew it. No wonder he was acting so odd, reader.

"Alice, I am not sick damn it!"

"Yes you are. Now we must get you in bed so you can rest!"

The red haired boy teenager just sighed in frustration. I tightened my grip on his arm and continued tugging him along. We soon reached Mello and his room. Upon our arrival, Matt hesitantly unlocked the door for us. I pushed him on in and made him lie down in this bed.

"Now you just rest," I ordered him.

He rolled his eyes at me, which caused me to get mad. I proceeded to lecture him about being a little prick to which he just laughed. So that's when I him with a pillow and he then hit me with one back. The two of started a pillow fight and just laughed and ran around his bedroom trying to dodge one another's attacks. I soon got tired of just trying to dodge, so I chucked my pillow at Matt only to have him dodge it. Oh, but then it happened. Mello had walked into the room and got hit by the pillow I threw. This caused the two of us to freeze. The blond boy just stood there quietly looking extremely pissed off. He looked at me and then at Matt before picking up the pillow and whacking his roommate with it hard.

"OW! WHAT THE FUCK, MELLO?!" Matt shouted.

The two older boys began shouting at one another. Mello yelling about Matt being an immature moron and Matt yelling about Mello being an uptight asshole. Awkwardly, I stood there watching for a good five minutes. Once and a while I tried to stop there fighting, but only got ignored. Finally, they stopped and they both just looked at me.

"Alice, sorry we forgot you were here," Matt apologized.

"It's fine… Matt, you should lie down and rest." I said remembering why I came to their room in the first place.

"Yeah I will don't worry about it." Matt glanced at Mello who still looked highly pissed off. "I think you should go now."

I nodded and walked past the two of them to their door.

"Bye Alice," Mello said to me as I walked out of the room.

Right before their door fully shut though, I think I heard Mello tell Matt that he was a conniving little shit, and this made me feel both worried and confused. I sighed and turned to walk away, but right then Near's door swung open and my unrelated twiny just stared at me. I was about to say hi, but he beat me to it.

"Hi Alice."

"Hi Near."

He brought his hand up to his bangs and began to twirl a strand of his hair between his fingers. The boy did this a lot when he was thinking. I wonder what he was thinking about. He looked at the ground for a bit before looking back at me.

"I… have to go to some lessons now. I'll see you later, Alice." He stated as he shut his door and walked away.

"Oh… Bye Near…"

I stood there and watched as he walked away. Lately reader, it felt as if Near had started to be cold towards me. I have no idea as to why though, but it made me feel really sad and lonely.

So that's it for Ch. 12! I hope you all liked it. I apologize once more for any mistakes. Anyway, I wonder what's up with Near? Haha, I don't actually wonder for course because it's my fanfic and I know what's going to happen. Anyway, if you have any theories as to what's up with Near then feel free to tell me in a review or in a private message. I love hearing your thoughts! Oh, and the two year anniversary of when I first released this fanfic is coming up! I will try to update on the day of it's anniversary, but make no promises. Still I'll try my best to do so!

Chapter 13 coming soon...