Hi there readers! It's been quite some time since I last updated. My life is hectic. I recently graduated high school in June and started college in July! School is tiring. I also am in a billion va groups on tumblr and they expect me to do all this stuff and just oh gosh I need to stop auditioning for things. Anyway, here's the long over due chapter 13! Hope you all enjoy! Oh and a shout out to FireIce and Poison! You're pretty rad!

Disclaimer: I solemnly swear that I don't own Death Note

Near. Near. Near.

Recently I had been thinking a lot about my white haired pretend twin. It felt like he had been avoiding me a lot lately and I just felt so, hmmm? Saddened? No. No that's not it... Maybe it's more like... distressed? Yes, yes! Distressed. That's how I felt.

I felt anxious and completely uneasy about this whole ordeal, and it was because... Well because he wasn't telling me why! Why he kept running off. Why he never wanted to speak to me. I just wanted to know. If he was angry at me, then he could at least give me his reasoning behind it. It would set my heart and mind at ease if he did.

"Alice?"

My attention was drawn back to the computer monitor that sat in front of me on the floor. I had zoned out once again in the middle of my nightly conversation with L. This had become the usual though, and I felt kind of bad about it, but I just couldn't help feeling so utterly stressed by this situation. Sighing, I fell back and just lied there on ground.

"I'm sorry. I wasn't paying attention again, but you... Well I'm guessing you figured that out, right?" I said still feeling completely, well, shitty for lack of better words.

I placed my arm over my eyes and just sighed really loudly. Usually talking to L made me feel a bit at ease, but nothing was helping me lately. This whole thing was so infuriating. Near. Near. Near. Just why was he upset with me? If he even was upset with me. That boy is so hard to understand, reader, like you don't even know! And, and, just how in bloody fucking hell am I suppose to fix a situation if you have no idea what's wrong. I just wish I could manage to talk to him and find out what's up.

"Alice, I can tell you're stressed out about something. I think I'll just go for the night. Good night." I heard L say through the computer speakers.

Sitting up, I sadly replied, "alright good night I guess..."

"Oh and Alice. A little advice. Don't overthink things and maybe have something sweet to eat, like cake," and with that the screen which showed a big, old English font, letter L went black.

Looking at it confused and tired, I asked, "what?"

12:40. Well I woke up rather late today, reader. I lay there, in bed, on my side staring straight at my clock. 12:41 it now read. So I missed breakfast, some morning lessons, and now if I didn't get up, I'd miss lunch. Heaving a heavy sigh, I forced myself to get up and get dressed. I pulled my blinds open, allowing the bright sunlight to engulf my room and make my eyes burn a bit. While rubbing my eyes, I somehow began thinking of L's advice to me from last night.

Don't overthink things and have cake? I understand why he'd say not to overthink stuff, but eating cake? Eating cake won't solve all your problems, L, if that's what you were thinking. Shaking the thought out of my head, I left my room and headed towards the dining hall to have some lunch.

By the time I got there most people were already gone. It was better this way, at least I thought so. When the room was filled with people it was kind of annoying. So having it be half empty was nice. As I went up and got some food to eat, I noticed they had cakes for desert.

"Maybe have something sweet to eat, like cake."

The words echoed in my head, and with out really thinking I grabbed a piece of strawberry short cake. After that I sat back down at the table I usually sat at and proceeded to eat my food. It wasn't before long that I finished my food. Well all except the cake. I just sat there and stared at the cake. For some reason I felt a tad bit frustrated.

What good would eating cake do? Help me think? No. I wasn't like L that ran on sweets. Cake wouldn't tell me why Near wasn't talking to me. Cake wouldn't make Near stop from leaving upon seeing me walk into a room. And cake sure as hell would not fix anything. I slammed my hands on the table in frustration.

"Cake doesn't help at all!" I yelled, causing several people near me to probably look at me like I was insane. Pushing the plate with the shortcake on it away, I lay my head on the table and just cried a bit. And by cry I mean I let out an upset whining noise, reader.

"Alice...?"

Sitting up quickly, I sat there and stared in shock and a bit of embarrassment at none other than who I was so distressed about lately, Near. My white haired twiny stood there in front of me in his usual pajamas and just looked so utterly concerned about my sanity probably. I began tearing up and just put my head back on the table and wept. This caused the teenage boy to sit down next to me and pat my back awkwardly, trying to stop me.

"Alice, please stop crying. What's wrong? Come on now." Near began saying sounding almost as distressed by what was happening right as I felt on the inside.

"Near... Do you hate me or something? Are you upset with me? Why do you keep avoiding me? If I did something that made you mad, just tell me." I cried.

Near stopped patting my back. I sat up and looked at him to see if he was mad or annoyed or just to see how he was feeling in general. He looked at me with his usual blank look, but it felt like he had no idea what I was talking about. It made me feel like maybe I had blown this all out of proportion. My face began turning red from embarrassment.

"I... Um... Are you even mad at me? Or was I just being an idiot again?" I sheepishly asked.

I glanced at Near and saw him just staring at me with that poker face of his again. What was he thinking? It made me nervous wondering, but soon I heard a kind of snicker sound. Looking at my twiny again I saw him covering his face a bit and looking away. Did he just laugh? It was rare for me to see him do that, and for some reason I felt my heart thump a bit. Weird.

Finally, he turned back to me and just began talking. "Listen, I know I haven't been really talking to you recently, but there's no reason for you get so upset. Alice, you're very..." I saw his face turn reddish as he hesitated for a second to continue. "You're very important to me. I would never hate you or get mad at you. okay? It's just lately I've been being rather stupid, just like you... But don't worry about anything. I promise you I'll never leave you, because we're friends right?"

He turned and looked me straight in the eyes. I felt my cheeks heating up as his gray eyes felt like they were pouring into my slate ones. Feeling extremely nervous, I looked down and just said yeah while laughing awkwardly. Why was I feeling so nervous around Near?

"Well I believe we have some afternoon lessons together. You missed this mornings lessons, so you'd better not skip. Come on, let's go" Near stated so calmly.

He then got up, and I, following his lead, did as well. Upon doing so I realized something. Near... was kind of taller than me now. When had this happened? I stared at him in disbelief. We were the same height before, but now he seemed taller.

"What?" He questioned.

"Oh, uh. Nothing."

"Oh."

We stood there awkwardly in silence, before Near spoke up again.

"Hey Alice."

"W-what?"

"Are you going to eat that piece of cake? Because to be honest, I came to the dining hall because I hadn't eaten since this morning, and that cake is actually looking rather tasty right now..."

I stood there quietly thinking, what the hell, but sighing I nodded and Near picked up the plate with the strawberry shortcake and walked off saying he'd meet me in the classroom for our lessons. As I stood there grabbing the dirty plates from my lunch, I couldn't help but also watch his retreating figure walk out of the room. Near. Near. Near. I repeated his name over and over again in my head. The white haired boy wasn't mad at me after all, and everything was fixed, yet I still thought about him. Weird, but I was just glad everything was back to normal. And as much as I hate to admit it, cake helped... I guess.

So that's the end of chapter 13! By the way, I wrote half of this chapter while in a lecture class. I didn't pay attention at all and I'm probably going to be so confused next week, but oh well. The other half of this chapter was written at home and very late at night, just like pretty much every other chapter, so I apologize for spelling and grammatical errors. Oh man, and you know what else? I'm looking back at my older chapters and my author notes at the beginning and ending of every chapter and just... why? I used xD face... Urghhh I feel sickened by younger me's life choices... OH OH! ALSO, I've been doing a lot of voice acting stuff on tumblr and YouTube lately, and I kind of want to record this maybe. It depends on if I can find people to voice the guys. I might ask some of my friends, but if anyone's interested just pm me. Well that's it for this chapter! Sorry for the long author note. Hope you enjoyed the chapter though.

Ch. 14 coming soon...