Well I have some spare time on my hands and I have already updated my current story so I though "Why not write a new chapter for secrets of pain". I have no idea how long it's going to take me to finish 'To love the unloved' but until it is completed, don't expect another chapter (Unless of course, I have more free time).

Thank you so much for the reviews. I'm glad that you guys like my story so far and to be honest with you, I have no idea where this story is going but we'll find out.

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Edward's POV

I hate this.

I hated this lie.

I hated pretending everything is ok when it clearly isn't.

Jasper needs help and he knows it. He is just too damn stupid to admit it. I wanted to help him so much but he denied my request and preferred the idea of suffering in silence. There were so many reasons why he did what he did and it all linked to his life with Maria. She ruined his life and made it hell. She is the reason why he shuts everybody out. She is the reason why he forces himself to be strong and hides his pain from everybody else. Jasper was so adjusted to his life with Maria that he completely forgets that we are all there for him. He still thinks that we are like her so he does his best to hide any weaknesses.

There were so many times where I wish that I could tell someone about this issue that he has; somebody like Carlisle. I already knew that he always treated situations with Jasper delicately because of his fragile mind and I felt that Carlisle deserved to know as well as Alice.

Alice was Jasper's mate for crying out loud. If anyone knew Jasper's secret, it should be Alice but he even hides it from her as well as the darkest information about his past which yet again, only I know about. But as much as I wish to tell someone about this, I really didn't want to betray Jasper. If it wasn't for my gift, I wouldn't even know this. I shouldn't know.

"Edward, what's wrong?"

My thoughts were interrupted by Bella as she noticed me sitting on the chair in front of the piano; which the case had yet to be lifted.

"Nothing love. I have just had a few things on my mind, that's all" I replied.

It had been on my mind for too long as well. I have no idea how long Jasper has been doing this to himself but it had started not long after he joined our family. That sounds like a very long time; I mean that over 60 years now but it was only occasional. It was about three bites a year but now he is doing it very often and the only thing that I know that is triggering it is depression. Jasper has always been a depressed person; especially when Alice has left him to go hunting or shopping but he's beginning to get a lot worse and I know that if I don't tell somebody soon, the depression will drive him to suicide.

Every now and again I hear him considering the idea but he fights the thought back when Alice comes to mind. She is the one that is keeping him here. She is his only reason for living and everybody knows that. But what they don't know is that if he doesn't get help soon, not even Alice will be enough to save him.

"What about?" Bella questioned.

"Don't worry about it. Is Renesmee ready?" I asked her.

We were visiting our family since lately we have been spending a lot of time in our new place but I'd like to make sure that we visit on a regular basis. It's nice to have a place to ourselves but I still miss living with the others. Jasper is another reason why I like to visit often. I like to know that he is thinking straight and that he is ok. If we have been away from the house for too long, I start to worry about Jasper more often, thinking about how his depression is increasing each day.

Things always get better when you just let it all out which is why it bothered me that Jasper wasn't talking to anybody about his problem. Not even to me; the one person that knows about it.

"Yeah, we're just waiting for you" Bella answered.

I nodded at her and stood from my seat and grabbed my car keys before leaving the house with my wife and daughter.

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It wasn't long until we reached my old place. Alice was already outside, who had obviously seen our decision to visit. Renesmee had run out of the car and up to Alice to give her a big hug, like kids do. I smiled at the sight. Alice absolutely adored my daughter as well as everybody else and I'm sure it had something to do with vampires not being able to have children. That is one of the downsides of being a vampire. You're throwing away a chance of a real family and I guess me and Bella were just really lucky to have one of our own.

We all head into the house, where we find ourselves being greeted by Carlisle and Esme. Esme pulled me into a hug.

"This house feels so empty when you're not here" she said.

"Well then I guess we'll be here so often that you'll get sick of us" I replied with a smile.

Esme smiled too and then turned to Bella to hug her too. I head on further into the house to find Emmett focusing on his Xbox and I smile as I hear the concentration in his mind.

Damn it. Stupid idiots. Oh come on, who shoots people in the legs? Yes, headshot. Nobody messes with a dude holding a shotgun

"Aren't you gonna say hi?" I spoke as I stand in the door way.

He chuckled at me but his eye didn't leave the screen.

"I never realised you left" he smirked.

"Pause the damn game, moron" I smirked back.

"I can't; it's a live game" he replied.

I sat next to him on the sofa and waited for his game to finish which it did eventually. Once he turned the Xbox off, he turned to me.

"So...hi Eddie"

"No, go say hi to your niece" I corrected.

He rolled his eyes at me and then stood up but before he left the room I spoke again.

"Wait. Where's Jasper?"

"Hunting; Alice said he would be back in half an hour" he shrugged.

I nodded and then followed him back to the living room where most of us were now sitting. Renesmee was sitting on Rosalie's lap, telling her what she has been doing for the past few days and Bella was sitting beside her, adding more details. Carlisle and Esme were listening in too. Alice was sitting closest to the window, her eyes flickering to it every now and again, waiting for Jasper.

Everybody but Jasper was here meaning that he went hunting alone. That raised my suspicions because when Jasper usually went hunting, it was with Alice, Emmett or Rosalie. He rarely went hunting alone and when he did, he always came back with a guilty mind. He was doing it again. I really needed to talk to him about this when he gets back which might actually be difficult because he has a habit of avoiding me.

When Renesmee spotted Emmett, she hopped off Rosalie's lap and ran to him, giving him a hug.

"Hello Uncle Emmett" she greeted.

"Hey mischief" he said cheekily. "Wanna play Xbox with me?"

She nodded at him excitedly but then I intervened. "No violent games Emmett" I warned.

"Ok, ok I got it" he surrendered.

I moved aside so that Renesmee could bond with her uncle and just as I was about to sit down, Alice rushed out of her seat and out of the door.

Jasper was here.

I focused on mind reading so that I could confirm what I already knew but at the moment, his mind was entirely focused on Alice. Alice had pretty much dragged him into the house by pulling his hand but his body tensed once he saw me. He quickly looked away but I didn't miss the flash of guilt that was expressed in his eyes.

I knew it

Carlisle also noticed his reaction when he noticed me so he glanced at me with a confused expression on his face.

What's wrong with him? He silently asked me.

I so desperately wanted to tell him exactly what it was but I knew by doing so it would destroy whatever trust Jasper had in me even if it was for the better. Maybe I could just convince Jasper to admit it to someone. I'm sure that somebody will find out eventually anyway. I have to admit, I'm very surprised that Alice hasn't seen him doing it in one of her visions but maybe it's because he doesn't plan to hurt himself, he just does it when depression gets the better of him.

Another reason why I'm surprised why Alice hasn't found out is because as a mated pair, you would expected them to be sexually active but they hadn't made love in a while but Alice was convinced it was because he was self conscious about his scarred body as well as nervous of being touched. I mean, they were never at it the way Emmett and Rose were but they still did every now and then; just not as often as everybody else but that didn't mean that he loved her any less. In fact, they had the strongest bond in the family.

Unfortunately, I was the one who knew the real reason why Jasper had reduced his sex life. There were two reasons but they were connected. His new scars of course; he knew Alice would wonder how he got them and why there were so many fresh ones and reason number two, another reason why he harms himself that way, is because of what Maria had done to him when he was with her; the untold history that would solve all the answers if they knew the truth.

I almost uploaded this chapter at 700 words but I can't stand short chapters so I added on another 1000. I hope this will encourage you to read this story when I focus properly on it. I am going to estimate another 1-3 months until I finish my current story so once that is done, I promise I will update chapters for this story more often but until then, This story is relying on lots of free time.

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