Ok, good news guys, I have decided to update on a regular basis as well as my other stories but...(Yes, there is a 'but') it really would help if you guys can review for me. My last chapter yet again had only two reviews and I just really need to know that you guys do like my story or if there is anything I could do to make it better etc.

Also, this chapter contains a 'sort of' sexual scene but it's not in much detail

Disclaimer: I do not own twilight

Edward POV

As soon as we got back to the house, Jasper had ran off to his and Alice's room with Alice following him behind, trying to figure out what was wrong with him. I knew that whatever he would tell was going to be a lie but then again, didn't I lie to Emmett back in the forest? Well it wasn't exactly a lie; I just didn't tell him what the disagreement was about.

The whole family seemed to be in question as to what had happened in the forest after hearing about Alice's vision but I knew that despite all their curiosity, I could tell that Carlisle was concerned as I managed to read his mind the clearest.

Edward, meet me in my study he thought as he began to walk towards there himself.

I trailed behind and shut the door once we were there. Carlisle looked at me for a moment, trying to think how to start off the conversation but instead, he just came out with it.

"What's going on between you and Jasper?" He asked.

"What do you mean?" I asked back.

I knew exactly what he meant although I chose to play along. Carlisle was the one that noticed the changes in Jasper when I was near. He was just a very observant person.

"You know what I mean, Edward. Why is it that every time Alice has a vision of you visiting us that Jasper suddenly wants to go hunting?" He questioned.

"Maybe it's Renesmee. Maybe he just wants to keep away from her just in case he can't keep his thirst under control. She is part human after all" I reminded.

Carlisle considered the possibility but then he thought more about the time before we had Renesmee so he was not convinced and as much as I wanted to, I couldn't tell him the truth for Jasper's sake.

"I doubt Renesmee is the reason. Don't you think it's strange how you are the only one that Jasper is ever distant with?" He pointed out.

"I'm a mind reader,Carlisle; he just doesn't want me to read his mind" I noted.

It was true in a way. Jasper avoided me so that I couldn't hear his guilty mind. His thought of how he craves pain or how the venom in his arm is beginning to take effect and I swear, if he thinks of Maria one more time, I am going to go crazy. It was torture for me to hear it so for Jasper to go through that must have been terrible. Actually, 'terrible' was an understatement.

"And why, Edward? What do you know? Because if it's something that I should know then it's important to tell me" Carlisle said.

I put a hand through my hair in frustration. It was something that he did need to know and it was a choice between betraying Jasper (not to mention that he would reflect on his past which of course was full of betrayal) or lie to my father; the reason why I was here today and living a happy life with my wife and daughter.

If I didn't tell Carlisle, Jasper is going to continue to get worse and will get to the point where he is almost impossible to help but if I do tell him, Jasper would think that we are no different than Maria and is bound to run away in fear that we would hurt him the way she did. That would also mean losing Alice whom I had become close to.

"Carlisle, please understand that whatever it is, you will find out but...I can't tell you. If I do, I would hurt Jasper and if I don't...

He would carry on hurting himself I silently thought

"If I don't, nothing good is going to come out of it. Be patient; maybe I could convince him to talk to you. I mean, I have already tried but...I'm not giving up on him" I revealed.

Hearing me admit that there was definitely something wrong with Jasper made him worry about him even more than he firstly did but with a sigh, he nodded in understanding. All that was left now was hope; hope that Jasper would open up to at least somebody.

"One more thing, Carlisle; don't let him go hunting alone" I instructed before walking out of his study, leaving him in question as to why.

It was all that I could say to him without betraying Jasper or making Carlisle suspicious about Jasper's self harming.

As I walked back into the main room, Renesmee ran up to me so I picked her up. She put her hand on my cheek and showed me a vision of Jasper running up stairs as we had entered the house. She had wanted to know what was wrong with her troubled uncle.

"He's alright; he just needs time to think" I promised.

He wasn't thinking about what I told him today though. He never thinks about what I tell him. In fact he only ever think about two things which are his depressing thoughts on his past or about Alice. But as long as she is near him, Jasper won't even consider hurting himself because if Alice is with Jasper, his mood changes from depressed to relaxed and happy. I'm not an empath but I knew that they were the only emotions that he ever felt as well as fear.

Fear was another common emotion for him because it was just so easy to startle him. That's one of the reasons why our family treated him a little differently. They were always careful about what they say to him and how they say it because he was also very sensitive with words. He was at his worst when he first joined our family but he is getting better; sort of.

Alice POV

"Jazz? Baby, talk to me" I begged.

He was sitting on our bed with his head turned to look out the window.

"There is nothing to talk about" he mumbled.

Yes there was. I wanted to know why he attacked Edward in my vision. What the hell was going on? I moved over to him on the bed and straightened out his legs that were bought up to his chest so that I could sit on them as I wrapped my legs around his waist.

The closeness caused him to gaze at me like he usually does and the adorable look made me give into the need to kiss him so I pressed my lips against his and as he kissed me back, I chose the moment to deepen it but just as Jasper got needy for more, I pulled away.

"No more until you tell me why you attacked Edward" I blackmailed.

"Alice" he whined.

I gave him a stern look which made him look away from me which was expected. Eye contact makes him nervous and I am usually an exception but seeing my serious expression makes him back down.

"Talk" I instructed.

"Look, I just overreacted, okay? Edward just annoys me when he doesn't stay out of my head" he explained.

I didn't find that hard to believe about his overreaction but aggression isn't his usual reaction. I mean, if it was his mind reading then Jasper would have attacked him a long time ago so I raised my eyebrows at him to let him know that I was unconvinced.

"I just...I was thinking about my time back with Maria and Edward just commented about it. I just hate it when he knows my business" he mumbled.

That was more believable. What Jasper told me about his past was horrible but I knew that he was hiding a darker secret about what truly happened during that time. I think he was just sugar coating it when he told me. So in that case, Edward must have heard what really happened to him and Jasper panicked like he always does and thought that aggression was the answer.

I still felt like there was something missing but before I could say something else, Jasper began to kiss me again and without hesitation, I kissed back. I began to grip the back of his shirt as I pushed my tongue through his lips which he accepted as he had started to do the same.

Once I felt that it wasn't enough, I pushed his back onto the bed and I fall on top of him, not tearing my lips away from his. My hands move from his chest down to below his waist as I started the palm his area over his trousers. I felt him get hard beneath me and his kisses became more desperate so I hoped that it meant that he wanted more. I chose the moment to find out as I snake my hand up below his shirt, feeling a few of his old scars which made him tense up.

I thought he got use to me touching him?

I slowed down for a minute, letting him relax beneath me before I guided him to take his shirt off. In an instance, his hand grabbed my wrist as he looked at me terrified.

"Don't. Please, don't...I...I can't Alice...I can't" he stuttered nervously.

I lifted myself off him, not wanting him to be any more uncomfortable than he already was. I was really confused though.

When I first found Jasper, it had taken me a whole two years of being together before he was finally confident enough to make love to me. Not to mention that we had already tried it twice before but he ended up having a nervous breakdown during it. That was when I was first curious about what really happened back with Maria and I knew that he was holding back something but I didn't question him.

Our sex life wasn't as active as Rosalie and Emmett's were. In fact, I think we did it the least often out of everybody in the family because Jasper has always been nervous with physical contact and even though I am his mate, deep down I know that he was still afraid not to mention he was also self conscious about his scarred body.

But the thing is, I thought that Jasper had gotten over all that. He still had his moments but I just didn't understand why he has stopped going further than deep kissing. What if he has lost interest in me?

Jasper looked at me nervously before saying with a shaky voice "You're disappointed in me"

"No Jazz I..."

"I get it Alice. I understand" he whispered sadly before walking out of the bedroom.

What the hell was happening to him? Why was he being this way? I bought my knees up to my chest and leaned my head against the wall as I try to think of a way to fix this.

Ok, so here's the deal; If I can get at least 5 reviews for this chapter, I will update again tomorrow!

Oh and also, for the Alice and Jasper scene would you guys say that I should rate my story as M or should it stay at T?