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Jasper POV

Disappointed

She was disappointed in me.

It had taken me a whole 50 years to manage having sexual interaction with Alice without the thought of her hurting me like Maria and now I couldn't do it because I had to hide my fresh scars. If she had removed my shirt, she would have seen the state of my arms and I'm sure that would have increased her disappointment in me.

Before I could even think about it (which was good because that meant Edward wouldn't have heard it soon enough) I sink my teeth into my wrist and kept them there to allow as much venom as possible to flow through my arm.

"Jasper, open the door" I heard Edward's demanding thoughts.

Go away Edward; I'm not wearing anything!

It was true. I was in the shower for crying out loud. Well I was sitting down with my knees raised to my chest and the warm water was running through my hair which was falling in my face. Even if I had clothes on, I still wouldn't have opened the door.

"If you don't open the door, I will tell Carlisle everything" he blackmailed.

I knew it! He uses his gift to find out people's darkest secrets and once he is sure he knows everything, he uses it against them to make them do whatever they want. Just like Maria did. I began to panic, increasing the pressure on my wrist and I swear I could now feel my bone.

"Don't you dare compare me to her Jasper now open the damn door or I'll break it down" he threatened.

"What's going on?" Asked a recognizable angelic voice.

I instantly released my wrist from my mouth and rapidly put my clothes back on but I remained in the bathroom, moving myself by the door.

"Jasper isn't coming out" he muttered.

Why would I? I couldn't imagine what kind of things Edward had in mind for me just to stop him telling anybody my secret.

"Jazz, baby I'm sorry. Please come out" Alice begged.

I couldn't. I just couldn't face her right now. Her emotions made me realised that I just wasn't good enough for her. I couldn't give her what she wanted or needed. It probably wasn't even meant to be. Maybe all along I was only suppose to be there to company Alice on her trip to finding the Cullen's and after I had led her there safely, I should have just returned to Maria. But no; how selfish I was to keep her for myself when a better person was suppose to find her.

Suddenly, the door was smashed in, which I have to admit, frightened the hell out of me and to add to it, Edward had pinned me to the wall, moving his hand to my neck.

"Stop! Thinking!" He ordered.

"Edward, let him go!" Alice shouted.

I felt his anger and frustration rise which scared me to death. I tried to focus on calming his emotions but the fear of his tightened grip on my neck overpowered me.

He wouldn't

I began to get shaky knowing that every thought I first had of Edward when I first joined this family was true. He was dangerous. He was a threat.

"Edward, I said let him go; you're scaring him!" Alice demanded.

At that, Edward's grip on me loosened but my terrified eyes remained on his shocked ones as he had realised what he had just done. He took a few steps back, trying to think of something to say.

"Oh god Jasper I'm so sorry" he whispered to me, ashamed.

"Get out" Alice said to him.

Edward put a hand through his hair before walking out of the bathroom and passed the smashed door. Alice was by my side in an instant, one hand touch my back whereas the other held the back of my head, pulling me into a hug. She radiated as much as love and care as she could in order to comfort me and cool down my fear which I was trying so hard to stop anybody else from feeling.

"It's okay, Jasper; your okay" she assured.

I hugged her tightly back knowing that she was the only person that could make me feel better although I still felt unsure about the fact that Edward had disappeared. What if he has gone to tell Carlisle?

"Jazz" Alice brought my attention back to her.

I looked at her in question.

"Talk to me. Tell me what's wrong" she begged.

I looked away from her. I was a coward; one that was too afraid to speak to his own wife. Why hasn't she left me yet? Every other female would have but I guess Alice was too strong to let go despite her small body.

"Because I know there is something up and it has been for a while" she paused before speaking again.

"I know that you're hiding something from me" she revealed.

I looked back at her in surprise. She knew? Damn it.

Just be grateful that she doesn't know what it was that I was hiding.

"Alice I...I'm not hiding anythi...

"Don't lie to me Jazz! God, why do you have to do this? I thought you trusted me"

There it was again; disappointment. That's all I was ever capable of these days; making her feel negative emotions for me. It's only a matter of time before her love for me faded and will eventually turn into hate and disgust.

"But you don't do you?" She doubtfully asked.

I didn't answer.

I thought I did trust her but trust meant you felt comfortable telling them even the darkest secrets; something that I couldn't do. I couldn't tell her because I was afraid that she would leave. I couldn't handle that.

As terrible as I felt, I walked passed Alice and out of the bathroom and then I began to run; run as fast as I could out of the house, into the forest, repeating Alice's name in my head over and over again. That would give me time to get out of Edward's hearing distance so that he couldn't find me. And then I could do whatever I wanted without him stopping me.

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