So my focus is back onto this story. I apologise for not being able to keep up with them all. Thank you to my amazing reviewers who made it easy for me to choose which story I should update next.

This whole chapter lies in a flashback just to explain Jasper's life in the past when it started getting bad.

Disclaimer: I do not own twilight.

Jasper's POV

I sat on a rooftop watching Maria from a far distance with another vampire. Ever since she had turned him, my vampire life had changed completely; and not in a good way either. After getting himself under control, he had replaced my role of second in command and now I don't even have much of a purpose of being here but Maria seemed to have found other uses for me.

Elias

That's the name of the vampire that turned Maria against me. Who am I kidding? She was already against me; I just hadn't realised it until he came along. Now I was stuck here as I continue to listen to Maria's orders. The only thing that I was still doing was killing the newborns once their year is almost up. She had let me keep the worst part of my job.

The only reason why Elias replaced me was because it turned out that he had a more useful weapon than I had. He was very similar to a shield. He could shield the scent of any chosen vampire meaning that he could shield us all from an army and then we can ambush them. And how did he manage to keep the newborns under control? Let's just say his gift was upgraded once he got the hang of it. He managed not only to shield other scent from vampires but managed to blind and deafen as many newborns as he wished, attacking each during their vulnerability until they behaved. So they fear him. All in all, Elias was the most dangerous of us all and quite frankly, Maria mainly chose him over me because she risked being overtaken if I kept my place.

That didn't mean that she felt sorry for me though. No, she has shown her true side. Just as I think things couldn't get any worse, she does something even more evil than the last but after what she did to me last night, I really do fear what could be waiting next if it really can get worse than that.

"Hey"

My head whipped around but I relaxed once I realised that it was Peter. Elias was so close to killing me just a few days back but if it wasn't for Peter running for Maria, I wouldn't be here. She still lays out the orders around here and she had simply told Elias to keep me alive and he had attempted to disobey her. It annoyed me how she hadn't punished him the way she punished me whenever I did something wrong. Despite Maria keeping me alive, it was only for her own good. I was there for the torture. Recently I have figured that I am the newborns reward if they did something good. As long as they didn't kill me in the process; they could attack me as much as they pleased while Maria watched with a grim smile on her face.

"Are you okay?" Peter asked.

Of course I wasn't. For the past month, I have felt completely alone in this. Me and Peter used to spend most of our time together. We hunted together, one guarded as the other drank, we protected one another and we watched each other's backs in any war. But ever since I played the newborns 'temper toy', Peter hasn't even been able to look at me without feeling pity. I can feel it from him stronger than ever due to what happened last night. After all, he was forced to watch as Maria 'punished' me in a way that the newborns weren't even capable of. At least she wasn't hurting Peter.

I nodded at him before I turned to look back at Maria and Elias. They were with the newborns now, both working together to teach them how to fight.

"Hunt with me" he softly requested.

"I can't" I whispered back.

He looked at me curiously. It wasn't often when I turned down a hunt with just me and him. I wasn't keen on hunting with a bunch of newborns because I liked having a break from everybody else's emotions but I refused to go hunting without Peter because he was the only one I trusted to watch my back because when you're with newborns, they almost always steal your kill unless you put up a fight. That's why me and Peter drink one at a time so one can guard while the other drinks.

"Why not?" He questioned.

"Maria said that I'm not allowed to hunt until further notice" I plainly answered.

"This is bull shit" Peter hissed. "Don't you see what she is doing? She's weakening you, Jasper. The weaker you are, the more advantage she has on you. You hardly managed to fight back yesterday because of the lack of blood in your system"

I didn't even want to think about yesterday right now. She told me that she would do it again when I next disobey her or attack any of the newborns who had permission to hurt me. I didn't want her to do that to me again. I didn't even realise a female was capable of such a thing. In the human life, it was stereotypically the males who would...do such a thing to the opposite sex but that was because they were stronger. I am under Maria's command therefore I have to do what she says and let her do what she wanted to do to me. After all, I have learnt that fighting back only makes things worse; a whole lot worse.

"She's the boss of us. We have to stick by her rules. She has every right to do what she wants whether I like it or not" I spoke as if I was hypnotized.

"What is wrong with you Jay? You can't just give up just because she chose him over you. Fight back" he said.

"You don't get it, do you? I can't fight back. It'll dig me into an even bigger hole. If I don't want to get hurt, then I should just listen to her and let her do what she wants to do" I snapped.

Peter decided to cool off; knowing that it would be the safer thing to do. If he didn't, it would only turn into a fight in which Maria would have to intervene and we would both be in serious trouble.

"Then why don't we just run away? Together. Maria may be keeping you alive for now but it's only a matter of time before she chooses to kill you and you have no idea how much that would affect me. I can't see you get hurt, Jasper; I just can't. It's killing me already" he explained.

He sat close beside me and rested his chin on my shoulder as his forehead leaned against my neck. To a human, this would look very strange; especially because we were two guys who were very close but we were vampires and vampires had their own way of speaking with body language.

Of course we could talk but once you're a vampire, the animal in you begins to show and you find yourself growling, hissing, purring, snarling and whimpering when you feel the need to which is often. What Peter was doing was just his way in trying to comfort me and in return, I sent a wave of calmness to him. Usually in moments like this, I would even purr but the events of last night had really shaken me up that I didn't even feel relaxed enough to do so.

"I can't just leave, Pete. Maria may have him now but that doesn't mean she's safe. I'm still the best at fighting and if I go, she's left unprotected"

I hated myself to say it but it was true. I don't understand why I wanted to keep her safe after she could inflict so much pain onto me, tear my heart apart and just use me like I'm just a toy. It sickens me how she could destroy me as much as she wants but for some twisted reason, I wanted her to be safe. I was created to protect her so that is exactly what I should be doing.

"You're kidding, right? Jasper, she is slowly killing you. She orders you to remain still as the others try to rip you apart like dogs, she watches you as you go through all that pain and yesterday she even forced you to have s..."

"Don't! Don't you dare say it!"I growled.

I couldn't bear to hear him say the words. I was doing my best to take my mind off it and now Peter was trying to remind me of everything that happened. Maria is my creator, therefore she owns me. She decides what happens to me and she chooses to let me live or not and right now, I didn't care what she chose. I was worthless, a monster. I hated killing humans for food; knowing that I used to be one. I hated killing newborns; knowing that I, too, use to be one who didn't even have a choice at this life.

"She forced me to watch, Jasper. I want to forget as much as you do but we both know that it's going to happen again"

That was probably the worst part about last night. It wasn't that she forced me or the fact that she got her newborns to keep me pinned as she stripped me; It was because Peter, too, was been held down and forced to watch as Maria used my body. He had tried to fight back and loosen their grip so that he could help me but I wasn't even trying to stop her. The newborns pinning me and keeping me still weren't even needed because by then, I had already given up. She made me therefore I am hers. I may not like it but that's just the way things are.

The reason why she had forced Peter to watch is because she has been getting suspicious about the two of us. She said how we were unnaturally close so she needed to 'set things straight'. Of course she had assumed wrong. Peter and I were just brothers in war. It wasn't like there was anything going on between us but Maria didn't believe it.

"Promise me something, Jasper" he begged.

I looked at him and his desperate brown eyes. I tilted my head and waited for him to carry on.

"Promise me that when the time is right, we'll make it out of here" he said.

When the time is right, Peter; I want you to get out of here. I didn't want him to get hurt because of me. I wanted him to quit worrying about me. I wanted him to meet the right girl so he could live a happy life as a vampire; so that he would be with somebody worth protecting but until then, I'll keep him alive while he is stuck in the danger zone. I don't know what I would do without him.

I, too, wanted to meet the perfect person so badly but I don't think that is possible. We need to face the fact that vampires are monsters so I highly doubt that there would be any of the good kind. Besides, after what Maria had done to me, I don't think I could ever trust a female again. My trust was in Peter and Peter only.

"I promise" I whispered.

It wasn't all a lie. I promise that he would make it out but I couldn't leave Maria even after everything she has done. I don't understand why I still feel the need to protect her so much but that is just the way it is.

"Just know that I'm not going anywhere without you, Jay. You saved my life and now it's my turn to return the favour" he promised as he leaned his head back onto my shoulder.

He was on about the time I managed to convince Maria to keep him alive. I spent so much time teaching Peter all my tricks in fighting so he would become so skilled that Maria wouldn't risk giving him up. He was almost as good as me and it was enough for her to let me keep him alive. It was strange how we befriended each other.

We were on the battleground and I had been pinned by three different enemies. Where most of our own newborns cared only about their own life, Peter had snapped one of their necks which distracted the other two. I killed one while he killed the other. Not only did he do that but noticing my painful injuries, he pulled me aside and helped my injuries heal. Ever since then, I have been more focused on his safety than the others. We just seem to get close after that happened.

"Major, here" Maria ordered.

Peter gave me a sympathetic look as I jumped off the roof top of the abandoned building and made my way to my creator; not missing the smirk on Elias's face. This wasn't good.

So an inside to Jasper's past there. I just wanted to express how close Peter and Jasper were. Also, if you want me to, I can bring Peter back to visit Jasper as he tries to cope with his problems since he understands him more than anyone. Just let me know.

Also, for those who are reading 'silent boy'... I shall be uploading that today too.

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