Clary pov.
The bartender lets me in. They know me very well. They also know my 21st birthday is in a couple of months so they let me drink. Not much but enough to get me drunk so I can be numb. I just keep asking for shots.
"Clary we can't legally give you anymore." He says.
"I'll pay you extra if you give me two more." I say my words coming out sluggish.
"She won't have anymore." Someone growls from behind me. The bartender nods his head and goes back to serving other people. I turn around to see Seb, Jon, Jace, Magnus, and Simon all standing there.
"Yes?" I ask them with a smile. Seb sighs and picks me up. I close my eyes and lean my head on his chest. Once I get laid down on my bed I feel someone lay down next to me. They hold me so close to there heart.
"Clary I am so sorry that you have to go through all of this. I'm sorry you think you have to do this alone. We are all here to help and support you, but you just push us away, or even worse go out and get drunk." Jace whispers to me thinking I'm asleep. I eventually fall asleep to Jace saying he loves me over and over again. Once I wake up I groan and turn away from the light and my face is hidden by Jace's chest.
"Do you want water and headache medication?" He asks and I nod my head. Once Jace gets back I take the medication and he also hands me a cup of coffee. I smile gratefully at him. Once we get downstairs I see Jon and Seb with bags under there eyes. Magnus looks weared out with no glitter or makeup. Simon is just sitting there staring into space. Izzy looks as dead as the rest of them. Alec is sitting there sipping coffee but looks just as tired as the rest of them.
"Clary's awake." Jace says and all of there heads snap up to see me and Jace standing there. Jon stands up abruptly. He walks over to me and hugs me. He then leads me over into the living room everyone follows us and sits down on the couches. Jon and Jace sit down next to me.
"Clary we all need to have a discussion." Seb says seriously and I sigh.
"Okay about what?" I ask him.
"We all think that it would be in your best interest to go see a therapist Biscuit." Magnus says and I look at them incrediliously.
"No." I say and get up.
"Clary sit back down." Seb says.
"No." I say and start to walk away.
"Clary sit the..." Seb starts to say harshly.
"Clary please just sit back down." Jace says and I sit back down not wanting Seb to get angry. I cross my arms over my chest and lean all the way back and I don't look at anyone.
"I'm fine I don't need some therapist, I am perfectly fine the way I am." I say still not making any eye contact.
"Clay we know your not fine. Why are you trying to hide it so much. We are your family we are here to take some of the burdens off of your shoulders. You don't have to be alone anymore. Please just let us help you." Izzy says.
"I said I was fine." I say but against my will a few tears stream down my face and fall into my lap.
"You aren't fine. You know how I can tell Clare-bear? You're crying right now that's how I can tell. You don't need to hide things from us anymore. We are your family when have we not been there for you?" Jon says and the tears start coming faster until they turn into sobs.
"I'M FINE!" I scream at them and then keep whispering it in between my sobs.
Jae pov.
See her like this is breaking my heart.
"I'M FINE." Clary screams and then whispers it to herself in between her sobs trying to convince herself more than us. I bring her into my arms trying to comfort her but she starts to punch me trying to back away from me. I look up to see Jon mouthing to me not to let her go so I nod my head.
"Clary baby please talk to us. Your our worlds don't destroy yourself like this." I whisper to her and she is still repeating that she is fine.
"Clary you'll be okay but you need to talk to us to we can help you." I say and she finally breaks.
"I have nightmares every night! I see my mother being killed every god damn night! I get tattoo's to ease the pain in my heart thinking that if I get hurt on the skin that it will stop hurting on the inside. But it doesn't work. I've tried everything, I have tried smoking. It doesn't work. Drinking numbs me and it feels so damn good. It hurts I can still feel the blinding pain from when he would hit me or whip me! I still have to see the scars! Every day of my life I see them even if they faded I have them on the inside too. People are cruel assholes. I can still feel his filthy hands all over me." She screams but breaks off sobbing. We all look at her with wide eyes.
"He raped me! Okay happy that you finally know? He raped me! He said if I ever told anyone he would kill all of you slowly right in front of my eyes! Do you understand how terrified I still am. He touched me in places I should have never been touched, while you guys were at practices or at sleep overs. It was hell for me why did you think I begged you to stay?!" She yells breaking into sobs. I bring her closer to me and rubbing soothing circles on her back. She looks up at all of them to see Izzy has tears streaming down her face. Magnus also has tears coming down his face, Alec looks furious. Seb is trying to hold back tears and the anger, and Jon well Jon is trying not to kill someone. He takes one look at his little sister and his eyes start to get glassy. I can feel the tears slipping from my eyes.
"I'm so-orry." Clary just barley gets out but everyone hears it because it is so quiet in the room.
"Clary you don't have to be sorry." Seb says coming over to us and bringing his little sister into his arms stroking her hair.
"Clary why didn't you ever tell us you told us about him hitting you?" Jon asks her and she looks at him.
"I never told you anything until today you all just made the right assumptions." She said and now that I think about it she is right she never did tell us anything.
"Why didn't you tell anyone?" Magnus asks and Clary looks down.
"Because Valentine never kids around, I almost told Seb and Jon, well that night both boys were at practice. He had cut me on my upper thigh with a steak knife. That was the night that I was sick with the 24 hour flue." She says to the boys and they look at her shocked.
"I almost bled out until the next day while you guys were at school he bought me to the hospital and told them that I was cutting something and our dog stepped on my foot so I dropped in by accident." Clary says and then pulls up her shorts just a little bit and we all see a jagged scar going right from one side of the leg to the other side of the leg.
"Clary he could have been arrested for this years ago." Izzy says and we all look at her like she was crazy."Seb wasn't 18 we would have had no where to go." Clary says quietly and we all nod our heads.
"Well can we get off this topic I want to watch a movie and order pizza."Clary says and so we do we sit adn watch 'the maze runner' 'the scorch trials' 'hunger games all three' 'divergent both movies' 'one narnia movie' 'two harry potter movies' and then we watch garfield like the childern we all are.