Hello! I have missed writing for this story so I am going to be working harder on it. There is still a lot to this story and I am so excited to share all these ideas with you through words. Now I just read the reviews and I am so happy. So I wanted to thank someone who reviewed because I have been down somewhat.
So thank you very much
tyken... onto the story now.
Clary's pov. 2 months after the album offer
When we were all told about the album thing we were so happy. When we started working on it, it was amazing. Then it started to feel like work and not fun like it used to be. We would have many sleepless nights working on music and doing college assignments. We are working on the 6th song on the album, we are only doing 8 songs.
"Clary come on we need to go to school!" Jace yells from downstairs and I groan. I go to get up but when I do I feel a wave of dizziness wash over me. I fall onto the floor and bring a lamp down with me and the light bulb breaks and shatters and I land on the ground with a thump. I know I'm bleeding when I feel warm liquid run down my arm. I don't really feel it though it just feels like a sting, but then the dizziness stops and all the pain comes with it. I cry out in pain and tears run down my face.
I can hear people running up the stairs and I can see Jace, Jon and Seb run into my room. They look at me and then to the glass stuck in my skin on my legs and arms and then look into my eyes with concern. Jace picks me up and brings me into the bathroom and sets me down on the sink counter. He gets tweezers and starts to take the glass out of my skin.
"I'm sorry it's hurting Clary, but in the long run, it will feel better if I take it out." He says and I just nod my head through the tears because if I open my mouth to speak I'll probably scream. After he gets all the glass out and bandages all of the cuts we all sit down in the living room.
"What happened up there Clary?"Seb asks me and they all stare at me.
"I went to get up and I got really dizzy and I feel and brought the lamp down with me. But my vision turned to black and I couldn't feel anything until you guys heard me yell out in pain." I say and they nod their heads and count it off as just getting up too fast. So I go back upstairs and get dressed for school and off we go. Jace drives me because they don't want me driving just yet.
"Jace?"
"Yea Clare-Bear?"
"I have a really bad migraine can you take me home?" I ask him and he pulls over and puts his hand on my head.
"Shit, you have a fever! How did we not think to make sure you didn't have a fever." He then continues to talk to himself for awhile.
"Can we go home please?" I ask him again.
"Yeah sure, just let me text the rest of them." He says and I nod my head and rest my head on the window and begin to fall asleep.
Jace pov.
When I pull up to the house Clary is fast asleep so I carry her to my bedroom. I lay down next to her and fall asleep again but with Clary curled up to me. When I wake up it's only been a few hours and Clary is still fast asleep. So I get up and call the doctor, he said I could bring her in an hour from now. I shake Clary awake after 20 minutes.
"What." She snaps at me and I sigh.
"Clary you have a doctor appointment in 40 minutes. You need to get ready." I say quietly and she groans.
"I don't want to move my head is pounding." She says and closes her eyes tightly. I rest my hand against her forehead again and curse when I feel her skin on fire. It's worse than it was earlier.
"Come on Clary you need to go to the doctor right now," I say and she groans in pain and I help her sit up. I also help her stand up and she gets dressed and then I get her into the car. I drive us to the doctors' office and we go in. They take us in immediately and she gets checked over by the nurse and then they send the doctor in. When he comes in I'm worried sick about Clary and she's almost falling asleep.
"So what's going on?" He asks sitting on his chair.
"She has a fever and earlier she got up and her vision went black and she said she couldn't hear anything or feel anything until about 2 minutes after she fell and brought a lamp down with her," I say and he nods his head,
"Anything else?"
"I've got a migraine." She adds quietly and he nods and steps out of the room for a little while. He comes back into the room.
"My best advice is to just go home and get some rest. Take Advil or Ibuprofen and get some sleep. She probably got up too fast and fell and she's probably getting a cold," The doctor says and I nod my head. I bring Clary home and lay her down back on my bed. She had fallen asleep in the car again. I lay down next to her and text everyone that she'll be all right and it's just a minor cold.
Two weeks later Clary pov.
After being in bed sick for a week and not being allowed to work on music. We are rushing around to make everything good enough for the have to have it done soon and I am so exhausted recently. My body chose the wrong time to get sick and feel exhausted. I run to the music room to try one of the new songs.
"Are you guys ready?" I ask and they all nod theirs heads.
"Clary, you look really pale are you sure your alright?" Jace asks me and I nod my head and put on a fake smile.
"Yeah can we just get started with the song please?" I ask and they all nod their heads and go to their places. And the song starts.
(Clary - italicized, Izzy - Italicized and bold, together is bold.)
"Hold up, Oh no
Who let them in the door
It's like a freak show, shake it up like a photo
Hate
Is only what you say, not what you mean
And pain
It's what's inside of me, not when your bleeding
I will fall, I'll fall
And take your breath away, we could change it all, and take your breath away
This anger changes me, it affects the way I see
Affects every part of me, and makes you my enemy
But when it falls apart, and I can't remember why I ripped everything apart.
I'm still my own worst enemy, the world around me
All can see what they want to see, I need some help
Because I'm my own worst enemy, no matter where I am
I'll still get the best of my, my own enemy
Shake
The world inside of me, until it can't be shaken
Wake
the words inside of me, before it's all too late
I will fall, I'll fall
And take your breath away, we will change it and take your breath away
This anger changes me, it affects the way I see
Affects every part of me, and make you my enemy
But when it falls apart
It's a brand new start, and I can't remember why
I ripped everything apart
My own enemy
My own enemy" When we both finished the song I just fell to the floor and cry. The boys made me sing it because I know every word because we said we wanted to do one cover song. They heard me sing it one day and wanted me to sing it on the album. The song was my only coping song for a while. It's not something I shared with anyone, they don't understand it. And they never will.