Hi guys! I apologise for the very long wait but I have been very busy lately and my focus had been on one story in particular but I have found time to update this story.

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Carlisle's POV

The problem about Jasper was that although he has been away from the South for about 70 years, he was still in denial about what Maria had done to him. He refused to believe that Maria was the one who had controlled him and caused him all this trouble. Deep down he knew that Maria was the one that hurt him but he had been so desperate for her love that he convinced himself that it was all Elias's fault.

"So back to Elias, did he only hurt you physically or did he…."

I struggled to come straight out with it but by the way Jasper looked away, looking defeated, it was clear that he knew the rest of the question.

"Maria let him do it if I disobeyed her but then she would…she would take his place afterwards because she wanted to make sure that I got the message that she owned me" he whispered.

"She doesn't own you, Jasper" I whispered.

He smiled a shy smile. "I know but….sometimes it feels like she still does" he admitted.

"How do you mean?" I questioned him.

"When I do things here that I'm not allowed to do back there, it just feels wrong" Jasper answered quietly.

And that's why he always, always waits for permission before he does something. He doesn't ask though, I have to wait for Edward to inform me that Jasper is wanting to do something so I can tell him that it's okay.

"There are some things that I do that I feel like I should be punished for" Jasper admitted.

I was already aware of Jasper's want for punishment so that was one of many reasons for his self-inflicted bites on his arm. He had even questioned why I hadn't punished him yet which had pained me. He didn't deserve this.

"Anything in particular?" I asked.

He looked away once again, accidently radiating a feeling of shame.

"I know it's wrong but sometimes I feel like….like I'm still Maria's. I get this feeling that being with Alice is wrong. I mean, I know it's not; Alice has told me plenty of times that I do deserve her but when I have these flashbacks and see Maria ma….marking me as hers, it feels like Alice deserves better; somebody clean" he had whispered the last part.

Somebody clean. I couldn't blame him for feeling this way. His body was not only violated by Maria but by Elias, too and it was absolutely normal for a rape victim to view themselves as dirty but this had happened a long time ago and I needed Jasper to face his past in order to give him a happy future.

"It's understandable to feel that after what you have gone through but believe me when I say that you are not an object. You chose to be with Alice because you love her. Maria wasn't a choice; even if you had considered running away before Peter had suggested it, you didn't want to because she manipulated you into thinking that she was your only protection and the only one who could ever love you. Well, she was wrong Jas. Alice loves you as her mate and husband, Emmett, Edward and Rose love you like their brother and Esme and I, we love you like our son" I told him.

Jasper smiled shyly at me. "I love y'all, too"

I wasn't sure if he was just saying that to make me feel better or if he really meant it but feeling my uncertainty, Jasper radiated love and honesty. I smiled lightly at him, letting him know that I understood.

"But it doesn't take the feeling away" Jasper admitted.

I sighed, unsure what to say to him. I wish that there was an easier way to get through this but patience is key and it's what both of us are relying on.

"He didn't always have her permission though" Jasper suddenly whispered.

I was surprised that he was willing to hand out information about his past without me giving him specific questions to get the answers I needed. This was a rare moment.

"What do you mean?" I asked.

"Elias hated me. He wanted me dead but Maria wouldn't let him kill me so instead, when Maria wasn't around, he took his chance on me. Sometimes Peter showed up if he sensed trouble because Elias would only do it when I was on my own but when no one was around…." Jasper didn't finish but he didn't need to; I already knew how it ended.

Elias didn't only rape him when Maria ordered him to; he also did it for his own pleasure of torture when Jasper was vulnerable and alone. If I could go back in time, I would take a trip to the south and save the poor boy from being turned by Maria. But then again it would change many things.

I always knew that Maria had done something bad to him due to how wary he always was but I had assumed that it was only Maria. It pained me when I had first found out that there was another vampire out there who was willing to torture Jasper for the fun of it; especially now hearing that he, too, was involved in the sexual abuse he inflicted upon Jasper. When Maria did it, she was hurting him mentally whereas Elias hurt him physically. They were working as a team to break him down but even after everything, Jasper still came out alive because he is stronger than he thinks. He always views himself as weak and he fails to realise how far he has come.

"Was Maria ever aware of this?" I asked him.

I doubted that she would have really cared even if she caught him in the act; she enjoyed the torture as much as Elias did.

"She suspected it. Sometimes I found it really difficult to hide the pain but she always just shrugged it off and told me how weak and pathetic I was. She didn't care about what Elias did to me as long as he didn't kill me" Jasper answered.

I was sure that whenever Maria did mention to Jasper about how he was 'weak' and 'pathetic', I knew that Jasper believed her. Jasper always takes words to heart which isn't a good thing since he was insulted so much in the past and then punished for showing emotion. Even now, he takes some things the wrong way but because he was so used to not being allowed to show emotion, he hides it.

"I'm so sorry you had to go through any of that, Jasper" I said, sadly.

"S'alright. There was nothing you could've done" he replied.

And he was right. Even if I did come across him as a human, I wouldn't have turned him for the fun of it because I only turned those who didn't seemed to have a good chance at life. Jasper was never put into the position where he was dying; he was perfectly healthy when he changed.

"Besides, it was all worth it. If Maria never turned on me, Peter would've never convinced me to leave to south and then I would have never met Alice" Jasper pointed out.

He really meant it when he said that it was worth it and I knew that he was willing to go through all the abuse again if it was his only choice in keeping Alice but thankfully it isn't. Now that he has a family, I'll make sure he is never put in that position again.

"You deserve happiness and don't ever let her make you think otherwise" I told him.

He gave another shy smile but I could tell that he wanted to leave now since he seemed to stand awkwardly. I was happy with what he has told me today though; he had opened up a lot more than I had expected him to.

"I guess that's it today then. Same time tomorrow?" I told him.

"Yeah, I guess" Jasper replied, nervously.

With a final nod, he walked out of my study. I was unsure if knowing the details of Jasper's past would make him feel comfortable around me since he wouldn't need to hide anything anymore or if it would just make him feel worse but either way, it should help him mentally.

I sat at my desk for a little longer to think about what I have found out today. When I believe that Jasper couldn't possibly be put through anymore torture, I find out another painful moment in his life. No wonder why he turned out the way he did. My thoughts were interrupted by an unexpected knock at the door.

"Come in" I called.

The door opened slowly to reveal Peter. I smiled at him to make him feel welcomed as he, too, seemed to share the same nervous behavior as Jasper. Dealing with Jasper was difficult enough but during Peter and Charlotte's stay, things would seem tougher; Peter more than Charlotte since he had been in the south much longer than Charlotte's year there.

"Hello, Sir. I hope I'm not intruding" Peter said politely.

The way he spoke was almost identical to Jasper. It had taken a long while to convince my son to stop calling me 'Dr Cullen' which he still occasionally calls me when he's depressed. He still commonly uses the word 'sir' at the end of a sentence when speaking to me but at least I have encouraged him to call me by my first name now.

"No, of course not. Is there anything I can do for you?" I asked him.

"Alice said that you intended to speak to me soon. I got a little curious" Peter mentioned.

I had in fact wanted to speak to Peter about one thing in particular but I wasn't sure when to talk to him but since he was here now, I might as well ask him now.

"Well she was right as always. There is something I wanted to talk to you about. You're welcome to take a seat"

Although a vampire could stand for as long as they wanted to, I wanted to make him feel as comfortable as possible. Peter took a seat in front of my desk and waited for me to carry on. I wasn't sure where to start but he waited patiently.

"It's about Jasper. I just want to know if there is anything that had been missed out about Jasper's past; anything that I should know in order to help him heal" I told him.

Although it didn't seem very trusting, there was a chance that Jasper had missed out something whether it was intentional or not.

"Well, what do you know?" Peter asked.

I usually wouldn't repeat what Jasper told me, or Edward for that matter but Peter already knew every detail of what Jasper had gone through and there was a chance that he had gone through the same thing.

"I know that he was raped by both Elias and Maria and that she would turn newborns against him as a punishment. I also know that she starved him to keep him weak so that he was easier to control and manipulate" I noted.

Peter then nodded and hesitated to speak again before he gained the confidence to open his mouth.

"Did he say anything about me?" He asked nervously.

Jasper had mentioned about how Peter protected him often whenever he was left in a vulnerable state but by Peter's tone, I was given the impression that there was something more to it

"You kept him safe but that's all I'm aware of" I noted.

"I didn't think he'd tell you. He would feel like he's invading my privacy" he murmured. "I guess if it's gonna help Jasper, you have the right to know".

Invading his privacy? My suspicions were correct once again; Peter had been apart or Maria's torture as well.

"Did she hurt you, too?" I asked him.

Peter nodded slowly. "But she never hurt me the way she hurt Jasper. She grew jealous of how close we were so she used me to hurt him" he whispered.

Of course Maria would have done that; the only thing that's worse than being hurt by your enemy is being hurt by somebody close to you.

"How did she make you hurt him?" I asked gently.

I was trying to prepare myself from hearing the worst. Please god, please don't be what I think.

"She uh…..she would threaten my life and Jasper's if I didn't…..If I didn't do as she asked" Peter admitted.

"What did she make you do?" I repeated.

Peter's body tensed as he tried to keep himself calm. I was most definitely familiar with this behavior. Jasper did it whenever he believed somebody would get mad at him which was the effect his past had on him. Unfortunately, Peter came from the same upbringing.

"I swear I didn't want to but she would've killed Jasper if I didn't" Peter rushed before his voice quietened down to a whisper. "There were a few times where she made me rape him".

I closed my eyes and sighed. Maria really knew how to make them suffer. I knew exactly what her intentions were, too. Peter had mentioned about Maria being jealous of Peter and Jasper's close relationship so her plan had been to tear them apart but she had failed. They were still very close even if they hardly see each other anymore.

"Even after all that, Jay still managed to forgive me" Peter commented.

"Of course he did. You're like a brother to him. None of this was your fault anyway" I pointed out.

I'm pretty much a pacifist; I don't like violence but if I ever come across those two vile monsters, I will not be able to help the protective instincts that kick in. I'm just glad that they live far from us so they pose no threat to my son and that even Peter and Charlotte are a safe distance from them.

"I'm glad that he has you guys. I thought it was weird at first but a coven that poses as a family is just what Jasper needs. You seem to care for him very much and I'm thankful for that" Peter acknowledged.

I have to admit, I couldn't imagine how Jasper would have ended up if he never found Alice or this family after he left Peter and Charlotte. He had been suicidal way before I had thought he was so the chances were high that he would have ended up killing himself. I shuddered at the thought; his life was so much better now that he has Alice. But then again, it was Peter who pulled him out of the South in the first place.

"It is I that should be thanking you. If it wasn't for you, Peter, I wouldn't have a third son; who had pretty much saved our lives at one point in our life might I add" I noted.

I was referring to when he had taught us all to fight when Victoria was after Bella. We would never know what the outcome would have been if none of us knew how to fight. I had found it rather ironic how the only one who got injured was the only one who was a professional at fighting.

"Where would Jasper be without us, huh?" Peter smirked.

I smiled at him. Even somebody who had been in battle for years as well torture held a small sense of humor. But even with the humor in it, it was true. Where would he be without us? And where would we be without him?

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