Hi eveyone. I am uploading this to every fanfiction that I'm writing. I have a confession.
As most of you know, I have PTSD and ADD, and some other physical problems.
But, my health is getting worse and my body is shutting down. I'm not going to lie, I'm scared. I don't want to go to sleep at night, because I'm afraid I won't wake up. My blood is being drawn very frequently and being tested. Results haven't been given, and that worries me even more. I can't run anymore. When my dance team runs laps, I'm forced to walk. If I run, I collapse. I'm tired. So tired. I'm to the point where even dancing is difficult. I have trouble breathing. My asthma is getting worse too. I can't sing in choir like I used to, and it sucks, since I'm the lead soprano. I cough up blood, or I get bloody noses. You don't know how scary is it to wake up in the morning covered in blood. It's terrifying.
I don't want to scare you guys. But I had to tell you the truth about me. I'm sick. Very, very sick.
And we still don't know what's wrong.
But I'm fighting. I'm fighting to live.
I love to write. Especially for you guys, who enjoy my stories. But what I really want the most, is to spend time with my mom, friends, and boyfriend.
I'll try my best to update for you guys. But finals are coming up, I'm a junior, I'm failing 3 classes, thanks to my sucky health that forces me to miss a lot of school to go to doctors.
What I'll probably do soon is a Christmas update. When? I don't know. How? I don't know. I'll find a way to give you guys a little something in return for all of your kindness and support.
I love you all very much. Thank you for everything, and I'll do my best to update when I'm feeling better.
With love,
Lia, AKA Blu3 Wat3rs