So unfortunately after this last episode, this story is put on hold indefinitely. I was trying to wait for the show to give me my muse back but I don't know if I'll be watching for a while and surprisingly it has very little to do with Fitz. I will try to make it short but I'll probably go on a tangent but either way I just wanted to let the people who were reading this know and not be rude...although I'm not sure why hall some of you are reading it since I obviously insult your eyes with the pairing Ive chosen (shoulder shrug).

so to start off this triNgle has sunken to a new low with me. The only response Fitz gets from me is a waving off because I mean he isn't really worth much more than that. Olivia has taken Fitz's place being that I don't like her ass anymore. And Jake has taken her place in that he's pissing me off by being stupid for someone who he supposedly loves who's just using him. I can't be team Olivia right now because I honestly don't like her right now. And since she was ultimately the main reason I watched I feel like what's the use when I'm just gonna end up having a negative attitude through the entire show. It'd be like watching a marathon of Law and Order SVU with only the episodes where the bad guys get away...well maybe not that bad because that shit pisses me off to no end (LOL).

But me not liking Olivia has nothing to do with Fitz directly. It's the way she treats the people who are actually there for her, her friends. And the fact that she often throw these people under the bus for Fitz does not help but at the end of the day she is the one making the decision to screw over people she claims to care for and at the end of the day I don't think that's right, true love or not. I was starting to touch on this is the story but as I might not get a chance I'll elaborate here.

Quinn: In my opinion, Quinn should have fought Olivia a long time ago. Like immediately when she found out live had a hand in and/or knew about the plot of murdering her boyfriend and framing her for it and destroying her life as she knew it and making communication with her only living parent non exists? Sure she felt bad about it later but I always go back to the phrase be mindful not sorry. You can't come back from that in my book, especially with just a new passport, SSN, ID, and a job. Because I had all that shit before you decided to take it away.

Abbie: I have been cringing at that damn preview all week. Here I am hoping Liv and Abbie can get their bestie relationship popping and Liv is just wrecking it. She was so dirty, in my opinion for letting Abbie walk into that snake pit. She could've sent a text or something. She made her supposed best friend look like a damn fool all so she can be with Fitz, which got me thinking that maybe Liv and Fitz deserve each other more than I thought. And then she's gonna ask if there's a problem. That just pissed me off even more cause I'm like you know there's a fucking problem you know what you did to her. Don't insult her intelligence. It wouldn't have been so bad if she would've just owned it to begin with talking bout some any I didn't want you to have to lie for me...what changed? Cause she's been lying for you a whole lot before this.

I'm not going to get into the Huck thing because I do believe that his attachment to Liv is unhealthy and unfair to her in a way. She shouldn't have to shoulder his burdens like that.

Jake: Plan and simple for people who think that I don't like Liv with Fitz because I Anna see her with Jake and for the people who want to see her with Jake but think this is still romantic because he's trying to be there for her even through this. It's not the people, it's the theme. I don't like Fitz/when he does it to Olivia, so I don't like Olivia/when she does it to Jake. I'm sorry I don't think The way that phone call between her and Jake went down was cute. She's using him and manipulating his feelings for her own benefit which could be to his detriment. And he's working my nerves because he's letting her do it.

So again, I just can't get down with Liv right now. So my muse is gone. Also though, to people mad with Mellie for being disrespectful to Olivia, um...Olivia started it. When it comes to that affair with Mellie has done nothing wrong except allow that shit to go on. Cause honestly, if I had come up with the concept of this show, it would be 10 seasons long, the very first scene would have been of Fitz bleeding out/dead in the shower with a broken glass of whiskey next to him. The next scene would've been Mellie snatching Liv up and them rolling around the White House fighting. And the third would've been a news story entitled, First Lady snaps, kills president and attacks mistress. Enters temporary insanity plea. Then the first five seasons would be building up to that point, the last five would be of Liv getting her shit back in order.

But out this is all just my humble opinion. (Shoulder shrug) And please to all you Olitzers don't leave any rude, snide, sarcastic or underhanded reviews on this because one, this has very little to do with either relationship and two if you do I'm going to have to continue this story just to prove a point and I really don't feel like doing that.

Side note, I recently started meditating again and realized that I am one of those people that will burn myself just to see other people go up in flames if I'm offended enough, just to prove a point. Now that's funny because I have a dark sense of humor but it's also troubling because I tend to go 0-100 at sonic speed in situations like that. But anyway point being, don't make me have to update this story everyday for the next week.

Either way enjoy. I'll stay updated through my cousin. We kinda on the same page with Liv but she gonna watch cause she wanna see it blow up in Liv's face whereas I'm just not interested anymore. Hopefully I'll be back one day, but I'm going to need Mya Pope in every episode.

Well that's my rant.

Toodles lol

Okay, so I typed this up last night but didn't post it because I wanted to give myself time to actually get over the episode as we've had multiple work meetings about writing emails and not sending them and after I've been told that I'm emotionally/mentally impulsive LOL. Plus I'm just trying to be a better overall person, and I am impulsive, but I'm growing up so I'm trying to work on me, but that's besides the point because I am now using this as a blog and I didn't want to do that. I have gotten over the show some but still sticking to my guns.

Because Olivia has become this shitty persons for reasons that I suspect will make me more sympathetic with her in the future, but the way they are writing it I am just not able to see them. Which is why I think the episode pissed me off even more cause it seems like she was just in the background allowing shit to happen until she had to mother Fits. That and he annoyed the hell out of me with his I'm going to go do this, but I'm going to do it slowly to give someone else in the room time to either confirm or deny that I'm doing the right thing. I legit almost said out loud when he was trying to leave to go address the press on his own, "sit your ass down somewhere boy, I'm trying to watch TV" lol. I think the comparison of him and Gavin was spot on (although I did like Gavin and have this idea in my head that Liv and Jake should be court ordered to parent Gavin as a punishment to all of them for some of the things they've done because I found that whole situation pretty funny). But last night he was on the annoying scale of bad ass chlld who won't stop touching things in the store while you are legit trying to get some errands done to sorry ass group partner he trying to bullshit you into thinking he's done the work but he's the dumbest person in the group so its not working and so ya'll just looking at him like bitch if we fail because of you it's on.

Sigh, anyways, I am still happy for Mellie because when she was driving away with Cyrus I was like smile girl, you are free. Rejoice and be merry. But again I can rock with Liv with the shit she doing right now. Usually it would be enough just to be like you messing up and then proceed to read from top to bottom in which ways and to which degree, but since she's fictitious I gotta count on her co fictitious people to do it and they are not because honestly Abbie should still be giving her the side eye. Not saying they should break friendship forever, but everybody done gave a friend the cold shoulder for a few days/weeks for good reason. You know with real friends, you love them to death, but that don't necessarily mean you like their asses all the time especially when they tripping this hard. Real friends call their friends out on their shit, especially when it's starting to mess with other situations. And I don't care that she is the focus of the TV show, that doesn't give her the right to mess over her friends. And how you gonna lay in this bed that you done had sex in, you been fighting damn near six years to get to have sex with this man in and then gone call your ex boyfriend like you a sixteen year old in your room at your parents' house just shooting the shit with bae on the phone. Naw! LOL. You are doing a lot Olivia. Everybody on both sides should be mad about that. Now don't get me wrong, some of my favorite star characters are those I'm effing over everybody types, but I go into the show knowing this. I at least thought Liv had Abbie's back, at the very least. And Quinn as well considering she is the reason...

Sure Liv can change and become that type but they writing is just not giving me enough sustenance to go along with it to be able to continue to rock with her. So for now, this story is on hold until either I start watching the show again and it gives me some motivation or I get it back on my own for whatever reason, which is possible. But in the mean time, I'm going to go listen to these fools debate with the boss about why evaluations are detrimental to the work environment and mental integrity. She just put me and my work besties back on the same days, she's never gonna let us work together again lol. But we got a point damn it.