Authors Note (A/N): Again...This does not follow the Current Track, there is no 'A', none of the guys besides Ezra are in this story, Characters will be slightly OOC (out of Character)
Woohoo! Updated Martyr and Allegiance today...be sure to check Martyr out after you're done here... Sorry for being MIA the last couple of days...been busy playing catch-up at my office...this internship blows...
This Story is a result of my BFF's obsession with Spanna so this one's for you Taz!
A huge shout out to Boris Yeltsin and Rhythmusic101 for their encouragement! For the Spanna fans, be sure to check out Rhythmusic101's story 'My Love Haunts Me'...it's a really good read
Now...the story begins...
Chapter 1: "The days of youth"
Flash Back- Junior Year, Hastings Residence
Hanna Marin was excited, summer had just begun and her friends were meeting up at the Hastings Manor for their annual slumber party. She had arrived at her destination a few minutes late, hoping to make a grand entrance and show off the fact that she had lost 2 pounds, more so...she hoped Spencer would notice...
She knocked at the door and waited while her mind wandered to thoughts about her best friend
'Ah...Spencer Hastings...the whole package, beauty, brains athletic and the vast Hastings fortune attached to her made sure both guys and girls tried to get her attention...sure..She's a little geeky, a bit high strung but she's also loyal, and friendly and smells nice...Woah!...Where did that come from Han? Mind out of the gutter please...Spencer is one of your best friends...keep it clean Marin!'
The blond was wrenched from her thoughts by a loud sound, startled, she clutched her chest to still her rapidly beating heart.
'You idiot...Spencer probably just answered the door and you're freaking out like some ax murderer is trying to kill you...'
She tried to regain control over herself and her heart sang when she locked eyes with her friend, and host for the evening.
Spencer watched Hanna carefully, she was concerned that she had scarred the blond for life so she quickly rambled out an apology
Spencer: "I'm soo sorry Han...the door jams and you need some force to open it...are you ok?"
Hanna stared at her crush and blushed
'I'm okay now that you're here...Damn it Hanna! Stop it..."
Hanna: "I'm fine...you scared the shit outta me Hastings! Fix that door will you!"
Spencer chuckled at Hanna's dramatic tone and ever the charmer had replied
Spencer: "Of course M'lady...whatever M'lady commands..."
She mock bowed and gestured for Hanna to come in, and Hanna couldn't help but laugh at Spencer's theatrics
Hanna: "You're crazy Spence..."
Hanna was so caught up in her giggles that she didn't hear Spencer's mumbled response
Spencer: "yeah...about you..."
The blond stopped her violent giggles as Spencer closed and locked the door as Hanna hugged the tall brunette in a proper greeting.
Specncer's heart soared as Hanna embraced her, her senses clouded with Hanna's presence as the blond wrapped her arms around her
'She's hugging me!okay...be cool Hastings...but God she smells good...and her hair is really pretty... Ugh! Control yourself Hastings! Think about something else...'
Hanna pulled back slightly and looked at Spencer, the blond relishing the feeling of being in the brunette's arms but she wanted the other girl to notice her recent weight lost, so pulling a page out of Alison Dilaurentis's handbook, she moved closer to her crush and wriggled seductively in Spencer's arms so the brunette could get a better feel of her body before looking up at the girl who held her heart.
Spencer's eyes widened in surprise 'did Hanna lose weight? Should I point it out? and don't be crass...you know how sensitive Han is about her weight... quick..she's looking at you...say something you idiot!'
Spencer: "Thanks for coming over Han...May I say you look exceptionally pretty today..."
Hanna grinned, knowing what Spencer was alluding to
'She Noticed! Yay!And She's flirting with me!eeep! Ok...Control yourself Hanna say something cool...'
Hanna: "I bet you say that to all the girls..."
Spencer shrugged before responding
Spencer: "Well Alison won't stop pinching me until I compliment her..."
Hanna smirked, ever since Spencer admitted to her parents that she was bisexual it seemed as though Alison had been trying to get the other girl's attention. Hanna would internally laugh as their blond queen bee would 'fawn' over Spencer, she was probably hoping the younger Hastings will fall under her spell and now learning that Alison resorted to small acts of violence to hear Spencer compliment her, Hanna was ecstatic that Spencer had complimented her without any violent prompting.
Hanna: "Well..if she asks...we'll say I pinched you..."
Spencer smiled at that and Hanna's blue eyes glinted mischievously before continuing, her voice dropping to what she hoped was a sexy purr before whispering in Spencer's ear.
Hanna: "...after all...you Hastings are soo guarded with your emotions...all dark and brooding...no wonder she has to work so hard for you to notice..."
Spencer shivered as Hanna's voiced filled her ear, her mind not registering what was being said but was happy that Hanna was talking to her.
'She's soo much better than Alison...she's pretty, and funny and sure she's a handful sometimes but she's really sweet...Snap out of it Hastings! She's your best friend and waay out of your league...she deserves someone better than you...poor broken little Spencer, always trying to get Mommy and Daddy's approval...Hanna will never fall for you, so don't bother ruining your friendship by telling her you have feelings for her...'
Hanna watched as Spencer's expression changed and her heart clenched when she saw the self doubt cloud her friend's features.
She was about to say something to comfort her friend when the commanding voice of Alison Dilaurentis pulled them from their thoughts
Alison: "Who has to work hard for what Han?"
Hanna stared at the other blond as she stood on the Hastings staircase. The girl was skinny, beautiful and perfect in every way and the worst part was that Alison knew that she was skinny, beautiful and perfect and this resulted in the queen bee being, for lack of a better description, a swollen headed bitch.
Alison scoffed at Hanna wrapped around Spencer and mustered her most threatening 'Head-Bitch-In-Charge' voice as she addressed the girls embracing in the Hastings foyer
Alison: "Come on guys, Em and Ar are waiting upstairs! Get moving..."
She swiftly turned and began ascending the staircase, leaving the other girls staring after her, frozen in place. Once she almost reached the stairs and knowing that neither girl had moved to follow her yet, Alison got angry and snapped
Alison: "Come on Hefty...or do you expect Spencer to carry you up the stairs?"
Once she bit out her remark, she smiled gleefully as Hanna's face fell before triumphantly walking up the stairs and towards Spencer's room.
Hanna's heart sank at Ali's comment and Spencer watched as the blond in her arms began to tear up. Being a Hastings, and refusing to let a beautiful girl cry in her arms, Spencer quickly raised her hand and brushed away Hanna's tears with the pad of her thumb.
Spencer: "hey...don't listen to Ali...she's just being a bitch...I bet she's jealous because you have the most awesome person at this shindig fawning all over you.."
Hanna laughed at Spencer's attempt to cheer her up so she decided to play along
Hanna: "yeah probably...but you're not awesome Spence..."
'You're amazing' Hanna subtly thought
Spencer scoffed at Hanna's words before saying:
Spencer: " Oh yeah...I'm not awesome huh? Maybe this will change your mind?"
Without warning the brunette swivelled Hanna slightly before steadying the blonde's hold around her neck. The athletic brunette reached down, used one hand to secure Hanna's knees as the blond hopped into her hold. They looked absolutely ridiculous, Spencer was standing in the Hastings foyer, carrying Hanna bridal style and Hanna blushed deeply at Spencer's actions as she playfully scolded the brunette
Hanna: "Spence! Oh My god Spence! Put me Down! You'll hurt your back!"
Spencer paid no attention to Hanna as she crossed the foyer with the laughing blond in her arms. She thanked her lucky stars for her athleticism as she ascended the stairs with ease. When she reached the top floor landing, Hanna's tone became serious.
Hanna: "Spence..I'm too heavy...put me down..you'll hurt yourself..."
Spencer silenced Hanna with a look and proceeded to carry the girl down the hall towards her open bedroom.
Emily and Aria howled with laughter when the two girls entered and Hanna couldn't help but smirk at the expression on Alison's face. Spencer walked towards her bed and carefully deposited Hanna on it before whispering loudly enough for Alison to hear
Spencer: "Light as a feather..."
Hanna blushed at this and before Spencer could move off, Aria jumped on her back shouting
Aria: "Me next Spencie! Whoohoo! Team Sparia for the Win!"
Aria didn't see the glare shot her way by Alison and Hanna as Spencer jovially lifted her tiny friend on her back and spun around before safely depositing Aria, next to a laughing Emily on the red couch in her bedroom.
Hanna laughed at 'Team Sparia's' antics, all the girls knew how close Aria and Spencer were, Aria being Spencer's main confidant when the taller brunette came to terms with her sexuality. Sure she was jealous of Aria, the tiny brunette had Spencer wrapped around her finger and it was really annoying when the two of them were restless without each other.
'What if Spence has a crush on Aria...I mean it makes sense...She gives in to Aria's every whim..she bends over backwards for her..hell she punched a kid when we were in kindergarten for her! Ok..I would have punched the kid too, he called Aria short and made her cry but still...If Alison or Emily had to do that, Spencer would have dropped them...'
Alison was pissed at the display before her, so naturally she lashed out pulling Hanna from her thoughts
Alison: "If you guys are done being idiots..I would like to watch the movie now...Emily sweety, why don't you out something on..."
Hanna, Aria and Spencer exchanged a look, it was an open secret amongst the three of them that Emily, who had just come out of the closet, had a huge crush on Alison, and all three had come to the realisation long ago that Alison was aware of said crush and used it to her advantage. All three of them flinched when Alison called Emily 'sweety', knowing that the blond queen bee was close to throwing a temper tantrum if she didn't get what she wanted. So the girls quietly took their seats and focused on the movie playing on the large flat screen TV in Spencer's bedroom.
Alison watched the other girls as they laughed, gasped and commentated throughout the movie. Spencer, being the ever considerate host, had all of their favourite snacks readily available as they reclined against her bed or the couch in her room and watched the romantic comedy that Alison had picked out.
Alison kept her gaze on Spencer throughout the movie, the tall brunette had her wrapped around Hanna as the blonde snuggled against her munching away on some chocolate. The sight angered the youngest Dilaurentis and she smirked evilly before nonchalantly commenting
Alison: "Hey! Don't hog the chocolate Han...you don't want to be Hefty Hanna forever.."
Her words had the desired result as Hanna burst into tears. Emily and Aria had yelled "Alison!' in horrified unison but Alison didn't care about them, she watched Spencer carefully caring only about the tall brunette's reaction.
Alison gagged when Spencer kept her focus on Hanna, she cringed as she watched the brunette try to wipe away Hanna's tears and she smiled gleefully when Hanna fought out of Spencer's embrace and rushed out of the room.
'Good..that Hefty bitch is gone...now maybe I can enjoy the movie...'
Spencer turned to Alison, fire in her eyes and her voice dripping with anger. She looked murderous and Alison hated to admit it, but in that moment she was terrified of the youngest Hastings.
Spencer: "What the hell Ali! Why do you have to be such a bitch all the time? You know how sensitive Hanna is about her weight!"
Alison, realising that she needed to fix this and get back on Spencer's good side, opened her mouth to calm the angry young Hastings down
Alison: "Spence I-"
Spencer cut her off with a glare
Spencer: "Save it Ali..I don't need to hear your apologies...I'm going to get Hanna and when we return you're going to apologise..."
Alison scoffed at this which only fuelled Spencer's rage
Spencer: "Apologise or Leave Ali...its your choice.."
The brunette quickly left the room in search of Hanna, causing Alison's heart to sink
'If only she cared about me like that...'
Spencer raced out of her room, wondering where her blond friend could have ran off to. Her query was answered when she heard the bathroom door slam shut. Rushing towards her friend's hiding place, Spencer knocked on the door tentatively
Spencer: "Hanna?"
A beat passed before she heard Hanna's broken voice from the other side
Hanna: "Go away! Just leave me alone!"
Spencer: "Hanna...please open up...please..."
Hanna panicked as she listened to Spencer plead with her to open the door
'If Spencer knew what I'm about to do...she's going to be soo angry...'
Hanna breathed a sigh of relief when she heard Spencer's footsteps moving away from the bathroom.
'She's gone..now I can do this without being caught...'
Quickly Hanna got on her knees and hunched over the toilet bowl. Using one hand to hold her hair back she was about to stick her index from her free hand down her throat.
Just as the digit neared her lips, the door clicked open, and Hanna will always remember the shocked gasp of Spencer Hastings as the brunette intruded on her private moment
Spencer: "Hanna!"
Hearing her name, Hanna choked back tears and looked up guiltily at her friend.
Hanna: "Please...Please don't tell anyone...I'm sorry...Please don't tell..."
In an instant Spencer had shut the door and was by her side, the tall brunette moved the blond away from the toilet bowl and scooted them across the porcelain tiles until she reclined against the shower door. Spencer held Hanna in her arms as the blond cried against her shoulder, murmuring sweet nothings in the younger girl's ear to calm her.
After her sobs subsided, Hanna shifted so that she was sitting in Spencer's lap and then buried her face into the crook of Spencer's neck.
Spencer was awfully silent and even though Hanna appreciated the brunette giving her space, she wished the girl would say something, even if it was to yell at her. She moved herself away from the crook of Spencer's neck and came face to face with the pensive brunette.
Hanna: "Spence..please say something..."
Spencer stared deep into her eyes and Hanna felt a warm heat surge through her when she saw the love and concern in her friend's eyes.
Spencer: "Hanna...how long have you been doing this?"
Hanna turned her face away in shame as she mumbled
Hanna: "This is the second time..."
Spencer was silent for a beat before she spoke again, her voice taking on that commanding Hastings tone that Hanna had heard Peter and Veronica Hastings use on their children many times
Spencer: "And it will be your last...am I clear?"
Rage surged through Hanna at Spencer's tone, she quickly moved off of Spencer and snapped
Hanna: "What the hell! It's my life...who the hell are you to tell me what to do?"
Anger flashed in Spencer's eyes and Hanna knew that the brunette was not going to let her get away with this.
Spencer: "I'm your friend Hanna...that's who the 'hell' I am!"
Spencer's livid response caused a fresh batch of tears to stream down Hanna's face. Seeing her friend cry, Spencer's anger dissipated and she began trying to placate the blue-eyed blond as the girl cried in her bathroom
Spencer: "Hanna...Hanna Please...I care about you okay? And I don't want to see you get hurt...I know I have no right to tell you what to do... but I can't let you hurt yourself...I can't..."
Hanna's cries quietened down to small sniffles as she resumed her prior position against the brown eyed girl.
'She cares about you Hanna...she's just being a good friend...you can trust her, Spencer won't hurt you...'
Spencer waited for Hanna to calm down before she had asked the blond the main thing she was curious about
Spencer: "Why?"
Hanna moved to face her confusion masking her clear blue eyes at the question.
Spencer: "Why'd you do it?"
Hanna lowered her gaze and mumbled... "so I can be thin and pretty..."
Spencer, cupped Hanna's face in her hands and turned the girl to face her. She kissed the blonds forehead before embracing her tightly.
Spencer: "You are beautiful Han...you don't need to do this...if you want to lose more weight I can draw up a diet for you...we can exercise together...we'd be like work-out/diet buddies...I'll do anything...but please...I'm begging you...please don't do this to yourself again..."
Hanna was touched at the love and concern in her friend's voice, she wrapped her arms tighter around the taller girl and mumbled a soft 'okay' to Spencer. There was something about being in Spencer's arms that made Hanna feel loved and protected and in that moment that was all she needed.
Alison glowered at the display before her. She had cracked open the bathroom door, hoping to find Hanna hunched over the toilet bowl bringing up whatever the girl had eaten but instead watched Hanna and Spencer come to terms with Hanna's problem.
She gagged as Hanna clung to Spencer and was furious when she saw the brunette cup Hanna's face in her hands and kiss the blond on the forehead.
'Ugh! Look at Hanna clinging to Spencer like some pathetic groupie...She's soo pathetic...Spencer is soo sweet though...trying to make the whale feel better...she's so considerate...if only she paid attention to me like that...'
Alison Dilaurentis huffed and walked back to Spencer's room where she could be fawned over by Emily, after all her ego needed a boost after the sight she had just witnessed.
A/N: So this Chapter is sort of a filler but stage is set, you now have some background to Spanna...Let me know what you think...Remember reviews are love...and a really strong motivator! The more reviews I get the faster I write and the sooner I update!