Naoko had invited him to her place.
"Well...what would you like to do?" she asked a little curious.
"Have sex" he blurted out. He then clamped his hand over his mouth.
She giggled. "Only if you are sure, I'm not going to push you to do something you don't want to do" Naoko told him.
"I'm honestly scared to have sex, so how about we just sit and talk...would that be okay?" he asked her.
She nodded and led him to the kitchen for a drink. She brought him some tea and sat at the table with him.
"Kenji, I understand how you feel about your sperm donor, I feel the same about my entire family...I chose to be a nurse so I didn't have to deal with them. I saw them come and go through the ER a few times and everytime I've been warned they were coming in and been transferred to the peds floor so I didn't have to see them or deal with them. I want to help you become the best you there is. I'm not good at anything but being a nurse and I'm looking for someone who wants to be with me not just for sex" she told him.
"I want to date you, I want sex but am scared to death to have it with you...you are beautiful, you are a goddess to me and I don't want to lose you for as corny as that sounds" he said.
She blushed. With all her patients and doctors she's always been told she's a pain in the ass and a loser that could only attract another loser. Now here was someone telling her she was beautiful and a goddess on top of that?! Wow..how do you recover from two compliments like that back to back? He was far from a god himself but she liked him. He wasn't handsome in some hollywood movie star kind of way, but handsome in some dorky way.
"Let's take it slow Kenji...that way we can feel each other out and see where it can go from there deal?" she asked.
"Deal" he said.
They sat and watched TV. She fell asleep with her head on his chest and he covered her up along with himself and fell asleep right there on the couch with her. This was the happiest he felt in his life. He could see spending the rest of his life with her.
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Back at Emmett's they were laying on his bed he was carressing her with his hand. Her body felt weird from where he was touching her, it tingled.
"Can you undress so I can cover your whole body?" he asked. "I'll undress too"
"Leave your boxers or underwear on?" she asked.
"Boxers, and yes I will leave them on" he told her softly.
He helped her up and she undressed. She was fully naked and he was in his boxers as promised. They laid back down and he continued to carress her all over.
The tingles was intense. She was loving the soft touches he was giving her. It was different from the touches she was used to.
Even training with Hiei was different. Izumi knew Emmett and Hiei weren't out to hurt her.
"Can I kiss you? while carressing you?" he asked. "I won't hurt you"
She nodded and he leaned over to kiss her.
Before he could she stopped him. "Wait..." she said softly.
He sat up. "I'm sorry...I shouldn't have done that" he apologized.
Emmett got up from the bed and got her a robe. Izumi started crying.
"Hey..hey, it's okay"
She shook her head. "No..it's not, I really want to do this...but I can't, I want to be yours, but the pain and the memories are just to hard to get over" she told him.
He held her. "It's alright, he's not here, I'm not him...he cannot hurt you anymore, I promise you Izumi...I will be the only one to touch you with love in the hands. I will never hurt you the way 'he' did" he promised her.
She wanted to believe him, but she didn't know how. Izumi wanted to be with him physically, but thanks to her childhood, she didn't know if she could get that close to another man again, but she was to scared to let him that close to her. Izumi was just to scared to knock that wall down that she had up.