Chapter 51:
Zoe had gone back to Max's as he insisted that not only was it quicker but Robyn and Lofty were out at the pub for the night. Max was asleep but had one arm wrapped around Zoe and the other holding on to her arm. Zoe lay awake with her hand in Max's looking around the room that presented itself as a mess.
Zoe briefly closed her eyes to compose herself from the thoughts that were circulating around inside of her head. She opened her eyes and for the first time in a long while felt the feeling of dissatisfaction. Her 40th birthday was looming and she realised that she hadn't done much with her life. When she was at school she worked hard to become a doctor and then when she became a doctor she worked hard to stay a doctor. In between the hard work she relaxed by drinking and partying which seemed like a stimulating way to retreat from the hectic ED but as she was laying in Max's bed she realised that throughout her 40 years in this earth she had nothing to show for it.
Zoe thought back to everyone that she had ever been with: Sean Anderson, he was a well paid consultant who had two beautiful children Lucas and Amelia with Jess and despite being divorced he is now happily remarried to his new wife. Matt Strong, newly wedded to a consultant on the paediatric ward and is looking forward to becoming a father in a months time. Nick Jordan, despite having anyone he had devoted his life to his job and had a shiny plaque to show for it in Michigan where he has been awarded for his surgical ability. Zoe Hanna, lost her post as Clinical Lead at Holby General and has no one in her life but a porter who has been kept a secret from the rest of the staff.
She pushed Max's arm off of her making sure that she didn't wake him and the slowly eased herself from the bed, picking up her shoes and purple dress she snuck out of the room and slid into her dress. After that she bolted for the door and started her car up and sped off back to her apartment.
As she opened the door she put her keys in a dish and the stopped as the reflection that matched her exterior appeared in the mirror. She moved towards it and pulled up her face slightly to hide the fact that tomorrow she is 40. She opened a bottle of red wine and took a sip and returning to the mirror she saw the true Zoe Hanna that everyone else saw. A 40 year old woman that worked to hard and got no where so eased the pain with cigarettes and alcohol and whether something within Zoe snapped or whether she had too much alcohol she threw the wine bottle at the mirror with enough force that it not only shattered the wine bottle but smashed the mirror.
"What's another 7 years of bad luck?"
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