I hope everyone enjoys the chapter! A little foreshadow of whats to come, but it's hidden ;)
Ana's POV:
Halloween was so good for us to let loose and be normal. I was upset having to leave for work on Monday, but work is so amazing. I interviewed hundreds of applicants for a new editorial assistant and one stood out to me. Her name is Charlie and she is so much like me in so many ways. Apparently she applied for this job when Jack was still working, but he gave her he creeps. She graduated from WSU a year after me and even though we didn't know each other, but I remember seeing her around campus and thinking how much she seemed like me. Elizabeth let me be the one to call her and she starts work today, which is Wednesday the 6th Lacy offered to take her under her wing, but I said I wanted to show her the ropes.
I meet Charlie down stairs for her first day of work and have already set up a gift basket and flowers on her desk to welcome her to Grey Publishing. She seems rather shocked when she sees me in the lobby waiting for her.
"Please tell me you haven't changed your mind on giving me this job." She looks so disappointed. She's more like me then I thought.
"No silly I just wanted to greet you on your first day of work."
"Oh thank god." We both laugh and she follows me into the elevator. The ride up is quite and I get so uncomfortable when there is a lot of silence. Just before I am about to burst and start babbling the doors open and we walk out.
"Alright this is your desk and that is my office" I say and she looks at the flowers and gift basket in surprise.
"Miss Steele you didn't have to go through all of this trouble for me."
"Call me Ana and I know, but I wanted to." I say with a smile. I take her on a tour of the office and introduce her to the other editors and their assistants. I let her get comfortable at her desk before I give her my schedule so far since I haven't had an assistant, but I thought I'd make it easier by keeping track of everything.
"The biggest things you have to remember for right now is the security. There have been some changes to our security so now everything goes through them. You have to tell them all about up coming appointments and who they are will. Here are all the e-mails of the security teams including my personal security. They will do a basic background check on everyone who enters this building. He boss is kind of a nut case." She laughs and kindly says
"I know he's your boyfriend and I don't think that is why you have this high position. I know it must be hard-working for him." I smile and kindly thank her it means a lot that she thinks that.
"The first thing I want you to do when someone comes to see me is offer them a drink." She nods and writes it down on a post-it note and puts it on her desk. I like how organized she is. I looks over at her agenda, which is the most adorable thing I've seen.
"Where did you get that." I ask and she miles.
"It's Kate Spade I don't like designer stuff, but it was so adorable I had to get it."
"Well I'm going to get one of my own." She instantly goes online and shows me what they have. I see hers with the golden polka dots and I decide I'm going to get the one with roses all over it.
"I was going to get that, but they were fresh out so I bought this." She smiles and I teach her how to store the files back up and send appointments. I sign into her e-mail account and teach her how to make contacts. We spend the rest of the day going over policy and I continue to teach her more about the computers here. We hug goodbye at the end of the day and I look over at Lacy who just glares at her.
What the fuck was up with that? Whatever. I step into the car and to my surprise Christian isn't there. He has picked me up everyday, which means somethings wrong or he's up to no good. I ask Sawyer whats up, but he just keeps his mouth shut.
I walk into the apartment and Christian is nowhere to be found I go into his room and peel off my blue and white chevron pattern dress and grege platform pumps. I throw on my C9 by Champion workout clothing and head down to the gym.
I'm on the third day of my seven-day work out plan with Anderson. I've been so tired, but the results are worth it. I have a list of ten exercises three sets of each with twenty reps. I run on the treadmill for ten minutes before my works out then begin the first set or three. Sissy Squats, Lying Leg Curl, Standing Calf Raise, Chest Dip, Push Ups, Dumbbell Pullover, Dumbbell Reverse Flye, Biceps Concentration Curl, Lying Two Arm Dumbbell Triceps Extension and Obliques Curl then repeat them twice. Once I'm done I do another ten minutes on the treadmill and go upstairs. I chug a whole glass of water and head upstairs to the shower. I am in love with this shower the pressure is perfect and the water is always the perfect temperature.
I let the water cascaded around me before I start washing my hair and body. The lavender scent of my body wash is so relaxing after the workout I just had. I step out of the shower half an hour later towel cry my hair and get in the closet to change.
I put on a basic white bra and panty set then put on my Liliana Casanova Concorde camisole and shorts set. Before heading down stairs to eat something. I look in Christian's office first, but he's not there so I decide I'll just eat alone. After the stress of the accident I wasn't eating well for so long i was my way to cope, but now I'm back on track and at my regular weight. I quickly mentioned craving pasta at breakfast thing morning and no doubt Gail has made some for dinner. I grab the bottle of wine from the fridge and pour myself a glass to have with dinner. I ask Gail where Christian is, but she says nothing. What the fuck is that man up to now?
Probably fucking someone else Oh shut up! He wouldn't do that would he? No he wouldn't... I don't think. I'm sure there is a rational explanation for all of this so I try to calm myself down, but I just end up finishing the bottle of wine.
I do into the living room and grab my poems and sketch book and they to do some more sketches for my book. I have two weeks before my next meeting with the new editor so I need to be ready.
She's hurting inside and at night she cries.
Everyone knows what goes on, but
yet she's still come undone
There's anxiety in her eyes
A cut on her wrist
A pain her chest
And says this is it.
Then she thinks just once more.
As her parents walk through the door.
"honey come home it's time for dinner"
They can't tell that she's getting thinner
She covers her arm.
Dolls up her eyes,
Ignored by all dying inside
Because she just smiles.
I do a couple of sketches of a girl sitting int he corner of her room with a razor and monsters surrounding her until I find on that pleases me. It's ten and still no Christian. Fuck waiting for him I'm going to bed. I leave my sketches and poems on the coffee table make myself some tea then go to bed. I don't fall asleep until midnight because I just end up tossing a turning thinking what Christian could be up to. I just home he's alright.
I open my eyes and once again I've woken up in the middle of the night, but something is different. Something is wrong my head is hazy and my eyes feel heavy and I am so dizzy I think I might pass out, but I don't. All of a sudden I fall back onto my pillow and I can't move my body. I want to scream, but I can't. I don't know whats going on, but all of a sudden my head goes back as far as it can and it becomes harder to breathe. I bite down on my tongue and the taste of blood fills my mouth. My body is shaking uncontrollably and every part of my body is tense. My eyes are rolling to the back of my head and shaking. I don't know if it's been minutes or hours, but every time I feel like it's slowing down it starts back up. Finally after what seems like an eternity it stops. I try to get up, but my body is so weak I can't move.
I just scream as loud as I can and in a matter of seconds Gail, Taylor, Luke and Christian fly through the doors. Before I can say anything the feeling is back and I fall of the bed and it starts again. I can hear everyone shouting and screaming, but I can't move or speak to them. I have no control over my body and I am terrified. After a little while I black out or maybe I just tune them out, but when I come to I'm lying on the ground with paramedics surrounding me.
It take a while before I come to and am able to respond to the questions. They say that's normal when I am finally responsive enough.
"What's your name?"
"Anastasia Rose Steele"
"Whats the date?"
"I don't know"Everything is still very hazy.
"Can you tell me who these people are?"
"I'm not sure, but one of them looks like a childhood friend of mine."
"Do you know where you are?"
"Someone's bedroom it looks familiar, but everything is just so blurred right now." They attach some wires and take my blood sugar and decide I need further care at the hospital.I fall asleep on my way to he hospital and when I wake up everything is a lot more clear. Grace meets me at emergency and explains that I've had a seizure most likely due to the accident. I correct her and tell her I think I had two. I'm still waiting to be put in a room when Christian barges through the doors and starts searching for me.
"I'm over here."I scream maybe a little too loud. He rushes to my side and pulls me into a hug.
"I thought you forgot who I was."
"Never Christian! Things were just hazy. Also people after having a seizure can forget years of their lives it doesn't usually last very long."
"You seem better."
"Not really I just want to put your mind at ease."
I know that the seizure was random, but I have epilepsy and I've always wanted to write something about that its like to have a seizure. If you guys could tell me your thoughts that would be fantastic. xxx